mousepad-d2 Chapter 174 Don't Regret If You Don't Like Me
Chapter 174 Don't Regret If You Don't Like Me
"So... actually you knew I was standing on the second floor that day?" Shen Xiangting asked.
Gu Huayan didn't hide anything, and nodded: "Well, I saw it early in the morning, and you are there."
So at that time in his previous life, his heart was suffering and entangled, he kept pretending that he didn't know, but he always glanced at the second floor from the corner of his eye.
Did he hear Lu Fang confess his love to him?
If he likes him too, he will definitely come down and stop it.
Did you not come down?
He really... still hates him.
He kept thinking about this, and he didn't even hear what Lu Fang said to him.
That is, that night, he completely disliked himself, the person he liked didn't like him, even hated him, his world lost its light.
Emotions that had been suppressed for many years erupted in an instant.
He had thoughts of wanting to die.
He was trapped in his own sinful world and became extremely world-weary. The feeling that everyone in the world hated him and no one liked him overwhelmed him.
His world is distorted, laughter and laughter will turn into ridicule and sarcasm, and even ordinary words will become insults to him.
In such despair, he suddenly caught a flash of fluorescence, hate him?Then hate it!He doesn't need humble supplications, no pity from others!
He remembered the aversion therapy he had seen on TV.
At that time, he didn't play many times, and it was the first time he felt the pain of living.
He forced himself to forget about that person, and those who didn't like him were not worthy of nostalgia, and he could live a better life.
You hate me, and I hate you too!
Look, it doesn't matter if he doesn't like him, and it's not like no one else likes him.
This caused Lu Fangang to accidentally see the trace of his left hand after chasing him, thinking that he could handle him in such a matter.
He quit the self-administered aversion therapy, and the scars that were placed on him by the landing, didn't he justify this behavior?
Under every scar, there is a sentence hidden: If you don't like me, don't regret it!
He turned treatment into love, constantly gave himself psychological hints, and sank in pain.
later……
He didn't know anymore, he didn't know when he really fell in love with Lu Fang.
Those whips are no longer used to forget that person, but what he thought was true love.
Lu Fang once gave him the hope of living. Although it was proved in the end that those emotions were false, he was indeed happy.
So when he committed suicide in his previous life, he had no complaints or hatred. He sincerely thought that he had stolen the extra eight years of his life.
In fact, he should have died earlier. When he was ten years old, he should have died, not his father.
Seeing the mist in Gu Wangyan's eyes, Shen Xiangting apologized subconsciously: "I'm sorry, Ah Wan, if you give me another chance, I will definitely come to you."
Until this moment, he once again felt how brave Rong Huan was back then.
He thought the child was wronged and sad that he didn't take that step a few months ago, so that he was abducted by Lu Fang, which hurt his body and mind.
Gu Yaoyan smiled and said nothing.
Will not.
It's the same no matter how many times they come again, their personalities are engraved there, if they don't bring their past life memories, their ending will never change.
What should happen will still happen, and fate will continue to move forward along its original track.
If he wants to think that way, let him think that way, tell him the truth, how can he be better off.
On the way back, the two didn't talk much.
Gu Huayan closed his eyes and leaned against the back of the chair to sleep, while Shen Xiangting had a lot of thoughts, most of which were regrets.
According to the child, before he was abducted by Lu Fang, the person he liked was actually him!
He was so stupid that he didn't realize what he was thinking at all, and even thought he hated himself!
If he could look more carefully and analyze the child's inner world, these things would not happen later.
Lu Fang, that bastard, he was going to go, but he didn't cherish it, and he was bruised all over in just a few months.
Gu Huayan became what he is today, all because of his inaction.
Shen Xiangting thought it was all his fault.
Rong Huan said that his illness probably started when Uncle Gu had an accident when he was a child. A child who had never cried at his father's funeral, why didn't he think about it further?
They all thought it was just a child, maybe it was because he didn't understand life and death, but no one thought about whether he was suffering from mental illness.
Such a child, he should think that he is very sensitive and suspicious, how can he not pay attention at all?
Shen Xiangting reviewed all the way home.
As soon as the car stopped, Gu Huayan got up pretending to just wake up.
He couldn't fall asleep, but the atmosphere was not right. He was afraid that Brother Ting would regret it if he continued to talk, so he pretended to sleep on the excuse that he was too tired today.
The staff of the program team sent Shen Xiangting a message and asked some questions about the recording.
He went to the study to call Zhou Ze and talked about his future work arrangements.
When he returned to the room, he saw Gu Huayan standing in the bathroom with his back to the mirror, with one hand around his back with difficulty.
He had just taken a shower, his hair was still wet, and his bathrobe had fallen to his waist.
Under the warm yellow light, his skin was translucent.
Grandpa Gu miscalculated, even if he went to participate in "Xanadu", he didn't get much tan.
Even the skin that hadn't been tanned much, after returning for such a period of time, it turned white again by itself.
Shen Xiangting felt a tightness in his throat for a moment.
Except for seeing his body vaguely once in the hotel last time, this was the first time I saw him like this.
Gu Huayan didn't lie, he has muscles, he won't be very strong, but he won't look powerless, he looks powerful, and he looks thin and fleshy when he wears clothes.
For my child, this figure is very good.
"What are you doing?" Shen Xiangting asked casually.
Gu Huayan turned to look at it sideways, and replied: "The scar removal cream that my aunt gave me, use it to see if it can erase... these marks."
When he spoke, his eyelids lowered, and he faltered a little, as if he couldn't speak.
After all, how did these injuries come from? They all have a clear mind.
He didn't know what Brother Ting thought about these injuries on his body, and whether he would make up for it.
SM, all he can think of are restricted-level pictures, and Brother Ting probably thinks about the same in his mind.
Even though he didn't say it, he probably cared in his heart.
Thinking of this, he unconsciously bit the flesh of his lower lip.
Seeing his tight lips, Shen Xiangting frowned and walked over, clamped his chin and lowered it slightly, as if commanding: "Release. Don't remember what I warned you about?"