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Chapter 17 Gender Boundaries

When they were parting after dinner, Qin Anpei accepted a letter from Zhang Yang, and then parted ways.

When Qin Anpei saw that Zhang Yang was walking in the opposite direction instead of turning in the direction of her house, he asked the latter, and the latter said he was going shopping, so Qin Anpei went back.

On the way, she trotted all the way according to her excited heart.After returning home, she couldn't wait to open the letter, with mixed emotions in her heart.

They want to part, Zhang Yang said "goodbye" in the letter, let her try to do what she said after she left, and become the person she likes.

It can't be said that the sadness of parting is the most, or the joy of receiving a letter from the person you have a crush on.But she is very clear, and her heart is warm.

I don't know if it's because of her mood, she worked hard to code until 08:30 in the morning, coded [-] words, updated "Crossroads", and wrote "Success Diary".On a whim, I signed up for one month of posture and language courses, hoping to show a proud smile on Zhang Yang's face when we meet tomorrow, and also want Zhang Yang to meet the excellent Qin Anpei when he comes again.

The person she likes is constantly moving forward, and of course she has to work hard to keep up with her footsteps.

She went to bed early, but today was different from the past, she fell asleep very quickly, and fell asleep at ten o'clock.

Going to bed early is not always good, she does wake up early, but wakes up at 01:30.

Thinking that Zhang Yang was about to leave, she put on her clothes, took out the love letter under the computer, and suddenly got hot, put on her coat and ran towards Zhang Yang's house.

Standing excitedly at the door of Zhang Yang's house, he raised his hand a little excitedly, not daring to knock on the door.When she turned on her mobile phone and was about to send a message to Zhang Yang, she accidentally saw the time, afraid of disturbing her rest, and slowly lowered her hand that was raised in the air.

She saw a shopping bag nearby, put it on the ground, sat on it, took off her coat to cover her body, and fell asleep against the wall.

With a sweet smile on her face, she looked forward to Zhang Yang's appearance and fell asleep with happiness.

She was confused, she didn't know whether she was dreaming or waking up, and she didn't know whether Zhang Yang really opened the door.

In the dream, Zhang Yang walked out of the room, covered her with clothes more tightly, walked up to her, took the letter in her hand, read it, left a kiss on her face, and said to her: "Little Current, I It’s not about loving yourself, loving yourself as much as you love me.”

She opened her eyes in a daze, the clothes had slipped down to her belly, she hurriedly searched for the letter, and found that it was still in her hand, her face had already been blown cold by the wind, and then recalled the kiss Zhang Yang left on her face in her dream, Even more sure, I firmly believe that this is a dream.

She stood up supporting herself, and moved her body in frustration, but found a letter on the ground, which was obviously not written by her.

She picked it up, opened the envelope, and found a note inside.

There were two paragraphs written on the sticky note, with a blank line between the paragraphs.

The first paragraph is: I respect your choice and admire your courage, but it is a pity that I am not your flower and cannot be your fragrance in your spring.

You wrote in your letter: I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I don't get close to you and stick to you, I will disappear in your heart like a star in the daytime.

But if you think about it, is it really love that makes a compromise?If I accept you, who should I take you for?What about you, what kind of person should I be?Do you regard me as a superior master, or a lover who respects me as a guest?

Always love yourself first, then others.No one can be with you forever in life, only you are the star hidden in the sugar cross bowl.A star doesn't need candy and chocolate, it shines by itself, for itself.do you understand me?

The second paragraph is: You are still young, do not have a complete outlook on life, values ​​and love, a healthy mentality and a mature personality are not well established, and you cannot make wise and responsible decisions.

Years later, you may regret your current choice, and your regret at that time will affect the family of the two.

In all love affairs, I hope you will not put yourself in a humble and submissive position, no matter how much you like the other person.

I didn't take away your right to choose, but my decision can at least protect you.

My sister has a cleanliness habit, so it's impossible to kiss others, not to mention how could she kiss someone she doesn't like?

Thinking of this, she was very sure that she had a dream, an unreal dream.

She remembered a passage she wrote in the letter: I am ordinary-looking, have no dreams, and have no plans for the future. The only remaining steadfastness is because of you... If I say I like you like this, you probably won't accept it.I know in my heart that no one likes such a person...

"There is too much distance between us...age, gender, identity, personality..." she muttered to herself, "Sister...you are walking too fast...I can't keep up with you..."

When Qin Anpei read the letter Zhang Yang sent her yesterday, she only noticed the word "goodbye". Looking back now, she didn't know whether the "goodbye" in the letter meant seeing each other again or seeing each other again.

"All partings are untimely encounters."

She wrote so in the article, but now she is the one who can't let go.

She didn't dare to knock on the door, but took out her mobile phone from her pocket and checked the time. It was past eight o'clock.She didn't know she was gone until she saw Zhang Yang's message.

So whether she knocked or not, there was no result.

- but my choice is sister you

When you were young, you said that you were waiting for me, didn't you count?

Qin Anpei was crying, she wiped away the tears on her phone, typed and sent.

A red exclamation mark appears before the message, followed by a message that failed to send.She was terrified, thinking that Zhang Yang had deleted her.So when she found out that there was no internet, the heart in her throat slowly dropped.She turned on the stream, copied and resent it.

Another red exclamation point, this time it means that the person is no longer your friend.

Qin Anpei's heart skipped a beat, the phone fell to the ground, and the screen shattered when he picked it up.

She looked at the cracked screen in her hand, as if thinking of her relationship with Zhang Yang, broken mirrors are hard to reunite, and that's how they are.

A message popped up on her mobile phone. With a glimmer of hope, she quickly clicked in, only to find that it was a link for the high school entrance examination score sent by the head teacher.

She sat slumped on the ground, apart from her restless heart, there was nothing left but endless despair.Click the link to fill in the information, click the "View" button at the bottom, and give up all hope as if resigned to fate.

The phone page kept going in circles, and after waiting for an unknown amount of time, the results came out, which happened to be on par with the admission scores of the last high school he wanted.

Her sense of loss faded away, and her surprise and joy were beyond words.

She was amazed and thought: the days and nights of the third year of junior high school are worth it.

After returning home, I wanted to code, but found that I couldn't concentrate, so I turned off the computer, lay down on the table, and took a short rest.

At this moment, she received a message from the teacher in charge that she had sent the admission list. Qin Anpei flipped through the pages, but did not see her name at the end of the page.

She looked from the back to the front again, but still didn't see her name.Many students who ranked behind her were on the list this time.

She asked the class teacher, who said that the admission score was enough, but a champion from another province wanted to transfer to another school, and the ranking was pushed back one place, just to her place, so she was dismissed.

The joy just now vanished in an instant, and a bucket of cold water was poured on her.It is thousands of times more painful than not passing the exam is that instinctively passing the exam.

She wanted to scold that person very much, but she didn't have any reason to scold him. It was because she didn't study hard, so she had to give up and feel sad secretly.

She played in the first and second grades of junior high school, but she never relaxed in the third year of junior high school.She is studying when others are playing, and she is coding when others are resting. Basically, she only sleeps four hours a day.

Perhaps compared to others, her advantage is that she can not do homework.In the past two years, she only focused on coding, and basically did not do homework, and the teacher didn't bother to care about it.So in the third grade of junior high school, she didn't do meaningless homework and focused on reviewing the content she didn't know. Even if she did it, she wouldn't hand it in.

She was lying on her side, nearly half of the pillow was wet with tears, and after a while, she fell asleep with tears in her eyes.

She woke up again at ten o'clock, looked at a lot of news in the class group, clicked on it, but found that she had missed the admission time for the vocational high school.

She originally wanted to forget those troubles by going to sleep, but when she woke up and saw the news, she found that her mood was even worse.

Wanting to drink away his worries, but afraid of being in danger again, he took the self-defense flashlight he bought last time and went downstairs to buy wine.

In the small shop downstairs, the dim lights flickered on and off. The boss lit a candle familiarly and complained that the light was broken again.

She turned around with ease, walked towards the dark inner floor, and bent down at a familiar place to fill up the box of wine, but she didn't expect that there was a person behind her, and that person was still moving forward.Seeing that something was wrong, Qin Anpei put down the box and moved over to the side. The man looked at her, pretending he didn't find anything, raised his head, and took a big step towards her. Whether intentionally or not, his body and Qin An Pei contact.

With the previous experience, Qin Anpei didn't stay too long, turned around and walked towards the counter.

But found the shopkeeper outside, and said to the inside: "I'm going out to buy some food, you pick it first."

"Aren't you afraid of us stealing things? Why don't you stay!" Qin Anpei said quickly.

"It's okay, they are all old customers of the same community, and there is monitoring, right?"

After speaking, he walked away.

She didn't expect that person to follow her, and when she heard this, she was even more unscrupulous and hurried over.

The decoration of the store is very inhuman, and people who have never been here will suspect that they are walking in a maze.

Plus the lights weren't very bright, and even though she was already running, she couldn't get to the counter.

The man behind had already caught up. He deliberately ran in front of her, then pretended to fall backwards inadvertently, and brought Qin Anpei down with him. Now Qin Anpei couldn't run away.

The man lay on Qin Anpei's body, without any intention of getting up, but kept rubbing against her body.

Qin Anpei tried his best to take out the self-defense flashlight from his bag, held it tightly in his hand, and moved it to the side bit by bit.

Now she can't use it at this time, there is contact between them, if she uses it rashly, she will also get an electric shock.

She couldn't push him, and she was afraid that he would do some extreme things.What's more, with him on the top, it is more convenient to get up, and running away at this time will not do her any good.She is a woman, it is impossible to suppress him in strength.

The protective weapon she was wearing couldn't be used, so she could only pretend to be obedient: "Little brother, I wanted to add you on WeChat just now, can you add me? How about we have a meal together?"

The man moved a bit, Qin Anpei sat up and kept a distance from him as much as possible. He had already touched the position of the flashlight in his hand, and moved back by pulling his hair. The story of a friend's abandonment made the man relax his vigilance, and then he knelt down on one knee, claiming to imitate his boyfriend's movements, quickly pressed the button, turned and ran away.

The man stood up again and chased after him. Seeing that Qin Anpei was about to be caught up, a man with long hair and waist and wearing a flowing light pink dress ran over, grabbed the skirt, and kicked the following man to the ground. on the ground.He asked Qin Anpei to run into the porter's room, while he strode behind to protect her.

Qin Anpei tried his best to restrain his trembling hands, and thanked the person in front of him: "Thank you, miss. Why don't you add your contact information, and I'll treat you to dinner tomorrow."

The man turned his face sideways, fiddled with his messy hair, crossed his legs, and leaned against the bed board to play with his mobile phone.The man glanced back at her, as if answering her words.Then he rushed to the door and looked up, motioning for her to leave.

"Thank you, miss, thank you very much." Qin Anpei thanked again.

"Wait," the man frowned, and stopped Qin Anpei, "Not all those who wear skirts and wear long hair and makeup are women."

Qin Anpei froze on the spot, staring wide-eyed, with disbelief in his eyes, and an incredulous expression on his face.

But the tall and thin man in front of him, the voice he said was indeed majestic and majestic; Pure manliness.

It's not that she doesn't accept men wearing skirts, it's just that she is puzzled by what this man has done.

In her cognition, men have always only used their superior power to oppress women and be the superior party.How can it be possible to protect women?

But now his words made her deeply suspicious.

The man ignored her doubts, asked her what she wanted to buy, and said to help her buy it.Qin Anpei blocked the door and quickly shook his head, telling him not to go.

The man took off his skirt without even thinking about it. There was a pair of black pants under the skirt, but his upper body was bare/exposed.

Qin Anpei didn't expect that he would take off his/clothes/clothes, and before he could turn his head, he saw everything.Now she was sure that the man was really a man.

He put on a black vest, got off the bed, walked over to her and said, "What to buy? I'll go, wait."

"A case of wine. Thank you little...thank you."

Qin Anpei stopped talking quickly, but didn't know what to call him, so he swallowed the title and just said thank you.

The man really went out.He came back after a while, put the wine on the ground after entering the door, patted the ashes on his hands, and continued to lie down.

After playing with the phone for a while, he glanced at the door and saw that Qin Anpei was still there. He took a cigarette from the box next to him and lit it, and said to her, "Aren't you going? Are you going to keep it overnight?"

"you……"

Qin Anpei shook her head repeatedly, gritted her teeth but did not dare to ask the question she wanted to ask.

The man took a puff of cigarette, then blew it out again: "Remember, a pure man is still a pure man even if he has long hair and wears a skirt and heavy makeup. Style and inner appearance are two different things. It is not uncommon for a man to wear a suit and leather shoes. It doesn’t have to be a suit and tie.”

"No, I want to ask, why did you help me?"