mousepad-d2 Chapter 204 It's always been you, and only you
Chapter 204 It's always been you, and only you
Gu Yaoyan's choked sobs shattered Shen Xiangting's defense.
At that moment, Shen Xiangting's heart seemed to be hit hard by something heavy, and the pain spread all over his limbs.
My mind is full of regret, what did he say to him just now?
He clearly knew that he was a sick child, and in the situation just now he was clearly ill, so why didn't he let him go.
"Yanyan..." He was a little at a loss when he called his name.
But at this moment, Gu Huayan seemed to be incapable of listening to anything, hugging him was like hugging his whole world, apologizing, praying, humbled to the dust.
At that moment, Shen Xiangting felt pain and hatred in his heart.
He must have hit some words that stimulated him, was it Lu Fang?Did Lu Fang ever say something similar to him?Did the child kneel before him humbly and beg him not to leave?
As long as he thinks of this, he can't wait to tear that scum into pieces.
Why should he talk like that!
Shen Xiangting grabbed his two arms and swallowed: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, I didn't want to find someone else. The person I want has always been you, and only you."
How could he let him go to someone else?
This kid is duplicity...
He was afraid. He was sick to push him away. He knew it clearly, so why did he take his words to heart.
It took Shen Xiangting a little effort to break Gu Huayan apart, but suddenly, he grabbed his hand and kissed it.
Shen Xiangting's eyes darkened.
When the child's lips touched his fingertips, it aroused the ripples of spring in his heart.
Gu Huayan suddenly knelt down and pressed over, Shen Xiangting's slippers slipped on the ground, and he sat on the washstand all of a sudden.
Gu Huayan grabbed Shen Xiangting's right hand with both hands, and kissed it finger by finger, extremely pious.
Shen Xiangting frowned, wanted to shrink his fingers, and ordered: "Gu Huayan, raise your head and look at me."
Gu Huayan still acted as if he hadn't heard, and circled his fingertips.
Shen Xiangting froze for a moment, looking at the scene in front of him, his throat went dry all at once.
His heart was pounding, and his free hand grabbed the edge of the sink hard.
He suppressed that evil thought, clamped his cheeks, and forced him to look up at himself: "Honey, don't do this, okay? Don't force yourself, I'll wait for you."
Gu Huayan was forced to raise his head, staring at him with teary eyes.
The look in his eyes made Shen Xiangting's heart soften. Only at this moment did he really understand the meaning of his stage.
Everything about him is not a form of performance, the second he knelt in front of him, he really regarded him as his god.
He wants to submit to his feet, willing himself to be inferior to him, and always obey him.
In the child's heart, even his love for him is despicable, and he thinks this is the same as himself, and letting him be contaminated with his love is like defiled his god.
So he let himself kneel in front of him, wanting to serve him, longing for God to be merciful once in a while, just to love him, but don't fall off the altar for him.
He longs for redemption, but is afraid of letting the light be stained with darkness.
Shen Xiangting stood up, squatted down in front of him, and his knees touched the ground, gently kissed away the tears that filled his eyes, and stroked his cheek with his fingers: "Honey, I love you, you know Yes."
Gu Huayan finally opened his mouth: "Brother Ting, I pushed you away again, the first time I push you away, will you completely give up on me?"
Shen Xiangting's love and patience brought him back to reason.
But under reason, there is another round of self-examination and reflection.
He made a mistake again, and he hurt Brother Ting again.
His illness is like a double-edged sword, when he hurts himself, he also stabs Brother Ting.
"I won't," Shen Xiangting said, "I will never give up on you. I was wrong this time. I didn't have patience with you. I will reflect on it. You are sick, I am not sick, I shouldn't be like that Kill you, scold you."
Gu Huayan shook his head, "It was me who was wrong, you have no obligation or responsibility to tolerate me unconditionally. I will change, and I will..."
As he spoke, he couldn't guarantee it, and his voice was very soft: "Try to control myself and don't say those words."
"Those are not important, I just want you to promise me one thing."
Gu Huayan looked at him, waiting.
Shen Xiangting said: "Don't kneel in front of me like this in the future, and don't beg for my love. Love is not something you ask for. You don't need to please me. I am not your god, and you are not my believer. We are each other's lovers." , we are equal."
Gu Huayan didn't answer him, but he bent down, as if worshiping him, put his arms around his waist, and rested his face on his lap.
Shen Xiangting: "..."
He was talking in vain, he knelt down, he simply got down on the ground, and he was always lower than him.
But he didn't force him to get up, he just stroked his hair and changed the subject: "Did Yanyan seduce me just now? Next time, I won't be able to bear it anymore."
Gu Huayan's voice came from below: "Well. I know you are worried about me, you always make me happy, and I want you to feel it too. My brother Ting, if you are always so gentlemanly and considerate, you will never be able to Break through the last line with me, learn to be smart next time, don't worry about my feelings, don't worry about whether I will get sick, just be a little reckless and go straight up. Big deal, if you tie me up, I won't resist."
Shen Xiangting: "..."
He is teaching him how to attack himself?
Shen Xiangting thought evilly and slapped him: "Are you teaching me how to do things? Huh??"
Gu Huayan laughed out loud, "Mr. Shen, does the material you read include crispy duck literature?"
Shen Xiangting was afraid that his feet would go numb, so he patted his back: "Okay, get up, the hall shouldn't be in the bathroom."
Hearing his smile, I also knew that he should be fine.
Gu Huayan didn't get up, he straightened his face and looked at him in a rather difficult posture: "The atmosphere has been enhanced here, don't you want to continue?"
"Continue to what?" Shen Xiangting's mouth twitched.
He vomited like this and continued, he is not such a beast!
Gu Huayan glanced down, and suddenly leaned over, bit the knot with his teeth, and opened one side of his face.
"..." Shen Xiangting wanted to scold him, so he grabbed him by the shoulders and arrested him, gnashing his teeth, "Are you courting death?"
Gu Huayan's eyes were still red, but he smiled: "Didn't I say, don't worry about me, you've been like this, when will you be able to eat meat. We are a big family, so we can order some meat dishes."