After the rebirth, the white moonlight of the actor turned black

Chapter 205 I Hope You Love Yourself More Than Me

No, something is wrong with this kid.

He's definitely not in good shape.

"Don't worry about you? You're already like this, why don't you let me worry about you? Your teeth are chattering, didn't you hear that?" Shen Xiangting was a little angry, but it wasn't angry in the traditional sense, it was because he was so angry It's time to hold on.

Including when he was drawing with his fingers just now, although he forced himself to calm down, he still couldn't do what he couldn't do, and his whole body was trembling.

He is clearly forcing himself, does he think he is blind?

Gu Huayan pursed his lips and bit his flesh, and said a second later, "I can do it."

"You can be a ghost, you can!" Shen Xiangting could only try his best to drive away the atmosphere, and flicked his forehead forcefully, "I can't, in your state, I'm worried that you will bite me! Get up!"

Shen Xiangting stood up first.

Gu Huayan was still kneeling there, reached out and grabbed his trousers, looked at him pitifully like a puppy, and licked his lower lip: "Let me try."

"..." Shen Xiangting swallowed, and the veins popped out of the hands he clasped.

He is going crazy.

"Can't you get up?" Shen Xiangting looked at him condescendingly, "You are a human, not a dog. Dogs love to kneel at their master's feet."

"If it's Brother Ting's—"

"No one else can do it!" Shen Xiangting said angrily, "Gu Yaoyan, are you a fool? Why do you force yourself to do what you can't do? I sent you half a day? Our life is still long, I can definitely cure it You, sex is pleasure, not pain, do you understand? I don't want you to have bad memories."

Gu Huayan put his hand in his palm and stood up, "I understand, don't be angry. I won't do it."

"...I'm not angry," Shen Xiangting's tone softened, a little guilty, "I'm just in a hurry, and my voice is a little louder."

"Hmm." Gu Huayan nodded obediently.

But Shen Xiangting looked at him so obediently, but felt that he didn't listen at all.

All his compromises are just afraid that he will be angry.

Shen Xiangting's big palm protected the back of his head, pushed him to his front, and pressed his forehead against his: "Gu Huayan, I just want to tell you that before you love me, you must first learn to love yourself, understand? Never Let go of your dignity as a human being for everyone including me, a person can only love others better if he loves himself well. I hope you love yourself more than you love me.”

I want you to love yourself more than me.

Gu Huayan's originally forced smile collapsed in an instant.

"Brother Ting, are you hungry? I'll make something delicious." His voice was a little nasal.

"...I'm hungry, let's go, I'll take a shower first." Shen Xiangting hesitated to speak, let him calm down by himself.

"Yeah." Gu Huayan smiled and walked out of the bathroom.

The moment the bathroom door closed, Gu Wangyan's straight back collapsed, he walked out of the bedroom, sat on the stairs, and cried uncontrollably.

In his previous life, that person taught him love, and love is only when he loves him more than himself.He said that if he really loves someone, he is willing to give up everything about him.

He just gave up everything for him, fame and wealth, dignity and freedom, and what about him?Thinking about it carefully, he didn't give up anything for him, and wrote one bad check after another that could not be cashed.

It turns out that this is the difference between love and not love.

There was pear and hawthorn syrup stewing in the pot, Brother Ting was still upstairs, and Gu Huayan was standing by the open French window, talking on the phone with his spiritual mentor.

"Hmm..." Rong Huan listened quietly. He was probably sitting in front of the table, and he could hear the sound of his fingertips knocking on the table, "Tingshen is indeed Tingshen, he can hold back but I can As expected. Awesome."

After a pause, Rong Huan laughed again and said, "You treat me as a friend? You can tell me all these things."

Gu Huayan made this phone call, which surprised him a bit. He didn't expect that this kid would really open up to him.

"After all, you are the only person in this world who knows that I am reborn, even if you only believe in me to treat my illness. But at least I can tell you without any reservations," Gu said with a smile, "Doctor Rong, You can just treat me as nonsense, just don't send me to a mental hospital."

Rong Huan was a little surprised.

He really felt that Gu Huayan, a kid, was actually more mature than he thought, and he really didn't look like a talented kid.

And he is really transparent, he even knows that he doesn't really believe his words.

"I believe it," Rong Huan said with a smile, even though both of them knew that he didn't believe it, "I guess one of the reasons why you got sick today is because you are so happy."

Gu Huayan was taken aback.

"Xiang Ting, I know better than you. He is cold on the outside and hot on the inside, and you are his beloved child, so I can imagine how he loves you. When he gets along with you It must be very gentle and make you feel happy.

"You're so happy and you don't think you deserve happiness, you're dirty, you're mean.

"In your previous life, you were extremely stupid. You gave up your dignity and knelt beside that person to beg for his mercy, but in return you were ruthlessly abandoned. He kicked you off your feet mercilessly, leaving you to pity me Begging for that little bit of humble love, the tenderness of the past has turned into bubbles—”

"Please don't say it." Gu Huayan bit his own lip, bleeding from the bite.

Rong Huan stripped him naked and whipped him, every word he said was like a whip, lashing him hard.

"Gu Yaoyan, let me be frank, I can't save you, the only one who can save you is yourself," Rong Huan smiled, "Crush the old you, you have to kill 'him', you can save yourself." really come out."

When Shen Xiangting came down from the second floor, Gu Huayan raised his eyes and called out with a smile, "Brother Ting."

"You are also sick," Rong Huan's voice came from the phone, "Maybe you can consider telling him the truth, be the real you, and stop pretending it doesn't matter."

"I don't want to tell him," Gu Huayan looked at Shen Xiangting with a smile, but what he said to Rong Huan was unhappy, "I don't want him to blame himself for the past he doesn't know. If he knows, he must He would think that he was not brave enough to walk towards me, so he pushed me into the abyss. Only I have this memory, so I can bear it. He knows it’s just one more person suffering, why bother.”

"Okay," Rong Huan guessed that Shen Xiangting had come over there, so he couldn't continue the chat, "Then let's do this first, you can call me anytime."

"Well," Gu Huayan continued, "Doctor Rong, you said Mr. Jing will be on a business trip next week. If you believe me, ask him to change the flight, even if it's a day late."

Rong Huan was taken aback for a moment, not knowing whether he believed it genuinely or not, so he nodded, "I see."

Shen Xiangting came over: "Who are you calling with? You are smiling so happily."

"It's Dr. Rong. I've got an illness. Talk to Dr. Rong. Dr. Rong said it's all right. It's just a normal illness. Don't worry about it."

"So," he nodded, and walked into the kitchen, "what's delicious?"

"Sydney and hawthorn syrup," Gu Huayan also entered the room, stood beside him and smiled, "It's for fire."

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In fact, a small broken car has been expanded. Adults can find their own way to find it. I just want to make a small reminder here.