My Tang You

Chapter 55 Chapter 55

As if back in that day, Tang You stood in the afterglow of the setting sun.

- "Xu Qinchen, don't you know that the Xu family wanted us to split up during that time?"

- "'You are so active in the video, is that also arranged by the Xu family?' You want to ask this, right?"

right?

Xu Qinchen didn't know.

He didn't want to ask this question, but he really needed Tang You's explanation.

However, how can a person who has made up his mind once and for all explain it to him?

Xu Qinchen put away the suicide note, and suddenly felt that Tang You might have given him the answer.

He started to investigate what happened at that time, after Tang You lay in the ICU for a week.

It was a dark and colorless day.

The irony is that it took Xu Qinchen only three weeks to figure out the truth—it turns out that the explanation should not be given by Tang You, but by the Xu family——

Before the Mu family went bankrupt, a company once injected a large amount of money into it in the name of investment, and the time just happened to be after he broke with Tang You.Looking deeper, there is the Xu family's handwriting behind it.

There is no reason, no profit, and it is not a charity. Why do you want to invest that amount of money in such a secret way to a company that is almost impossible to save?What this means, could not be more obvious.

Even if Xu Qinchen knew that his biological father was not very good, he would never have imagined that he could do such a thing.

He went to Xu's house.

Mr. Xu has always regarded himself as a superior person, consciously higher than all other creatures in this world, and he is a bit majestic and rigid, with the same "big patriarch demeanor".He didn't directly answer what good deeds he had done, but he sized up the young son, without concealing the contempt in his tone, "I know you're still dazed by that unworthy thing, but you don't know that you've already done it?" To this extent?"

"Things that are not on the table..." Xu Qinchen murmured.

The old man on the opposite side was hale and hearty, and he seemed to have nothing to do with himself. Xu Qinchen said without any fluctuations in his tone: "It's only now that I realize that the most unworthy thing is actually you."

The youngest son contradicted him so much, Mr. Xu couldn't stand it, he was naturally furious, and almost smashed Xu Qinchen's face with a cup of tea.

In recent years Mrs. Xu has been eating vegetarian food and reciting Buddha's name, so she doesn't live in the ancestral house, so Zhang Yadai often stays by Mr. Xu's side.At this moment, Zhang Yadai's face was full of melancholy, while comforting the furious Mr. Xu, she turned her head to Xu Qinchen and said eagerly, "Ah Chen! Apologize!"

……Apologize?

It seems that everyone has their own code of conduct, no matter right or wrong, just like old man Xu always consciously is right, Zhang Yadai always feels that Xu Qinchen should be obedient and not disobedient.

He should apologize, but not to them.

Xu Qinchen suddenly lowered his eyes, not knowing what he was thinking, when he raised his eyes again, he asked Zhang Yadai strangely: "You always knew, didn't you?"

The old man has already walked away, leaving only the mother and son.

Zhang Yadai's eyes dodged a little, she subconsciously felt that she should say that she didn't know, but Xu Qinchen obviously asked the question with the answer, so she could only whisper in a little at a loss: "I also came later... I didn't deliberately not tell you , I thought you were all separated, so it’s better to let it go. I thought he wouldn’t be so difficult, but I didn’t expect..."

In the middle of her speech, she suddenly lost her voice, because Xu Qinchen suddenly laughed miserably, and her eyes were red.

Xu Qinchen never showed his emotions in front of her very much, but at this moment, his face was full of extreme pain, absurdity and disappointment, which made Zhang Yadai froze, and felt an unspeakable sadness in his heart.

Xu Qinchen turned around silently without saying a word.

Zhang Yadai chased after him as if waking up from a dream, "Ah Chen..."

But Xu Qinchen slowly and firmly pulled her hand away, and then walked away without looking back like a breath of winter wind.

Zhang Yadai would never have imagined that just two years later, the ruthless and seemingly omnipotent Mr. Xu would be sent to the prison by Xu Qinchen himself, and finally spent the last part of his life in it.

She didn't expect that after that, until her death, Xu Qinchen would not forgive her, never said a word to her, and never stepped into the Xu family's gate.

Of course these are later stories.

At this moment, Zhang Yadai was just upset, watching the young man drive the car away, stepping into a world that she could never enter again.

Xu Qinchen seemed to have had an absurd dream, black and white were indistinguishable, right and wrong were reversed.

In his dream, he acted in a tragic disappointment, fell in love with the play, and was in great pain.After a sudden accident, he tried his best to save Tang You at all costs, thinking that as long as Tang You survived, he could change everything.

Look, how empathetic and righteous, how magnanimous.

But once you get out of the dream and open your eyes to see the reality, what do you see?Who committed the unforgivable mistake to whom, and who needs to be forgiven by whom?

The scenery outside the car window receded rapidly, so fast that people had the illusion of flying.

If people could really fly, Xu Qinchen would like to fly back a month ago, find Tang You, give him a hug, tell him that he was wrong, ask his forgiveness, and spend the rest of his life loving him and atoning for the sins he committed.

But everything has already happened, how can it be recovered if it is covered with water.Tang You hid on the edge of life and death, refused to open his eyes, refused to see him.

Xu Qinchen drove to the hospital in a daze, and stayed outside the ICU in a daze.After an unknown amount of time, someone spoke in his ear, Xu Qinchen turned his head and saw the person in front of him clearly.

Luo Xin's face was full of worry and exhaustion, and she waved her hand in front of Xu Qinchen's eyes, "You look so bad, go to the lounge and sleep for a while."

Xu Qinchen shook his head, he didn't want to move, it seemed that he didn't know where else to go except here.

Luo Xin knew that he was stubborn in some aspects, so she didn't force it. She sat on the chair next to her, switched between tactful encouragement and telling the truth, and chose the latter. Yes, not very optimistic."

Xu Qinchen said "hmm".

Luo Xin said sadly: "We also talked about it before, Xiao Tang has a lot of self-inflicted injuries on his hands, and his psychological problems have reached a very serious level before the accident. Therefore, he himself has no will to survive at all."

Xu Qinchen maintained the posture just now, as if he was overwhelmed by the words, after a while, he suddenly said "Sorry" in a low voice, and then hurried out, as if he didn't want others to see his expression at the moment.

Luo Xin looked at his back and sighed.

Late at night, Xu Qinchen drove to Grandma Tang You's small building.

In fact, he didn't know why he had to come here, until he found a suitcase with a thin layer of dust in this small building that hadn't lived in for a long time-it belonged to Tang You.

Presumably he came looking for this.

Tang You didn’t leave many things behind. In the suitcase, there was only a book, a few ID cards, an old photo of his parents, an unopened box of 3D model piano puzzles, and a box of unsent jewelry with handwritten cards.

When they first met, Tang You was a sophomore in college, and when they turned around, Tang You had already graduated.

Xu Qinchen opened the graduation certificate, and his eyes fell on the ID photo with the stamp on it.The person in the photo has a thin face, smiling at the camera, but that smile is just a superficial expression, not as good as the eyes, but the tiredness between the brows is so dull and intense that it can't be melted away.

That was Tang You, whom Xu Qinchen had never seen before. It seemed that something had burned in that body, leaving only a handful of exhaustion in the end.

There were Tang You's notes in that book, and Xu Qinchen read it page by page.

At a certain moment, Xu Qinchen paused his hands and pulled out a thin letter paper. The letter paper only had the words "Xu Qinchen:" written on the upper left corner, and nothing else.Perhaps Tang You sat at the desk one day and wanted to leave him something to say, but in the end he closed the book without writing anything.

Under the dim light, Xu Qinchen stared blankly at the thin piece of paper, and seemed to see Tang You who was buried in front of the desk.But no matter what he thought, he could only see a vague figure, unable to concretize Tang You's expression.

I don't know if I can't imagine it, or I can't imagine it.

Put that piece of letter paper back into the book, and another piece of paper folded in half quietly fell down.

Xu Qinchen stared.

It was Tang You's medical certificate, the diagnosis result was severe depression and severe anxiety.

This is the same as what Luo Xin analyzed before, so Xu Qinchen was not surprised, but just read the medical certificate again and again, unfolded the small corners, smoothed them gently, and stroked Tang You's name almost gently.

Time goes back with my thoughts——

You are sick.

Maybe it wasn't so serious at the beginning, you didn't want to think about those sad things, so you focused on your studies and stayed up day after day.During that time, you also took a few certificates, and it seemed that you had a very fulfilling life.

But in fact, "fullness" does not make you better, but drains your energy, you become worse and worse, and you are so anxious that you can't sleep.

Countless sleepless nights, countless gloomy days, you are exhausted in the swamp of emotions, falling into the dark and unable to get out, but you don't know who to talk to.

A heart is so big, and there is no room for so much sadness. You need something that can be resolved to prevaricate yourself.So you start to hurt yourself, transfer your psychological pain to your body, and cut so many deep and shallow cuts on your hands and body.

Later, you picked up a typhoon and started to see a doctor. It should be better for a while.You might think that everything is slowly getting better.

But this year really treated you too badly, the typhoon got sick, you sent it back, and became alone again.

Then one day, you saw the news of my engagement, or rather, the news of my engagement was so overwhelming that you couldn't avoid it.

The last snowflake fell with a crash.

——Xu Qinchen saw countless pictures in the time tunnel, each frame was Tang You's silent face, and each frame was his helpless remorse.

He held the flimsy medical certificate, but it was so heavy that he couldn't lift it up.Suddenly, his Adam's apple twitched heavily, tears poured out as if a gate had been opened, dripping down his cheeks unbearably.

Xu Qinchen suddenly covered his eyes and cried bitterly in this dilapidated night.

Three in the morning.

Xu Qinchen carefully collected all the things Tang You left behind, and brought them back to City A together.

The barking of dogs in the village was the same as when they came here, one after another, startling one or two families, and everything fell into silence after a while.

He was so sleepy that he should have slept, but Xu Qinchen always felt a big emptiness in his heart. The cold wind whizzed in with ice balls, making his whole body cold, as if there was only a door guarding Tang You's side. It's not that cold.

He was tossed back to the ICU.

Some people outside the ICU are eagerly looking forward to being out of danger and hoping that the situation will be stable.

However, the situation of the people lying in the ICU will not improve because of the ardent expectations outside the door.Tang You, who had been suffering for a month, was finally at the point where his fuel was exhausted. Even though a whole medical team saved his life, he still inevitably went to exhaustion.

At 54:[-] in the morning, Tang You's condition suddenly deteriorated, and the ECG monitor was the first to detect something was wrong, and issued an anxious and piercing alarm.

The medical staff who were paying close attention immediately surrounded them, and the sounds of various alarms interspersed with human voices, causing chaos for a while.

"My heartbeat is getting slower and slower..."

"Blood pressure 80, continues to drop!"

"Quick, quick! The ventilator is ready!"

"Epinephrine Adrenaline! Connect the CPR machine! Quick!"

The deterioration came so fiercely that Tang You's exhausted heart stopped beating in just a few minutes.

"Heart stop beating!"

"CPR!"

"Come again!"

"Hold on, hold on, you're still so young, hold on..."

"Push the adrenaline, fast!"

The strong wind swept from the distant sky, passed through the silent mountains, passed through the tall buildings, rolled up countless inconspicuous joys and sorrows, and rushed to the dark clouds.

In the rescue room, doctors compete with death for the lost lives.

Outside the emergency room, Xu Qinchen tremblingly signed the informed letter.His mind was blank, and there was only one thought in his mind: Tang You's heart stopped beating.

This thought turned into a boulder that crashed down, covering the sky and the sun, crushing his internal organs.

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Rewrite date: 21/12/5