Cat's eye

Chapter 6

Su Haotu regretted it as soon as he came out of Lin Mao's house. He hated himself for being so angry that he said all kinds of ugly things to Lin Mao.Lin Mao pretended not to know anything after he understood what he wanted, and asked the two to get along as before, which was really too much.But not all of his accusations against Lin Mao were justified.

Lin Mao treats himself not like treating a dog—for example, a few days ago, he obviously had to work overtime, but because of a word he said, he ran over to deliver meals to him without hesitation, and took all the work home to do.How could Lin Mao not be moved by Lin Mao's sincere sympathy and concern when he was sick.Su Haotu also knows that the reason why Lin Mao always finds him whenever he has something to do is because he has always been responsive. Lin Mao has never asked him to do anything, but he never refuses.Since people are accustomed to themselves, how can they blame him for being ignorant after spoiling him.As a friend, Lin Mao is impeccable, and just because he regards him as a lover, he can not expect him to reciprocate with the standard of treating a lover.Just because I figured this out, my anger was calmed down, and my heart became more and more lonely.

On the other side, Lin Mao was lying on the bed, holding his corpse for a long time, but he still hadn't recovered.What happened today was like leaving the imperial army and returning to the national army. He felt that his head was like a dilapidated street in a city after the war. Except for the ruined walls, there was not a single hair to be found.

It's justifiable to be surrounded and beaten by your lover's husband, but what's the matter with being kissed by a brother you've known for more than 20 years?Lin Mao's brain turned slowly, and fixed the picture after the kiss. Due to the great impact at that time, Su Haotu couldn't remember all of Su Haotu's words. Lin Mao only grasped one important point - he said that he loved him, and that he loved him in this world. No one loves him more than him.

Remembering this sentence, Lin Mao suddenly trembled all over, half because of surprise, half because of shock.No one has ever said these words to him in a roaring tone. In the past, when women said they loved him, they were either gentle and sweet, or smart and playful. Ignore it and don't draw too much attention to it.It can't even make people wet their clothes. If it floats on the face, just wipe it with your hand and it will be gone.But when these words came out of Su Haotu's mouth, it had a completely different feeling, like a thunderstorm that had been stuffy for too long in summer, pouring down from the thick black clouds in an instant, heavy rain, thunderstorm, lightning, intense It makes people palpitate, is this Su Haotu's love for him?

Once he knew that Su Haotu had love for him, when he looked back on the past, this love seemed to be traceable.All the way with me in the same school, in the same city, in the same neighborhood, always responsive to my needs, and always difficult to be friendly with my lovers.By the way, there was another time, when they were still high school students, Lin Mao brought Su Haotu home to watch porn, and when he saw Xingtou, Lin Mao shot a pistol in front of Su Haotu. Seeing that Su Haotu was not interested, he immediately became excited, and put his hand into his crotch.Thinking about it now, what made Su Haotu excited was never the men and women on the screen, but his naked lower body and the intoxicated expression on his face at that time.

Su Haotu lived upstairs in his own house, and he knew him when he was still a baby, and then watched him babble, become a boy who can run and jump, a lively and cheerful boy, and finally become the present Such a soft-spoken man.My friendship with him is no longer just a friend, he is an acquaintance and a close relative.Lin Mao thought of his mother who abandoned him, his father who put his whole heart on her, and the love Su Haotu spoke of. If Su Haotu's love for him was also based on the 20-year-old bond that was better than blood, then in In this world, maybe no one really loves him more than him.

Lin Mao lay on the bed and sighed, unable to stop the random thoughts in his head, entangled with them until late at night, and finally fell into a drowsy sleep.

Lin Mao took a few days of annual leave, and did not return to work until the bruises on his face had basically dissipated.During this nearly a week, he had no contact with Su Haotu.Lin Mao remembered that Su Haotu said at that time that they could no longer get along like before, so Lin Mao really didn't understand what kind of attitude they should have to face Su Haotu.As for Su Haotu, he couldn't hold back his face. At the beginning, he said such an outburst of anger, and even said that the cursed person was punished. Now, if he took the initiative to go back and ask for peace, he would lose all his shame after living for 25 years. .But Su Haotu was still worried about Lin Mao, that guy is so lazy, did he eat well at home when he was injured, did he remember to change his medicine, what should he do with the wound that he couldn't reach?Su Haotu felt uncomfortable thinking about it, and felt wronged for himself. Su Haotu thought that he had hidden his thoughts very well, but when did Lin Mao find out.If he still doesn't know anything, the two of them can still get along like any pair of normal friends. Su Haotu is actually satisfied. Although he is occasionally jealous and disappointed, this is already the way to get close to him and possess him the most. the only way out isn't it.

Lin Mao not only has the ability to please women, but also has always been fluent in interpersonal relationships. As soon as he returned to the company, he was warmly welcomed by his colleagues.When he was free, Lin Mao stared in a daze at He Cong, who was busy helping him after busy work. He Cong was frightened by him, and asked him cautiously, "Brother Mao, what are you doing?"

"Tell me, what does it feel like for a man to fuck a man?"

He Cong shrank his neck in fright: "Brother Mao, I have someone I like, a girl."

"I didn't say I was messing with you."

He Cong breathed a sigh of relief: "How do I know, I haven't done it before."

"Don't you feel awkward?"

"It's not awkward if you don't force me to do it."

"If, I mean if," Lin Mao paused, "You have a buddy who has a very good relationship, just like me and your brother Su, one day he suddenly said that he likes you, what should you do?"

He Cong frowned, and said: "A friend who has a good relationship with me told me before, but I told him that I have a girl I like, and it is impossible to like a man in this life. There was almost no communication."

Lin Mao was taken aback: "Is the relationship broken?"

"It's not a breakup." He Cong said, "At that time, he was very kind to me. He offered to help me cook food, wash clothes and take notes, and almost put the food in my mouth. At that time, I didn't know how he treated me. I just thought he was enthusiastic, but later I found out, I understood what he wanted, but I couldn’t give it to him. In this case, how could I still be treated well by others? Later I didn’t let him do those things again. , he also knew what I was thinking, and the two slowly drifted apart."

"it's the only way?"

"Then you can't like other people, but you have to occupy them. Isn't that playing hooligans? Maybe if they leave you, you can meet better people."

But how could Lin Mao be willing to distance himself from Su Haotu and become a stranger who had little contact with him? He was the only person he really trusted and relied on.