Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

Chapter 34

Su Nianen had a dream.

In the dream, she was still the little girl hiding in the corner of the orphanage.Wearing old clothes that others don't want, with two braids, his complexion is sallow, and his lips are an unusual purple.At that time, she was five or six years old and had no friends, so she had no playmates.Not far away, several children were grabbing a pill. Some of them were seven or eight years old, while others were only three or four years old.Several children rushed and cursed, the medicine suddenly rolled to her feet somehow.

She knelt down and stared at the pill.Finally, she picked it up and swallowed it before the men could grab it.She couldn't remember what it was like, but only knew the smell of earth, astringent and sour, which slid into her throat, leaving the rest between her teeth that were not neat.

That was the first time I felt happy since I was sensible.The joy of being the first, the joy of snatching, and the joy of not being underestimated or hurt.

I don't remember what happened after that, I only saw the flames all over the sky, which were as brilliant as clouds burning on fire.In addition to vision, there is also the shock of taste and hearing. The lingering burnt smell is combined with the crisp sound of burning building materials.

She pushed the wheelchair and walked to the burning house.The heat wave hit violently, and the momentum was overwhelming.She stared at her leg and saw that she was sitting in the firelight. The leg that could no longer walk had regained the ability to walk like a tree growing new branches.She was so happy that she left the wheelchair and ran into the familiar room along the memory.

Pushing open the door, there was no one in the room.There is no fire or smoke here, a pink background, a white desk, and a blue water glass.She went to the window and saw pink petals falling from the sky.The man is serious and handsome in a black suit, and the woman is wearing a wedding dress, like an angel descending from heaven to earth.They held each other's arms, talking and laughing at Yanyan.

She didn't like the scene, turned around, and saw a fire dragon rushing into the house and shoving her out of the window.

She turned into a petal, fluttering, and landed on the woman's lips.Then, it fell down the big red carpet and turned into dust.

Su Nianen knew it was a dream.She opened her eyes calmly, but the endless dilated pupils made her look a little scary.Sweat slipped from the corners of her forehead and the bridge of her nose, and the dampness of her palms forced her to loosen her clenched fists.Supporting the piano, he gently rubbed his numb arms.

In the morning of early autumn, it was cold to the bone.Su Nianen adjusted the piano, closed her eyes, and let the fingers change, and the notes burst out from under her fingers.It took her three years to learn only this piece of music, but Zheng Feng said that even this piece alone is enough to surpass many people.Or she is such a person, whether it is learning to play the piano or loving someone, she is always very slow, but once she is determined, she can never let go.

In the composer's world, that is a sea.Azure blue, jumping, vast and boundless.The silver-white waves surged, suddenly became calm again, and suddenly fell silent, leaving only white lace.It just rained yesterday, the island is surrounded by sea water, the plants are dense, and the land is wet.Life is vibrant, serene and peaceful.

She jumped into the deep sea with him.There are many, many beautiful fish, colorful corals, and large marine life in the sea.This is another colorful world.Human beings are so small at this time.Because small, so lonely.

She paddled along the depths of the ocean, it was pitch black, and the beauty was gone.I only heard crying from the bottom of the sea, mournful and low.She pushed aside the soft dark green water plants and saw countless white corpses.The bones of humans and animals sunk here are clearly marked under the light of a little bit of light.

Outside the window, autumn is crisp.The trees are lush with yellow dead leaves.When the wind blows, the leaves float into the room and lie quietly on the white piano.The piano sound stopped abruptly, and the last note before the sound fell was like a ghost crawling from hell, with a hideous face.

How come the bones, as white as jade, have not had helpless cries and sorrows of being unable to break free?Destiny is the struggle under the calm weather, the pressure behind the calm and calm.

Su Nianen looked up and saw the clock on the wall.It is now 06:30 and she returns to her room to see three missed calls.

It was An Li who called, but Su Nianen didn't call back, but went to the bathroom to wash her face.The water was slightly cold, and a small granule appeared on his face.I wiped my face with a soft cotton towel, and just as I put down the towel, I heard someone knocking on the door outside the window.Su Nianen pushed the wheelchair, went to the door and opened it.Outside the door, An Li, who was holding flowers, smiled brightly.

"Why did you come so early?" Su Nianen took the flowers and smiled back.

"It's still early, the road has been blocked for half an hour!" An Li glared at the people behind her, "I told you not to go that way, but you didn't listen!"

"Shen Zhou." Su Nianen greeted Ning Shenzhou behind An Li again.

"Morning..." Ning Chenzhou glanced at An Li without any trace, and followed An Li into the door.

"I don't have much stuff, you guys have a sip of tea and sit down for a while before leaving." Zheng Feng was going on a business trip recently, and Xiao Rong didn't care about her, so after discussing it, he decided to stay at An Li's house for a few months.After Su Nianen finished speaking, she pushed the wheelchair and planned to go to the kitchen to make tea.Ning Chenzhou stood up and stopped her, "Where is the kitchen? I'll go, just drink water."

"That's right, let Shen Zhou go!" An Li complained in a low voice, "If you are not in good health, don't torment yourself!" It was just an unintentional remark, but Shen Zhou frowned slightly after hearing this, Su Nianen's expression did not change, The brilliance in his eyes dimmed a bit.

"Hey, why don't you see Xiaorong?" An Li asked casually, looking around.

"Suddenly she can't come today because of something. You know, she's busy with new projects recently, so she can't take care of both."

Ning Chenzhou came out of the kitchen, took three glasses of water, and placed them on the table lightly and delicately.An Li was the first to pick up the cup, gulped a few sips, then put down the cup, leaving only a few drops of water at the bottom of the cup.Su Nianen smiled lightly, there was a pampering in her smile that others couldn't see through.

"Nian'en, drink some water." Seeing Su Nianen looking at her, An Li was a little embarrassed, wiped off the water stains around her mouth, and said to Su Nianen with a blushing face.

Su Nianen just smiled, she turned her head and said softly, "Shen Zhou, drink water."

The person who carried Su Nianen into the car was Ning Shenzhou.With Zheng Feng not around and An Li not strong enough, the only suitable candidate was Ning Shenzhou.Ning Chenzhou was slightly embarrassed.It's not that he has never hugged a woman before, but this is the first time in this situation.When he walked down the steps, he subconsciously glanced at the other party. Su Nianen's eyes were open, with pure eyes, pure black pupils and white whites, which were too distinct under the sunlight.

"Thank you." She said suddenly, her voice low.

Ning Chenzhou didn't speak, at that moment, he suddenly felt that he couldn't understand Su Nianen like this.

Su Nianen sat at the back, An Li sat at the front.Looking a little tired, Su Nianen leaned against the window and fell asleep.In the dream, the conversation between Zheng Feng and himself echoed again.

"You should go. This research project is of great significance to you and others."

"You are a doctor, but not my own doctor. There are too many innocent people in this world who can only die unwillingly because of diseases, and there are many, many people who want to watch the person they love most stop breathing."

"What reason do I have to leave you, Nian En?" Zheng Feng's sharp-edged face could not be seen clearly in the mist.

"For... for the ideal."

Just as soldiers pursue peace but yearn for war, doctors are also eager to see more unknown and extremely difficult diseases.Knowing it, studying it, deciphering it, destroying it is as exciting as discovering it for the first time.

Have you ever had an ideal?If there was an opportunity for you to shape and complete it by yourself, would you give it up?So, Zheng Feng, go, that is your ideal...

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That night, An Li gave up the live broadcast, and being alone in the room with Su Nianen made her a little excited, chatting endlessly.

"Why did Zheng Feng come back?"

"It will take three weeks soon, it still depends on the speed of research and development."

"How did you and Zheng Feng know each other?" Although An Li had found out everything, she still wanted to hear what Su Nianen had to say.

"I was in the intensive care unit, and I don't know why he took my operation."

"Nianen, where do you like? I will take you out next spring, and I can take you to any place you like!"

"Really?" Su Nianen looked at her in surprise.

"Really, didn't you say you believed me the most?"

"I believe in you the most, but I'm afraid you don't have time."

"How come? What you say is what..."

Su Nianen smiled and said "um", her heart beat violently, giving her the illusion of suffocation.

"Nian En, what's wrong with you?" An Li noticed that her expression was wrong, and leaned over to look at her.

"It's okay, I want to drink water, can you pour me some water?"

An Li breathed a sigh of relief, quickly got out of bed, and poured water for Su Nianen.Seeing the door closed, Su Nianen's smiling face no longer existed, her brows were tightly frowned, and the watery gentleness in her brows and eyes became inhuman at this moment.She got out of bed, and the light was soft and shone on the mirror of the dressing table, bright and penetrating.In the mirror, she stood alone like this, motionless, like a lifeless puppet.

Xiaoli, do you think there is a medicine in this world that can make people live forever and stay together for a lifetime?If there is, I will get it even if I do whatever it takes.I'm afraid, everything in this world is just a big dream, when I wake up, the remaining warmth is still there, but people are cold.

When An Li returned to the room, Su Nianen had already fallen asleep peacefully.An Li put down the cup and looked at Su Nianen's haggard side face.She felt a little tired, and she didn't know whether it was watching Nian En fighting the illness every day, or Nian En's unconditional gentleness made her feel tired.She wanted to treat her well, but the better she treated her, the more she found that the other party seemed to be able to accept all the kindness brought to her by outsiders.Then what was Jiang Li before?

Isn't it that your love is also very thin, and after a long time, it will be no different from others.But Nian En, without me, you will definitely have a better life.

An Li and Su Nianen did not sleep together at night.Seeing that Su Nian'en was asleep, she tucked in the quilt for her, and tiptoed back to her room.He was so preoccupied that he lay in bed for two hours before falling asleep in a daze.When I woke up again, it was already eight forty.For a night owl like An Li, this time is not too late.Originally planned to continue to sleep, but thinking of Su Nianen's work and rest habits, she still got up and ordered some breakfast after washing up.Convenient and quick, the first choice for lazy people.

In the past at this time, Su Nianen would send her text messages at home, so every time she turned on her phone, she would see "Good morning" from Su Nianen.An Li reckoned that Su Nian'en should be awake, so she went to the next door and knocked on the door.After knocking a few times, there was no response from the other party.

An Li hesitated for a moment, but finally she was still curious, and opened the door with a key, and saw her sleeping soundly wrapped in a quilt.

"Nianen, wake up... La la la, little fool, I'll take you to dinner!" An Li rubbed her hair, inexplicably playing tricks.It's a pity that Su Nian'en just breathed harder and ignored her.

"Hey, little slob, it's time to get up." She reached into the quilt, and then groped into the collar of the other's pajamas, "If you don't get up again, I'll take your clothes off!"

Finally, warm fingers touched the skin of her neck.Hot, burning, wet cold sweat.An Li was taken aback, her left hand had already covered her forehead.

An Li suddenly thought of a word, magma.

"Nianen?" She put her index finger under Su Nianen's nose, her weak breathing made her cry and laugh.

"Don't be afraid, I'll take you to the hospital, and you'll be fine right away."

"120, I want to call 120, the address is...the address is..."

"Nian En, Nian En, 120 is very fast, I never lie to you."

Can you wait until the ambulance comes, Nian En?You told me that as long as you believe, there will always be miracles.

Maybe, maybe you don't know, Xiaoli, you are my miracle.

——Su Nianen