mousepad-d2 Chapter 69 Tears
Chapter 69 Tears
"Tell me, what's going on in this situation now?" Yuan Cisheng looked at the circle of psychiatrists sitting around the conference table, his face as ugly as an iron plate.
"The relationship between my wife and I finally eased up a bit, and you all said that his recovery is very good, why did it suddenly become like this again?"
As Yuan Ci spoke, his temples began to hurt again and throbbed.He Jingnian looks normal now, but in fact, he is even more wrong than before. His whole state is completely in the same state as three years ago, and his memory also stays at that time.
The doctor in charge of the expert team stood up with sweat on his head and reported the diagnosis result to him nervously.
The general idea is that He Jingnian has entered an important stage of mental recovery. His illness was caused by various factors for a long time, and the experience three years ago may be the source of his mental trauma. blow to let go.
"What you have to do now is to accompany your wife through this period, heal the wound in his heart, and help him get out of this most painful memory."
The original voice listened silently, pondered for a while, and asked: "I have done many things to be sorry to him before. He...has always loved me and missed me, but I never recognized him, which made him very sad. Could this be the root cause of his pain that you said?"
"It's very possible." The attending doctor sighed, "It will be much easier if you know. In any case, please treat your wife well during this period, and be careful not to let him be stimulated again. Otherwise, the consequences will be disastrous, I'm afraid We are really helpless.”
Following the doctor's advice, don't let He Jingnian stay in an unfamiliar environment that he knows, so as not to cause unrest, Yuan Cisheng still took him back to the Ruishan Royal Court in Chuanyuan City, and only told him about the situation a while ago. Take him to Yunzhou City for vacation.
He Jingnian obediently accepted all his arrangements, and after a brief shock, he chose to believe what he said——
They got married, their first child was over three years old, and their second baby was over two months old.
"But... what about the contract?" He Jingnian asked in a low voice, "Why didn't you let me go?"
Yuan Ci was taken aback, then gritted his teeth and said, "Let that contract go to hell!"
He Jingnian seemed to be frightened by his violent reaction, shrank his shoulders, and lowered his eyelashes with a look of resignation.
"Niannian, what's on your mind?" Yuan Ci put his arms around him gently, "Tell me, no matter what it is, I can help you achieve it."
He Jing's back was stiff, and he raised his head and forced a smile at him, "It's nothing, thank you, Mr. Yuan."
"Niannian, are you afraid of me?"
He Jingnian shook his head.
The original voice shook his hand, feeling the soft and cool palm struggle subconsciously, he twisted it lightly, and said warmly: "Niannian, no matter what dissatisfaction you have with me in the future, I will change it. If you If you are really unhappy, you can beat me and scold me, I am very willing."
He Jingnian blinked, as if he felt that there was a serious illness in his head.
Next week is the new financial season, and Shengheng's summer new product launch will also start planning. Yuan Cisheng has to spare part of his time every day to go to the company to deal with work.
In the first regular meeting of the second quarter, the executives all knew that they would be boned as usual.Listening to the footsteps of the heels of leather shoes stepping on the marble floor tiles in the corridor outside the meeting room, their expressions gradually became heavy. .
One executive tried to lighten the atmosphere with a smile, and then half-jokingly said to his companion: "I hope today's meeting is not our funeral."
Several executives around turned their heads and looked at him indifferently.
He shrugged awkwardly, "Hum...I'm sorry."
Yuan Cisheng walked in, completely black from head to toe, with a pale face, and his expression was hard not to remind people of Fa Hai, who was holding a purple gold bowl and preparing to collect demons.
Two hours later, the tortured executives thought, well, this is indeed a funeral.
It was almost noon, and the meeting was not over yet, but there was a knock on the door outside. It was Secretary Jin.All the executives looked at each other, wondering if Secretary Jin had been taken away?
Who doesn't know that even if the sky falls during the meeting of the big boss, he can't be disturbed. As the strongest survival king of the entire group, he would take the initiative to break the big taboo and die.
The executives watched the show with great interest, and saw Secretary Jin say a few words to Yuan Cisheng, Yuan Cisheng's expression changed drastically, just like Fahai who failed to collect demons and was flooded with Jinshan.
God, what happened?Sheng Heng's share price plummeted?How many large mines were shut down?Otherwise, how could there be such a big expression fluctuation on the big boss's face?
Yuan Cisheng walked out quickly, even staggering a bit under his feet.
Secretary Jin comes in and announces the adjournment.
An executive asked nervously: "Is there anything wrong with the group?"
"Oh, that's not because of that." Secretary Jin pushed his glasses, "Director Yuan is going to eat with his wife. The soup that Madam cooked specially, Director Yuan is afraid that it will be cold."
"..."
Yuan Cisheng hurried out, and just as he stepped out the door, he saw He Jingnian sitting on the sofa in the waiting area.Knees together, hugging the bento bag, eyes wide open, cute and gentle, his heart suddenly softened into water.
"Niannian, you don't have to come here on purpose. Besides, I will go back immediately after the meeting. Didn't you agree that we will eat together at home?"
He Jingnian lowered his head, "Sorry, I forgot."
Seeing his wronged look like he made some mistakes, the original speech made his heart ache, and when he thought that it was his own fault again, he wished he could break his heart and apologize.
After thinking about it, he immediately led the people to eat at the revolving restaurant near the company. On the [-]th floor, he could casually overlook the sparkling river view below.
After ordering a table of dishes for He Jingnian, Yuan Cisheng opened the insulated soup pot, and was just about to drink the soup that He Jingnian made for him, but the strong smell of ginger and coriander hit the sky, almost sending him away .
He Jingnian sipped the pudding and said, "Aunt Yang Li said that you like fish the most, and you especially like ginger and coriander, so I put a lot of it in. Would you like it?"
The hand holding the bowl in the original speech couldn't stop shaking.He took a sip, his face was serene, "It's delicious."
"Then drink it while it's hot, the essence is in the soup."
After Yuan Cisheng drank the last sip of soup, he suddenly felt that the ginger and coriander were actually okay.Did he drink soup?It's all the love for him every year!
"Niannian, you are so kind to me." Yuan Cisheng put his arms on the table, the sky outside the floor-to-ceiling windows just fell into his eyes, and the galaxy was thousands of miles away.
He Jingnian held the small silver spoon tightly, and buried his head even lower.
"Niannian, why are you so nice to me?" Yuan Ci's voice got closer, "Do you like me?"
He Jingnian's hands trembled, and he dropped the spoon in fright.
Yuan Cisheng leaned over, kissed his sun-tanned pink cheeks, and then kissed his slightly parted pale pink lips, which were softer and sweeter than pudding.
He Jingnian didn't dare to hide, and let him kiss, the tip of his ear was so red that it was about to bleed, and his clear and clean eyes were covered with a thin mist of tears.
Gently wiped away the tears at the end of his eyes with his fingertips, Yuan Ci said, "Niannian, I like you very much."
He Jingnian stared at him blankly, and after a while he asked a particularly silly question, "Why...?"
"Then, why does Niannian like me?"
He Jingnian blushed and was too shy to speak.
"I like Niannian without any reason." Yuan Cisheng held his hand and pressed on his left chest, "Even my heart is given by Niannian."
He Jingnian lowered his eyes, he didn't know whether he should be happy, or even what kind of expression to show.It was as if he was in a lucid dream, where he was shackled by an invisible shell, everything was real, but in fact it was all false.
In the afternoon, the two went to the kindergarten to pick up cakes from school.The little girl was so happy that she kept chattering about what happened in the kindergarten along the way.
Yuan Cisheng carried her daughter into the child seat, fed her with almond biscuits, and was sprayed with crumbs all over her body.He Jingnian looked at them, his eyes were hot, and his vision gradually became blurred.
Still... like a dream.A dream he had long ago.He never dared to hope that it could be realized, but now his dream has come true.He began to be afraid, afraid that after the short-term happiness, he would be pushed into the abyss again. He had experienced this kind of despair, and he understood it.
In the evening, Yuan Cisheng returned to the bedroom after coaxing Gao Gao to sleep, and when he opened the door, he froze.
He Jingnian was wearing his shirt, sitting on the edge of the bed with his head half down.Because he had just taken a bath, his whole body was covered in powder, and his half-wet black hair hung down softly, sticking to his snow-white and slender neck.Both hands were placed on the knees, the slender fingers curled up nervously, and the knuckles and knees were even more pink.
Yuan Ci rolled his Adam's apple, walked towards him as if possessed, pulled the blanket around him, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Why are you dressed like this, aren't you afraid of catching cold?"
He Jingnian raised his eyelashes and glanced at him, but didn't speak.
Yuan Cisheng sat down behind him, hugged him into his arms from behind, and dried his hair.
He Jingnian's hair was grown soft and dense, flowing between his fingers, rustling, warm and smooth, as if stroking the hair of an innocent and petite animal.He blew very carefully, the water evaporated hotly, his fingers became damp, his heart was as soft as cotton, and itched as if it was full of flying catkins.
"Every year."
He Jingnian turned his head, his whole face was covered with clouds because of the hot wind.Yuan Cisheng endured a little dizziness and asked him, "Can I smell your hair?"
He Jingnian opened his eyes wide, as if he didn't understand what he meant.With such an expression, Yuan Cisheng couldn't bear it anymore, wrapped his arms around his thin shoulders, pressed his face into his dark hair, and took a deep breath of the fragrance of the hair.
He Jingnian straightened his body, had heard enough of his hair, and began to greedily sniff the skin on the back of his neck. The man's breath was so hot that it gradually moved downstream and penetrated into his clothes again. collar.He trembled all over, feeling a snake jumping out from the charcoal basin, wrapping around his body.
The blanket slipped down slowly in a slight struggle, and He Jingnian clenched his loose white shirt tightly, his face was so red that it was about to bleed.The bed sheet is dark gray, but he is pink and white, like the most eye-catching strawberry cream on the cake, with a light roll of the tip of the tongue, you can swallow the softness and sweetness into your stomach.
I tried the original speech, and it didn't work.
"Niannian," he said seriously, "you are so sweet."
He Jingnian's eyelashes trembled, tears streaming down his face.
Yuan Cisheng hugged him to his body, raised his face halfway, opened those beautiful green eyes, and asked him: "Niannian, you haven't answered me yet, why do you like me?"
He Jingnian clenched his lower lip and remained silent.
Yuan Ci held his cheeks and said nothing to him, "Say, why?"
He Jingnian whimpered and hummed softly, not being so breathless that he didn't speak.
"You can say whatever you want." Yuanci's voice kept coaxing, wanting to hear him admit that he was Liao Xia, who had been in love with Liao Xia for many years.Wanting to be loved by him is not a silent love, not a love without intention, but a love that is open and aboveboard and can be declared.
However, He Jingnian was so worn down by him that his eyes were hazy with tears, and his whole body was stained with gorgeous pink, but he didn't even utter the answer he wanted.
The voice of the original speech was a little annoyed, and the love became more intense.He bit off the buttons of his shirt to play with the buds of early spring cherry blossoms in the white snow.Soon, the thin peach-colored cherry buds bloomed early, turning into the eye-catching red of autumn cherry blossoms.
He Jingnian supported the bed with one hand, and covered his mouth with the back of the other hand, trying to block the overflow of his voice.After a while, he finally couldn't bear the sore feeling in his heart, sobbing and crying.
As soon as he cried, Yuan Ci panicked and asked him if he hurt him himself.He Jingnian sobbed and did not speak, and the tears fell even more fiercely.
The original speech sounded like coaxing a child, saying: "I'll blow it to you." After finishing speaking, he really started blowing.
One heat and one cool, He Jingnian shivered, supported his shoulders with both hands and pushed hard.But how could he push it? Yuanci's voice hugged him all over himself, like a very hungry Snoopy, arching his head back and forth on him.
He Jingnian didn't dare to look down at him, he was extremely ashamed, and cried, "Mr. Yuan, if you do this again, I will hate you."
The original voice stopped moving, like Snoopy who was expecting to be fed nutrition cream, his eyes were abnormally bright, "So Niannian likes me now, right?"
He Jingnian shook his head slowly.
The invisible dog ears and tail of the original speech drooped instantly.
He Jingnian parted his long arms, got into bed, and covered himself tightly.
The voice of Yuan Ci leaned over, kissed his black hair that was exposed outside, and shook him gently, "Be good every year, open the door."
He Jingnian shrank even smaller, covering her tightly.After a while, Yuan Cisheng heard low sobs from under the quilt, muffled and suppressed.
Yuan Cisheng raised his heart in an instant, coaxed him softly, and patiently loosened the quilt that was tightly held together, only to see that the person inside was flushed from crying, and a little wet with tears. block pillow corner.
"Niannian...I'm sorry." It's always right to apologize first, and the original voice asked, "Why are you crying?"
He Jingnian closed his eyes, another big tear rolled down from under his long and black eyelashes.He trembled and said, "Please stop teasing me."
The original voice was stunned, "Tricking you... I didn't, why do you think so?"
He Jingnian wiped away his tears with his knuckles, choked with sobs, and said, "You purposely made me dress like this, bullying me... murdering me."
"I... I was wrong, Niannian, I was wrong. I was too narrow-minded, I didn't want to bully you, I just..." Yuan Cisheng held his hand and pressed his cheek, "I'm sorry, I used to be very bad to you, I know. But every year, now is not the past, many things are different, and I am also different. Can you just treat those things in your memory as a nightmare? Dream Wake up and everything will be fine."
He Jingnian was going to be confused again, he closed his eyes, and in front of his eyes were countless messy pictures like broken glass, the scenes were constantly changing, he wanted to see but couldn't see anything clearly.No matter how hard he tried, his head would become violently dizzy, and he was so uncomfortable that he wanted to vomit.
The voice of Yuan Ci came up from behind, hugging him, just like when he was pregnant three years ago.When holding He Jingnian, my mood is always full and empty, happy and painful.
"Year after year, those saddest times have long passed, don't think about it anymore. If you want to come out, I will also come out. Let's work hard together, okay?"
He Jingnian bit his thumb desperately, choked up silently so that no one could hear him, and tears kept streaming down his face.
"Niannian, I like you, I like you very much." Yuan Cisheng closed his eyes and pressed against his shoulder, his eyes were very warm, no longer two cold glass beads. "We are destined, you are the angel God sent to me, save me, every year, you save me, do you know, you saved me."
He and He Jingnian, it seems that he is like a savior, with just a little bit of kindness, He Jingnian is grateful to this day.It was not until later that he realized that this was not the case at all, He Jingnian was the one who saved him.
Liao Xia had already followed Xie Lisi to the real clean place, leaving him as a puppet created by Yuan Zhengye.For more than ten years, he has been locked in a shell. He resisted everyone's approach, and naturally isolated himself from the world.
But he didn't know that in an invisible place, there was always someone remembering him, waiting for him, throwing a spider's thread called "heart" at him, as long as he stretched out his hand and grabbed it.
He Jingnian wanted to shake his head, but he couldn't. If he relaxed a little, he couldn't bear crying anymore.
"Before I met you, I was just living, and you gave me everything I should have as a human being. Year after year, you enrich my life."
"Don't... say such things to me." He Jingnian struggled to force a sour voice out of his throat, "I don't want to hear it."
Yuan Cisheng held his shoulders, turned him around gently, and found that his face was already full of tears.His hands were shaking in panic, and he frantically wiped away his tears.
He Jingnian pushed his hand away, lowered his head and sobbed: "I don't want to listen... and I won't believe what you say. I know, you are just happy for a while... Coax me. Don't coax me, the more you Coax me... the sadder I am."
The original voice asked with red eyes: "Why...?"
"Soon... soon you will let me go..." He Jingnian cried and twitched, "I know, soon you will find that Walkman, and then...then I can no longer stay I'm here, and I'm going somewhere else. I can't take the baby away, and I gave you back the walkman... I don't want to give it back to you, why should I give it back to you? It's mine, I have always treated it like a baby. Give it back to you, I have nothing left."
Yuancisheng's eyeballs trembled, and his teeth bit his lips to bleed. "I've already heard it." He said hoarsely, "I've never hated myself so much when I listened to it. Do you know why?"
He Jingnian stared at him in astonishment with tears in his eyes.
"Why... I haven't been able to find out." Yuan Ci wanted to laugh at himself, but his eyes were even more red, "You gave me so many hints, every year. My eyes and heart are blind. I can't figure out the answer myself, would you...will you tell me?"
He Jingnian froze for a moment, then suddenly struggled to get off the ground, and ran out desperately.Yuan Cisheng had already been frightened by his posture of the little animal fleeing in fright. It was almost a muscle memory, and he caught up with him in three steps and two steps, and pulled him into his arms.
He Jingnian struggled at first, then lost his strength after a while, and pressed his fists against his chest, crying.At the beginning, he suppressed his crying, but then he cried louder and louder, his facial features were wrinkled, only his mouth was wide open, and tears rolled down his face, which was flushed with suffocation.
The original speech has never seen him cry like this. No matter how sad He Jingnian is, he would never cry too much. Now he is crying like a child, infinitely wronged, infinitely sad, as if he wants to store up all the emotions in his heart. All vented out.
Yuan Ci was at a loss for what to do, was terrified by him, wiped his tears and blew his nose, was in a state of desperation, didn't even know how to coax him, and habitually wanted to kneel down for him.But He Jingnian clung to his clothes and cried so loudly that the sun and the moon were darkened.He could only hug him tightly and stroke his sweaty back and hair from crying.
The thin body, full of tears and sour breath, was lying in his arms, trembling, and his heart was trembling along with it, bumping on the tip of the broken glass.He was very distressed and terrified, how could there be such a way of crying, if he kept crying, he was really afraid that He Jingnian's whole body would cry.
However, he wondered if he would cry sooner or later in this scene.There were too many tears, not overnight tears, not just three years of tears, but tears accumulated for more than ten years since that winter.
"Why didn't I find out until now, I've obviously forgotten about me...!" He Jingnian beat him, crying weakly, like beating cotton.
"I knew when you didn't come in the second year. You will never come. But, wanting to see you again is my only wish. I know it's really stupid to persist, but if I give up, I don't even have any hope. I'm sad, every day is sad, I want to go home, I want to find my mother, every day I want to cry, only when I think of you, I can cheer up a little bit."
"But...why..." The words came to his throat, choking hard, He Jingnian gasped for breath, and shed tears again. "Either discover me from the very beginning...or never discover me, why did you come to tell me you know now!"
Yuan Ci moved his lips, he didn't understand, so he could only apologize, comfort him, coax him, and say that he loved him.He Jingnian wiped his tears vigorously with the back of his hand, and said, "You don't have to apologize to me, but I should apologize."
The original voice asked him why, but he refused to say, and cried even harder, biting his lower lip until it was stained with blood.Yuan Ci said helplessly, twisted a hot towel to wipe his face, He Jingnian twisted his head stubbornly, unable to stop twitching.
The original voice was trembling, and after thinking for a long time, he finally came up with a sentence to make him happy, "Don't cry, look at your blushing, like a monkey's butt."
He Jingnian turned his head, "What did you say?"
The original voice didn't dare to speak anymore, and after struggling for a long time, a flash of inspiration drove Snoopy in.
The big-eared flower dog has never been able to deal with him. As soon as he got close to the cage, he grinned at him and barked like a howling donkey.However, as soon as it saw He Jingnian, it immediately changed its face, being gentle and petite, cute and coquettish, and finally made He Jingnian laugh out of tears.
"You're so good, you still have a bun face." He Jingnian squeezed Snoopy's lips.Yuan Cisheng stood aside, with a serious face, watching all this indifferently with the "cold eyes" that Jinjiang's hero loves most.
Snoopy's dog's head was beautifully placed on He Jingnian's lap, any Jingnian squeezed back and forth.He Jingnian likes its big ears very much, they are soft and smooth, anyone who touches them will know.
The sound screen of the original speech was not firm, and he frowned and said, "Don't touch it."
He Jingnian asked, "Why?"
The original speech sounded disgusted, "It stinks."
He Jingnian picked up the dog's ears and sniffed it, "No way, it smells like a puppy."
The original speech was completely speechless, this dog is fat and strong like a gas tank, is it a puppy?
Snoopy turned his butt towards him and flicked his tail triumphantly, provocatively.
He Jingnian hugged the dog and said in a nasal voice, "I want to sleep with Snoopy."
Yuan Ci pointed at himself, "What about me?"
He Jingnian ignored him, and lay down with his head depressed. The big-eared flower dog came into the room and lay down beside him with a charming posture and a charming look.
Yuan Cisheng clenched his fists and turned to go out.He doesn't care about dogs. If he argues with dogs, isn't he also a dog?
In the middle of the night, the door opened without a sound, and a black shadow sneaked in, picked up Snoopy without anyone noticing, covered his mouth with one hand, grabbed his claws with the other, and caught him out with lightning speed. .
Then, he got into the bed by himself, and the man occupied the dog's nest.
He Jingnian didn't fall asleep all this time, he closed his eyes and let him do those actions.After a while, Yuan Cisheng stretched out his hand, moved his head closer, and kissed him thinking that he would not be discovered by him.It was only after a kiss that I realized something was wrong, it was sour and wet, and my lips were stained with warmth.
"Niannian..." Yuanci asked nervously, "Why are you crying again...?"
He Jingnian twitched, and said in a low voice, "Leave me alone."
"Don't cry, I beg you. You are really unhappy in your heart. You can beat me and scold me. I just beg you not to cry. If you keep crying, how can your body bear it?"
He Jingnian didn't speak. In the silence, the sobs were distinctly distinct, and then gradually quieted down.Just when Yuan Ci wondered if he finally stopped crying, he suddenly turned over, buried himself in his arms, put his head against his chest, and burst into tears as if he couldn't bear it.
"Sorry……"
"I just wanted to see you, so I deliberately asked the director to participate in the celebration reception."
"That night, I... could have pushed you away, but I didn't. Not only did I not, I hugged you. I knew I couldn't do this, but I still couldn't restrain myself. I... I just wanted to hug you As soon as I hug you, I know that if I miss this time, I will never have another chance."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Originally, I wanted you to be happy more strongly than anyone else, that's all, that's enough. You are so kind to me, I should keep you in my heart. But I just don't understand Satisfaction, I didn't push you away, I was too greedy, I made a mistake first, I'm sorry, can you forgive me..."
The weeping sound stopped abruptly.
All the sobs and apologies were sealed in a passionate kiss.
"Are you just brooding over this?" Yuan Ci said with tears in his voice, kissing his tears non-stop, "I am the one who should say I'm sorry, because I didn't cherish you properly, you are mine Baby, irreplaceable baby, every year, I love you, I love you very, very much. Even, I hope you won’t be so good, bad, greedy, and you’d better be as bad as me.”
He Jingnian sobbed and asked, "Why?"
The voice of the original speech brushed away his sweaty forehead hair, kissed his forehead, and said reverently: "In this way, I love you, and I can love you more righteously."
He Jingnian was stunned, his eyes slowly opened, he put his arms around his neck, and burst into tears.
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