dare to love

Chapter 55 Meet in Zhengzhou

Chen Wei's confession made Chen Su and Yu Zhizhi unable to recover for half a year.

But fortunately, the husband and wife see it very openly. They feel that no matter whether Chen Wei likes a man or a woman, as long as he doesn't stay single for the rest of his life, otherwise it would be embarrassing for such an outstanding handsome guy without a wife to spread the word in the second half of his life.

After the summer vacation, Chen Wei went back to Beijing to study for graduate school.

He is really busy, every day is full of classes, and he will go out to the library or work part-time on weekends. He is not short of money, but he just wants to keep himself busy.

I have done everything, manual and non-manual work, and sometimes I would go to the express sorting with my roommate on impulse.

As for the winter and summer vacations, it's either skiing or racing.

During this period, he couldn't help calling Su Shikang's number, but for some reason, the number was suspended.

For a moment, he wondered whether Su Shikang disappeared on purpose, and whether the sentence of waiting for him before leaving was a lie.

Because no matter what I use now, I can no longer contact him.

It was another high school reunion that day, Rui Qiang, He Lexuan and the others came to Beijing to play, and they went to drink. Every time they couldn't see Su on such an occasion, Kang Ruiqiang and the others would inevitably mention him. After stabbing him in the heart with a knife, he couldn't listen to any topic about Su Shikang now, whether it was about the past or talking about other things.

They asked him about Su Shikang, but he couldn't answer at all.

Chen Wei drank alcohol and developed red rashes all over his body when he was drunk. At that time, it was snowing heavily in Beijing in winter. He used the excuse of going out to smoke and went out. Called that number again.

He held his phone in one hand and reached into his pocket for a cigarette with the other.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is out of service, please..."

Su Shikang.

Chen Wei hung up the phone, and brought the lighter to his lips to light a cigarette.

Pop, pop, pop...

I don't know if it was because the weather was too cold, but he hit it many times, and the rhythm almost became restless, but the fire just couldn't light.

He threw the lighter into the trash can across the street, then opened the charging software and charged 1000 yuan to Su Shikang's number.

He started hitting again.

"Sorry, the call you made is temporarily unanswered, please wait..."

"Sorry, the number you called..."

why?

Chen Wei lowered his head and clenched his hair tightly, why did Su Shikang treat him like this.

"Shi Kang..." He murmured, "I really... like you so much..."

"why do you ignore me?"

The snow fell harder and harder, dyeing his eyelashes white, but he didn't seem to feel the cold, and sat there with his mobile phone drunk.

He wanted to wait for Su Shikang's call back.

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Gradually, after thinking about it for a long time, the pain, suffering, and discomfort became less severe.

Chen Wei felt that he was probably used to it and became numb.

This numbness lasted until the National Day period during the second period of research.

Xie Hengdong and Lu Xiaoting also stayed in Beijing to continue their graduate studies. They planned to work for a year after graduation before getting married.

The night before the National Day holiday, Xie Hengdong couldn't find him, so he ran for a long time to find him at a racing track in the suburbs.

At that time Chen Wei was very crazy, Xie Hengdong had a panoramic view of his desperation, he stood on the stand, listening to the rumbling sound of the locomotive, he wished to drag him down to wake him up.

Xie Hengdong is a gentle man after all, and he doesn't quite understand this kind of hot-blooded and dangerous sports. He thinks that life is so beautiful and so short, so why take shortcuts.

Even though Chen Wei's driving skills are very stable and his whole body is well protected, he is still worried.

Chen Wei got out of the car, took off his helmet, and couldn't help but pause when he saw Xie Hengdong standing outside the guardrail. He was a little surprised.

"Why did you come here?"

"Chen Wei." Xie Hengdong stared at him, "I didn't expect you to be so crazy."

Chen Wei leaned on the motorcycle, lit a cigarette leisurely, "You can't say that."

He began to educate Xie Hengdong: "Look at so many motorcycle enthusiasts present, are we all crazy? We just love sports, and you don't have to be so nervous every time."

"I'm nervous?" Xie Hengdong smiled. "I can't find you on the phone for three days. Even if you fall, no one will know to collect your body. Why don't you answer the phone or reply to the message?"

Chen Wei exhaled a puff of smoke, and said calmly, "I didn't bring my mobile phone."

He feels that it is useless to bring a mobile phone, and the list of Moments is all not the people he wants to contact, and there is no meaningful person to chat with him every day.

He thought it would be better if he couldn't see his phone, so he wouldn't have to worry about it day and night, hoping that the person would send him a message.

As a result, every time I swipe open the phone, the screen is empty and deserted.

"Why???" Xie Hengdong felt that he was outrageous, no one would go out without a mobile phone nowadays.

"No reason, I just want to prove that my brother can live without a mobile phone. By the way, why are you looking for me?"

Only then did Xie Hengdong realize that he had something to do here, and hurriedly said: "Shi Kang contacted me, saying that he will be back for the winter vacation."

"..." Chen Wei stopped the hand that picked up the cigarette.

"I'll have to go back and see him at that time, it's been so many years..." Xie Hengdong began to think seriously, his tone was excited and angry, "Five years... Su Shikang is too fucking excessive, I must Be good..."

"Why didn't he tell me?"

"..."

Xie Hengdong looked at Chen Wei, and found that he was calmly smoking a cigarette just now, and suddenly became restless.I saw his hands trembling to pick up the cigarettes, and his lips were trembling too.

He looks irritated.

"Chen Wei, you..." Xie Hengdong felt that he was a little strange.

Chen Wei's expression was very abnormal, and he began to feel that something was wrong. Xie Hengdong looked at him in a daze, the smoke had already burned his knuckles, but he forgot to remind him.

Xie Hengdong finally moved his lips and said, "Shikang contacted you, but you didn't bring your mobile phone, and you didn't see the message he sent you."

"..."

"Chen Wei, are you angry?"

"Yes, very angry." Chen Wei smiled sadly, "He left me alone for two years."

"Who isn't?" Xie Hengdong got angry when he mentioned this, he muttered, "You have been two years, but he has left me for five years!!!"

In fact, these are not important, what made him most angry was when Grandma Su passed away, Su Shikang didn't tell him anything, he just stayed in Lhasa with Lu Xiaoting, and had a happier life than anyone else.

He didn't even see the old lady's last face.

As a result, he received news that Su Shikang said that he was leaving. He had a research project that would take a long time.

Xie Hengdong was very angry at the time, but he still felt sorry for him, and insisted on replacing what he wanted to say with thoughtful comfort.

He thought at the time that Su Shikang lost even his closest relatives, so he had to be considerate of him and not make him sad.He wants to be with him just like his grandma has been with him for so many years.

Now, they can finally meet.

Chen Wei stood there without any movement, he was very calm, and the news that Su Shikang was coming back didn't seem to affect him at all.

But his mood at the moment is something that no one else can feel.

The blood surged inside, and the hot lava scalded his internal organs and penetrated his entire meridian bones.He was very angry, but he was very excited, very excited.

"Hengdong."

Chen Wei threw the cigarette, looking at the already darkened sky, the moon poked out from the clouds, casting a layer of light on this area, and the moonlight was printed on his face.

"You are a good brother of Shi Kang and me, so there is one thing I have to tell you."

"……what's up?"

Chen Wei was silent for a moment, then lowered his head again, trying to think about something.

He opened his mouth slowly, as if he was talking about something ordinary.

"I'm in love with Shi Kang."

"...!" Xie Hengdong's eyes widened.

"Actually, it's not surprising. After all, Shikang is so good. You know, I used to... I have always dared to love and hate, and I can afford to let go. If I love someone, I will boldly pursue him. If he likes Me, then I will spend my whole life with him without hesitation. Hengdong, no one knows this better than you. "

"..." Xie Hengdong met Shang Chen Wei's eyes.

Chen Wei looked at him, but those eyes were no longer the same as before, with a deep affection that belonged only to him.

Xie Hengdong moved his lips, he found it incredible.

He couldn't believe it at all.

"If... then if Shi Kang..."

"Then I will pursue him." Chen Wei said decisively: "I like him very much, and I will pursue him until I catch him or he himself says he is tired of me."

"It has been a long time……"

Chen Wei looked up at the sky again, which contained strong emotions, as if he wanted to send his love and longing to a distant place through this bright and bright moon.

"I've cared about him for a long time."

I have been waiting for him for a long time.

Xie Hengdong looked at him, already speechless.He didn't know what to say at all, he felt that the amount of information Chen Wei gave him was too heavy for him to digest.

"So you...so you love extreme sports so much now...because you're afraid of thinking about him?"

"Yes." Chen Wei smiled, "I want to seek excitement, and I naively thought that maybe I would not have a chance to think about him, but no matter how exciting it is, the reaction in my mind will not lie, he seems to be engraved in the It's in my DNA."

"Hengdong, I can't miss him, I just love him so much."

"Then what if... Shi Kang is not gay, and he doesn't like you?"

"..."

Chen Wei smiled even more, he didn't think so, Su Shikang also liked him.

But he would still say: "Those are not important, I love him and don't ask for anything in return, even if I am unrequitedly in love for the rest of my life, I don't care. I once said that I am gay, so I have long planned to be alone for the rest of my life. "

"Hengdong, I want to see him again, I can't wait for the winter vacation."

That enthusiasm burned in his heart, if he didn't see Su Shikang again, Chen Wei would only suffer to death.

Xie Hengdong just looked at him, he used to think that Chen Wei was passionate, with a clear love and hate, but now, they have been brothers for so many years, he seems to understand him for the first time.

This is Chen Wei. Letting go of him means letting go.He used to be able to tell him firmly that I like you and I want to be with you forever, but now that he broke up, he can also tell him desperately that I fell in love with another person.

There is nothing wrong with loving someone.

It was getting late, Xie Hengdong still had something to do at night, so he left when the notification arrived.

He originally thought that Chen Wei would leave with him, but he didn't expect Chen Wei to say that he still had several games and let him go first.

Since he was so anxious and said he was going to find Su Shikang, could he still race the car with peace of mind?

Of course, Chen Wei would not continue racing, but ran to the public phone booth at the racing track and dialed the number that made his atrial fibrillation.

He felt that it would be too early when he went back to the dormitory to get his mobile phone, and he couldn't wait until then.

The phone was beeping, and Chen Wei's heart was beating more violently.

This time the number was not suspended or no one answered, Su Shikang finally answered the call.

His voice is still as pleasant as before, but Chen Wei can hear the hoarseness and tempering of the years from it.

"Shikang..."

Chen Wei found that his voice was wet, "You are finally willing to talk to me."

"..."

Su Shikang heard his voice clearly, so he paused on the phone.He wanted to say something, but Chen Wei kept talking, talking about his thoughts for nearly two years.

He said that I kept looking for you again, but you never responded to my messages or answered my calls.

He also said that I thought you disappeared, you ignored me on purpose, you were lying to me when you said wait for me.

Chen Wei said a lot but didn't say a lot. In fact, how can there be so much words? All the emotions are revealed at this moment, only longing and suffering. Who has the energy to say more.

In the end, Chen Wei didn't say anything, he just said this last sentence.

He said: "Su Shikang, I want to see you, I can't wait, I'm coming to you right now."

Su Shikang rejected him on the phone.

It only took him a second to collapse, and he was about to question Su Shikang and ask him why, but Su Shikang spoke up.

Su Shikang said: "Beijing is too far away from Changsha, I don't want you to go so far, so let's go to Zhengzhou and meet in Zhengzhou."

"Then I'm leaving now!"

"No." Su Shikang smiled on the phone, "It's too late now, it's useless to start again tomorrow, no matter how anxious I am, I can't fly over to show you."

"Chen Wei, be safe!"

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