Black Powder Monologue Diary

Chapter 70 69 Breaking Up for 1 Year

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The car finally stopped under the apartment building. Lin Yu unfastened his seat belt and glanced at Ji Shanye: "Thank you for taking me back, I'm sorry."

They should have nothing more to say.Lin Yu opened the car door, walked around to the back, wanted to get his things and left.But Ji Shanye followed him down, and he took the plastic bag from the supermarket one step ahead of himself, closed the rear door, and said to him, "I'll take you up."

"No need, I can do it myself." Lin Yu was about to take it.

Ji Shanye stepped back and didn't give it to him: "It's too heavy, I'll take it to you."

Lin Yu looked at him, and Ji Shanye just said, "Let's go, it's getting late."

The elevator in the apartment building was very small, and as soon as the two of them entered, Ji Shanye's tall body seemed particularly oppressive.Lin Yu stood at the corner of the elevator, looking down at the floor, he just wanted to finish the day in peace.

When the elevator reached the sixth floor, Lin Yu walked to the door, took the things in Ji Shanye's hand, and thanked him seriously again: "Thank you, sorry for the trouble, you can go back."

Ji Shanye looked down at him, the lights in the corridor were a little dim, Lin Yu couldn't see the expression on Ji Shanye's face clearly.But faintly feel that his silence is very strange, he has been looking at himself, but never said anything.

"What's wrong?" Lin Yu asked him.

"It's nothing." Ji Shanye said.

"Meet me at school on Sunday," he said as he left.

Lin Yu watched him walk into the elevator, and then the elevator door slowly closed.

A long day is over.

Ji Shanye stayed downstairs in Lin Yu's apartment alone for a long time.

He lit a cigarette, sat in the car, looked at the light from the window on the sixth floor, and wanted to wait until the cigarette was finished before going back.

Which upstairs room is Lin Yu in now?Did he happen to be in the window he was looking at?Is his new boyfriend back?What would they do if he was home?

Ji Shanye felt irritable, he took the last puff of cigarette fiercely, and extinguished the cigarette in the ashtray in front of him.

Should have gone, should have gone long ago.But Ji Shanye just stayed where he was.

Let's stay for a while, and then go back by yourself when you see that the light in the window is off.

It was raining, Ji Shanye stretched out his hand, it was misty, very thin rain.He doesn't like rain.

When did it start?It seems to have been like this since breaking up with Lin Yu. Rainy days made Ji Shanye even more irritable.

The light at the window on the sixth floor went out, and Ji Shanye watched with deep eyes.He didn't want to imagine some very obscure pictures.But scenes of Lin Yu kissing and hugging others always come to mind.

Ji Shanye drove away.

Arriving at home at twelve o'clock in the evening, Ji Shanye sat on the sofa, and on the coffee table was the charger that Lin Yu hadn't taken away a year ago, and he didn't move his position.

In the bedroom, Lin Yu's clothes were kept in the closet as before.On the sink in the bathroom, there were also Lin Yu's used toiletries.On the balcony outside, a very ordinary green plant that Lin Yu bought back then is still tenaciously alive, and Ji Shanye takes good care of it every day.

He didn't sort out Lin Yu's things in this house, they were still in their original places, and Ji Shanye never thought of moving away from them.

In this house, Ji Shanye pretended that nothing happened, and everything was still the same.Although, Ji Shanye knew that this was impossible.

Lin Yu had already broken up with him.

It's been a year since they broke up.

Ji Shanye was angry after breaking up with Lin Yu at the beginning.

He couldn't understand why Lin Yu could give up their relationship so easily.He even said that he fell in love with himself because he wanted to know what it was like to be with a celebrity.

Ji Shanye didn't know if he was telling the truth.This might just be an excuse for Lin Yu to break up with him.But no matter what, no matter what the reason was, Ji Shanye felt very angry.

How could he say something like that.

At that time, Ji Shanye only thought that there were some problems in the relationship between him and Lin Yu.The exposure of the media, their own work, the distance between the two of them, everything is a kind of pressure on their relationship.

Lin Yu could be forgiven for saying the breakup.But he still can't accept it.

Has he ever thought about it from his own perspective?Do you think you can solve your relationship problems if you stop here?Or he didn't love himself at all, that's why he said the words of separation so easily.

Therefore, after Lin Yu proposed to break up, he did not take the initiative to contact him for a long time.

He wanted to wait for Lin Yu to calm down, and he also wanted to wait for himself to calm down.Proper silence may be a good thing for the two of them.

However, after the breakup, Lin Yu never contacted him.He seemed to forget himself.

Ji Shanye couldn't wait any longer, he didn't want the two of them to waste any more time.However, he didn't expect that when he contacted Lin Yu again, he said that he had gone to another place.

He said he didn't know when he would return.

Ji Shanye remembered that he was very flustered at that time, as if he couldn't breathe.He clutched the phone tightly in his hand, and finally realized that maybe the breakup Lin Yu talked about was not due to pressure to end their relationship.Maybe, just as he said, I don't like him anymore.

He didn't have any nostalgia for himself, and chose to leave in the second month after the breakup, and went to another place.

Ji Shanye later went to Lin Yu's school, he didn't know why he went, he knew that Lin Yu was no longer there.

But he still couldn't leave his footsteps. Ji Shanye made some simple disguises, wore a hat, and walked on the school road, imagining how Lin Yu usually walks here with a book.He shouldn't be able to hide and hide like himself, avoiding everyone's sight.

Ji Shanye came to the downstairs of Lin Yu's dormitory. He once heard Lin Yu say a few words about where he lived.Taking the risk of being recognized, he went up quietly.

Fortunately, no one noticed in the boys' dormitory. Ji Shanye walked to the door of Lin Yu's dormitory, hesitated for a moment, and knocked on the door. After a while, a boy's voice came from inside: "Who is it?"

"The door is not closed, come in by yourself."

Ji Shanye met Lin Yu's roommate.He sat at the table and played the game, the game fighting sound on the computer was very loud, he didn't seem to care that he came in, his eyes were still looking at the game screen.

Ji Shanye saw that the bed opposite him was very tidy, and the books and notebooks were neatly packed by the window.There is no doubt that it should be Lin Yu's bed.

The boy looked back and said, "Oh, are you here to fetch something for Lin Yu?"

"It's right there, take it yourself."