lack of love

Chapter 12 Don't Go

Zhong Qiran hastily asked for leave from the school and the company, reported to Li Qi, and returned to China with Yan's mother.

He originally planned to study and practice in country M for only two years, so he simply didn't want to go back.Unexpectedly, returning to China this time was for Yan Hao.

They took a plane for more than ten hours, and rushed back to Yan's house as soon as they arrived at the airport.The Yan family has its own medical team, and unless it is an emergency or severe illness that requires medical equipment, they usually just see a doctor at home.

Seeing the driver heading for Yan's house, Zhong Qiran heaved a sigh of relief, it's not as if he suddenly suffered from some serious illness.He had been thinking just now, if Yan Hao wanted to see him for the last time, what would he do?

He couldn't help but shudder at the thought of this possibility.They were still so young, even though they were killed many times, he never thought that Yan Hao might leave him first.

Yan's mother was very silent along the way, probably because she wanted to describe Yan Hao's situation but didn't know what to say, so she had to bring Zhong Qiran back directly.

And Zhong Qiran didn't expect that Yan Hao's condition was more difficult than serious illness.

As soon as the two arrived at Yan's house, Yan's mother immediately took Zhong Qiran upstairs to the door of Yan Hao's room.The doctor stood outside to prevent the two from entering, and said, "He just fell asleep."

Yan's mother nodded, "Let's not disturb him, just let him take a look at the door."

The "he" in Yan's mother's mouth refers to Zhong Qiran.After hearing this, the doctor glanced at Zhong Qiran, then nodded and said, "Yes. Please keep quiet."

Zhong Qiran didn't know what was going on, but according to what the doctor and Yan's mother said, Yan Hao's condition didn't seem to be very good.

The doctor opened the door gently without making a sound.

Zhong Qiran looked into the room through the crack of the door, and saw Yan Hao lying on the bed, that person had sunken cheeks, thick dark circles under his eyes, and was so thin that his bones stood out, as if he had no life at all.

He froze.He had never seen Yan Hao like this.

At this time, Yan's mother lightly pressed his shoulder, motioned him to come over, and whispered: "Let's talk downstairs."

Zhong Qi couldn't forget how he saw Yan Hao just now, and when he walked into the living room, he couldn't help asking: "What's going on?"

Yan's mother asked him to sit down, pondered for a while, and then said: "Half a year ago, he went to you."

Zhong Qi suddenly thought about it, and replied: "Yes."

"In the three months since he came back, he has been working hard. You know that after your car accident, he...had that kind of strange aftereffect. Because he always has a deadpan face, I didn't see his father at all. When I came out, I thought there would be no problem with a psychiatrist watching over me. Unexpectedly..." When Yan's mother said this, her eyes were flushed, but she still calmly said: "He hardly slept during those three months. .It was only discovered when the company collapsed and sent to the hospital. He almost..."

Zhong Qi understood what Yan's mother didn't say.But what he cares more about at the moment is, "What sequelae?"

Yan's mother gave him a strange look, and said, "Emotional apathy, I thought... Xiaohao had already told you."

Zhong Qiran's hands trembled suddenly.He knew it was right, but at the moment, when they were arguing, he didn't take it seriously at all.He even looked at this matter with a half-truth and half-false attitude. At that time, he only thought that Yan Hao wanted to force him to go back, and even said harsh words to him.Because in that atmosphere, no one would think so much.So he couldn't feel Yan Hao's love all the time, so it was really because of this...

Yan's mother didn't care too much, "It doesn't matter if you know it now. His condition has become more serious now. A little sound can wake him up, and then he suffers from long-term insomnia and headaches. He treats us now... as if It's like looking at a stranger."

"Why is that?"

"I heard from his former psychiatrist that his emotions have almost disappeared, and he is not even sensitive to his emotions. The human body has a self-protection mechanism, and the same is true for emotions. However, he does not feel his negative emotions, and he will naturally feed back directly to his body. superior."

This is like a person suffering from a mental illness who does not know that he is ill, and then commits acts of hurting others or self-harm.This principle is not incomprehensible to Zhong Qi, "Why do you think it is useful to find me?"

Yan's mother paused, and then said: "Because we tried all the methods, but none of them worked."

That's why it dragged on for another three months, until Yan Hao couldn't hold on anymore.

After all, Zhong Qiran had dealt with Yan's mother before, so he knew exactly what she was thinking.But he and Yan Hao are separated after all, he has no right to say anything.He suppressed the unhappiness in his heart and suppressed all his anger, "What do you want me to do?"

Yan's mother didn't want to compromise, but she had to compromise, "I hope you can stay with him for a while until he is fine."

Zhong Qiran shook his head, "You know I'm studying in country M now, and I'm graduating in one year. It's impossible for me to abandon my studies at this time."

Yan's mother was ready, and immediately said: "What conditions do you want, we can talk about it later."

Zhong Qi didn't speak.

Yan's mother continued to poke his sore spots, "Can you see Xiao Hao's death?"

Zhong Qiran clenched his fists, but remained silent.

Yan's mother probably knew that she had pushed him into a hurry, so she calmed down and said, "Zhong Qiran, if you can restore Xiao Hao to health, I will thank you very much."

Zhong Qiran deliberately said: "You are embarrassing me, aren't you afraid that our old relationship will rekindle?"

Yan's mother even thought about this point, "So, I hope you can leave after it's done. I can help you arrange whatever you want."

After Zhong Qiran heard this sentence, he actually laughed.I was laughed out of anger.

"Let me think about it," he said.

After finishing this unhappy conversation, Zhong Qiran stood in the courtyard for a while to calm down.It's rare to go back to China. Although he took a week's leave, the time was a bit awkward and he didn't have enough time to visit relatives and friends, so he had to temporarily live in Yan's house during this time.

Although he was angry with Yan's mother's attitude, he was really worried about Yan Hao's situation.Speaking of which, Yan Hao will become like this now, and he cannot escape responsibility.To get to the bottom of it, Yan Hao was also in the car accident to protect himself, leaving such troublesome sequelae.

From this point alone, Zhong Qiran felt that he owed Yan Hao too much.The emotional aspect is another matter, he understands it or scores clearly.

When he returned to the room, he heard the doctor say that Yan Hao had woken up.

He thought for a while and asked the doctor, "Can I go in and see him?"

The doctor glanced at Yan's mother, who nodded.

This is the meaning of Yan's mother bringing Zhong Qiran back.If Zhong Qiran can't take effect on Yan Hao's symptoms, then she can let him leave as soon as possible, and the two parties will not entangle each other in the future.

Yet her hopes were dashed.She and the doctor were standing outside the door, and they saw Yan Hao staring at Zhong Qiran intently.

Yan Hao suffers from long-term insomnia and lack of nutrition, and his physical function is so poor that he can only lie in bed.But they all saw that he still reached out to Zhong Qiran with trembling hands, even though he had no strength at all.

Zhong Qiran naturally saw it too, he grabbed Yan Hao's hand and asked, "Do you remember who I am?"

Yan Hao's lips moved, but he didn't make a sound, but Zhong Qi saw it, and he pronounced his name.

He looked at Yan Hao, the man was still expressionless, his eyes were calm and unwavering, obviously he had no emotional reaction, but he seemed to feel it.The man expressed his strong desire with his actions, grabbed him with the remaining strength, and told him not to leave.