You were the one who wanted to separate

Chapter 43

After writing the last sentence, Xiu Qi felt that he had exhausted all his energy. When he closed his eyes, he could even recall Mu Yu's expression full of exhaustion and despair, but he couldn't feel it at that time.At that time, he was just panicked, dazed and desperate, and even a little bit of it was true: Mu Yu couldn't hold on to it in the end, and Mu Yu really liked him only a little bit.

After he had written the story thoroughly, he recalled their whole process from the perspective of a half-involved half-bystander, and he suddenly realized that according to the personalities of the two of them that day, no one could be blamed for their inability to go on, right?Those endless quarrels, those conflicts that cannot find the source, are doomed to their end.Nobody was wrong, they just weren't right at the time.

But is it right now?

Xiu Qi reached out and closed the browser, looking for an anime to change his mind, these few days he was writing the part about breaking up five years ago, and at the same time contacting Mu Yu five years later, the whole person was almost schizophrenic.But he can also see that there is a big difference between Mu Yu now and the silent boy five years ago. He is just like the boyfriend of other people that Xiu Qi envied back then, he is extraordinarily meticulous and considerate Every day as long as I have time, I come to the store, wishing to devote all my energy to Xiu Qi.

Xiu Qi sometimes wonders if he would not feel so insecure if he was with such Mu Yu back then, then the two of them might be able to go further.

However, Xiu Qi couldn't help but smile bitterly when he thought of this, how could there be so many ifs.

The weather is getting cooler, but Mu Yu's work seems to be getting busy. Two days ago, he suddenly called and said that he was going on a business trip. The time is to be determined. He asked Xiu Qi to take care of himself at home by himself, eat on time, go to bed early and get up early .I am used to a life without entanglements, and suddenly there is someone who misses me like this. After I felt unaccustomed at first, Xiu Qi still has a little bit of warmth.

After watching an episode of anime, his stomach cried out in protest. Xiu Qi looked at the time and found that it was time for dinner again. Mu Yu hasn’t moved yet. It seems that he still can’t come back today. He made dinner with his own hands, and he returned to the life of eating takeout in the past two days, but he found it unbearable. Habits are really a terrible thing, and Mu Yu invaded his life little by little. Let him get used to it slowly, and then become dependent.

Xiu Qi sighed, stretched his waist, got up, went to the shelf to find something to eat, and looked back at Jinjiang.It’s been a while since the last chapter update was sent out, and he’s still afraid to read the comments, but he can also imagine the reaction of the readers, most of them would think that this should be a story of two teenagers growing up hand in hand, no matter how bad it is, it should be a reunion Yes, but he did not want to continue when he wrote this story. His original intention of writing this story was to record the past and give an ending to the two teenagers in his memory. Now that he has written it, the teenagers in the story are It's like when he and Mu Yu went from knowing each other to liking each other, being together and then separated.

He is not simply writing a novel, he is writing a piece of reality, and reality is always not very satisfactory.

Xiu Qi wandered around the shelves full of thoughts, but found that he still had no appetite. When he was young, everyone seemed to have a dream of opening a supermarket. There were all kinds of snacks and drinks that he couldn’t finish. .But when you really realize it, you will find that you have passed the age where you want to eat everything.What you get is never proportional to what you want.

Turning around, he finally returned to the cashier with a bucket of instant noodles, hesitated for a while, and thought of Mu Yu's request before the business trip, and added two more sausages for himself.

While boiling the water, he opened Jinjiang's backstage, and as expected, he saw howls in the comment area. Many people couldn't believe that the two people broke up like this. They cried bitterly, and those who felt sorry for Xiuqi, helped Muyu. Those who talk, those who urge to update, and those who don't say anything just cry.

Xiu Qi flipped through the comments, but didn't know what to say to the readers. Should he tell them that in fact, the two protagonists are separated, and he is the one who suffers the most?Forget about this unnecessary hypocrisy.

The hot water finally boiled, poured on the noodles, and with the aroma of seasonings, Xiu Qi actually aroused such a small appetite, he sniffed, biting his fork and waiting for the meal, when the front door suddenly opened Being pushed away, Xiu Qi reluctantly looked away from the instant noodles and looked at Mu Yu standing at the door.

"Why are you eating instant noodles again?"

"What's wrong with your face?"

The two of them spoke almost at the same time, and then Xiu Qi put down the fork in his hand with some guilt, and scratched his hair: "Ah, I've finished my lunch, and now I'm a bit bored, so I'll eat instant noodles." After explaining, he looked at Mu Yu again , "What happened to your face?"

Mu Yu touched the bruise on his forehead subconsciously. He thought it was not so obvious, but Xiu Qi saw it at a glance, and explained: "I accidentally hit it when I went out."

Xiu Qi lowered his head, buttoned the lid of the instant noodle bucket casually, and replied flatly: "If you think I'm a fool, turn around and go out now, I don't bother to ask."

Mu Yu was stunned for two seconds, looked at Xiu Qi blankly, seemed to remember something, and finally said: "I'm going home, I'm going to come out."

Xiu Qi broke the fork in his hand with a "snap", raised his head and stared at Mu Yu: "Are you coming out?"

"Actually, I originally wanted to take you home directly, but after thinking about it, it's better for me to settle the family first and then take you there. After all, my parents are not as open-minded as yours." Mu Yu put down the bag in his hand , reached out to take away the noodle bowl in front of Xiu Qi, "Wait a little longer, I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you, it will be ready soon." After speaking, he turned and walked towards the kitchen.

"Mu Yu." Xiu Qi stood where he was and didn't know whether to save his instant noodles first or comment on the coming out, he also hesitated for two seconds before saying, "You don't have to do this."

"Actually, I should have been like this five years ago." Mu Yu whispered, "It's just that we were too young at that time, and I was afraid that I couldn't bear the consequences. Now I can bear it, and I hope it will be in time."

Xiu Qi stood where he was, staring blankly at his busy back as he walked into the kitchen, hesitated for a few seconds, then suddenly got up and went upstairs.

After Mu Yu cooked the noodles, he saw Xiu Qi standing in front of the French window with his back facing him. When he heard footsteps, he looked back at Mu Yu: "Put down the noodle bowl, the wound on your forehead needs some medicine."

Mu Yu put down the bowl, went to the chair in front of Xiu Qi and sat down, Xiu Qi opened the medicine box and cleaned his wound slowly.Mu Yu raised his head halfway. Looking at it from this angle, Xiu Qi's facial features still look extraordinarily delicate and beautiful, just like the past few years, the years have not left any marks on his body at all.

Xiu Qi lowered his head and met the burning gaze of this man, he opened his eyes slightly, applied the medicine on the wound, and heaved a sigh of relief: "Okay, let's eat."

Mu Yu suddenly reached out and grabbed Xiu Qi's hand to tidy up the medicine box: "When my parents pass this test, we two can stay together."

Xiu Qi's eyelashes trembled, he felt the scorching heat of the man's palm, as if he was about to be scalded, he lowered his head to meet Mu Yu's gaze again, and shook his head gently: "Mu Yu, aren't you afraid?" ?”

"Afraid of what?" Mu Yu raised his eyebrows in surprise.

"I'm afraid this time, the two of us will still end up like that." Xiu Qi turned his gaze away, "I don't blame you for what happened back then, after all, it wasn't because of you alone. But have you ever thought about it? Maybe it is doomed that the two of us are not suitable to be together at all."

"How old were we two at that time? How do you know that the two of us are not suitable to be together after five years?" Mu Yu shook his head, "Why don't you just take it for a while, no matter who you are with, you must always muster up the courage to take a step forward. This step, if you don’t try, how will you know if you can make it to the end this time?”

Xiu Qi's other hand clenched and then let go, finally he sighed lowly: "Let's eat first, the noodles are getting cold."

The hand in the palm was pulled out little by little, Mu Yu's eyes were disappointed, but he still smiled: "Okay, let's eat first."

Seeing that Mu Yu didn't intend to bring it up any further, Xiu Qi breathed a sigh of relief quietly, got up and went to get a drink from the refrigerator, before he could turn around, he heard Mu Yu suddenly say behind him: "Actually, I went back to find you back then. .”

Xiu Qi's body stiffened suddenly, his hands were still pressed against the refrigerator door, and he was chilled by the cold air inside, after a long time he smiled lightly: "So?" He turned around and walked through most of the room Looking into Mu Yu's eyes, "Why did you tell me this?"

There was a wry smile on the corner of Mu Yu's mouth: "I just want to tell you that you were not the only one who suffered after the breakup." He sat back in the chair, holding the chopsticks in his hand, and continued, "Although speaking now It’s very hypocritical, but I was really uncomfortable back then, even if I proposed to break up. All the futures I thought about were related to you. When I realized that I really lost you, suddenly I can't find the point of moving forward."

He raised his hand to cover his eyes, and said softly: "I thought about turning back more than once, but I didn't have the courage. I know you at that time... If I really turn back, you will forgive me regardless, But I still can't guarantee that I can give you a future. So I struggled repeatedly, and I was in pain. Then one day I mustered up the courage to go to your school, your dormitory, and I thought that even if it was just for me to meet you, it might be God You're punishing me, you don't live there anymore."

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