White Swan

Chapter 68

He Haoyun did not expect that Qiao Fei would be willing to meet him.

Standing at the door of the ward, he didn't know why, but couldn't stand the boy looking at him in front of him, and finally turned his head to look at the ivy outside the window. The slender and lush emerald green vines grew up along the window sill, blocking a little bit of spilling into the room. sunshine.

If there weren't these vines outside, it would probably be brighter in the house.

He Haoyun finally plucked up the courage to walk a few steps into the ward, but didn't dare to get too close, and finally stood at the end of Qiao Fei's bed.He had almost lost Jophy, the boy who would cry for him, be angry for him, hate him, be afraid of him, almost leave him forever.

The silence in the room was a little suffocating, and He Haoyun finally couldn't help but speak first: "My dear brother... really wants me to die."

Qiao Fei nodded: "Yes, I know."

He asked, "Do you know what happened to the princess and prince in "Swan Lake"?"

He Haoyun was not interested in ballet and never cared about it. He frowned slightly, not knowing what Qiao Fei wanted to say.

"They jumped off the cliff together and died for love. It's so romantic, don't you think?" Qiao Fei propped up half of her body from the bed, trying to make herself sit higher.

He Haoyun wanted to get him a pillow to put behind him, but he felt that he was no longer qualified, so he stood still in the end.

"I was very envious when I read the story of "Swan Lake" for the first time. I envied Odette, because even if she died, it was for the people she loved. It seems that for her, death is not terrible, because she I know there is a prince waiting for her." Qiao Fei's voice was hoarse and unpleasant, and his throat hurt as soon as he spoke, but he continued to speak as if he didn't feel it.

He has never regretted it since he threw himself on He Haoyun to save him, and he didn't even think about whether his dream would end like this, and he lost it to a man he didn't love at all.

He just felt a little tired and wanted to sleep.

Listening to it, He Haoyun began to feel panic, as if something was slowly slipping away from his fingertips, he suddenly felt a little uneasy, but he couldn't tell what it was like, but Qiao Fei seemed to be becoming more and more unfamiliar.

"Mr. He, I saved you not because I love you, but because I have never loved you before."

He Haoyun was taken aback for a moment, thinking he heard it wrong, hesitantly asked: "What did you call me just now?"

Qiao Fei smiled and narrowed her eyes: "Mr. He is really a nobleman who forgets things a lot. I don't know if you remember. You said that if I can afford it, you will let me go."

"I'll pay you back, and I'll pay you back everything."

He Haoyun didn't like Qiao Fei like this, he vaguely felt that something was gradually getting out of his control.

It turned out that the obedient boy was gone, replaced by this little hedgehog with thorns all over his body, fearlessly protecting his softest abdomen, with hard and sharp thorns standing outwards, and he would be killed if he touched it The thorns on the little hedgehog's back were bleeding.

Qiao Fei once showed the softest part of herself to He Haoyun, but he stabbed it in with a knife mercilessly, watching with a sneer as the dripping blood stained the floor red.

It's his fault.

He hurt people time and time again, and wanted to apologize to him again and again after it was over, but he couldn't keep his face.In fact, He Haoyun was also afraid. Apart from tying Qiao Fei to his side with a cold chain, he couldn't think of any other way to keep him.

It turned out that at some point, that innocent and kind boy no longer had him in his heart.

But...how could Qiao Fei save him? If he hated him...wouldn't it be better to just let himself die.

"You saved me..." He Haoyun said hesitantly, with a hoarse voice, "So you still love me, right? Otherwise, why did you save me?"

"I never loved you, I just don't want to owe you anything." Qiao Fei rolled her eyes, "Mr. He, we will never owe you anything."

"Why do you..." He Haoyun has always been eloquent, and he can handle even tricky clients when negotiating business, but he was speechless after Qiao Fei finished speaking, and all the words he wanted to say were stuck in his throat.

Qiao Fei continued: "Mr. He, I have actually lied to you about many things. I said that the flowers you gave me were beautiful, and that the ski resort was found on the Internet. Two years ago, when you put me on the bed, I I also said that I love you. It was only after I followed you that I discovered that it is not difficult to deceive people, and I will learn it."

He Haoyun was still like an angel two years ago, but he didn't know when he took off his halo, took off his white clothes, and grew sharp horns and hooked wings.

Qiao Fei smiled, narrowing the end of his eyes slightly.

I'm tired, don't lie.

Shi Xubai's mobile phone was placed on the bedside table of the hospital bed, and the screen lit up after receiving a message.

He Haoyun's attention was subconsciously attracted, and when he saw it, his heart and his whole body began to ache.

The screen saver is a photo taken by Qiao Fei when he was skiing. He Haoyun has never seen Qiao Fei's smile like this, and he doesn't remember the last time Qiao Fei smiled at him. Maybe it was two years ago, maybe it never happened.

He really wanted to see Qiao Fei smile at him like that, even a little bit, He Haoyun raised his hand to touch Qiao Fei's lips out of nowhere.

But just as he took a step in front of Qiao Fei, the boy sneered, and the corner of his mouth curled up in a sarcastic arc: "Are you threatening me again? I don't have anything now, and I gave you my legs, or should you do it yourself?" Want a leg too?"

Qiao Fei looked at He Haoyun and stopped abruptly as if injured, her fingers froze in mid-air.

"Mr. He, forget about me. I can't fall in love with you, and I don't think you have ever loved me."

He Haoyun also hopes that he can walk freely, close the door and leave without looking back, leaving only a wish for your happiness at the end, but it hurts him like cutting off a piece of meat.

He has always been like a lion, unable to bow his head for anyone, but he has lost since he was rescued by Qiao Fei, and all he has left is his dignity, and he can only slam the door behind him, and put him and Qiao Fei together. Let go of this relationship.

But in the end, he may not even be able to afford his dignity.

Before he left, he leaned on the door frame and looked back at Qiao Fei.The boy was smiling, but it was different from the smile he saw in the photo, it was a polite smile to strangers.

He Haoyun was a little disappointed, as if something had been poached from his heart, and he was in pain bloody.He opened his mouth, but he couldn't say sorry.

The door closed softly behind him.

His back was a little lonely, Qiao Fei wanted to stop him, say anything, or say thank you, but in the end she didn't speak.

After the door closed, Qiao Fei waited for a long time but Shi Xubai came in. He leaned forward and stared at the door closely, and heard a voice talking outside.

Their voices were very low, and they couldn't hear clearly.Qiao Fei was worried about Shi Xubai, also wanted to know what they were talking about, and wanted to get out of bed and follow.But he lifted the quilt and moved his legs to the side of the bed before he remembered that he couldn't walk.

It's okay to not move, but after such a move, there was a piercing pain in the calf, and the muscles twisted together like cramps.Qiao Fei bit her lip to keep from screaming, and the bed sheet was wrinkled under her fingers.

From now on... Maybe he really can't dance anymore, he really gave back everything to He Haoyun.

The voice from outside pulled Qiao Fei out of his thoughts, he slowly raised his head and held his breath.

Shi Xubai's voice was still as gentle as a cloud that cleared after rain: "A dancer's heart is wild, and you can never tame it. But I just want to give him back the freedom that originally belonged to him." That's all."

"Then do you love him?" He Haoyun asked.

Shi Xubai's voice was very low, Qiao Fei couldn't hear what he said clearly, only heard He Haoyun's slow answer.

"I love it too."

"It's just too late."

The demon has no claws, no horns on the top of its head, and no ripped wings behind it.He just has no sense of security, and wants to use everything to keep the only person who has accompanied him, even if that person has never really loved him.

In fact, Qiao Fei didn't hate him, he pitied him.

He Haoyun said another word, the voice was very soft, so light that Qiao Fei even thought it was his own illusion.

Be nice to him and don't let him meet someone like me again.

Then the footsteps gradually faded away, so soft that they could not be heard, but extremely heavy.

He Haoyun may never learn how to love someone, but he still learned how to let go gracefully.

The two-year relationship between him and He Haoyun ended like this.There was nothing to regret, Qiao Fei only felt that the stone that had been pressing on her chest had been lifted, as if she could finally catch her breath.

When Shi Xubai pushed open the door of the ward, he saw Qiao Fei leaning on the edge of the bed, half of her body leaning out of the bed, staring at the door eagerly.He chuckled lightly, and hurried to Qiao Fei's bedside, fearing that if he failed to pass, he would fall and hit the ground.

"Has he left?" Qiao Fei waited until Xu Bai got closer and reached for his hand, dragged him to sit next to her, and hugged him again.

Shi Xubai stroked Qiao Fei's hair, nodded: "Yes, let's go."

"I'm sorry." Qiao Fei said slowly after being quiet for a while, "I don't really want to go with him, I'm just afraid that he really makes you unable to be a choreographer and director again, I know this is very important to you .”

When Shi Xubai pondered over what he meant, his heart began to ache.He didn't know what it was that made him feel distressed, maybe it was because he understood that this kind and simple child was actually protecting him, or maybe it was the tone of his when he said he was sorry.

Qiao Fei always made him feel bad. Such a good child should have been protected, but he suffered so many injuries.

"Fool, why are you so stupid." Shi Xubai wrapped his fingertips around Qiao Fei's thin clothes.The hospital gown seemed too big on him, leaving so much fabric free.

After not seeing him for a few days, Shi Xubai felt that Qiao Fei seemed to be thinner, and the little beauty was withering, but he was actually lucky to save him before the sunflower withered.

"This is the first time I've spoken to him like this. I've never dared to do it before. I don't owe him anything. We are equal." Qiao Fei waited for Shi Xubai to finish kissing, then chased after Shi Xubai and leaned closer to his face. , wanting to give him the kiss he gave her in return, "I am also ready to love the person I want to love.

"You don't have to feel sorry for my leg. I just paid back what should be paid to him. I owe him my leg in exchange for his life."

Shi Xubai carefully hugged the boy into his arms, rubbing the back of his head with his palm.

He wasn't trying to comfort him, Shi Xubai just wanted to tell Qiao Fei that he would be there from now on.

Qiao Fei buried herself in Shi Xubai's neck, her voice muffled: "Then what should we do now?"

Shi Xu rolled his eyes and smiled gently: "You can do whatever you want, and I will accompany you whatever you want."

"I want to eat ice cream, I also want to eat oranges, and I want to watch a movie. Anyway, I just want to do what couples do."

Qiao Fei waited for a while but didn't hear Shi Xubai's answer, so she couldn't help poking him with her finger and asked, "What's the matter?"

Shi Xubai asked him softly: "So... can you be my boyfriend now?"

When Qiao Fei looked up at Xu Bai, the sun shone from behind him, casting a golden light on his outline.

His white sun finally belongs to him, he is no longer the orange-flavored candy that he hides on the top of the cupboard, he can hold the sugar jar with peace of mind and tell the whole world that I also have my own love.

The sunflower did not catch up with the sun, and the sun set and kissed his petals.

Qiao Fei nodded and smiled.

He is no longer a canary, he is the ugly duckling of the gentle man in front of him.

"I figured it out." Qiao Fei looked thoughtfully at the gradually setting sun outside the window.

Shi Xubai asked, "What baby?"

The sun is fiery red tonight, burning across the clouds at the edge of the horizon.

The stars are the flowers that bloom in the night sky, and the sun is the torch that illuminates the world. They are equally important.

Qiao Fei hugged Shi Xubai's neck lightly, rubbed the tip of her nose against his cheek, then kissed his lips, her voice fell in the gap between the two of them.

It turns out that the morning glow is not for the dying stars, but for the newborn sun.