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Chapter 40 Ch40 The Victim

When he was young, Qin Zheng had an older brother.

In fact, I also have them when I grow up, but I basically haven’t seen them much after I grow up, so let’s just pretend that I don’t have them.

And no matter when I was a child or when I grew up, at home, the loved one seems to always be someone other than myself.

Even though Qin Yuan is a bastard, a sinner, has done all the unforgivable nonsense, and was forced to roll to a foreign country and shrink his tail to be a man, but because he is the firstborn child who was weak and sick since childhood, his mother will always love and tolerate him unconditionally. The father would only finally think of something when he fully realized that the eldest son was really raised and disabled, and turned his head to look behind him at the younger son who had been drifting away from them in silence for a long time.

So they gave birth to him just to wait until this day and let Qin Zheng be a spare tire?

Really boring.

But Qin Zheng didn't realize that all this was really boring from the very beginning.

About when he was in junior high school, his brother Qin Yuan, who was always an inch shorter than his popularity because of asthma but still arrogant, got into big trouble at school because of school violence and forced his classmates to commit suicide. He was packed and sent abroad overnight by his father.The victim's parents are the best partners of the Qin family. The two families hold each other back, and no one can move the other. No matter how much they hate each other in their hearts, they can still laugh as if nothing happened when they see each other in person.

In a school violence, the perpetrator fled, irresponsible but seemed unable to return. The content of international long-distance calls was always cursing, resentment, cursing and begging for mercy covered in crocodile tears; The stable spirit suffered great trauma again, and it took about a lifetime to think over and over again under the shadows of whether to die and when to die-but the adults could still sit and talk and laugh happily, and they even called Qin Zheng to go so naturally. Continue to be good classmates and friends with the victim's brother.

It's really interesting, Qin Zheng is not as good as they want.

But Qin Zheng didn't find it very interesting when he maliciously "bullied" Xu Peck in order to confront the adults.

It is obvious that he is the one who looks down on Qin Yuan, but now he seems to be doing the same thing as Qin Yuan, to prove... what to prove?It took Qin Zheng many years to figure out what he was trying to prove.

But once, he almost figured it out.

The opportunity was his mother's unexpected change.

One day when he came home from school, what greeted him suddenly was no longer the cold room and the cold food left for him by his aunt who dared not speak. Qin Zheng opened the door and found that the house was clean and bright. The dishes were exquisite, but his mother, who was in tears every day, changed into a decent dress and was sitting at the table, looking at him tenderly.

"A Zheng, you're back."

Qin Zheng stood there at the time, and it took him a long time to finally be sure that she was talking about "A Zheng" and not "A Yuan".

In her memory, she never seemed to call herself that.

Qin Zheng put down his schoolbag, walked over cautiously, and sat opposite her, watching the woman serve him rice, soup, and vegetables with vigilance and novelty, and asked him gently how he was doing at school today.

Suddenly, she treats him too well.

Perhaps to others, this is just an ordinary and even embarrassing courtesy, but to Qin Zheng, this treatment is enough to make him feel terrified.

He thought a lot in a flash.

He thought that the biggest possibility was that his mother wanted to use himself as a substitute for his brother. It would always be better for the spirit to have someone to love-how terrible, he thought this idea was wonderful at the time, and he could accept it. If he doesn't wake up, he will pretend to be a good son for the rest of his life.

For the first time in his life, Qin Zheng even got carried away.When racking his brains and trying to pick out some normal campus life to tell his mother, maybe he was thinking too seriously, Qin Zheng didn't even notice that the woman's eyes were gentle and free, but she didn't listen to a single word.

Sure enough, the dream was broken after only 10 minutes.

When Qin Zheng, who realized something in the silence, raised his head and met the woman's unbearable smile, his mood was unexpectedly calm.

——A Zheng, your brother can't live outside alone.You have lived with your aunt abroad since you were a child, and you have strong adaptability. Can you replace him... It is not a big mistake he made, and it will not affect your future. It will only take a few years, and your father will definitely be able to got you back.Of course, if you want to stay abroad and continue to develop at that time, there must be no problem.

——You can do everything well.

How funny, Qin Zheng heard his mother praise himself for the first time, and it turned out that it was because the other party wanted him to take the blame for her other son to go abroad.

There is no mother who can say such a thing to her own child.

And listening to her smooth tone and self-consistent logic, it seems that she has typed thousands of times in her heart.

Qin Zheng refused.

And after refusing, the woman greeted him with even more incoherent requests and patience, exactly like Qin Yuan's eyes full of resentment.

—I only took a few holidays abroad.

After regaining his composure, he got up from his seat and took one last look at his mother.

——And that's because every holiday you just take Qin Yuan to see a doctor, check-up, relax, and recuperate. The elders see me as pitiful, so they just take me along on their family trip.

The woman finally calmed down.

Almost, she was silent forever.

When Qin Zheng was upstairs staring at computer games in a daze, his mother cut his wrist downstairs.

It's the same trick as Xu Peck's younger brother, except that the kid committed suicide to set himself free, while Qin Zheng's mother committed suicide to make Qin Zheng a sinner.

really interesting.

Really boring.

Outside the emergency room, looking at his father who had heard the news, Qin Zheng calmly said: "Okay, then I will be the next one to die."

The cycle of dead silence, quarrels, and back and forth day after day.

--Are you crazy?

--Are you crazy?

--Are you crazy?

--Are you crazy?

After the hysterical yelling and crying were shut behind the door, on a sunny day, the young Qin Zheng kicked over the table.

After a short period of tranquility, he pushed open the door and walked out without looking back.

At that time, he thought that he would never come back again, but he didn't expect that, going around, until so many years after this day, he was in Jiangcheng one spring, when he bought a ticket to Iceland. For a moment, finally, I really decided to set myself free.