My Tang You

Chapter 49 Chapter 49

When we got back to the dormitory, it was already dark.

Because the next day was National Day, Fang Yuhao and the others had already gone home for the holiday.

Tang You went to pick up the hot water, opened a bag of jasmine au lait powder, brewed it, and stirred it slowly with a spoon.There is a sweet smell in the air.

Tang You took a sip, and the steaming mist rose in front of his eyes, making his vision a little blurred.

After drinking, he turned on the computer and typed the code.

In the dormitory, there was the sound of squirrels cracking pine nuts on the keyboard, and occasionally the happy and indulgent ghost cries and wolf howls of other students on the same floor could be heard in the distance.

He was the only one in the dormitory during the holidays, without Fang Yuhao's routine as a reminder, Tang You somewhat forgot the time.When he was approached unceremoniously by tinnitus, he realized that it was past two o'clock in the morning.

Lately tinnitus has become more unscrupulous and unbearable.

Tang You lowered his eyelashes slightly, propped his elbows on the table, and gently rubbed his temples with his fingertips, hoping to relieve the pain.

I don't know if the technique was wrong, but after rubbing it a few times, my mind became more and more dull, and the nausea in my stomach was so grateful that my back was full of cold sweat.

Tang You got up to go to the bathroom, almost throwing himself up.

After throwing up, take a shower, drink some water, and climb into bed.

No matter how you say this point is the time to go to bed, Tang You is also very tired, but he knows that he can't fall asleep easily.Inside his exhausted and aching head was an excited brain, and the two sides saw each other, always torturing him so much that he wished he could knock himself out.

He fell asleep and woke up, woke up and fell asleep again, and it was dawn.

Another day without much sleep.Supplementary sleep is also non-existent, and I can't fall asleep at all.

Tang You got up, brushed his teeth and washed his face.

It was also a coincidence that when he took out his mobile phone to check the time, he clicked into the social software, and he happened to see a video post from Luo Xiang.

The video was published 5 minutes ago, and the content is the back view of a man with broad shoulders and long legs.

Tang You's hand stopped.

Even if it was just a back view, he still recognized it at a glance, it was Xu Qinchen.

How long has it been since I saw Xu Qinchen?Don't remember, he has been deliberately avoiding thinking about him.

I couldn't see Tang You's expression, maybe he was a little gloomy. He clicked on the video and turned the sound to the maximum.

In the video, rumors of another country far away spread.The wind was a bit strong, and it was blowing loudly, blowing the corners of the people in the video flying.The sky is very blue, conveying a sense of vastness and loftiness, which is a different world from the dullness of his room.

Tang You stared and listened blankly.

He and Xu Qinchen also recorded a similar video. At that time, he was walking behind Xu Qinchen, holding up his mobile phone and shouting, "That handsome guy in front, please turn around!"

Xu Qinchen looked back at him and smiled.

Looking back at that time, it is so far away that I can hardly remember it clearly.The root of Tang You's tongue was bitter, and there was a pain that seemed like a world away.

At the end of the dynamic video, a female voice said, "Wait for me." This voice was of course Luo Xiang.

The video stopped abruptly at this point, and it was not recorded whether Xu Qinchen continued to walk forward after that, or stopped and waited for Luo Xiang.

Tang You recalled the day he met Luo Xiang.

Luo Xiang is really beautiful and free and easy. She said that she is not interested in fighting for love, but if they break up, she will still pursue Xu Qinchen.

Because she doesn't care about love and sexuality at all, what she needs is family marriage and inspiration for painting. What she is interested in is to turn someone like Xu Qinchen who can match her into her person.

People and things that I had avoided thinking about for months suddenly came before my eyes.

Tang You wondered blankly: Will they be together?

I don't know how long it has passed, and I don't know what kind of mood he is in, Tang You can't help pressing the button to replay.

When the playback is over, play it again.

End again and play again.

so cycle.

On the first day of the National Day holiday, Tang Youmao watched the short ten-second video over and over again in the dormitory.

That night, he downloaded data recovery software, trying to recover the photos and videos that had been formatted half a year ago.

I remember that when he had just moved into a one-bedroom apartment, Xu Qinchen went to find him. He felt that Xu Qinchen was still listening to him, formatting the phone data in front of the other party.

All the memories in the phone were deleted by him, but now he wants to get them back.

Several months have passed, a lot of data has been overwritten, and it is impossible to find all of them. In the end, he really only recovered a small part.

Tang You let himself relive his old dreams with the recovered photos and videos.

There was a video in which he asked Xu Qinchen with a smile in his voice: "Will we be together forever?"

Xu Qinchen replied, "Yes."

At that time, he was really happy. At that time, Xu Qinchen even had love in his eyes.

When Tang You met Xu Qinchen's eyes in the last video, the string in his heart was suddenly severed by someone.He seemed to have been slapped severely by someone, curled up unbearably, and let out an uncontrollable sob.

From this moment, he seemed to have lost the ability to control himself. He sat at the table and cut himself with a blade, as if it was not his body, but a dead thing without life or feeling.

The blood flowed out and dripped quickly, and Tang You slowly stopped crying in pain, and then felt strangely calm and relaxed, and even a little bit of joy.

It's like an antidote.

Things like peace and joy are really scarce and addictive.

From this day on, Tang You seemed to have discovered a new continent and let himself indulge in it.

However, it is a pity that the duration of this happiness is pitifully short, and the shelf life often does not exceed one day.Tang You is like an addict, hiding in no man's land, seeking this kind of pleasure over and over again uncontrollably.

Throughout the National Day holiday, Tang You locked himself in the dormitory and hardly ever went out.

It wasn't until the day before Fang Yuhao and the others returned that he pulled himself together and cleaned up the dormitory to restore his normal appearance.

The school requires senior students to practice for three months. After the National Day holiday, Tang You went to the listed company that offered him the offer.

Tang You wanted to work for three months to get an internship point.

He hardly spoke much in the company, but because of his excellent professional knowledge and good looks, his work went smoothly.

A week later, the company hoped that he could come to the company when he was free before graduation, and offered to arrange accommodation for him.

As for after graduation, he will go through formalities for becoming a regular immediately.

So Tang You moved to the company's dormitory building, the reason is very simple, the company provides a single dormitory, so that it is convenient for him to do something without being discovered.

He still has tinnitus, insomnia, anxiety, and when his willpower is weakest when he is half asleep and half awake, he often feels that life is worse than death.But he found a way to ease the psychological pain and calm himself, so he could keep going.

Work continues day by day, people are social animals after all, and Tang You and his senior colleagues are gradually getting acquainted.

When not busy or when the leader is not around, everyone in the office will also chat with each other, and sometimes cue Tang You.

Tang You is more often immersed in his own world, and many times he can't catch their topics, but his colleagues don't mind. In the end, the topics are often turned to questions such as "Does Xiao Tang have a partner?" "What type do you like?" ", "Do you need help introducing a girlfriend?"

Every time at that time, Xu Qinchen always went to Tang You's mind to refresh his sense of existence.

Then Tang You would say: "No one. Let's see, I don't want to talk about it now."

On this day, Tang You went to work as usual.

In the past, everyone was quite enthusiastic, but today is a bit different. After Tang You stepped into the office, after saying "morning", a colleague looked at him with a constipated expression.

I don't know what happened, the atmosphere was awkward for a second before someone answered: "Hi, morning."

It's quite unusual, but Tang You didn't have so much energy to mind it, so he just pretended not to notice it, sat down at the desk, turned on the computer and started working.

Within an hour, Tang You's head became heavy, and the nausea in his stomach surged up again. Seeing that the words on the computer screen in front of him were doubled, Tang You got up and went to the bathroom.

He obviously vomited until the sky was dark, and he seemed to vomit out all his internal organs, but what he really vomited out was just a little acid water.

Tang You rinsed his mouth, returned to the computer, and continued to work.

I drank a few sips of vegetable soup at noon, ate a few sips of rice, and continued to work in the afternoon. I didn't have an appetite for dinner, so I didn't eat at all, and continued to work overtime.

After returning to the dormitory after get off work, Tang You was so tired that he fell asleep.

That night, he didn't suffer from insomnia, but he fell into a deep sleep. Tang You didn't wake up until two o'clock in the afternoon the next day, and the colleague next door knocked on Tang You's door and didn't respond.

Finally, someone picked the lock and broke in. When they saw Tang You lying on the bed with a pale face, they were so frightened that they almost thought he had died of overwork.

It was indeed overworked, Tang You had an infusion, and the doctor told him to take a good rest recently, and the colleague in the next room also offered to ask Tang You for two days off.So, Tang You went back to the dormitory and lay down for a long time.

The next day Tang You felt better and went to work again.

He had to find something for himself to do.

As usual, it took Tang You 10 minutes to arrive at the company, and another 3 minutes to walk to the office door.

His footsteps have never been heavy, which caused the discussions in the office to not stop in time.

"Hey, don't you know, Tang You is actually gay! I heard that it was because of him that Mu's company went bankrupt. He hooked up with the boss of Mu's company. After being discovered by his boyfriend, that boyfriend brought down Mu's company in a fit of anger. gone."

"Really? It doesn't look like that kind of pervert..."

"You're wrong. You see how he looks. As a man, don't you think it's too beautiful? Hey, I heard that those rich people like to engage in these strange things."

"Ah...it's kind of disgusting to think about it..."

After Tang You listened to these words with a blank face, there was a new development in the office.

"What's so strange? What's wrong with being gay? Is it bothering you? Will you fall in love with you? At least Tang You works beautifully and sometimes brings breakfast for everyone, and you will eat it Eat someone's breakfast before chewing on someone's tongue."

Tang You stepped into the office without changing his face, greeted him, and went to work.

Colleagues have different expressions.

Tang You knew very well that he couldn't care what other people said. Now he just wanted to leave as soon as possible after the internship, so as not to fail the course of the internship.

After graduation, he wants to change companies and cities.This city is almost unbearable for people to live on. There are all those messy memories of the past, going around and around, and they can't escape from the past.

The day's work ended in a gray tone, and Tang You was blocked by Mu Shaosi on the way back to the dormitory.

Mu Shaosi didn't look downcast, at least not as downcast as Tang You imagined. On the contrary, he looked like a dog, so he drove the car and stopped in front of Tang You.

Mu Shaosi probably changed to a new perfume, and Tang You was incapable of accepting this smell.

As soon as the person approached, the breath rushed towards his face, Tang You almost wanted to vomit, and instinctively took a step back.But he just took a step back, and then froze in place as if electrocuted——

Sometimes the olfactory memory is buried deep and lasts longer than imagined.At this moment, Tang You suddenly remembered that he had smelled this breath before: After Fragment woke up, this breath was on his body.

It turned out that it was really Mu Shaosi that night.

"Long time no see." Mu Shaosi looked at Tang You with eyes filled with emotion when an old friend reunited, "You seem to be having a bad time."

Tang You didn't speak.

Seeing that Tang You didn't ridicule himself, Mu Shaosi's eyes lit up with hope, and he took half a step forward, "We are all single now, why don't we start over."

Tang You was silent for a few seconds, the corners of his mouth slowly curled up in a mocking arc, and he said coldly, "It was you that night."

Much Shao paused for a moment, thinking about his words.

He had prepared several arguments, and logically speaking, he should choose the one that was closest to the facts and best liked by Tang You. After all, he wanted to start over, and he was also afraid that Tang You would hate him to the end.

But what Tang You showed him was arrogant mockery and coldness.

Something was clamoring in Mu Shaosi's heart, and he subconsciously wanted to see other emotions in Tang You's eyes that made him love and hate - such as being unable to bear the humiliation, such as breaking down after learning the truth.

Mo Shaosi said, "It's me."

He also said: "The Xu family finds someone to mess with you, and I can't help it. After all, we two are old friends, and it's better to be by me than by others, isn't it?"

Tang You's eyelashes trembled.

Mo Shaosi captured this moment as if he was weak, his heart moved, and his voice subconsciously softened and said: "I have some things that I can't get rid of in the past few months, otherwise I would have come to you long ago."

Mu Shaosi had a hard time in the past six months. The funds given by Xu's family failed to save his company in the end. Xu Qinchen's bad luck not only bankrupted him, but almost killed him.

He had to hide abroad to recover from his injuries. Recently, he heard that Xu Qinchen didn't seem to be in the country, so he came back secretly.

Of course, he wouldn't tell Tang You about this.

Although he was very embarrassed during this time, it was more of a strange sense of satisfaction.

It seems that the fact that he "touched" Tang You really drove Xu Qinchen crazy.As Mr. Xu said, Xu Qinchen is a person who cannot tolerate betrayal. After that incident, I heard that Xu Qinchen never saw Tang You again.

He felt that as long as Xu Qinchen and Tang You made a firm decision, and he spent more time and effort on his side, there was still hope of getting Tang You back.

With half of Tang You's face sunk in the shadows, he quietly said, "Let's go to your house and talk about it."

Mu Shaosi couldn't believe his ears, Tang You was going to his house?

At this point, Tang You actually offered to go home with him?

is this real?

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Rewrite time: 21/10/18.

Second revision: 21/10/27.