The right way to rescue someone who has been out of the closet

Chapter 11 1 flower

On the way home, Ye Lan got on a bus with her medical record card in her pocket.

As night fell, more and more people took the bus.Frolicking children carrying schoolbags, leisurely elderly people leaning on crutches, hurried office workers looking down at their mobile phones... Some people get on the bus and some get off.

If life is also like a bus with no destination, Ye Lan thought, he has never sat in the driver's seat.

From being born, to dropping out of school, to finding a job, to falling in love.He seems to be just a passenger, letting the wheels take him in an unknown direction.

There were a few times when he almost thought that he got what he wanted, that he could finally manage his life successfully, but the reality could always cruelly wake him up and tell him that it was just a daydream.

He has no right to speak, no right to make decisions, and his struggles are nothing more than gnats shaking the big tree, making no waves.

Even the matter of liking men is the same. In his young memory, he has never been in contact with any intimate men. When he became conscious, he was horrified to discover his desire for the same sex.

Later, he met Min Wenwei and lived through the most dreamlike and miserable period of his life.

He almost tried his best to deal with this relationship, his love, his talent, his energy.He is like a vine short of water, tightly entangled with the attached tree trunk, as if only in this way can he have the backbone of support.

Perhaps this feeling was too heavy, he saw Min Wenwei tear off the vines, throw them into the flames, and burn them into a pile of ashes.

After he left Wanhua, Fan Yue once advised him to recover his innocence, but he shook his head and refused.He's a penniless man who doesn't know what his odds are.

So he chose to dust off his memories, bury them in the soil, and turn them into chemical fertilizers.

He dropped his helmet and armor, like a deserter.

It's not that he doesn't understand Tan Qin's words, nor is he unwilling to do it, he just...

- can't do it.

Like a billionaire who certainly doesn't care about a lost coin.But for beggars who are hungry, any food scraps are not willing to give up.

He has neither love nor family affection, only Ye Ying's insignificant concern and negligible relationship with colleagues.He didn't dare to try any dangerous moves, for fear that even these would be lost.

Maybe two people who are in love need to agree with each other, and he can't be as brave as Tan Qin, so he ran away again, afraid of facing Tan Qin's contempt.

Fan Yue said that he has no resistance to a man with this look, maybe this is a trap set by the heavens, making him fly moths to the flame again and again.

But love is beautiful even if it is an illusion. From the moment he met Qin Qin, a flower quietly bloomed in the depths of his heart on the ashes that had been turned into fertilizer.

A flower that cannot bear fruit.

Such a flower can only be admired for a while, and after withering, nothing will remain.

what's the function?It's better to pull it out. A heart that is already barren doesn't need a single flower.

Ye Lan reached out to hold the fragile flower stem, hesitating.

But it drives so well.

"Buzz buzz..." The phone in his pants vibrated desperately, Ye Lan frantically took it out and connected it, Fei Yuande's anxious voice came: "Ye Lan, where are you? Min Wenwei is looking for you everywhere! If you lose your temper, come back quickly!"

"Ah, I just came out of the hospital..."

"What? Are you really sick? Is it because you haven't recovered from the last illness?"

"Um……"

Fei Yuande's voice became more anxious: "Is it serious? What did the doctor say?"

"Uh, it's nothing serious, but the doctor said that he needs to rest for a while and not be tired..." Ye Lan lied cheekily, he really didn't want to go back and face Min Wenwei again.

"Forget it, your health is important, you should rest for a while, and I'll take care of it for you at Min Wenwei's side." Fei Yuande asked, "Are you really refusing to change your design draft?"

"to not fix."

"...Okay then." Fei Yuande couldn't help him, told him to take a good rest and hung up the phone.

Ye Lan was so happy that she took a week off and was called by Ye Ying to the company to help.

It is said to be a company, but it is actually more like a warehouse.

Ye Ying rented an empty factory building, the first floor was used as a front shop, and another room was used as an office, and the remaining two floors were filled with tall shelves.

Ye Lan walked to the office familiarly, pushed open the door, but didn't smell the strong perfume smell in the past.He was slightly surprised, walked across to Ye Ying, and put down the camera bag.

Ye Ying wore a pure white suspender dress today, which made her skin whiter than snow, charming and charming.She was typing on the keyboard with her fingers flying, without raising her head: "Baby, you are late."

"When I walked to the bus station, I found that I forgot to take the DSLR, so I wasted some time when I ran back." Ye Lan leaned over to take a look, and there were dozens of Aliwangwang chat windows opened on Ye Ying's computer screen, densely stacked in a pile, and it was amazing to see Feeling dizzy, "I've already become a big boss, why do you still serve as customer service yourself?"

"I can't help it, newcomers have to teach them by hand." Ye Ying waved to the little boy next to her, "Xiao Cao, do you see? You have to learn to be cute with customers, express more expressions, and don't be forceful. And let your customer service Your nickname has been changed, what is your name 'Qingsong', from today on you will be called 'Chunhua'!"

"But...but I'm a boy..."

"Customer service has no gender, only soft girls." Ye Ying patted his head and stood up, leading Ye Lan to the backyard, "Today's location shooting, this Madou is an Internet celebrity, I hired him after a lot of trouble, can you It must be taken to satisfy her."

Ye Lan followed behind with a camera bag on her back: "It's so important, why don't you hire a professional photographer?"

"No way, no one else understands my aesthetics as well as you do."

Ye Lan slowed down in confusion. He actually didn't understand Ye Ying's aesthetics. He took pictures with sufficient light and a simple background, and then relying on his intuition PSPSPS to learn design.

When I arrived at the venue, I saw a girl leaning against the door unhappily. Seeing them coming, she frowned and said, "Why are you so slow?"

Ye Ying immediately greeted her warmly, took her hand and said affectionately: "Oh, it's such a hot day, why don't you turn on the air conditioner in the lounge? Come and introduce, this is the photographer we specially invited Master Charles. Charles, this is the big beauty Jiaojiao, you guys get to know her."

Jiaojiao sized Ye Lan up, her face softened a little, and she still asked uncertainly: "Looking so young, is it alright?"

"Don't worry!" Ye Ying pushed her to the dressing room, then turned her head and gave Ye Lan a wink, telling him to follow.

Ye Lan pretended not to see it, took off the camera bag, and started to install the tripod by herself.

It turned out that he was called to come on a blind date for the reason of taking pictures, and the depression swelled into a ball, stuck in his throat and couldn't get up or down.

The shooting continued until the afternoon, Ye Lan confirmed the original film again, nodded and agreed.

After sending the model away, Ye Ying handed him a box of Haagen-Dazs: "Honey, you've worked hard today!"

Ye Lan took it over: "It's okay, anyway, is it the last day today?" After standing outdoors for a whole day, his whole body was drenched, as if he had just been fished out of the water.The hot sun dried the sweat, leaving a thin layer of salt on the T-shirt.

"Aren't you coming tomorrow?"

"Well, tomorrow is May 5th. Fan Yue asked me to go to his house to play." Looking at Ye Ying's confused eyes, Ye Lan explained helplessly, "I have mentioned it to you many times before. generation."

"Oh, I remembered!" Ye Ying clapped her hands and sat down beside him, "Don't always hang out with men, what if you become gay?"

Ye Lan choked on the ice cream and coughed for a long time: "Don't talk about me, your boyfriend has changed so much, aren't you going to find someone to stabilize?"

Ye Ying rolled her eyes: "I want to, but that also requires the other party's consent. I can't tie him to the Civil Affairs Bureau, can I?"

Ye Lan looked at her, thinking about the words: "I think...you are so young, you can actually consider looking for someone who is a little younger, who is similar to you...don't always look for old men in their 60s and [-]s, those people have successful careers , I have a son and a daughter, I think they all regard you as a mistress, and I won't abandon my family to marry you."

Ye Ying curled her lips, her face full of disapproval: "I will not change my requirements for choosing a mate, but you, what right do you have to criticize me?"

"What's wrong with me?"

"I've been talking, I've been trying to find a partner, what about you? Just two years ago, I excitedly told me that I found true love. What happened? You broke up before I even saw the face of the girl. Yes. Work is the same, I finally found a job in a big company, and I resigned after a short period of time. You said it was not easy for you to find a stable job, so what are you fussing about?"

Ye Lan lowered her eyelashes and protested weakly: "I'm not messing around..."

"What are you talking about? I told you a long time ago that jewelry design doesn't work, but you don't listen to my advice, don't hit the south wall and don't look back. I'll introduce you to a model, but you don't even see him, so I call you You don’t want to come back and help me open a shop, you insist on squatting in some crappy company, and I haven’t seen you come up with anything for two years!”

Ye Lan closed her mouth, silently digging into the ice cream one spoon at a time.Hmm, strawberry flavored, a bit sour.

"Tell me about you. You can't even support yourself with the money you earn. Why do you use it to fall in love? No wonder people didn't want you back then. They wanted money and no money and career and no career. What are you thinking all day long? Look at my company , Expanding to such a large size, just when manpower is in short supply, why are you so overwhelmed and unwilling to come and make money with me? If you are like this, no one deserves it!"

Do you deserve it...?

Anger set off a stormy sea, Ye Lan never knew that she could be so angry.He has experienced a lot of bitterness and bitterness, and he has never felt so wronged now.

"Then what is your so-called company? It's just a gold crown Taobao shop."

Ye Ying was talking vigorously, but she didn't expect to be so choked by Ye Lan.She opened her mouth like a wronged girl: "Baby, what's wrong with you?"

Every time Ye Ying showed this look, her boyfriends would immediately soften their attitude and start coaxing her.Ever since he was a child, Ye Lan has coaxed her countless times, but now, his heart is occupied by dark thoughts, and he doesn't want to care about her feelings at all.

Evil is born on the edge of courage, and Ye Lan suddenly wants to tell her that it is impossible for her to have a girlfriend, and if she wants to look for it, she will only have a boyfriend like her.

I really want to say it out loud and see her terrified reaction.

Ye Lan breathed violently, her chest heaved like two old bellows, and her heavy breathing might erupt at any time.He desperately pressed the painful memories of his childhood into the water, preventing them from surfacing.

In the end, he won.

"I'm leaving." Ye Lan stood up, threw the ice cream into the trash can, and cleaned up the photography equipment on the table.

Ye Ying timidly followed behind him, and asked in a low voice: "Have you had enough money recently? How are you doing? Is someone bullying you? Baby, what do you want to tell me..."

This is the sentence again.

These three questions every time.

Sometimes Ye Lan felt that the shallow family relationship between him and Ye Ying was only maintained by these three problems.Every time they meet, like a routine ceremony, they always start talking about homework, and when they have nothing to say, Ye Ying will ask these three questions, he answers, and then bids farewell, each returning to their respective lives.

And earlier, even these three problems did not exist.At that time, he...

"I said, what's the use?"

Ye Ying was stunned, she covered her mouth with both hands, her shoulders trembled like a baby bird in the rain, as if she was about to cry.

Ye Lan twitched the corner of her mouth expressionlessly.I don't talk about it on weekdays because I don't think it's necessary to mention it. Do you think I really forgot?

Years of habit told him that he should stop, comfort Ye Ying, and tell her that he was just joking and didn't intend to scare her.Ye Ying has always been easy to coax, just like herself.

After a long battle between heaven and man, he sighed, stretched out his hand to wipe off the tears on Ye Ying's cheeks, and said quietly: "Maybe it was better for you and me if you didn't give birth to me."

Ye Ying's eyes widened, tears were condensed in her eye sockets, and she was on the verge of falling.

Ye Lan clenched her shoulder straps tightly and walked out of the door.The strong wind hurt the corners of his eyes, and he blinked hard to suppress the soreness.

I have been walking a long way, and regrets slowly surfaced in my heart.

Ye Lan quietly turned her head to look, Ye Ying's skirt was flying in the wind, like a flower without roots.

The author has something to say: Today I found a stalk of Vicious (extreme old friend), the character played by Sir Alex in Vicious is called Freddie, and his same-sex lover is called Stuart. There is a still photo on Douban showing Sir Alex pushing him down (picture only The back of Sir Alex), the subtitle is "Stuart!", and there is a personal comment below: Oh my god, did Lao Wan finally push Professor X down?

PS: The actor who plays Professor X is called Patrick Stewart.