my little lover

Chapter 33 I am He Shen.

It was the first time that the boss uncle mentioned his name to others, it was Cui Can.

There was no wine in the stall, but there were quite a lot of teas of all kinds. Cui Can went back to the car and rummaged through the cabinets, and finally found the tea that had been treasured for a long time and served it to Ming Chen. You came to chat with me, where did the story come from? At that time, it was just to see the unusual and awkward relationship between you and classmate Xiao He, and the old bones couldn't stand it."

Ming Chen held the teacup, all the upset did not show on his face, he took a sip of tea slowly, shook the teacup, did not continue Cui Can's topic, but asked: "The tea is good, what is it called?"

"I don't know what it's called," Cui Can recalled with a little pride, "Last winter, a female tourist named Yaya passed by my stall. She gave it to me without saying her name."

"Shall I buy some with you?" Ming Chen said intentionally.

Cui Can quickly refused, "Just a little bit, I'll give it to you!"

Ming Chen smiled slightly, nodded, and didn't talk much.Seeing this, Cui Can had nothing to say, and seeing that he couldn't let go, she simply called and asked for some bottles of wine to be brought over.

He is someone who has experienced it, and he knows that those words that he is unwilling to say when he is sober, are easy to blurt when he is drunk.

But Ming Chen is the kind of person who won't confide his heart easily even when he's drunk.He drank more than half of the wine that was brought, and kept drinking it, which made people worry.

Cui Can only felt that she had made a mistake in ordering the wine, and she was a little worried, and persuaded: "Drinking so much at night is not good for your health, it's almost over."

"It's okay." Ming Chen raised his head suddenly as he spoke, his eyes were a little loose, and he said for no reason: "I don't understand something."

"What don't you understand?" Cui Can still wanted to say that she didn't understand. This kid doesn't seem to know how to drink, so what's wrong with it, that's how it is...

"I don't understand how someone can fall in love with another stranger in such a short period of time. What is the basis?" Ming Chen was full of doubts, mixed with a little grief, "Is this kind of love real? , It’s just a temporary novelty. It takes more time to discover and interpret love itself. The process of falling in love should be long, but he just opened his mouth and said, it’s so easy, people can’t believe it, and worry about gains and losses.”

"Are you talking about classmate He?" Cui Can could be considered to have watched He Shen grow up. This child has been very skinny since he was a child. He got into trouble five times a week, and his parents had to come to school three or four times.

After growing up, I don't know how much my temper has changed, but after Ming Chen complained, Xiao He didn't seem to be much better.

"Others, not him."

Cui Can knew that he was awkward, so she was considerate and didn't let it go. She quietly withdrew a few bottles of wine and said, "I know you didn't mention Xiao He. As you said, the process of falling in love is very long, and this long time has to be The time limit, right? And it varies from person to person. Take Xiao He as an example, he is uneasy, a thing will be fresh for at most three or five days, and if he needs something after these few days, it proves that he has his heart."

Ming Chen didn't seem to understand what Cui Can meant. He didn't answer, but drank the rest of the wine by himself, rubbed his head in a daze, and whispered: "I'm afraid this life is not suitable for talking about feelings. I can't force others What to do, that is the freedom of others, how can you mind, how can you be angry..."

Cui Can can't empathize, he thinks more than Ming Chen.After these years of precipitation, my mind cannot be said to be delicate, at least it is much broader.

He believes that if there is something to say, it is better to say it, and it is an irresponsible performance for both parties to keep it in your heart.Besides, if you hold back, you will only hurt yourself.

How can there be feelings without communication?

"How can you say it's not suitable? The world is incomplete without feelings. No matter family, love, or friendship, their premise is feelings. There is no suitable or not, only willing or not. Feelings are easy to say. Everyone They all have a mouth, so don’t waste it, if you are willing to speak, nothing will matter.”

Cui Can talked a lot, probably the most in the past month, and he said politely: "I don't know if you can listen to what I said, if you think the other party is worth it, and you are willing to give him a chance, no matter he What have you done, don’t limit yourself to the surface, try to understand deeply, maybe what you see is what you think you see... I’m a bit messy, to sum it up, don’t run away.”

Ming Chen couldn't believe it, Cui Can's words were very purposeful, but Ming Chen didn't mention anything about him and He Shen to others.

The impulse that night was just a whim, including some regrets later, why are you so irrational?

He Shen is doomed not to give what he wants.

The wind was very strong at night, Ming Chen had a few more drinks and didn't say anything more, Cui Can was free and sat with him for a while.

Until the street lights were all turned off, Ming Chen whispered, as if he was talking to himself.

"I want to have a drink with him once, to confide my true feelings after drinking alcohol, and to hear him repeatedly say that he loves me when he is slightly drunk. There is only me in his eyes and in his heart..."

The wind was too strong, so he kept his voice low, Cui Can couldn't hear clearly, so he asked.

Ming Chen laughed and shook his head. He looked at the boss, as if he wanted to say something, but he was drunk, and after thinking about what he wanted to say, he swallowed it all.

He doesn't know how to drink, and it's the first time he feels drunk and happy, even though his stomach hurts like a fire, he is still happy.

When the pain spread from his stomach to his whole body, it made him sober when he was drunk, and he clearly knew how much he missed even when he was drunk.

"I saw him standing with the person he likes, and he felt it was a pity, why didn't he be with that person at the beginning. I think this pity is because of me, because I exist out of time, so he has concerns...I don't want to Becoming a burden to others. That kind of pity is not valid at all, he has his freedom, just like I like him, this is my own business. I have not responded for so many years, this moment or two is nothing..."

Cui Can sighed, on the one hand, he was relieved that he finally expressed his distress, but on the other hand, he didn't understand his understanding of love...

As a non-smoker, he rarely lit a cigarette, held it in his hand without smoking it, and quietly watched the mist rise up little by little. After burning it for a little while, Cui Can said: "If it is Xiao He who made you sad, I think you will be sad in the future. His rough brain should not be noticed. At this time, you need to tell him what he is doing wrong, and tell him clearly. Lovers need to learn how to speak... I don’t know if you young people can understand our kind The anxiety of older people is to see where you are awkward, you don't know, we can only watch and worry."

"I can't do it." Ming Chen just said this dryly, he seemed not good at words.Even every sentence after drinking has to be carefully considered.

He was drunk and sober.

He cared about He Shen's attitude towards Jiang Chongnian, and he couldn't forget He Shen's longing for Jiang Chongnian.

Just think of the backs of He Shen and Jiang Chongnian standing by the window, and all kinds of things from a few years ago rushing in.At that time, he was just a cat, held in He Shen's arms, listening to He Shen's sincere words to Jiang Chongnian.

At that time, he was jealous that the words were not spoken to him, but to an unrelated stranger, and the two of them had only met for the third time at that time.

So now, Mingchen is even more uncertain whether He Shen likes him or just a whim.

The more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I feel.Always wonder why love can be so easy?What he can't do, why can others do it so casually, why can others trample on what he cherishes most.

This can no longer be expressed in terms of discomfort, it is a kind of mental pain that is higher than the flesh.

Mingchen's drinking capacity is not good, just a few bottles of beer make it unable to stand up.The boss uncle was worried about him, seeing his dizzy appearance, and didn't expect him to take the initiative to solve the misunderstanding between the two, so he took the initiative to contact He Shen.

Didn't say much, just let him pick people up.

When He Shen came, Ming Chen was already lying on the table unconscious, the sweater on his body was not fleece, and it was sticking thinly to his back.His whole body seemed to have lost weight, or maybe it was the loneliness against the night that made him thin.

He Shen himself was also injured.After returning home with Ms. Han that day, he was beaten severely. Young Master He is a straight-talking and stubborn master, no matter what Ms. Han says.

He just said that he likes Mingchen, he wants Mingchen, and only Mingchen.

These words undoubtedly won He Hongyu's merciless whip.

If it weren't for the clothes to cover it up, those terrifying bruises would be so eye-catching.But He Shen is no longer in pain, compared to Ming Chen who is not hurt, makes him feel more distressed.

He Shen thanked the boss uncle, but he couldn't carry it on his back, so he had to walk to the nearest hotel with someone in his arms. He had no other ideas, he just thought that Mingchen must be uncomfortable, did he have gastroenteritis?I want him to be more comfortable, take a bath and lie down for a good sleep.

It would be best if he could find out the reason for his inexplicable temper that day while he was drunk.If not, then he would take the initiative to apologize to Ming Chen.

Bow to Ming Chen.It was originally He Shen's strong point!

After walking for most of the way, Ming Chen moved his hand holding He Shen's neck, and spoke in small words, too soft and too weak to hear clearly.

"Brother Chen, I'm He Shen." He Shen has selfish intentions. He wants Ming Chen to know that when he is saddest, he is by his side.

If this is not love, he really doesn't know how to express it more clearly.

It might be raining again, the wind blows from the front one after another, blowing Ming Chen's hair strand by strand around He Shen's cheeks, the soft hair sweeps the skin bit by bit, itching like crazy.

He Shen rubbed his shoulders, afraid that Ming Chen would be cold, and wanted to take off his coat for him.

However, the other party was reserved, so he just moved a little. Ming Chen thought that he seemed to refuse such intimate contact with others.

This was the first time He Shen saw such a bright Chen, so he was a little surprised.The difference between Ming Chen and him is vividly reflected at this moment.

He Shen came back to his senses, and repeated carefully and gently: "Brother Chen, it's me."

"I want you to go!" Ming Chen didn't want to see He Shen even when he was drunk.

His refusal was not only reflected in words, but his physical refusal was especially obvious, pushing people away with all his strength.After landing on the ground, he staggered several steps before barely standing still while holding on to the telegraph pole.

He Shen thought of him wholeheartedly, regardless of whether the other party was willing or not, he was forced to hug him, and his movements were too big. When he arrived at the hotel, he was looked at by the front desk a few times.

Maybe it was because of the alcohol, after entering the elevator, Ming Chen nestled in his arms and never moved.

Lips are too close together.He Shen could even smell the aroma of wine in his breath, as well as Ming Chen's unique smell, and he didn't do anything, which was enough to fascinate He Shen.

He Shen was moved.

There has never been a moment when I have such a strong desire to kiss someone like now.Even if he took advantage of the person's danger, he wanted to hug this person and kiss him vigorously.

The drunk person frowned and responded carefully to the other party's enthusiasm.

The author says:

I came super late woo woo, double update tomorrow.