Don't be clouded

Chapter 59 Not Like Him

When Ji Bieyun didn't speak, Guanchen said, "Stand still?"

He nodded, then shook his head again.The tears on his face were not dry yet, so he wiped them carelessly, and said in a low voice, "I'll leave in a while. I've talked too much nonsense tonight, so just pretend you didn't hear it."

The monk comforted him again, and half-jokingly said: "I've already been honest, do you still want to separate from me?"

"...I didn't mean that, it's just...it just happened so suddenly, my mind was in a mess, and I didn't even know what to call you." Ji Bieyun became more and more embarrassed as he spoke, staring at the cracks in the bricks under his feet refused to move away.

Guan Chen held his arm and led him inside, "Go and lie down for a while, you need to rest."

Ji Bieyun felt it himself, not only his forehead, but many places on his body were hot.During the day, I heard Xu Yang's instructions not to overthink, but now my emotions are up and down, and I really fell down again.

He himself doesn't think it's serious. In the past, he would just sleep in Shugu City and forget about it, and he didn't see his brain burnt out.Ke Guanchen obviously didn't think so, he must lie down and rest.

He was helped obediently to the side of the bed, put on his clothes and lay down on it, but Guan Chen turned around and left the room.

Ji Bieyun was lying on his back, many images flashed through his mind like a galloping horse.For a while, he was thinking that the monk was scared away by him, and for a while, he was thinking that the carriage was still waiting at the foot of the mountain. Xu Yang might be anxious to find someone if he didn't see him back.If this matter got out of hand, he might not be able to hide his behavior of breaking into Xuanqing Temple at night.

Before he could figure it out, the monk came back and brought a basin of water to the table.Guan Chen took out a towel from the basin, twisted it, folded it squarely, and put it on his forehead.

The heat suddenly eased a lot, Ji Bieyun blinked but didn't move.

Guan Chen looked down at him and said, "Don't run around when you're sick, your body will be damaged too much."

Ji Bieyun replied without thinking, "Come looking for you is not considered running around."

The monk ignored his words and asked instead, "What did the doctor say?"

He said innocently: "I didn't say anything, it's just that I was tired a few days ago."

Guan Chen's expression couldn't tell whether he believed it or not, he just leaned over and unfolded a thin quilt to cover him.Afterwards, he lifted it upwards and firmly covered Ji Bieyun's chin.

He felt that he had become a child being taken care of again, staring at the monk curiously.

Guan Chen didn't look at him all the time, just stood by the bed, and asked again: "Master told you my life experience?"

He nodded, and complained without hesitation: "Your brother Miao Wu is very cruel to me."

The monk hummed and said, "He did the same to me."

Ji Bieyun's eyes widened slightly, he didn't expect to get such an answer, and the idea of ​​wanting to push forward was stifled in the cradle.So he turned to complain to other people: "The emperor is sick, he doesn't want to investigate Yushitai, and wants to train me to be his running dog."

The monk was more serious this time, "Emperor Yuan Hui is cowardly and suspicious, so you should seldom confront the emperor head-on in the future."

He smiled, looking a little sly, "I'm not stupid, I always know what is wrong with what is right."

As soon as the words were finished, the oil lamp closest to the bed suddenly went out, and Guan Chen got up to check.Ji Bieyun looked at the back, retracted the fake smile on his face, followed monk Yubai's fingertips closely, and didn't realize that the lamp suddenly turned on again.

Guan Chen turned his head, met his gaze, and was slightly taken aback.

"Uncomfortable?" The monk came over and changed the handkerchief, "I'll go to the medical hall to get you medicine."

Ji Bieyun quickly reached out, accidentally grabbed the string of Buddhist beads, and couldn't help rubbing his fingertips lightly before letting go.He showed a relaxed smile again, "It will be dawn after you fry the medicine, don't worry about it, just sit here and talk to me."

Sure enough, Guan Chen didn't leave, but he didn't take a break either, he took the veil off his forehead and plunged it into the cold water.

His expression seemed to be extremely focused, but he said: "Emperor Yuan Hui was afraid of the power of the great general who ruled the country, but he was also afraid of the faction of the prime minister. He would rather the three parties restrain each other than break the existing situation in the court. You want to govern the imperial censor Taiwan’s crime is to break this situation first.”

The monk lost a little bit of coldness in the dim light, as if he had fallen into the world of mortals and got a little smokey.

It's just that what he said was incompatible with what he was doing, pointing the country in a casual tone, which didn't seem like what a monk would do.

Ji Bieyun heard it, but he was in no mood to continue the discussion with Guanchen.He put all his thoughts on Guan Chen's figure, let his thoughts wander left and right, and only responded slightly perfunctorily: "I also have this plan."

He suddenly realized that he fell in love with Guan Chen long before Guan Chen revealed his identity, which seemed to be a very strange thing.One is the affection of a bamboo horse, and the other is the love of the heart, but now they are both the same person.

I didn't feel anything when I was excited just now, but now I always feel awkward.

Guan Chen seemed to be responding to what he just said, and said: "The situation between the court and China is something I can't get rid of. The so-called world is not a quagmire. You don't have to worry about dragging me down... because I have been None on shore."

Ji Bieyun's head was dizzy, and it took a while to understand this sentence.He knew that this was also a promise, just like the one in Chongzhou.

Although he still didn't want to involve Guan Chen, he felt that there was no need to speak out.He has no right to deprive others of his will, just as Guan Chen cannot convince him.

"I see—" he dragged his voice a little longer, as if he was playing a rogue, "Since you don't interfere in my plan, I don't care what you want to do, you can do whatever you want... but you have to give me Take some time to get used to it."

Guan Chen nodded, he thought that what the young man said about adapting meant not pushing him away anymore, but Ji Bieyun beckoned to him.

He walked over and put the cold handkerchief on the young man's forehead, and suddenly he heard the young man say: "I need to get used to the fact that you are Hui Zhi, it's all because you lied to me before, after I calm down now I feel... You still don't look like him."

Guan Chen almost put the scarf on the sidelines, and asked after gathering his composure: "Who doesn't look like whom? Where does it look like?"

His tone was not as calm as before, but Ji Bieyun had no time to pay attention to it right now.The young man's eyelids gradually drooped. After struggling for a while, he still couldn't resist the drowsiness. He murmured: "Don't bother me...I'll just sleep for a while, just half an hour, remember to wake me up..."

The boy's eyes were completely closed, and his breathing became even.

Guan Chen didn't get the answer, and couldn't bear to wake up the young man, so he had to stand quietly beside the bed for a long time.After Ji Bieyun fell asleep, he let out a helpless sigh of relief, and took the already warm towel with cold water again.There was a night wind blowing in from the door, he turned his head and glanced at the courtyard, and there was more life in the desolate and lonely place in the past.

That's all, the sin he committed should have a day of repayment.

If he had informed Ji Bieyun of his identity from the very beginning, in order not to implicate him, the young man would definitely refuse to let him intervene in helping him, and would even alienate him.

Even though he got retribution now, it was better than being pushed away.

**

When Ji Bieyun woke up, the room was completely dark, with a faint skylight coming in from the window, he was startled, and sat up hastily.

What time is it?Didn't he let Guan Chen wake himself up after half an hour?

There was no light in the room, and he couldn't see clearly in the blur. He just felt that the surroundings were extremely quiet, and the monk didn't seem to be here.

He groped to get off the bed, but he kicked something suddenly after walking a few steps.A moment later, the sudden voice startled him again: "Are you awake?"

"Guanchen? Why are you sleeping here?" Ji Bieyun looked over with a fixed gaze, and could vaguely distinguish a silhouette, who was leaning over the table.

The monk straightened his upper body, lit the candle in an orderly manner, and then looked over holding the candlestick, as if he was looking at his face.

"You feel better?"

Guan Chen's voice was still tinged with drowsiness, a little hoarse, which made Ji Bieyun feel distracted.

He was indeed much better, and his head was no longer dizzy, so what happened last night flooded his head, making him afraid to look directly at the monk.

I thought a lot for a moment, but finally said a rebuke: "The coachman waited for me at the bottom of the mountain all night..."

"I'll go down after you're sound asleep, and ask the coachman to deliver a message to Ji Zhai, don't worry." Guan Chen stood up, and lit up a few more oil lamps one after another, making the room much brighter.

Ji Bieyun glimpsed that the mess on the ground had been cleaned up, but the altar table was empty, which made him a little guilty.

He endured and endured, but he couldn't hold back and asked: "If the temple knows that I smashed a Bodhisattva's golden body, will I not be allowed to step into Xuanqing Temple in the future?"

The monk looked slightly surprised, "Didn't I break it?"

Ji Bieyun was taken aback for a moment, and only after a while did he realize that his ears were a little hot.As he walked out, he said goodbye in a hurry: "Then I'm going down the mountain first, and I have to deal with the matter of Yushitai, so I won't stay with you for a long time. Don't be imprisoned obediently, you are a big disciple anyway, you should be tough It's time to put on airs..."

He ran out of the house in a few steps, then turned back suddenly, poked his head out and looked inside.

The monk noticed him and was not frightened, so he asked in a normal way, "What's the matter?"

The heat in Ji Bieyun's ears had subsided, and he took out the oiled paper bag that he had been carrying all night.But he didn't dare to hand it to the monk, so he had to put it on the small table with bonsai by the door.

He made a serious face on purpose, and said: "This is the candied fruit for that kid Miao Ci, don't confiscate it again, next time I see him and ask, if I don't give it to him, I will only ask you."

Guan Chen's rebuttal words stuck in his mouth, and finally he only said "yes".

Ji Bieyun was not in a hurry to leave, and pointed to the few packages, "There is also Poria Cake for you, if you don't like it, you can change it to another, just don't throw it away."

"I won't throw it away." Guan Chen looked at him seriously, "Thank you for remembering."

Ji Bieyun's ears started to feel hot again, so he turned around and ran away.Regardless of Guanchen's reaction, he jumped over the railing on the porch and jumped into the courtyard, then walked straight across the courtyard and slipped out of the courtyard door.

Ji Bieyun was on tenterhooks along the way, many monks had already woken up at this time, he was hiding in hiding for fear of being discovered by others, he looked like a madman who had a private meeting with a young lady.He didn't breathe a sigh of relief until he sneaked over the wall of Xuanqing Temple.

When he reached the foot of the mountain, there were already scattered pilgrims on the mountain path.Everyone else went up the mountain, but he was the only one with long hair who came down from the mountain, so he had to be looked at a few more times.

He was so ashamed that he hurriedly found the carriage waiting in the corner.But it's not the one that sent him here, but Ji Zhai's car.

As soon as I climbed up, I was surprised when I opened the curtain.

The interior of the car is spacious, and there is a person sitting on it, and a small table is set up, on which there are pens, ink, paper, inkstone and candles, and the person is writing hard.After noticing his movement, he glanced at him coolly, then quickly lowered his head and started writing again.

Ji Bieyun felt guilty like a wave, and after entering, he sat down curled up by the corner, not daring to say a word.

After the carriage moved, the interior of the carriage was bumpy, so it was difficult to write, so Xu Yang put down his pen and said quietly: "I met in private all night, why do you seem to be more energetic than yesterday?"

The author says:

Question: Who is jealous of whom?