mousepad-d2 Chapter 77 The Past
Chapter 77 The Past
The voice of the original speech left, and the people disappeared before dawn.He didn't say where he was going, and He Jingnian only received a short text message on his mobile phone, saying that he would stay abroad for a while to handle the company's overseas business, so Gao Gao asked him to take care of it first.
He Jingnian stared at the screen for a long time until the screen went dark.
Last night, at the beach, what Yuan Cisheng said and did afterwards, he can't remember clearly.The whole person seemed to have drunk a fragment, forcibly erasing that memory blank, refusing to recall it.
In all the brain cells, only one picture is deeply imprinted——
Yuan Cisheng watched the firework stick being swept away by the waves, and the moment the fire went out, his eyes dimmed completely, as if forever.
After sitting for a while holding the phone, He Jingnian stood up and prepared to pack his things.However, he soon discovered that there was no need for this, Yuan Cisheng had already arranged everything before leaving.
Outside, the car that picked them up was waiting there, and the driver asked him, where is he going?He thought about it, and said that he should go back to Shen's house first.
The driver responded and saw that he looked a little weird, so he asked him what was wrong and if there was anything else.He Jingnian shook his head, it just occurred to him that he finally had a place to go back to, but what about the original speech?Is there an original voice?
Zhuang Manyin was naturally overjoyed when he saw him bring his daughter home, hugged the cake and kissed again and again.But looking around, he didn't see Yuan Cisheng's figure.She was worried that something was wrong with the two of them, and she was afraid that He Jingnian would be in a worse mood, so she didn't ask any more questions on the spot, but sighed secretly.
After waiting for a few days, Zhuang Manyin felt that He Jingnian was in a better mood, so he asked him what happened to Yuan Cisheng on the sidelines.He Jingnian didn't hide anything, and replied bluntly: "We are not together anymore."
really.Zhuang Manyin's heart was heavy.Yuan Ci's voice is so attached to his own baby, wishing to stay by his side all the time, if not, how could he not come with him.
"Can you tell mom why?" Zhuang Manyin hesitated, "Is it because of... the child?"
He Jingnian was slightly taken aback, "You know?"
"Yuan Cisheng came to our house and begged me and your father to agree to you being together. He already told me." Zhuang Manyin paused, "If you are blaming him for the child, I would rather Say something for him. He didn't mean to hide it from you. At that time, you were in a critical period of psychological rehabilitation, and there was still some time before the operation..."
"Mom, I didn't blame him for the child." He Jingnian raised his voice, "Why do you all think that I can't even understand this level of difficulty?"
Zhuang Manyin blinked, "You...you?"
"It's nothing." He Jingnian realized that he was in a hurry, and said in a muffled voice, "Anyway, it's not because of this matter, and I didn't quarrel with him, let alone the separation."
"What?!" Zhuang Manyin was startled, "Isn't he the one who mentioned it?"
"Ah."
"Don't lie to your mother, do you think your mother will believe it?"
He Jingnian was a little speechless, "Why did I lie to you?"
"But that's the original speech!" Zhuang Manyin blurted out, "How much he likes you depends on the individual. I used to be scared by his liking so I didn't agree to you being together. His kind of Like too extreme too much, the brain is a little abnormal."
He Jingnian stopped talking, and unconsciously scratched the edge of the sofa with his fingers. After a while, he opened his mouth in a low voice: "He is not normal, and I may not be normal either."
"Baby, mom is not helping him. To be honest, I still don't like him and I don't agree with you being together." Zhuang Manyin said, "But this time he will take the initiative to separate from you, it must be true Heartbroken. No matter what, it's not good to hurt someone who loves you so much."
"I didn't quarrel with him." He Jingnian raised his voice a little, then lowered it again. "I have recovered, and I can remember everything, but those things... those things are not his problem alone. I don't want to hold on to it anymore. I plan to continue living with him. Even if Not for ourselves, but for GaoGao. GaoGao is small, but she knows everything."
Zhuang Manyin shook his head, and said: "If you really want to live with Yuan Cisheng purely for GaoGao, you will explain it clearly to him at the time, and you can pass it if you can, and if you can't, just break up. You see Now, after you come back, you have been depressed, you can't eat, you can't sleep, you just compete with yourself."
"...I didn't." He Jingnian lowered his head, "I was just thinking about something."
Zhuang Manyin handed him the phone, "Look."
He Jingnian didn't know what she was going to show him, so he looked up feebly and couldn't help being stunned.
"Mom, why did you call him so many times?" He flicked the screen, "Every, every day? How many calls?"
"I don't even let me go on WeChat. I ask in the morning, at noon, and at night. Oh, and he has repeatedly emphasized not to let you know." Zhuang Manyin thought it was funny when he said, "Your dad saw me holding I almost wonder if there is someone outside.”
"No, what are you talking about? Is something wrong?"
"What else can I say, just go through those few things." Zhuang Manyin snapped up his fingers, imitating the tone of the original speech, "Mom, good morning. Is Niannian up yet? He slept well last night Okay? If he doesn't sleep well, you can give him a few more soft pillows to increase his sense of security..."
He Jingnian blushed, "Mom! Can you ignore him from now on? How can you tell him everything?"
"Okay, okay, I won't talk anymore. Mom is also worried about you, and I hope you can have a happy life." Zhuang Manyin rubbed the back of his head, "Niannian is my mother's sweetheart. When my mother sees you sad, how can she feel sad?" Nice."
"I know." He Jingnian hugged the sofa cushions and buried his face deeply, "Let me think about it. I have to think about many things."
Zhuang Manyin agreed, and never mentioned the original speech to him again, but she had been observing openly and secretly, and the more she observed, the more she felt that something was wrong. The days are getting more and more practical.
Every day, except for work, he spends most of his time on his daughter, picking up and dropping off, eating, reading, playing games... It seems that he is used to this kind of peaceful life when the man is gone and he takes the cub back to his mother's house alone.
well.Zhuang Manyin couldn't help sighing again, why is being a mother so difficult, there is always a heart that can't finish it.
Gao Gao lived in Shen's house for more than a week, and she was so beautiful that she couldn't think of leaving.Both Zhuang Manyin and Shen Peng spoiled her to the sky. In just a few days, all kinds of toys, skirts and leather shoes were piled up in the whole room.
One day, the little girl pointed to the illustrations in the fairy tale book, and said to her grandparents childishly, "Baby unicorns are so cute. GaoGao also wants to have a baby unicorn."
As a result, within two days, Shen Pengzhen brought her a snow-white foal, which was said to be a purebred born of an excellent champion horse in the racetrack.
"Look, cake, this racecourse will be yours from now on." Shen Peng smiled all over his face, "You can come here to play with your pony at any time, and you can also raise other small animals you like here."
GaoGao stroked the soft fur of the little pony, and narrowed his eyes with a smile, "Thank you, grandpa! The pony is so cute, and GaoGao likes grandpa the most!"
Shen Peng breathed a sigh of relief, "That's good, grandpa is still worried all the time, afraid that we will be unhappy."
He Jingnian was confused, "Why?"
Zhuang Manyin said: "Your father felt guilty that he couldn't give his granddaughter a real unicorn."
"..." He Jingnian couldn't help it anymore, "Mom, you can't spoil your children like this anymore."
"The little girl just wants to be spoiled." Zhuang Manyin pursed her lips, "What's the matter, doesn't her father spoil her?"
He Jingnian let out a "huh", "Original speech? He's more than that, he's just spoiled."
Speaking of this, He Jingnian felt that he had a stomach full of things to say.
"As you can see, GaoGao is now rounder than her peers. Do you know why? Just her dad, who makes delicious food for her every day. She can cook whatever she wants, and if she can't cook it Go learn it, if it doesn’t work, invite the chef to your home.”
"I said it's all meat and sweets. You should let the child eat more vegetables. As a result, her father promised well on the surface, but when Gao Gao pouted his mouth, he immediately relented and secretly helped her eat vegetables and vegetables. I ate the blue flower and thought I didn't know."
Zhuang Manyin waved his hand, "Forget it, can you still force the child if he doesn't like to eat? Besides, every time the doctor says that the cake is growing well, just dot it, it looks like a blessing.
"GaoGao's kindergarten sports meeting, long rope jumping, the parents are all sitting next to them honestly, cheering for the children normally, do you know what he is like? He brought a group of people and pulled around the playground. Banners and slogans."
"GaoGao jumped into one, applauded like thunder, and yelled through the horn, 'GaoGao, you are too good, you will always be the best, come on, come on!' He didn't know that children couldn't stand being bullied by their parents in front of their classmates. Are you calling me by nickname? You even dragged me to shout together, and everyone in the playground was looking at us. Even GaoGao felt ashamed of her father."
Zhuang Manyin listened, and glanced sideways at He Jingnian who was talking vigorously, "You are still smiling so happily when you feel ashamed?"
"Am... did I laugh?" He Jingnian touched his cheek.
"Yes." GaoGao, who was still sticking with the little white horse, moved her little head closer, "Daddy, you've been laughing all the time."
He Jingnian was serious, "...children are not allowed to listen to what adults say."
"The most irritating thing is that when I help you with homework, it's fine if he doesn't come to help, and it adds to the chaos. I teach you the math and silent words, and he also sits by the side and listens together, and even rushes to raise his hand to speak. Still learn cakes and call me teacher."
Zhuang Manyin persuaded: "Forget it, he also wants to study with the child."
"Then what's the matter that he deliberately made a wrong question and asked me to punish him?"
Zhuang Manyin said "ah", "What did he ask you to punish him for?"
For some reason, He Jingnian suddenly looked a little embarrassed, as if he wanted to recall some terrible past. "That's not the point, the point is..."
He couldn't go on.
Zhuang Manyin looked at him, "What's the point?"
He Jingnian lowered his head, "It's nothing, let's not mention him."
Zhuang Manyin said, "Oh."
He Jingnian was bored for a while, "Mom, did he contact you again later?"
"I told him, since you guys are over, Niannian doesn't want you to know anything about him." Zhuang Manyin saw that he was silent, "What's wrong, did I say something wrong?"
He Jingnian shook his head, watching his daughter ride the little white horse.Although there is a horse trainer to guide him, and the little white horse is also very well-behaved, it is his first time riding a horse, with his small arms tightly hugging the horse's neck, both excited and nervous.
He followed up, trying to protect his daughter, when he heard Zhuang Manyin say: "He also had a pony when he was a child. When his mother took him to ride for the first time, he almost fell off the horse's back and was scared." Gotta cry."
"I know." He Jingnian said in a low voice, "but he practiced hard and soon he will be able to control it proficiently."
"People are constantly growing." Zhuang Manyin paused, "He has grown faster than others since he was a child, because he worked harder than others. However, hard work does not mean that people can grow into their ideals. look."
He Jingnian didn't say a word.
"Since we can't control ourselves, what right do we have to ask others?" Zhuang Manyin's tone was a little low, "Forcing our own fantasies on others is not only hurting ourselves, but also hurting that person. Mom made this kind of mistake before. , I also know how uncomfortable it is."
"He is not my fantasy." He Jingnian raised his eyes, "He is my hope. It has become a habit to rely on him and regard him as my only spiritual support. Habits are not easy to change. Even if I am sick or something I can’t even remember, but as long as I hear his name, I still feel comforted.”
"You have always been my mother's hope." Zhuang Manyin blurted out, "It is because I have experienced similar things with you that my mother can understand you. In fact, my mother doesn't care about anything. It doesn't matter what happens to you and him. I hope you will be really happy"
He Jingnian shook his head, unusually calm.
"I have thought about it a lot these days, and the more I think about it, the more I can understand his decision to separate. He likes clean and pure things, and I have never been able to give them to him. Maybe from the very beginning, the day I met him again, I I hate him uncontrollably. It’s not for any other reason, I’m just not reconciled, I can’t accept the fact that people will change, which is so simple that it couldn’t be simpler.”
"Now, he already knows everything. Seeing me in the future will only remind him of his past self, and of me trying to find the embers of the past from him. This kind of me... is very bad, very bad. If I force myself To be together, we would all be worse."
"It's time to wake up, we should all wake up from our dreams. It's better for us to be like this."
"Be nice to everyone."
Zhuang Manyin listened, silent for a long time, then nodded slowly, "Okay, as long as you two don't regret it."
GaoGao stayed at grandma's house for a few days, and as soon as the novelty wore off, she began to miss her father, and kept asking He Jingnian when her father would come back from a business trip.
Neither He Jingnian nor Yuan Cisheng told the child about their decision to separate, which is quite tacit.In GaoGao's concept, Dad is the one who will never leave. As long as Daddy is still by her side, it means that Dad and Daddy are fine, so she has no doubts at all.
In the evening, He Jingnian hugged his daughter and had a video chat with Yuan Cisheng who was far away abroad.This was the first time he had seen Yuanci's voice in these days, and he felt that he was in a good state of mind, as usual, joking with his daughter, which made Guigui giggle.
He Jingnian's tense and tense back gradually relaxed, and it seemed that the first step into a divorced couple was not as difficult as he imagined.And strictly speaking, I have never really been with Yuan Cisheng, and I am not even qualified as a divorced couple.
Before the call ended, Yuan Ci's gaze that had been lingering on GaoGao's body finally turned slightly, looked at him, and asked in a very calm tone: "How are you recently?"
He Jingnian was taken aback, "I'm fine. How about you? Is work going well?"
"I am OK."
"That's good." He Jingnian nodded, "Then let's do this for today, I'm going to take cake to sleep."
"Good night."
"You should also rest more, don't be too tired."
"it is good."
The screen went dark.
He Jingnian stared at the screen in a daze for a while, and after coaxing Gao Gao to sleep, he went to bed and lay down.
He had a dream all night.
The dream is full of original speech.
When he woke up the next day, He Jingnian touched the pillow and found that it was wet, so he quickly removed the pillowcase and threw it into the washing machine.
In fact, these days, he hasn't dreamed of Yuan Cisheng in a day. He didn't expect that he just saw him through the screen yesterday, and he paid back all the dreams he owed at night.
Zhuang Manyin and Shen Peng spent a period of time at home playing with their grandchildren, and they couldn't stay any longer. They said they were going on a trip, and they even signed up for a VIP group, including He Jingnian and Gao Gao.
"Mom, I don't want to go, you can take cakes."
"Isn't it good to go out and relax?" Zhuang Manyin seemed to think of something, "Oh, don't you want to go to Russia?"
"...I just don't want to go out, and I get annoyed when I see people."
"Don't worry, Yuan Cisheng left Russia yesterday to fly to another country." Zhuang Manyin said, "And, so what if he is there? We are just going on a trip, don't you think me and your dad I took you there specially to meet him?"
"……No."
"Oh, so that means you thought of this layer for the first time, right?"
He Jingnian changed his posture, and continued to nestle on the sofa and watch TV, "...whatever."
As a result, on the day of departure, Zhuang Manyin and Shen Peng disappeared.
"Niannian, your dad suddenly decided to inspect Tangfeng, so I went with him. Don't worry about us, just have fun with GaoGao!"
On the phone, Zhuang Manyin finished his explanation in a few sentences, and then hung up in a hurry.He Jingnian sighed, and went to the airport happily.
They landed in St. Petersburg, and the ground guides were Chinese. They had lived in Russia for many years, spoke Russian very well, and were very familiar with various local attractions.
The guide took them to see the Winter Palace, the former tsar's palace on the left bank of the Neva River.The luxurious Baroque style and Rococo style are combined inside and outside. A row of bronze guards standing on the roof stand like Hercules, conveying full royal majesty.
GaoGao took He Jingnian's hand and asked curiously, "Why do the palaces here like blue, white and yellow?"
"There is a saying that says blue represents the eyes of people in this country, white their skin and yellow their hair."
"I didn't expect you to know it well." The tour guide boasted.
"When I was in college, I planned to travel here every holiday, so I knew a lot beforehand." He Jingnian said.
However, due to economic reasons and the fact that the holidays are busy working hours, his plan was never realized.
"Why are you so interested in Russia?" The director wondered whether this young man also had a Soviet-Russian complex, or liked the culture or architecture here.
He Jingnian smiled, but did not answer.He had no particular affection for the country itself.It was just because for him at that time, anything related to the original voice could inspire his infinite beautiful yearning.
"You are finally here now, how do you feel? Is it the same as you imagined?" the tour guide asked again.
He Jingnian nodded, "Very beautiful."
"Every tourist who comes to visit has such a reaction." The tour guide laughed.
GaoGao squeezed He Jingnian's hand and said abruptly, "Daddy, I don't understand."
"what?"
Gao Gao pointed to the palace in front, "Father's eyes are not blue, and his hair is not yellow."
He Jingnian couldn't help laughing, "That's just a more romantic way of saying it. Besides, your father..."
Gao Gao asked: "What's wrong with Dad?"
He Jingnian picked up his daughter, kissed her on the cheek, and said, "Your father is a special person."
GaoGao is smiling, she likes hearing daddy and daddy complimenting each other the most.But usually it is my father who praises my father a lot, and my father is easily shy, so he rarely praises his father.
"It would be nice if Dad was with us too." Cake's little fingers twisted back and forth, "and Snoopy."
He Jingnian stroked her braid, "Let's go, let's go to the Winter Palace to have a look, there are many great collections inside."
"Daddy."
"Ok?"
"When Dad is done with work, shall we go on a trip together?" Gao Gao put his arms around He Jingnian's neck, his big eyes sparkling with anticipation.
He Jingnian paused for a moment, feeling a little lost, until Gaogui called her again, and then came back to his senses.
"it is good."
Inside the Winter Palace, there are many gorgeous exhibition halls called works of art, and the collection is extremely rich.It is said that if you want to read all the exhibits seriously, even if you only stay in front of each exhibit for 1 minute, it will take 15 years.
The local tour guide took He Jingnian and Gao Gao to see, which are naturally the must-see works handed down from generation to generation, such as the famous Italian painter Tintoretto's "Paradise", which was built by the architect Melnikov with jasper A huge vase, the mummy of the ancient Egyptian priest Pa di Stat and so on.
After visiting the promenade painted by Raphael for the Pope of the Vatican, which was copied by the Russian craftsmen ordered by Empress Catherine, the tour guide said that there is another treasure-level collection that must be seen, that is, the golden peacock clock.
A beautiful peacock stands on a three-meter-high leafy oak tree, surrounded by a huge golden cage, like a beautiful magic garden.
Gao Gao shook He Jingnian's hand and said excitedly, "Daddy, I thought of the sword you made for Dad!"
He Jingnian was taken aback, "Sword...ah, you are talking about the flipping stick, right?"
"Ok!"
He Jingnian was silent.
Back then, after Qian Mingquan destroyed the book flipping stick, Yuan Cisheng gave him a set of even more top-quality chrysoberyls.He wanted to give the original voice after the repair, but for some reason, it still hasn't been repaired.
As soon as he thought of the original speech, he felt that he saw the original speech again.These days, he always had such illusions frequently. In many moments, he could hear the voice of Yuanci, and see his voice, like a ghost hovering beside him like ripples in the water.
He even saw the back of Yuan Cisheng among the tourists coming and going.Straight and straight shoulders, dark chestnut curly hair tied high with a black ribbon, fair and slender neck.He was still so beautifully dressed, no amount of delicate and complicated grooming would be too much on him.He stood under the high dome, as if he wanted to blend into this ancient and gorgeous palace.
He Jingnian's throat choked up for a while, a hot and sour breath rose up, his chest was so blocked that he couldn't breathe for a while.Knowing that it was his hallucination, he still uncontrollably followed quickly, passing through the bustling crowd, trying to catch him.
The tourist in front turned his head and looked at the distraught young man in front of him in surprise, "What's the matter?"
He Jingnian stepped back and apologized in embarrassment: "I'm sorry, I recognized the wrong person."
Trembling thin white fingers, raised and lowered.
Today, the local tour guide arranged for He Jingnian and Gao Gao to go to Suzdal, a beautiful and quiet town.
Over the past hundred years, other towns in Russia have modernized and developed.However, Suzdal refused to use the train, and the inconvenience of transportation kept it as it was centuries ago, immersed in the Utopia of the past.
A group of people took a bus from Moscow North Bus Station and sat for five or six hours. By the time they arrived in Suzdal, it was almost dusk, and the warm golden light filled the fields and hills.
It used to be the birthplace of the Russian nation—the capital of the Principality of Vladimir-Suzdal and the center of the Orthodox Church. It still preserves many architectural monuments such as churches, monasteries, and bell towers.
The afterglow flickers on the top of the church, the meandering river lazily flows through the gentle hills, and the sound of horseshoes and church bells are heard softly. Coming here is like entering a fairy tale world.
While visiting a church, He Jingnian found an exquisite silver mirror frame on the wall.He thought it was just a display of cultural relics here, but when he was about to glance over, his mind was suddenly captured, and his whole body froze.
That surprisingly beautiful Belarusian aristocratic girl.
The great-grandmother of the original speech.
Although it is too coincidental, He Jingnian is confident that he will never admit to a beautiful person, even if he only saw it once in an old photo.
Just, why is there a picture of her here?
The director invited the staff in charge of the church to come over, and after some inquiries, he learned that this photo was brought here by a gentleman more than 30 years ago.
The gentleman said that Ms. Svetlana in the photo was an old friend of his uncle.His uncle suffered a lot of physical injuries in his early years due to historical reasons, and he has been suffering so he passed away very early.The last wish of the old man before his death was to put the photos of him and Svetlana in a clean and quiet place where there were no disputes and where time could stop the flow.
May their devastated souls rest in peace.
No one can wake them up from their dreams.
The tour guide translated the words of the church deacon, and asked He Jingnian, "Do you know Ms. Svetlana?"
He Jingnian shook his head.He was just wearing the veil she left behind, and the light veil fluttered like white snow, falling all over his body.
"She is so beautiful, I can't help being attracted to her. Especially... those eyes." He Jingnian said, "Thank you for telling me this story, I am very moved."
The deacon of the church smiled: "It's a coincidence that you came here. That gentleman will come here today, and he made an appointment to meet here."
He Jingnian was taken aback, "The appointment is..."
"It seems that one has arrived." The church deacon cast his gaze behind him.
He Jingnian turned his head slowly, and the skylight poured in from the church gate, illuminating the ancient dust floating in the air.In the dark backlight shadow, the voice of Yuan Ci walked towards him step by step.
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