love is hard

Chapter 9.

The train was still rumbling forward, and it was about to reach its destination. It was getting closer and closer, but for some reason, he became more and more restless and afraid.

He started texting non-stop, only to notice that his fingers were shaking badly while typing.

"what happened to you?"

"How not to answer the phone?"

"Are you still asleep? Wake up and call back quickly?"

"Xiaoshu, don't scare me, answer the phone quickly."

"I'm back, I'm here to find you, are you angry?"

"Xiaoshu..."

……

Qiu Ye suddenly regretted so much, why didn't he get off the car earlier!Have to arrive at the station before deciding to return!Why not buy a plane ticket!Why is the train so slow!

When he arrived at the station, he pulled up his luggage and rushed out. He comforted himself that Shishu just fell asleep, but his phone was out of battery and he forgot to charge it, but he was still getting more and more afraid. A huge panic surrounded him, and the child rushed behind him. He didn't bother to answer when he saw him again.

Getting out of the station and taking a taxi all the way home, the car they bought was still parked under the neighborhood, the moment he stood at the door, he suddenly lost the courage to open the door, as if opening the door, the darkness inside would swallow it over him.

The room was very quiet, so quiet that he could hear the sound of the small brown bear alarm clock in the study clearly.

The moment he turned on the light, he knew that the darkness would still swallow him completely.

He threw the bag on the ground, nothing changed in the room, there were still couple slippers on the shoe cabinet at the door, a pair of mouthwash cups were still on the sink by the toilet door, and the two identical towels were still neatly hung there , They bought it at a discount in the supermarket the day before, and he used it just once.

Nothing has changed.

But he knew that half of the wardrobe compartment was empty, one of the same notebooks was missing, a row of green plants on the flower stand was a little dry, there was an extra car key in the bedside table, and some photos in the study drawer must be missing. open.

Shi Shu, you still can't wait for me?

Qiu Ye walked towards the bedroom step by step, as if every step took all his strength.

He saw the blank sheet of paper on the bedside table, and he suddenly hoped that there had been a fire and the sheet had been burned to ashes, and he would never have to see it again.

Like a dying old man, he tremblingly picked up the piece of paper. He seemed to see Shi Shu sitting in front of the desk, bowing his head and making strokes, sometimes in a daze, sometimes smiling, but that smile must be It is bitter and lost.

"Qiubao.

The first time I heard someone call you that was the time I went to ask you for a ball game. I still remember your confused look clearly. It always feels like yesterday, but it has been six years in the blink of an eye.

We have been together for five years, and I have loved you for five full years, or maybe, more than five years.

In the past five years, I have been very happy. No matter how clear our relationship is, the friends around me all say that they envy us and how good our relationship is. Whether we are friends or lovers, we have been together for such a long time.

But in the end, it was others who said that no one knew how difficult it was for us to go on in the past five years.

Sometimes think about it, is five years long?If it is for others, I would definitely say that it is quite long, but for us, I always feel that it is far from enough, because I want to spend this life with you, and five short years are nothing.

For such a long time, we always quarreled again and again, and reconciled again and again. You always said that I was too casual, and I didn't want to think about the bad side of things.

I don't know how to refute it, maybe you don't believe it, but in fact, I have thought about all kinds of results, even the worst one.

I know you worry a lot and don't want to face it, but do you know?I'm not afraid of anything, in fact, I'm scared to death, but every time I wake up at night and see you hugging me tightly, I suddenly feel that I'm not that afraid anymore.

As long as you are by my side, why should I care so much.

I used to think that we might just live like this for the rest of our lives, holding each other's hands until the time when the temples are gray, that person is still you, that's enough.

However, I am tired.

I don't want to go on like this, I don't want to just hide like this for the rest of my life, my life and my relationship shouldn't be like this, it's not fair to you or me.

I didn't make a mistake, why should I have to bear the consequences.

What I am afraid of is never the indifference or contempt of confessing everything to others afterward. I would rather face all kinds of obstacles with you. I am afraid that in the days to come, our love will be worn out by life.

I'm sorry to say goodbye to you in such a way, I don't blame you, I just can't help running away, running away from you, running away from our feelings.

I resigned, and you don't want to look for me. I just want to be alone, and I hope you take care of yourself.

If there is still a chance, see you next time, I hope your smile and mine are sincere.

Time to stay. "

There are hundreds of words, but Qiuye feels as if he has read it all his life. He seems to have seen his chaotic and untraceable rest of his life, the few remaining days without Shi Shu by his side.

I always feel that forever is too far away to describe love, but when it comes to this point, I feel that forever is far from enough.

He didn't know when the tears came out, maybe it was the moment he opened the door, or maybe it was the moment he saw the letter, but he didn't realize that he had already burst into tears and couldn't make a sound.

He was confused, he was in the wrong mood, he was terribly helpless, and he was mad with regret.

He didn't expect that one day he would be so overwhelmed.

He forced himself to calm down, to find out if there were any traces left by Shishu here.

But in such a big city, Shi Shu is alone, only him, and only has a good job.

By the way, work, colleagues, colleagues will know something, right?

He didn't have the contact information of his colleagues, the more anxious he was, the more he regretted it, why didn't he save a phone number of his colleagues, why the hell!

The car stopped downstairs at Shi Shu's company, he rushed in, and was blocked in the lobby by the front desk, he hurriedly said that he was looking for Rui Rui, he only remembered that Shi Shu called her that, and didn't know Rui Rui's name, luckily the front desk knew this Someone called Rui Rui to come down.

"Huh?" Rui Rui was surprised to see him here, "Brother Xiaoqiu? Why are you here? You were handsome when you didn't see us off?"

"Where did you Shishuai go?" Qiu Ye looked at her anxiously with a trembling voice.

"You don't know?" Rui Rui was taken aback by his appearance, thinking that the two of them might have had a conflict, and she didn't know whether to say it, so she stammered in a low voice, "Shi Shuai said to go out for a stroll, I even quit my job, I thought I was with you, you two won't..."

"Did he say where he's going?" Qiu Ye said with a hoarse voice.

"I didn't say anything," Rui Rui frowned and thought for a while, "Just tell me a few things after I resigned..." As she spoke, she said in a tone of voice, as if she suddenly remembered something, "By the way, I asked him when he was leaving. Said that it is estimated that this afternoon, it will be more than one o'clock now, I don't know..."

"Did he say what kind of car he took?" Qiu Ye interrupted her impatiently.

"Airplane," Rui Rui said hastily, "it should be an airplane, and he asked me about it..."

"My car is at the door," Qiu Ye threw the keys to Rui Rui, "stop for me."

"Ah? What..." Before Rui Rui finished speaking, Qiu Ye turned around and ran out in a jerk.

airplane?Where are you going?Are you leaving now?Can he catch up?

"Master," Qiu Ye jumped into a taxi at the door, he didn't dare to drive, he was really afraid that he would die on the way if he couldn't drive to the airport in this trembling condition, "Go to the airport, please drive faster , I have something urgent."

The taxi driver was probably used to seeing passengers like him rushing to the airport to catch a plane or chase people, so he immediately said, "Don't worry, I promise to send you there before the plane leaves."

The airport is some distance away. At 21:[-], he finally arrived at the airport in a panic, dropped the money and walked in, leaving behind the master who was calling for his change.

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