this life is waiting

Chapter 43

The moon was hanging high, and the outdoor temperature was a little low. Because there were no residents around, the entire dormitory area was shrouded in silence. The insects in the grass seemed even more deserted. The air was a little dry, and the shoes rustled on the stone road under their feet.

I followed behind He Cheng, slightly worried.

Although I always wanted to have a good chat with her, but this matter was brought up by her and put on the face by her, I was scared, afraid that she would say something beyond my acceptable range.

The girls' dormitory area is very large. We found a bench by the side of the walkway through the woods and sat down. I didn't bring my mobile phone, but I took a look before going out, and it was already one o'clock in the morning.

This uninterrupted time and the coming long night give us enough room to think.

After sitting down for 5 minutes, neither of us said a word. I thought, if there are mosquitoes in this season, they must thank us. After all, it is not beautiful to pick your legs and hands at this time.

After 5 minutes, she stood up suddenly, and after I was nervous for a second, she took off her coat and put it on me as if she wanted to cover her with a quilt.

I grabbed the collar of my coat with my hand, "No, I'm not cold."

It's a pity that she held my hand quickly, stopped my movement, stood in front of me, grabbed the empty sleeve, "put it in."

I obediently put my hand in, and I also put the other hand in by the way. Looking at it this way, the clothes are worn backwards, which has a different style.

Just when I wanted to dance for this wonderful opening, He Cheng stood in front of me and suddenly whispered: "Zhou Xiaoyi, I'm a little sad."

The topic cut into my head unexpectedly, the smile on my face suddenly froze, I didn't know what expression to respond to.

I sat down seriously and heard her ask, "What about you?"

I swallow.She just stopped it just right. If I said I was sad after dancing, wouldn't it be too funny.

Suddenly sad, suddenly funny.

But I am really sad, from the day I left her dormitory, until now, I have been sad.

I look at her and nod.

The ambient lighting around me is always just right. The street lamp five meters away is reflecting us at the moment, not too bright and not too dark. We have vague shadows, and there are reflections of a few leaves on her body. True and beautiful.

After hearing what I said, she slowly squatted down in front of me, looking at me in a half-kneeling position.

I don't know if her knees are on the dirt around my feet. I know I shouldn't care about whether her pants will be dirty at this time, but I think that her pants will not be easy to wash.

I don’t have to look up from this perspective, she reached out and put her hands on my elbows, slowly slid her hands down, took my hands and put them on my knees, looked at me and said, “I’ve been thinking about it for so many days , you should have calmed down, but sometimes I still feel that you are angry." She sighed: "I have been thinking, why are you angry? Do you think I don't care about you, or do you feel that you are angry? My behavior that day made you think I was nosy?"

When she mentioned this, the outline of our conversation that day appeared in my mind. Now that this point has been mentioned, I think I should talk about it with her.

I said: "As far as Zheng Xuan is concerned, you really want to know, are you too worried about me, or do you think it doesn't matter to you that I have contact with other boys?"

After I finished speaking, I stared into her eyes, as if trying to catch her dodging, but unfortunately there was nothing.

"How can it be indifferent." She laughed, and drew a circle on the back of my hand with her thumb, "Zhou Xiaoyi, you used to like boys, you don't know how afraid I am of you going straight back, no matter who it is, in your Everything around me is a threat to me, I'm afraid that you will suddenly realize that day and suddenly don't want to be with me." She turned her head to look at me with sincere eyes: "I'm really scared."

A sentence that obviously didn't have any tears, but it made my nose sore. She narrated it little by little, hitting my heart every word, making my heart beat violently.

I sniffed, frowned and asked, "Since you're afraid, why didn't you say it?"

She looked into my eyes: "I'm afraid that you will find me annoying if I say it. You maintain your original living habits, and your life just suddenly has me. I dare not intervene more with you. I don't want to Make you think I'm actually the one who's superfluous."

It turned out that she had always thought this way. In this way, all her actions from the beginning were explained, and all the things that had clearly happened, but she did not say a word, were all explained.

The sudden sense of frustration made me sneer. I don't know what kind of mood I should give to this kind of He Cheng. Maybe it's because I feel sorry for her, she is so nice.

How can such a good person have such humble thoughts towards others.

I lowered my head and smiled at her, "How could that be?" I took my hand out of her hand, pointed at her, and then at me: "We are lovers now, and you have the right to do to me whatever you want me to do. "

I sighed: "But I have been wondering why you are so careful with me."

This carefulness is enough to exceed my predictions. What I thought was an equal relationship, in the end it was her who lifted me up to the sky. This feeling is not enjoyable at all, but a loss, a loss from the heart.

The sense of security is out of balance, which means that she has not got a reliable foothold on me.

"Really." She said to herself: "Are you very careful?"

Before I could answer, she smiled and answered her own question: "Really." She looked up at me: "Who made me like you so much."

The sudden confession took me by surprise.

Foul!This is too gentle!How can we chat well like this, every sentence, every question is a trap, there is no extravagance to cover up, but it makes me jump down willingly.

Under the trap, I looked up at her, since I opened my heart like this, then I will not be polite.

So I held her hand again, "Student He Cheng, since you like me so much, from today on, you don't have to care about the things you cared about, just tell me what you want me to do, and tell me what you don't like. Tell me what you want from me, tell me happy things, tell me unhappy things." I looked into her eyes: "Can you do it?"

She said, "Yes."

After she finished speaking, she smiled, raised my hand and put it on her chin, and tilted her head: "Is there any more? I said it all at once tonight." After she finished speaking, she suddenly shook her head: "It doesn't matter if you can't think of it. I'll take it slowly in the future. explain."

I laughed out loud, and thought about it seriously: "Also, you don't have to accommodate me so much in front of me, ah, no, you have to accommodate me, but it's not the one who accommodates me, don't put yourself so low, you It's He Cheng! You are He Cheng!"

I really want Mary Su to say, you are He Cheng, the Department of Physics!It's He Cheng who men will covet your beauty when they see it, and He Cheng who women will envy you when they see it. It's He Cheng who is awesome in every way!

Ah, it's because the atmosphere is too vulgar.

"Okay." She readily agreed.

I breathed a sigh of relief, everyone is a smart person, I have already said it so clearly, she will not understand, I used to wonder why she would like me, in fact, I still think I am not worthy of her, but I am relieved tonight, whether these behaviors of hers can make me understand that she is afraid of losing me.

If so, what am I worried about.

Refreshing, I smiled at her, taking advantage of this topic, I turned my head and asked: "What about me, do you have any demands on me?"

She shook her head: "No."

I got closer: "No one?" I stared at her: "After I told you so many demands, you don't have any, it will make me seem unreasonable." I took her hand: "Whatever , you must say it."

She laughed, thought for a while and asked, "Can I ask for anything?"

I nodded: "It's all right."

She looked at me, her misty eyes suddenly softened, and she said, "Can you always like me?"

I pause.

This man is really, really...

This sentence with a lower tear point suffocated the tears I had already held back, and I burst into tears in a very disfigured manner.

This fucking guy is too gentle.

The important thing is that she laughed when I cried.

I saw her standing up straight, her black pants couldn’t tell if her knees were dirty or not, I really wanted to take a picture of her, but thinking about me crying and helping her pants, isn’t this scene a bit too funny? So give up.

She sat down next to me, touched my head a few times, then hugged me, and I rested my chin on her shoulder.

"It's okay to cry." She was still full of smiles in her words.

I also want to laugh, but the more I want to laugh, the more I cry, and I cry out all the discomfort I have accumulated in my heart for the past few days.

Maybe it's not convenient to hold me like this, she wiped my tears while holding my waist, and I followed her strength and sat on her lap.

With this posture, will the dirty part of her knees touch my butt? I'm wearing pink pajama pants today, and the two black spots on my butt are so ugly.

God what the hell am I thinking...

Probably because I didn't expect there to be a crying scene, we didn't bring any paper, after she wiped my face with her hand a few times, my tears were still flowing.

She smiled helplessly: "What are you crying about?"

I sniffed, "I don't know, woo." I stretched out my hand to wipe my nose: "I just want to cry."

She sighed, rubbed my hair a few times heavily, clasped my head, raised her head to my chin, and kissed me lightly.

I think she kissed my tears, so I swallowed, looked down at her, and asked with a stuffy nose, "Is it delicious?"

She frowned: "It's delicious."

After she finished speaking, she kissed me again, followed the direction of my tears flowing backwards, and finally tapped my eyes.

A light kiss will make you forget the pain, a light kiss will make you forget to cry, this angle is very good to hook the chin, thinking so, I raised the hand on her shoulder, hooked her chin, and kissed her lips go down.

I also like her very much.