don't you regret

Chapter 35 Sorry

This is a very small city, and it didn't take long to go back by car. The rain was beating the windows, and it was completely dark outside. In the bumpy bus compartment, Gu Di bowed his head to choose a hotel.

After watching it almost, he handed the mobile phone to Zhuang Song across two seats: "See if this one works."

It took less than 10 seconds to hand over the mobile phone, but the lock screen was locked very quickly.

After all, he is a big anchor, and the security level of his mobile phone is very high.

Zhuang Song stared blankly at his own shadow on the screen, smiled, and handed it back, "It has to be unlocked."

"It's still the previous password." Gu Yan said.

"...Oh good." Zhuang Song agreed.

The conductor lady was originally playing with her mobile phone with her head down, and she would get off work after the train finished. When she heard this dialogue, she raised her head, and her eyes wandered back and forth between the two handsome men opposite.

Observing the eyes of the handsome guy in the trench coat looking at the handsome guy in the white shirt in the dim night, she has already imagined the whole emotional drama of "I am standing on your left, but it seems like there is a galaxy across the way".

Zhuang Song entered the password familiarly. All the passwords of Gu Yi are his high school student number, Zhuang Song's student number and his birthday. He couldn't guess the password even if he tried it.

Zhuang Song was very happy at that time, but he didn't expect that Gu Yan didn't change after breaking up.

"Yes." Zhuang Song looked at the hotel, the location and price were all right, and he handed the phone back to Gu Yi, "How long do you want to stay?"

"I..." Gu Yan was stunned by the question, "If there is no change, I will leave tomorrow, and I have to go back to the live broadcast."

"En." Zhuang Song nodded, curious again, "What changes can there be?"

When he asked questions, he habitually smiled a little, and his dark and clear eyes shone with a faint light, like tiny stars in the sky above his head.

Zhuang Song's tone was flat, but Gu Yan felt a sore pain in his heart.

"There shouldn't be any changes," Gu Yan said.

"Oh." Zhuang Song returned the phone and didn't ask again.

Zhuang Song vaguely felt that the atmosphere was a bit strange.

Sitting here, the scene is like an old love song you have heard or a previous movie you have seen.

I can't figure out why this happened, obviously he and Gu Yan never had that kind of relationship, obviously he has completely lost that kind of thought now, maybe it's because of the rain, or the old-fashioned bus.

I didn't say anything, until I got off the bus.

In the early hours of the morning, the heavy summer heat pervading the small town finally dissipated a bit, and the rain was much lighter. It hit the path and the mud puddles beside the street trees, tick-tock like a song with a fine melody.

After getting off the car, Zhuang Song found that Gu Yan was walking very slowly.

So he stopped and asked, "Tired?"

"A little bit." Gu Yan said, "Shall we walk slowly?"

"No problem." Zhuang Song said.

Of course, this small request can be met, after all, everyone has rushed over, Zhuang Song said to Gu Yan seriously, "Thank you for coming to see me, Lao Lie refuses to come, it's too far away."

Gu Yi raised the corner of his mouth slightly, but the smile was not obvious, not at all his previous flamboyant style, "You're welcome."

The pace of life in the small town is very slow. Although it is early in the morning, many people are still eating, drinking and having fun outside. If it is not raining today, there will be more people on the street outside.

Walking forward for a while, across the road, there is a flower seller next to the Malatang stall, and there is still the last bouquet in the basket.

Zhuang Song glanced at his mother-in-law, and Gu Yan, as if he had received instructions, hurried over to buy the flowers, and then crossed the zebra crossing back to the road with the bunch of flowers in his hands, Zhuang Song looked at him.

It's really worth pleasing to the eye. Gu Yi is tall, with broad shoulders and long legs, and a good figure.

Holding an umbrella in one hand and holding a windbreaker, night light, and flowers in the other, a bit of a male star goes to the vegetable market to buy something for his family and cooks for his family after get off work. Brightness and virtuousness are harmoniously integrated in this picture.

Gu Yi handed the flowers to Zhuang Song: "Give it to you, and put it at home as a decoration."

The bouquet is pink and white lilies, dotted with some baby's breath dyed light orange, Zhuang Song took it: "Thank you."

Walking through the gate of the community, Zhuang Song thought that Gu Diyuan was a guest, and he should be sent to the hotel, anyway, it was only a few steps away.

Received WeChat on the way.

-Xiao Zhou: Brother Zhuang, are you home yet?

- Zhuang Song: Not yet, let me take Gu Ge to the hotel first.

-Xiao Zhou: Well, go home early and rest.

Zhuang Song replied "Yes", unexpectedly, within a minute, Xiao Zhou's message came back.

-Xiao Zhou: Are you going to broadcast live when you go home today?

- Zhuang Song: Stop driving, I'm a little tired.

-Xiao Zhou: Haha too.

-Xiao Zhou: Do you want to catch up with Brother Gu or something?

Zhuang Song started to feel strange, mainly because Xiao Zhou tonight made him a little uncomfortable.

So he asked straight up.

-Johnson: What do you mean?

Seeing Xiao Zhou's "The other party is typing..." for a while, and finally sent a short "Brother Zhuang".

Zhuang Song was stunned, and then Xiao Zhou asked, brother Zhuang, were you and Gu Di were lovers before?Are you two getting back together?

Zhuang Song was stupid, he replied, huh?

Xiao Zhou said, I like you, Brother Zhuang.

Zhuang Song was dumbfounded.

He can only continue to reply:

-ah? ? ?

After that, Xiao Zhou narrated his feelings to Zhuang Song in Zhuang Song's dull expression.

In the beginning, he simply worshiped him as an idol, but the more he got along, the more he liked her. Slowly, he developed the illusion that he could really be an abrupt beauty.But the appearance of Gu Yan made him suddenly feel a sense of crisis.

After returning home, I was restless, knowing that I couldn't go back after I said it, but I was too afraid of being preempted, so I decided to confess.

Zhuang Song was in a mess, it was too sudden, he didn't have any emotions for Xiao Zhou other than being a friend.

And in this way, many of Xiao Zhou's previous actions, or what Gu Di said just now, he has to reconsider.

He asked, so what are you doing to Gu Die tonight?

-Xiao Zhou:……

-Xiao Zhou: I'm sorry.

-Xiao Zhou: I want to apologize to Brother Gu.

This is tantamount to admitting that it is indeed targeting others.

Zhuang Song back, it's all right.

Although he said it was okay, it meant that he didn't care about it. Zhuang Song was a little annoyed. He didn't expect Xiao Zhou to have a plan for him, but it was not surprising. Pure friendship like that of the scorching sun is rare.

Zhuang Song turned to Gu Yan.

During the time when Zhuang Song sent the message, Gu Yan has been standing obediently by the side, neither asking nor coming over.

So it was true that Gu Yan was wronged just now, Zhuang Song felt that he should say something.

He sighed softly: "I blamed you just now. He said he would apologize to you."

He didn't explain the cause and effect, but Gu Yan understood.

"It doesn't matter if he apologizes or not." Gu Yan said, "It's good that you don't think I'm losing my temper."

"Yeah." Zhuang Song said, "I'm slow this time."

"It's not that you're slow, it's that you're a fan of the authorities." Gu Yan smiled, "Look, I told you that he likes you."

Zhuang Song bent his mouth.

Gu Yi is really good at coaxing people——

He suddenly raised his head and looked at Gu Yan in a daze: "What do you mean 'you said it'? When did you say 'yes' to me?"

Someone said that Xiao Zhou liked him.

That person is called "Tourist 0067".

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Zhuang Song stared blankly at Gu Yan who had just realized what he had said by mistake.

Gu Yan, who has always been calm, has an almost blank expression at this moment.

"What does this mean?" Zhuang Song asked, "Are you that... 0067?"

Gu Yan was silent for a long time before admitting, "It's me."

"So...?" Zhuang Song's mind was filled with chaotic waves, "Those words you said before?"

0067 said many things in Zhuang Song's live broadcast room, "broken love", "I did it", "very regretful", "if given another chance, I will cherish him well".

At that time, Zhuang Song also said that you were very affectionate.

Gu Yan was struggling in his heart.

He wasn't ready to confess, but he had already said this, and denying it would only make the misunderstanding worse.He owes Zhuang Song a lot, and he has no right to hide anything.

So in the end Gu Yan admitted: "The person I'm talking to is you."

"What do you mean?" Zhuang Song asked.

Gu Yan gritted his teeth, and said everything, "It means that you are the one I am broken in love with, you are the one I am sorry for, and you are the one I want to confess to. Although it is too late to say it now, but... I like you."

Zhuang Song stayed for a few seconds before asking: "Really?"

Gu Yi didn't expect Zhuang Song to react like this.

He thought that Zhuang Song might be happy or angry, but at least Zhuang Song would know.

But looking at the blank expression on Zhuang Song's white and gentle face, he realized that Zhuang Song hadn't thought about this at all. Maybe after a certain time point, he never thought that Gu Yan would like him anymore.

Gu Yan suddenly felt heartache, and he realized that he owed Zhuang Song these words for too long.

"Really, I like you, I have always liked you, believe it or not." Gu Yan's heart broke, and he said it all, "I miss you very much these days, I dream of you every night, I didn't understand at first What kind of feeling is that, after thinking about it later, I realize how many stupid things I have done before."

"Like me, why did you treat me like that." Zhuang Song asked.

"Because I'm a fool, I think the world is big and I'm the biggest. I didn't consider your thoughts, I only cared about my own happiness, I thought I..."

Gu Yan didn't dare to look into Zhuang Song's eyes, and he didn't even dare to say the past, saying that Zhuang Song would hurt.He took a deep breath, "I looked back and realized what I said and did. I don't know why you could bear me for so long. You are so kind, but I am such a jerk. I let you Sad many times."

"Yeah." Zhuang Song bit his lower lip, "You were really a jerk before."

"I'm sorry." Gu Yan was stabbed by Zhuang Song's expression and felt pain in his heart.

Zhuang Song stood there, the white shirt was blown by the wind, he was very thin, his waist was so thin that it seemed empty under the hem of his clothes, it made people want to hug him and block all the wind for him.

Gu Ye couldn't figure out why he made Zhuang Song suffer so much. Zhuang Song, who was so kind and pitiful, was a person that even a passer-by knew he liked. He should be cared for and cherished. What did he do in the past? What is it?

"Can you give me another chance?" Gu Yan blurted out.

After speaking, the world seemed to be silent, Zhuang Song looked at him quietly, only the sound of rain was left in the sky and the earth.

After a long time, Zhuang Song finally smiled at Gu Yan, and then walked over, his hazy outline seemed to be shining in the rain under the light.

Every step seemed to be stepping on the tip of Gu Yi's heart, which made Gu's heart ache and he was a little suffocated.

Stopping in front of Gu Yi, Zhuang Song smiled slightly, and finally said: "I am very happy that you can think of me that way. I never thought that one day you would actually look back and reflect on yourself. If it is because of me, I am very relieved. In this way, the past years are not all in vain.”

Just hearing what he said made Gu Di feel very painful. He walked with his eyes closed all these years, and let Zhuang Song help him willfully.He thought that Zhuang Song was happy, but could there be more?The closest people can pierce the deepest wounds, and they don't even know how to make up for it.

"I know I was wrong, and I will correct it." Gu Yan took a deep breath to hide the soreness and pain in his heart, "If you want, I will treat you well, listen to you in everything, and put you first, thanks I will return all of yours to you, whatever you want, I will never make you sad again. I—”

"I believe you really want to change your ways." Zhuang Song took over the conversation gently.

Putting the bouquet in my hand back into my arms, rain fell on the petals of the lily, like scorching teardrops.

He smiled: "But sorry, we are really not suitable."