it's him

Chapter 21

Xu Xiaofeng and his teacher ([-])

Xie Chengyan's hopes were shattered.Originally, I wanted to make peace with Xu Xiaofeng through today's meeting.In front of him, let alone the dignity as a teacher no longer exists, even as a lover, he has always been in a humble situation.It's all because he fell in love with an outstanding young man who was completely different from him in every aspect.

Have you broken up?The man lowered his head, looked at his toes, and thought in his heart.This thought made his already thin shoulders huddled even tighter.The vision looking at the toes gradually became blurred, and the shoulders trembled violently.He has always been cautious in his words and deeds, refraining from haste and patience, but now in front of other colleagues in the office, he couldn't help crying.

"Mr. Xie, it's okay." The kind female teacher came over, "Don't worry too much, he is not responsible for his own life, and we are not parents, so we can't control it." It was the first time the female teacher saw him so excited , Maternity overflowed for a while, handing tissues and patting shoulders.

"Hey? Wait a minute!" Xie Chengyan finished wiping away his tears, and was stopped by the female teacher when he was about to put on his glasses.

"What's wrong?" His eyes narrowed slightly, and he looked at the person in front of him suspiciously.He looked like a primary school student who couldn't understand the teacher's lecture.

"Mr. Xie, please open your eyes wider."

"Ah?" Although he didn't understand what this female teacher who didn't talk much was going to do, the honest man still did it.

"Hey~ Teacher Xie! You took off your glasses and you look younger than ten years old! You look like a student. To be honest, you quickly throw away the bottom of this bottle and change to an invisible one. I'll make another one for you Take a ride, and a happy event will be guaranteed to come to your house!"

Xie Chengyan understood what she meant.Put on your glasses, "Thank you, Teacher Liu, I, I'm not used to not wearing glasses. Thank you for your kindness."

The teenager once warned him not to let others see him take off his glasses, and he always remembered it firmly.However, at that time, he could still vaguely feel that the boy cared about him, for example, every time the boy had to do it face to face on the bed, he was arbitrarily forbidden to close his eyes.He once thought it was because the boy liked him.But these feelings were diluted by the young man's indifference again and again.

Xie Chengyan sensed his gaffe, hurriedly sorted out his emotions, finished handling the school affairs with the female teacher, and went home.After closing the door, I finally didn't have to be patient, all the emotions were vented, and the man hugged his knees and cried bitterly.In a dark room, a person squatted at the door, the trembling back of that person easily revealed the pain he was suffering now, anyone who saw it would feel their hearts tugging together.

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"Xiaofeng, Teacher Xie called me again yesterday." She Meng drank the wine in the glass in one gulp.

"Yeah." Xu Xiaofeng couldn't persuade She Meng not to drink, so he simply drank with him.If wine can alleviate his pain of losing Jiang Yutian, then let wine alleviate his guilt for misunderstanding Xia Xu and causing She Meng and the others to come to this day.

"I didn't ask you to call him back this time. It seems that you have given up."

"Ah."

"Xiaofeng...I don't care about you and the teacher. But you have to see your heart clearly." She Meng took the wine glass in Xu Xiaofeng's hand and looked at him seriously, "I can't change it. But I hope You'll be fine."

Xu Xiaofeng released She Meng's hand holding his arm, and continued to pour wine into his mouth.The two fell silent again.When Yu Haiyang came to pick them up, She Meng pinched his face and mumbled in a daze, "Where have you been you...you bastard...why do you miss me so much..." Yu Haiyang's face was caught It hurts to pinch the ground, and I have to coax "It's alright, alright, the bastard is not here".Hearing this, She Meng became even more excited, "Xu Xiaofeng! You're even more of a bastard! You kid, I don't know if you're kidding me? Damn, I know better than you! Seriously, bastard...".Yu Haiyang's head is full of black lines, and now he has completely become the car driver of two drunkards. For this reason, he concluded that if he makes friends carelessly, he will kill himself.

Xie Chengyan made a total of two phone calls to She Meng.Because Xu Xiaofeng's cell phone has been shut down.After crying that night, he gave himself a chance, and when he heard Xu Xiaofeng say goodbye, he didn't bother him anymore.So, he mustered up the courage to call She Meng who was inseparable from Xu Xiaofeng.However, the other party said that he did not know where he was.

He called again a few days later and got the same answer.As if he understood, he smiled with the last bit of strength and said, "If you see him, please tell him, the teacher wishes him good health, um... all wishes come true."

No matter how unreasonable he is, he should know the meaning of such obvious indifference and avoidance.So, the man gave up.No matter how carefully he maintained this relationship, which had begun without knowing how, violated morality and ethics, it could not escape the short-lived ending.From the very beginning, it was the young man who ruled everything. He knew how playful an 18-year-old boy was, and how indifferent a child from this background was to hurting others, but he still devoted himself infinitely because of some small warmth.When the boy let go, he could only smile in a good-tempered manner, comforting himself and saying, it's okay.

it does not matter

The author has something to say:

This time it's really over.Thanks again for watching the last ones.You are my motivation to write.