Difficult to heal

Chapter 22

Xiu Qinjiang looked at the girl who blocked his way in confusion, and asked for the second time, "Is there something wrong?"

The competition class was delayed today, and the end of get out of class was later than usual. The second class in the afternoon was almost over, so he wanted to go back to the classroom quickly.

Zhang Chichi put his hands behind his back, clasped them together nervously, his gaze was erratic, his cheeks blushed suspiciously, his usual generosity and cheerfulness had long since disappeared, and his whole body showed a shyness that he had never felt before.

It wasn't until Xiu Qinjiang showed a little impatience that she finally plucked up the courage to look up at him: "Can we go to a quieter place?"

"That's it." Chu Qinjiang glanced at his watch absently, "Speak up if you have something to say."

"Oh...Okay." Zhang Chichi took a deep breath, trying to stabilize his beating heart, "There is one thing that I wanted to tell you a long time ago... Well, it’s not very early, it’s only recently that I figured it out.”

Xiu Qinjiang looked at her without saying a word.

"I saw the post on Tieba, and there were some very unpleasant words in it. I wanted to comfort you, but I couldn't find a chance." She slowed down and continued, "Now I can finally tell you, don't care about others In my opinion, they are all irrelevant people, only you are the most important, and whether it is true or not, you are the most powerful in my heart... "

Xiu Qinjiang said calmly, "I don't care, but thank you."

"You, don't talk yet." Zhang Chichi waved his hands in embarrassment, "I get nervous when you talk."

Su Qinjiang calmly closed his mouth.

She adjusted her state and said again: "You probably don't remember. On the day I just entered school in the first year of high school, I casually complained that I was very thirsty during the military training on the playground, so you gave me the unopened bottle of water. Coincidentally, we were assigned to the front and back tables. I am always careless and often drop various things under your seat, and you will take the trouble to pick them up for me every time."

"I'm not good at physics and mathematics, and you often give me lectures and taught me a lot of learning methods. I... secretly calculated, in two years, we sat at the front and back desks four times, and each time it was me In front of you, every time... I'm happy."

Zhang Chichi raised a big smile, and finally spoke out what she had been hiding for a long time. She was much more relaxed and calm, "I've said so much, you should understand, right? It doesn't matter if you don't understand, let me sum it up for you .”

"I... like you. I wasn't sure before. I only knew when I saw that post. I really like you. When others say you are not good, I will feel very sad, and I will also feel sad because I am worried about you. I can't write the question."

"I'm not good at crushes, so—do you like me?"

Zhang Chichi was completely willing to go all out, and after telling him everything he wanted to say, he was no longer as nervous as before, looking at Xiu Qinjiang with bright eyes, waiting for his answer expectantly.

But in the face of such a scene of generous confession, Xiu Qinjiang's reaction seemed a little too slow.

Due to his personality and body, he was not very social since he was a child, and he couldn't get close to anyone except the Lu family.

After Zhang Chichi said such a long list, the first thing that Xuan Qinjiang thought of was the bottle of water.

On the first day of the military training, everyone gathered in a hurry and didn't have time to buy water. Only he prepared a bottle of water for Lu Shu, but Lu Shu wanted to drink, so he didn't open it.

When the girls were complaining about their thirst, He Xijie, the monitor who had just taken office, wanted to increase his favorability, and proposed to give the only water to the girls first, and the boys would buy it later. Without thinking about it, Su Qinjiang handed it to the nearest Zhang late.

At that time, he didn't even pay attention to what Zhang Chichi looked like.

After waiting for a long time without getting a response, Xu Qinjiang seemed to be distracted, Zhang Chichi's smile froze slightly, and he reminded at a loss: "I'm waiting for you..."

Xu Qinjiang pulled back his thoughts and replied calmly: "Sorry, I don't like it."

Zhang Chichi's expression froze for a moment, and then he didn't give up and asked, "Is there... nothing at all?"

"No." Su Qinjiang calmly said cruelly, "I don't understand what that kind of liking is. But I should, I don't like you."

Zhang Chichi's smile disappeared completely, and he lowered his head slowly, trying to hold back the sour feeling of grievance on the tip of his nose, pretending to be calm and saying: "Jiang Jiang, you are not cute at all..."

The get out of class bell rang at the right time, piercing and long, as if it was the background music for the curtain call of this confession that ended without a disease, waking up those who were immersed in it alone.

Zhang Chichi left without looking back.

The Xiuqin River was like a deep pool of water, without any fluctuations, and turned around to go back to the classroom.

There was a lazy whistle nearby.

Xiu Qinjiang looked over, and Lu Shu leaned against a tree, with his hands in his trouser pockets, taking a good look at him.

"Yan?" Qin Qinjiang was a little surprised, walked over and asked, "How long have you been here?"

Lu Shu answered irrelevantly: "You really have a heart of stone."

Chu Qinjiang looked puzzled: "Is it wrong?"

Lu Shu stretched out his hand to pull the zipper of his school uniform to his collarbone, put his index finger and middle finger together, and tapped his collarbone, as if to comfort him.

"I did nothing wrong. It's better to have a hard heart than to be false."

The two walked down the path together.

Lu Shu kicked the stone restlessly, and asked seemingly casually, "You really don't like it?"

Xiu Qinjiang took out a rabbit that was bored in class just now from his pocket, and put it in Lu Shu's palm: "I don't like it."

"What do you mean, I don't understand that kind of liking?" Lu Shu pinched the rabbit's ears.

"I've never liked it, so I don't understand." Chu Qinjiang asked, "What about Yan, do you understand?"

Lu Shu glanced at him subconsciously, then looked away, stared at the plane tree in front of him, squinted and said: "I don't know, but I heard it from others."

"Ok?"

"The person you look at first when you smile, the person you think of when you have two opposite emotions, and the name that first appears in your mind when you mention pronouns, all of these are the ones you like."

The corner of Lu Shu's mouth raised up, quite interested: "It's quite sour."

Xiu Qinjiang calmed down, and seemed to be thinking.

Lu Shu took his reaction into his eyes, and immediately became uncomfortable. This topic fell between him and Xiu Qinjiang, which seemed awkward no matter how you looked at it.

"Yan." Lu Shu was still twisting, and Xuan Qinjiang spoke out, his tone full of doubts, "It seems that I can only... think of you."

"Jingle Bell--!"

Lu Shu froze in place, before he had time to react, Xu Qinjiang pulled him up and ran away, quite excited: "Class is over, let's run."

Lu Su was holding his breath in his heart, he couldn't get up and down, he was speechless and thought it was funny, so he was led to the teaching building.

Unfortunately, this class belongs to Chen Ru. Originally, she was supposed to be in the morning class, but she changed it with the afternoon class due to unforeseen circumstances.

The two walked to the door of the classroom stepping on the tail of the bell.

Chen Ru had already started writing on the blackboard, and when Chu Qinjiang called out a report, Lu Shu simply fell silent.

Chen Ru glanced over, aloof and expressionless.

But unexpectedly, she didn't say anything, didn't shout in, and turned her head after seeing what could be called a contemptuous glance.

Lu Shu ignored her directly, pushed Xuan Qinjiang lightly with his hand, and entered the classroom.

The last time I had a quarrel in the office, it was a face-off. Chen Ru didn't bother him and didn't complain. Now it seems that he is planning to give up on him.

Lu Shu opened the textbook and felt a lot more relaxed.

Chen Ru's so-called importance is a kind of pressure and confinement for him, and in the name of his own good, he speaks harshly to Xiu Qinjiang, which invisibly makes him an accomplice. This is something that Lu Shu dislikes and cannot accept.

What's more, what Chen Ru valued was just the report card.

After opening the textbook and throwing it aside, Lu Shu took out the test booklet and read it.

He only listens to key points in class, and spends the rest of the time reading papers by himself or reading wrong questions. This test booklet collects IELTS, TOEFL and some domestic and foreign current hot articles. He doesn't write much, but uses it as reading materials.

Having just finished reading an article about the South China Sea incident, Xiu Qinjiang pushed over the exercise book and wrote two sentences translated from Chinese to English.

"Yan, help me take a look."

Lu Shu glanced roughly, picked up a pen and changed the clause guided by whether into a that clause, "The grammar and spelling are correct, but this way the sentence will be more advanced."

Xuan Qinjiang nodded clearly, and drew a circle on the part of the road with the tip of his pen.

The two agreed that in the future, after completing the study tasks, they would spend one hour making up for each other in subjects they were not good at. They could help each other with unsolvable problems, but they could not write for them.

You can’t memorize or copy on behalf of others—that’s right, it’s Lu Shu.

Wait until the end to verify the learning results. Whoever fails the exam will be punished.

The two had successfully held their first friendly meeting last night.

At present, he is very motivated, and Xu Qinjiang continues to devote himself to the lectures.

Lu Shu has a pen-twisting habit no matter when he is reading or doing homework. His fingers are slender and flexible, and the pen can turn out flowers between his fingers, which makes people dazzled. It is very suitable for pretending to be invisible.

Over time, Xiu Qinjiang also developed this hobby.

While listening to Chen Ru's lecture, he and Lu Shu turned pens on the table together, from the index finger to the little finger, from the palm to the back of the hand, and the synchronization rate between the two was very tacit.

Turning around, Lu Shu cast a distracted glance at Xuan Qinjiang, deliberately increasing his speed and disrupting the rhythm.

Xiu Qinjiang glanced back at him, also increased his speed, and kept consistent again.

Lu Shu smiled half-smile, and turned his fingers a little faster.

Not to be outdone, Xiu Qinjiang continued to follow.

The two seemed to be competing with each other, you came and I chased each other, and finally Lu Shu had a loose smile on his lips, and suddenly put away the pen and held it in his palm.

Su Qinjiang didn't expect this move to return the carbine, and with a flick of his fingertips, the pen flew forward, hit Zhang Chichi's back in a parabola, and rolled down the back under the desk.

Su Qinjiang: "..."

Lu Shu: "..."

Okay, no matter how you look at it, it looks like deliberately flirting.

"Sorry." Xiu Qinjiang straightened his tone, "I was not careful."

Zhang Chichi stiffened her back, swearing that she would never look back. Normally, she would have picked it up long ago, and would have joked a few times, but at this moment, she just wanted to kick the pen back with her foot, and then pointed to her nose and cursed, " Sorry who wants to listen to your bullshit!"

However, pride does not allow her to do this, the confession is just a failure, it is his loss if he doesn't like it, my wife has people who like it!

Facing a dilemma, Zhang Chichi could only pretend to be deaf, and stayed motionless with his neck stuck.

Lu Shu teased him with his eyes: brother, you've got trouble.

Xiu Qinjiang didn't change his face, he bent slightly to look at the pen stuck in the leg of Zhang Chichi's table, straightened up calmly, took out another pen and continued writing.

Show it personally - it's just a pen, I don't care.

Lu Shu lay down on the table and laughed wildly.

If I remember correctly, that pen is a derivative of a game character. Someone has used it for several years, and the price is not usually expensive.

Seeing the somewhat gloomy look on his calm face, Lu Shu laughed unconscionably even more wildly.

—

Last time I didn't go to the game hall, this weekend Lu Shu finally fulfilled his promise and took Xiu Qinjiang to the biggest one in the city center.

The two exchanged [-] game coins each, straightened their backs confidently and walked towards their part of the area. After taking two steps, they found something was wrong, and no one followed behind.

Lu Shu grabbed him and asked confidently, "Where are you going?"

"Racing car." Xu Qinjiang asked back, "What about you?"

"...I'm going to race the car too." Lu Shu let go of his hand and walked forward first.

Xiu Qinjiang followed, seemingly inadvertently said: "Just now, there is a claw machine."

"..."

Lu Shu's expression was numb: "Shut up."

Xiu Qinjiang was full of joy: "The doll is not bad, I like it."

Lu Shu squinted his eyes at him, and said with danger in his words: "You are very courageous now."

"No." Xuan Qinjiang denied.

"You have."

"Not really."

"There is."

"Yan, you are so cute."

"..."

Lu Shu couldn't take it anymore, strangled his neck, put it under his arm, and said fiercely, "Xu Qinjiang, your skin is itchy, right?"

Hu Qinjiang held a pile of game coins in his hands, afraid of spilling them, he dared not move them, and begged for mercy with a smile: "Wrong, I was wrong—don't scratch it, it's so itchy."

Lu Shu squeezed his waist hard: "Call Dad."

Unyielding, Xiu Qin Jiang Ning put one free hand into the hem of his clothes, and rubbed the back of his hand against his lower back.

"Hey fuck me!" Lu Shu was so cold that his whole body trembled.

Let go of Xiu Qinjiang, grabbed his hand and put it in his arms, Lu Shu frowned and said, "You came out of the refrigerator?"

"I washed my hands, the temperature is low here." Xiu Qinjiang watched his movements with a smile in his eyes.

For some reason, Lu Shu's heart trembled suddenly when he saw Xiu Qinjiang's smile, and he hurriedly looked away.

But he still covered his hand at the other party, and it was too inexplicable to just shake it off, so he could only cover up his panic by replying: "Laughing fart!"

Su Qinjiang stopped when enough was enough, restrained his smile and stopped teasing him.

The two came to the racing area. There were many people gathered in this area, most of them were boys.

There are four racing cars and three motorcycles in a whole row of game pools, which are full of people.

Lu Shu and Xiu Qinjiang stood and watched for a while. The two nearest cars were racing. The blue car was biting the red one in front. Up and down.

Surrounded by a few young boys, they slapped the seat of the blue car man vigorously: "Quick, quick! Step on the gas pedal, overtake!"

"Your man is much better than you, you little trash."

"Damn it, why are you slowing down! Your mother is so strict!"

Several people chattered freely, more excited than the driver.

In the end, the two cars crossed the finish line at the same speed at the same time, and the blue car was slightly behind.

Everyone sighed and said, brother, you have changed, you are useless.

Hearing this, Lu Shu felt a strange feeling in his heart. It was not until two teenagers stood up in the large gaming chair that he finally realized why he felt weird.

It's normal for boys to occasionally joke about gay friends, but what they said just now seemed to be subconsciously yelled, and they yelled very sincerely. If he hadn't seen a real person, Lu Shu would have thought it was a man and a woman.

A group of people chattered and walked towards the shooting direction, and Xu Qinjiang pulled on the road and sat in the racing chair.

He looked back.

At the end of the crowd, the two teenagers who finished the race were very close to each other, walking side by side.

They turned their faces to look at each other for a moment, and from this angle, they could see the smile on the corner of their mouths.

It is clearly in the crowd, but it seems to be in a space that belongs to only two people. It is a kind of tacit understanding that no one can get in.

Lu Shu saw their arms hanging down, touching each other with the slight swing of their bodies.

In a corner that no one knew, fingers were intertwined and they hooked quietly.