【Leian】Love at first sight

Chapter 14 14

I understand all the principles, but my emotions are difficult to control.Right now, this sentence is obviously very appropriate to An Mixiu's mood.He understands Kelly's kindness, and also knows that it is very stupid to decide such a major life-changing event for others, but as long as he imagines a little - imagining that there will be no traces of Lei Shi in the days after that, An Mixiu will feel so painful Can't help myself.

In fact, he is a little unbelievable, for the feelings that have grown like weeds without knowing when.An Mixiu originally thought that he could restrain, restrain, restrain again, and ruthlessly reined in his heart when he was about to fall off the cliff.Never thought that losing Lei Shi was more unbearable than he thought, so that he bred absurd courage through the impulse of youth, wishing to cut off all the thorns that blocked him.

But these An Mixiu didn't show it, he knew that some words and actions were not understandable by anyone after all.He can still nod happily after being taught by Kelly for 10 minutes, but as for how much he listened to, only he can know.

An Mixiu feels that he is not a person who admits defeat. The more insurmountable a mountain is, the more he has to bravely climb the rock.He took advantage of Lei Shi's time to go to the toilet between classes to wander to the other party's desk, and from the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of the word "Li" flying around on the crumpled white paper.Another whole afternoon was spent, the rare and good students wandered off in class, and their minds were full of villains representing arts and sciences each holding a sword and fighting each other.In the end, he held the piece of paper on which he chose science, struggled over and over again, and folded it up and put it in his schoolbag.

In order to allow the students to discuss with their parents such a major matter as the division of arts and sciences, the head teacher specially delayed the collection of volunteer forms for two or three days.An Mixiu didn't put the volunteer list in the monitor's arms after school that day like Lei Shi did.He may have made a decision, that willful decision; but An Mixiu still has the last hurdle to overcome, he can't do things without the support of his parents.

This day happened to be the Lantern Festival, and as soon as An Mixiu came home, she saw An's mother standing in front of the stove and starting to cook the Lantern Festival.He was so uncommonly nervous that he didn't dare to talk about it directly at the dinner table, so he could only take advantage of the time between cooking and walk slowly to his mother's side.

"Mom." An Mixiu looked at the boiling water in the pot, and the snow-white dumplings gurgling up and down, just like his heart at the moment, struggling to escape from the hot secret love. "Today the teacher talked about the division of arts and sciences."

"I just said it when school started. I thought it would be a few days." Mother An slowly stirred the dumplings in the pot with a long-handled spoon to prevent them from sticking to the bottom. She was in a good mood at the moment and didn't pay much attention to her son's tone There was something wrong, and he still smiled and said: "I remember when you were in the first year of high school, you said you wanted to study literature, and you also said that there were many girls studying literature. Do you still dream of being a knight?"

It was obviously a brisk tone of teasing, but An Mixiu didn't even have the strength to laugh.He has been a good boy for so many years, and his parents never bothered him.Perhaps learning literature theory is not a difficult task in the eyes of some people, but for An Mixiu, it is the first time that he has gone against the wishes of his parents and acted on his own will.

He lowered his head, grabbed his palm suddenly, and finally opened his mouth with difficulty: "Mom, I want to learn."

His voice was soft, but it was sonorous and powerful in the not-so-noisy kitchen.For a moment, the spoon stirring the Yuanxiao stopped moving, leaving only the sound of the food tumbling in the boiling water.But soon the sound of stirring sounded again, and the voice of Mama An above his head was still soft and gentle, without the anger and disappointment that An Mixiu had expected, but mixed with a little worry lingering in his ears.

"Did something happen?" his mother asked.

At that moment, just for a moment, An Mixiu suddenly had an urge to confide his heart to his mother.He wanted to tell her that he liked a guy, and had probably unconsciously liked a long time ago.The boy's name is Lei Shi, he is the handsome guy next door, the one we had dinner with during the Spring Festival.Lei Shi wants to learn theories, so he also wants to choose theories. Maybe this is the wrong way, but he wants to try it anyway.Even if you make a mistake, you can turn back, and even if you fail, you can try again.He is only 15 years old, can he fight for this immature love once?Can you be self-willed once for this love that may be hopeless?

But when this moment passed, An Mixiu quickly collected his thoughts, and slowly let go of his clenched hands.

He thought how lucky he was to have such a mother, such a family.She cared about him, cared for him, loved him and raised him.On the other hand, as a son, An Mixiu didn't want to disappoint her either.His parents weren't ready, his family wasn't ready, so until then, he was willing to hold his tongue.

"No." An Mixiu smiled, "I just want to learn, and Kelly and the others are all academic, I don't really want to be separated from my friends."

"Why do I feel like you are going to chase some little girl?" Mother An also laughed, she turned off the stove, took out a few Lantern Festivals and put them in a white porcelain bowl, "It's not impossible for you to choose, but the grades You can’t pull it down. Come, try it first, it’s your favorite bean paste stuffing.”

An Mixiu quickly took it, scooped one up with a spoon, and took a bite after blowing on it.

"So it's really not chasing little girls?"

"Mom, it's really not..."

"Okay, okay. How about it, sweet or not?"

"sweet!"

An Mixiu handed in the volunteer form the next day.He originally thought that he could hold on for a while, but he didn't expect that the little witch was so skilled that he had recruited himself to choose the truth before lunch.Kelly was so angry that she jumped up and wanted to curse, but seeing An Mixiu's cowardly behavior like a child who did something wrong, the words turned into a long sigh when they reached her lips.

"Fool An Mixiu—!"

The homeroom teacher has always attached great importance to the students' choice of arts and sciences. After receiving An Mixiu's application form, he talked to him again and again, euphemistically expressing the idea that "you have a better future in choosing essays".But An Mixiu insisted on choosing the reason, and promised again and again that he would learn better than liberal arts. Seeing that he was so persistent, the teacher had no choice but to give up and let him go.

The class meeting on the day when all the volunteer forms were collected, the class was still noisy.Although it is said that who will study literature and who will study science in class [-] of the second year of high school, due to various psychological reasons, the school did not announce the students' wishes.The head teacher said a series of precautions after choosing the arts and sciences on the stage, and An Mixiu listened absent-mindedly while spinning his pen below.After a while, he suddenly felt a scorching gaze, and when he turned around, he saw Lei Shi staring at him with his chin propped up.

Speaking of coming back from the winter vacation, the two of them seemed to have lost touch with each other again, which is also the reason why An Mixiu was more or less determined to choose a reason.Lei Shi's mother said earlier that she would supervise Lei Shi to go home from school. She insisted on it for a few weeks, and finally forgot it like the notebook that recorded Lei Shi's daily life when she was a child. It's just that it's better now, and there are no more fights.As for the agreement to play DOTA together, thinking of Leishi's pissing nature, even An Mixiu himself didn't take it to heart, unless the fourth class died and waited for no one to come, otherwise it would never be his turn to An Mixiu.

At this moment, Lei Shi was looking at him.No, it seems to be watching but not like watching.His gaze was erratic, and An Mixiu was so nervous that he sat upright with his neck stretched out, and he didn't relax until Lei Shi slowly looked away.

A matter of concern was settled, and An Mixiu was finally able to calm down and continue to step on his bicycle on the long road of time in an orderly manner.It's not too busy just after school starts, maybe the lingering aftermath of the winter vacation is still there, and on weekends Kelly invites a few people to go to Haidilao for a meal.This time, Zi Tang and Jin were called, and the five of them sat around the steaming hot pot. An Mixiu also forgot the bitterness of secret love for a while, and devoted himself to the nourishment of friendship.

After a satisfying hot pot meal, the next step is never-ending learning.Maybe many years later, when people think back to their high school days, they will always be full of nostalgia and embarrassment, but it has to be admitted that no one will want to experience the pain of swimming in the boundless sea of ​​questions again.

Just when An Mixiu thought that the years would be quiet, and the timeline was pulled directly to the second year of high school, when the middle school was approaching, a big or small thing happened suddenly in the school.

Someone has changed schools.It's certainly not a big deal, but if you add the premise of a transfer parent going to the principal's office on top of that, it's headline news.

An Mixiu just went to the office to deliver homework early in the morning, and before reaching the door of the classroom, he heard the noisy noise in the class.As soon as he entered the door, Kelly, who has been on the front line of gossip all year round, took him to his seat.An Mixiu subconsciously glanced at Leishi's seat, just wanting to marvel at how this person could still fall asleep in such a noisy environment, the next second, he was so startled by Kelly's name that he almost jumped out of the chair fall down.

"I heard that the one who is going to transfer is Senior Lena, who is in the third year of high school!"

"Ah?!" An Mixiu almost yelled, and quickly covered his mouth when he touched it, staring at Kelly with rounded eyes, "Senior Lena is changing schools at this time?"

"Yeah, it's strange to change schools suddenly when I was preparing to sprint for the college entrance examination in the third year of high school!" Kelly blinked, her face full of excitement, "And I heard that the parents came to the principal's office early in the morning and called our grade One of my students... Who is it called, why can't I remember."

"Ghost, ghost fox Tianchong?" Before An Mixiu finished speaking, he knew it after seeing Kelly's affirmative expression.

After that, Kelly said something, and the surroundings were also talking, and the chatter made him flustered.Apart from the discovery of the deformed love between the two, An Mixiu couldn't find any reason why Lena's parents made a fuss in the principal's office and took their daughter to another school.He didn't know what was going on with Ghost Fox at the moment, but he was simply worried that the truth would not come out until after school in the afternoon, presumably the school had taken measures to keep it secret, anyway it was lucky that the reputation was still there.

However, as soon as this idea appeared in his mind, An Mixiu shuddered for no reason.Obviously Ghost Fox and Lena did nothing wrong, and the love between them didn't get in the way of others, but right now——An Mixiu can't remember how many times he heard the two people in the hallway, toilet, and classroom. The name, accompanied by the innocent and cruel smiles on the faces of fifteen or sixteen-year-olds, maybe they don't know it, but they are still speculating and malicious about these two people without authorization.The spread of rumors is always extremely fast, coupled with the distortion after word of mouth, the truth is not important, but the most chilling fact is to use these two people as talking points.

For the first time, An Mixiu really understood the meaning behind Ghost Fox's original words.

Lena's transfer process was extremely fast. The matter was exposed today, and a name was missing from the roster of a certain class in the third year of high school the next day.The school did not give a specific explanation, as if the loud yelling from the principal's room that morning was just an auditory hallucination, and time was allowed to cover it up.But once Lena leaves, Ghost Fox has to stay put to deal with trouble.Of course, there is no blatant campus bullying in City No. [-] Middle School, but in the final analysis, it is only superficial. No one knows how much Guihu has borne in secret for the ubiquitous pointers, probing or malicious gazes of others.But he is very human after all, An Mixiu has seen him a few times occasionally, he still has the sly smile on his face, his steps are nimble, and he looks confident and calm.

During this period, An Mixiu sent messages several times, but Ghost Fox didn't reply. It wasn't until a week later that he received an invitation from the other party to eat in the canteen together.

Facts have proved that An Mixiu was too naive.He thought that within a week, how could the public opinion subside and the situation calm down.However, these students in the ivory tower are really too busy. Apart from studying, they only gossip on weekdays. Finally, something big happened this time, and they turned into brown sugar, which stuck to the parties and could not be shaken off.

Guihu swiped his card to find a seat as usual, he sat down as if he couldn't feel the sight of his surroundings, looked at An Mixiu who was sitting on pins and needles, and suddenly burst out laughing.

"You should now understand why I put you and me in the same category at the beginning, right?" He picked up a chopstick of potato shreds, and said with a slight smile: "People are always full of curiosity about things that go against their common sense, but this kind of There is too much maliciousness in the curiosity and too little kindness. You see, they obviously don’t know what happened to Lena and me, and if they knew, they might hang me in a small paper on the forum.”

"..." An Mixiu chewed the rice but it was tasteless, he scratched his hair, his expression was a bit annoyed, "But it can't just be like this..."

"An Mixiu." Ghost Fox interrupted him suddenly. "I'm also planning to transfer schools and go to other provinces. Lena and I have made an appointment to go to the same university, and we are far away from home. If there is no accident, we should still be together."

"Really? That's great!" An Mixiu's face changed, his eyes were full of joy.He also knew that Ghost Fox would not be able to stay in City No. [-] Middle School for a while, and it was fine to leave, but he could go to a place where there was only each other.

"Actually, I'm not angry or discouraged, but I'm a little...a kind of powerless that I can't protect her." Ghost Fox rested his chin in his hands, and looked at a certain point in front of him, "I know that if this continues, it will be exposed sooner or later, so for the I have already prepared for the arrival of this day. She left and I left, maybe it is a kind of emotional precipitation. If I still love each other by then, I think we will be together naturally. After all, I am so young now, who knows what will happen in the future what happens."

An Mixiu opened his mouth, and the words suddenly came out uncontrollably, "Then what if we can't be together? Do you regret your decision now?"

Ghost Fox was taken aback, and looked back at him, "Maybe I didn't add a prefix to what I said just now. Although I am still young, I firmly believe that love is regardless of age. It feels like it's coming, it's time to meet it." That's right, don't you know this too? Since this feeling is true, there is no regret. Besides, not all people who love each other can end up together." Ghost Fox shrugged and acted helplessly Emoji, "Reality is the greatest enemy of love."

"You really look like a love scientist." An Mixiu blinked and chuckled.

"Looks like it? I thought I was already." Ghost Fox also raised his eyebrows and smiled.

It didn't take long for the two of them to eat a meal, but in order to avoid the staring eyes behind them, the two of them left the cafeteria early.Guihu booked train tickets for the weekend, and An Mixiu originally wanted to offer to deliver them, but it happened that there was an exam when returning to school on Sunday, so he had no choice but to give up.He helped Guihu pack up the books after school at night, during which many people pointed at them, but An Mixiu gradually got used to it, straightened his back and walked downstairs with a stack of books.

At this time, the sun was setting and it happened to be Friday. Except for some high school seniors who stayed in the school, there were basically not many people in the school.A car parked at the school gate, An Mixiu followed behind the ghost fox, and piled the books in together.After all this, he stood up, scratched his hair and touched the tip of his nose, trying to say something, but finally said nothing.

An Mixiu opened his arms, "Hug one."

The ghost fox smiled slightly, and happily did the same.

Before getting into the car, Guihu rolled down the window, and he pointed behind An Mixiu.When An Mixiu turned his head, he saw Lei Shi playing alone in the bloody setting sun on the basketball court not far away.He turned his head back again, and met Ghost Fox's smiling eyes.

"You can try it if you have a chance." Ghost Fox said, "Just don't regret it, you are still young anyway."

An Mixiu grinned and said with a smile, "No problem."

TBC.