You were the one who wanted to separate

Chapter 44

Xiu Qi leaned against the freezer and kept his head down looking at the ground. He raised his head and glanced at Mu Yu after hearing all that Mu Yu had said. It was rare for Mu Yu to do this, and the slightly red eye circles made him a little sad. He took a deep breath, turned back and took two cans of drinks out of the freezer, lowered his eyebrows and said, "I'm hungry, I want to eat first."

Mu Yu turned his head to the side and stretched out his hand to gently wipe the corners of his eyes, then turned around and adjusted his mood: "Let's eat."

Mu Yu's cooking skills are still very suitable for Xiu Qi's taste, even this simple bowl of noodles is much more delicious than the bucket of instant noodles he just made.The meal was very quiet, Mu Yu was always reticent, but Xiu Qi didn't know what to say to such Mu Yu, the two finished their bowls of noodles, Xiu Qi stopped Mu Yu who was about to get up, Stand up and clean up the dishes.Mu Yu didn't sit on the chair with peace of mind, he followed Xiu Qi all the way into the kitchen, and leaned aside to watch Xiu Qi wash the dishes.

The sound of rushing water was the only sound in the kitchen, and the two sat and did what they wanted to do without disturbing each other.After finishing the last bowl, Xiu Qi reached out and turned off the faucet. He lowered his head and stared at the dripping bowl in his hand, and suddenly said, "I need a little time."

"Huh?" Mu Yu was staring at Xiu Qi in a daze.

Xiu Qi turned his head to meet Mu Yu's eyes, and said, "I need time to think about it." He pointed to Mu Yu and then to himself, "It's easy to be together, but I don't want to fail again. I have a relationship. I need to determine whether I can let go of the past, and I also need to determine whether I can manage this relationship with you this time."

Mu Yu stared at Xiu Qi, and after a while, he nodded: "This is better."

Xiu Qi hooked the corners of his lips, shook off the water on his hand, and glanced at Mu Yu's forehead: "You came directly to my place when you came back, right? The injury on your head still needs to be recuperated, go back and rest early. "

Mu Yu didn't say any more this time, but just nodded: "Then I'll go back first, let me know what you want to eat tomorrow."

"it is good."

Xiu Qi watched Mu Yu leave the supermarket through the shelves and walk into the vast night.He stood by the window staring at the empty parking space and the dim streetlights for a while, then suddenly took out his phone and took a photo, thought about it, and posted a Weibo with a face-covering expression on the photo .

As soon as the front foot Weibo was sent, a comment popped up on the back foot:

"Ah ah ah ah ah! Daddy, you still have the face to post on Weibo! Why are you willing to abuse me Xiu Xiaoqi, he is obviously hot and cute! Hurry up and write! Let Muyu apologize to me and quickly coax me, Xiu Xiaoqi, Then come another hundred chapters, Tiantiantian, to make up for my wounded heart like Xiu Xiaoqi!"

Xiu Qi clicked on the reply on his mobile phone, and just typed: "They are really separated." Before he could send out the computer, there was a notification that he had received a new comment, and he subconsciously poked it open to take a look. Xiuqi the little cute Muyu", he replied: "Yes, yes, Muyu will coax Xiu Xiaoqi well."

Xiu Qi read this reply for a few seconds, then looked back at the line on his phone, shook his head with a smile, and quit Weibo.

As the night was getting cooler, Xiu Qi moved the rocking chair to the door of the store, leaned on the rocking chair and stared outside in a daze, there was a loud noise from the open space not far away, it was the aunts in the community dancing in the square, and there were [-] to [-]% people scattered around. Groups of children playing, young lovers walking together, life in a small city is always very leisurely, everyone is trying to enjoy their own life.That's why he wanted to come back here in the first place.Although he is a dead house, he is too lazy to touch and go out, but in fact he likes the excitement very contradictoryly, he likes to see this kind of scene full of life.

Probably because he is actually afraid of being alone, and that's why he was with Zhu Lei in the first place.

He watched the square dance for a while, and for some reason, he remembered the dancing villagers he saw at the entrance of the village when he went back to his hometown with Mu Yu last time, and he remembered walking with him after dinner and watching him play on the court.If life can always be as simple as that, in fact, it doesn't matter if we are together.

Xiu Qi sat outside for a long time, then suddenly got up and went inside to get a few cans of beer for himself, knocked off a lid with one hand, and dialed a phone number with the other.

Youyou's voice quickly rang on the other end of the phone. During this period of time, Youyou seemed to be very busy with work, and the two of them only chatted on WeChat once in a while, but at this time of heart-to-heart talk, what Xiu Qi could think of was, There is only Youyou.

You You's voice was lazy: "What's the matter, I just put on a mask, so it's best to make a long story short."

"I'm afraid it won't be short, Sister You, let's have a heart-to-heart talk." Xiu Qi said softly.He hasn't had many friends for so many years, but he has never lost contact with You You. You You is the girl who sat in front of him and Jiang Yuan after the sophomore class in his novel and didn't mention her name.At that time, he and Jiang Yuan were not very active in the class, but because of You You's simple and direct personality, they had more contacts, especially after the basketball game incident, You You still stood by Jiang Yuan's side, which made the three Personal friendships have also deepened, and have lasted for so many years.You You was the first among the people around to know about Xiu Qi's sexuality.

"It's okay to have a heart-to-heart talk, but as a confidant big sister, my charges are definitely not cheap. You spend moderately according to your economic level." You You said slowly, "Tell me, what's the matter, for the sake of friendship for so many years I can consider giving you a discount."

"Mu Yu asked me to reconcile." Xiu Qi leaned back in the chair, drank beer slowly, looked up and saw the stars twinkling above his head.

"Oh, what should I think?" You You smiled, and then asked calmly, "Then do you still like him?"

There was a long silence on the phone, so long that You You almost wondered if her mask was dry, and she heard Xiu Qi whisper: "Although I don't want to admit it, I can't help but like it, right?"

You You sighed imperceptibly: "Then why do you hesitate?" Unexpectedly, this sentence did not get a response, You You thought for a while and continued: "I ask you, if that person It's not Mu Yu, but a new person you know, he confessed to you, and you happen to like him too, would you still be so hesitant?"

Xiu Qi was silent for a while, and then said: "But he is Mu Yu after all, I was with him before, and then separated because it was inappropriate, isn't it really a repeat of the same mistakes if we try again?"

"You have been separated for five years, and five years is enough time for one person to grow into another." You You took off the mask on his face, and his voice became clear, "Just treat this as a new beginning, actually No matter who you are with, it's an adventure." After a pause, she smiled, "Don't say it's you, isn't it an adventure for anyone to fall in love? Whoever dares to pat his chest and promises that he will be able to be with this How do people go to the end? Since it’s all an adventure, it’s rare to like it, so why not give yourself a chance.”

Xiu Qi finished drinking a can of beer, squeezed the can in his hand little by little, reached out to touch another can of beer, and closed his eyes slightly when he heard You You's words: "I'm just afraid of such a heart-piercing Separate and do it again."

"If the two of you are together, the worst result is separation. At most, you will return to your current life. In fact, there is no loss. It may be a little uncomfortable at the end, but in fact, you also enjoyed the sweetness and bitterness of being together. Life is full of flavors, it's better than you living alone now." The sound of running water came from You You's side, slightly covering her voice, "Anyway, from my point of view, Mu Yu at least knows the basics, it's better than you. Met that pig from your ex... Zhu what kind of scum."

Xiu Qi raised his head and drank another big gulp of beer. The liquid just taken out of the refrigerator was still cold, and slowly slipped down his throat, making him shiver unconsciously. After a while, he said to the phone :"okay, I get it."

You You smiled on the phone: "Actually, you already have plans. You called me just to hope that someone would encourage you, and you know that I actually have a good impression of Mu Yu."

Xiu Qi smiled, but did not answer.You You said softly: "Sometimes I think, if Xiu Qi is a teenager, even if he knows the end of himself and Mu Yu, he will still rush forward without hesitation. In life, it is rare to have the opportunity to follow oneself Let your heart walk again."

Xiu Qi clenched the phone in his hand, and responded softly: "En."

"Then I'll wait for you to invite me to dinner." Before hanging up the phone, You You couldn't help but said, "I think this time, God can't bear you to fall down again."

After hanging up the phone, Xiu Qi shrank himself into the rocking chair, his skin was chilled by the night wind, he wanted to go in to get a coat but was too lazy to get up, his mind was full of You You's words, and this paragraph Little by little after reuniting with Mu Yu, maybe You You is right, he has already made plans, and his balance has been tilted to Mu Yu's side little by little, otherwise he would not indulge that person Bit by bit it erodes your own life.It's just that now he is no longer fearless after all, and he no longer has the courage to rush forward even if his head is bloody, so he called You You, hoping that she would encourage him, and hope that she could give the balance that had been tilted a long time ago and come back again. Just a little bit of confidence.

Xiu Qi slowly closed his eyes, took a deep breath, then try again, for the last time, give Mu Yu a chance, and give himself a chance, and more importantly, give them that regretful ending Youth is a chance to come back.

He opened his eyes, slid open the phone lock, and found the person's name in WeChat. He remembered the classic line in the movie "Happy Together", and typed it out word by word: Why don't we start from scratch? .

The author has something to say: In fact, Xiu Qi still has knots and fears in his heart. He is thinking of going as far as he can go, and intends to give himself a chance.As for whether these knots can be completely eliminated in the future, it depends on Mu Yu.