light lemongrass

Chapter 120 Where is the missing person

Only one dim wall lamp was turned on in the apartment. Ziyang was sitting on the sofa with a white cigarette between his fingers. The nicotine filled his mouth so much that it stimulated his tongue and nerves. Ziyang was surprised by his jerkyness. Never smoked again?Can't remember but I know it must have been a long time ago.Taking another puff, spit out the white circles under his eyes and let him rise in the air, listening to the occasional sounds in the bathroom, the mania in his heart also calmed down, the corners of his mouth were drawn into lines, and he was in a waiting posture.

Until Yun Xi came out of the bathroom, the silence continued.Putting on clean and spacious pajamas, the trouser legs were folded, and his thin body rattled in the clothes.Ziyang stared at the green pajamas, the Winnie the Pooh on it was particularly eye-catching, simple and honest, cute and silly, really a bit like the owner of the pajamas.It's just that no matter how you look at it, he should wear one size smaller than this, so why did I buy such a big one for him at that time.Ziyang was thinking, quietly watching Yunxi sitting in a corner blowing wet hair, exposing slender white arms.His heart tightened, and the crowd between his brows was skillfully submerged in the night.The thin lips moved,

"Hi." Still not used to calling his name.I always feel the pain of being pulled when I read it.

"En...?" Hearing Zi Yang calling him through the faint voice of the wind, Yun Xi turned around and looked at Zi Yang who was sitting on the other side, "You called me?"

"En." Nodding, Zi Yang's expressionless face was like a sculpture, and he waved to Yun Xi, "Come here."

With an orderly tone again, Yun Xi stopped what she was doing, and obediently sat down beside Zi Yang. She didn't care about her messy hair scattered around her face, and didn't care if her clothes got wet. He just wanted to be able to sit like this with Zi Yang. How difficult it must be to be together.

Ziyang took the towel on the coffee table, wiped Yunxi's wet hair, and smelled the faint fragrance emanating from him. This smell was as familiar as the air, which made him feel kind, as if he had been living in the It is natural to adapt to such a fragrance.It's just, forget what kind of incense it is, he should have a nice name.What is it, Ziyang doesn't want to think too hard.His eyes flicked to the skin on the back of Yun Xi's neck that was exposed due to the clothes being too big, and he curled his lips,

"Is this pajamas really bought by me?"

Yun Xi's slight trembling passed into Zi Yang's hands, and then, she heard a soft voice, "En."

"Strange, why do I have such taste?" Ziyang smiled softly.Yun Xi followed him and answered with a smile. "It's really not your taste. It was bought to deliberately make things difficult for me."

"Huh?" Hearing the unexpected answer, Ziyang looked forward to what kind of entanglements he had with this boy in the past that he had forgotten.

"Actually, I didn't like it at the beginning. I knew you were deliberately trying to make me look ugly, so I just put on the bullet and wore it for you to see. I gradually became fond of it. I really like wearing this pajamas." Yun When Xi was talking, Ziyang saw the smile outlined on the corner of his mouth, and it made people feel distressed in a trance.As the towel passed over his fair skin, Ziyang suddenly understood that it wasn't that the pajamas didn't fit him well, but that he was getting thinner and thinner.At least thinner than before he lost his memory.

"I'll buy you another one another day, this one is too big."

"No need." I bought a new one, but I can't find the mood I had back then.Same people but different hearts.Feeling the touch of Ziyang's fingers in her hair, Yun Xi held back the surging pain in her chest.Ziyang, when will you be able to remember, this pajamas, and everything about pajamas.

Can't remember, can't remember anything.Ziyang sighed in his heart, worried, and searched, and finally, the words that popped out at last were only three simple words,

"sorry."

"..." Sorry, sorry for what.Sorry who?Who is sorry for whom?Who should say sorry to whom, Yunxi listened to Ziyang's sorry, and tears flowed out as if she had found an outlet to vent. Fortunately, most of her face was covered by her messy hair. Unable to look at him, she bit her lower lip and wept silently.

There is a depressing air flow in the air, there is no sound, Zi Yang can hardly feel the sound of Yun Xi's existence, even though he is right in front of his eyes, he just sits so quietly and lets himself wipe his hair, like a well-behaved doll , wanted to touch that fair and delicate cheek but was afraid that it would shatter if touched.Ziyang hates this kind of silence, this kind of Yunxi makes him irritable, so uneasy that he is going crazy.But he can't do anything, he wants to hold his face to let himself see what he looks like at the moment, sad, sad, happy, smiling, he wants to see it all.But some are afraid, afraid of the strong soreness in his heart after touching his body, afraid of how he will calm the turmoil in his heart if he sees that pale face dripping with cold liquid.So, this time, Ziyang still compromised, pressing Yunxi's shoulder like an elder,

"Okay, go to bed, it's getting late."

"En." This time Yun Xi answered smoothly, as if she was escaping, she quickly got up and walked towards the bedroom without looking back.He didn't stop for half a step, leaving Ziyang watching his back until he closed the door.There was a deadly silence in the room again.

That night, Ziyang nestled on the sofa, and there were more and more cigarette butts in the ashtray... and the sky was getting brighter and brighter...

All the time, things that I can never forget

repeated, imprinted vivid memory

Woke up one day suddenly blank

It's okay, I always remember when I look at the sky

It's just that when the head is so heavy, when can I lift it up.

Ziyang sat on the sofa and immersed himself in the night, letting the dim street lights outside the window pull his shadow into a long and lonely shadow.No cigarettes, no firelight, no wall lamps, ... and no memories.This kind of stillness dawned in the blink of an eye. Ziyang fell asleep when the first rays of sunlight in the sky pierced through the darkness, but he missed the lonely eyes of the person walking out of the closed door, accompanied by the soft blue Blankets were scattered all over him.That person's name is Zheng Yunxi, who used to be a poor child, but his stubborn brows were always drawn slightly at the corner of his mouth.Now, he is a poor child, the corners of his mouth are pursed into a natural ray without end.The former Yun Xi was pitiful but still happy.For Yun Xi now, pity and happiness run counter to each other.

When Ziyang woke up, Xiao Chen had already called.The obvious concern of the voice on the phone made the hazy person wake up quickly.

"Ziyang, where are you? In the apartment? Or outside?"

He pursed his dry lips, "What's wrong in the apartment?"

"Oh, what about... Yunxi? Is he with you?" Hearing the other party's hesitation, Ziyang's heart skipped a beat when he heard the name.

After a pause, he realized the blanket on his body, his thoughts drifted away, and then he said, "Well, maybe he has already left." Before he knew it.

"Gone? That means not in the apartment?" At this moment,.Xiao Chen's voice seemed to be more urgent, and it came straight to Ziyang's ear from the other end of the phone.

"What? Is he not in the company? He should be in the company at this time. "

"The problem is, Yunxi didn't come to work in the company, and I can't find him until now. I called his phone and turned it off. Seeing that you weren't there, I thought you two were together."

What?Didn't go to the company?shutdown?Can't find it?A large number of words burst into Ziyang's mind at the same time, so that he had no time to think about which one was more appropriate and important.His heart tightened, and he came to a conclusion - Yun Xi was gone.As for why he disappeared, he himself couldn't figure it out.He stood up and changed his hand to hold the phone tightly.

"I..." Just as he was about to speak, Ziyang was interrupted by the other party's words.downright.

"Let me ask you, did you do something to make him sad again? En?" Xiao Chen's sudden question caught Ziyang by surprise, and Yaguchi was speechless.And the other party's questioning continued,

"Did you say something to stimulate him? En? Ziyang, do you know? You are..."

"Xiao Chen!" This time, Ziyang stopped Xiao Chen's words, and both sides of the phone were silent at the same time, until Ziyang spoke again, "We'll talk about it when I come over."

"Hey!" The voice finished with the sound of the phone hanging up, Ziyang got up and walked towards the entrance.He was still wearing yesterday's clothes.In the living room, only the blue soft blanket was left lying alone in the corner of the sofa...

In the office of the design team, Xiao Chen was leaning against the table while talking on the phone, Ziyang was sitting on the sofa, lighting a cigarette and waiting for the results from Xiao Chen's phone, KIM was walking back and forth worriedly... Until Xiao Chen put down the phone and focused his eyes on him, KIM spoke first,

"Is it still off?"

"En." Xiao Chen nodded, his brows were already furrowed into a mountain.Is the same situation going to happen again?Is his little Haozi going to disappear again?Looking at Ziyang, Xiao Chen only sighed helplessly,

"Ziyang, go ask Chu Mu if he saw Yunxi, aren't they doing the design exhibition together now?"

"En." Answered flatly, Ziyang took out his mobile phone and dialed Chu Mu's number.

"...beep...beep..." The phone was still ringing, and Ziyang remembered how Chu Mu persuaded him to stay in the hotel last night. Because he does not want to understand and see through.Still no one answered, Ziyang was about to hang up the phone, at this moment, "Ziyang, what's the matter?"

...Sudden pause, Ziyang took a breath, why did he suddenly dare not speak, dare not ask Chu Mu about Yun Xi?Could it be because of that cup of coffee?The first cup of coffee I drank when I woke up, the taste like life that I can never forget after drinking it. ...Ziyang's pause was hastily ended under Xiao Chen's eager gaze, and he opened his mouth and said,

"Chu Mu, does he mean that Yun Xi is with you?"

Sure enough, the silence over there came as expected, and Ziyang had already expected the result but did not encounter how guilty and self-blame he was during the process.

"Chu Mu, he..."

"Did you call just to ask me about him?"

Dumb, silent, admitted, nothing to say.Ziyang accepted this question.Undoubtedly Chu Mu said it all.

"Are you worried about him?"

"..." How should I answer, Ziyang thought about it, and finally said it so jerky and awkward, "Xiao Chen said he couldn't be found." Yes, it was Xiao Chen who said it, so I, I was just unlucky It's just that you have been informed, and if you are informed, you should have the responsibility to inform.Right, that is it. "He said he might be with you." Every sentence is a shield, so strong that it is self-deceiving.

"Then I will disappoint you, Zheng Yunxi is not here."

Clenching his fingers tightly, Ziyang wanted to hang up the phone immediately, leaving only one sentence in a hurry, "Excuse me." Three words were left for Chu Mu on the other side of the phone.I have never felt so helpless and sorry for Chu Mu like now, but I can't tell where the guilt is.

Looking at Ziyang who hung up the phone, Xiao Chen asked him,

"How is it? Is Yun Xi there?"

"Not here." Another simple answer made the office freeze to the extreme.The cigarettes in the ashtray were long gone.The three of them fell into silence for the first time... This kind of silence seems to be a very ethereal thing to Ziyang, but why those ethereal memories still vaguely float in his mind, for the same reason, the same person, The same silence, happened at some point.