Under meals

Chapter 43 Can't Live Without Me

When watching a movie with Jing Ci a few days ago, Tao Mingzhuo felt that the couple hugging and crying on TV was too exaggerated, but he didn't expect that the clown became himself today.

He found that he could empathize with those lovers suddenly, because he really cared about Jing Ci so much.

This is the first person he really likes, as long as he thinks that the other person doesn't like him as much as he imagined, it feels like a big hole has been opened in his heart.

In fact, it is a grievance.

Thinking of Jing Ci’s kindness to me before, I feel sad, thinking that Jing Ci may not like me so much, I feel scared, thinking that Jing Ci may just like her delicious food, but now I am full of Jing Ci. I feel wronged and outrageous.

After a long time, Tao Mingzhuo felt Jing Ci raise his hand, gently wiped away his tears, and said, "Don't cry."

Tao Mingzhuo, with tears hanging down his face, sucked his nose, and at this moment he was still stiff-mouthed: "I, I didn't cry..."

Jing Ci was a little flustered.

They were obviously in love, but Tao Mingzhuo cried like a child and asked "Have you ever liked me", and then said to himself very aggrieved, "But I have already liked you".

On weekdays, the sunny and cheerful boy who was always smiling cried so embarrassingly in front of him, it was obvious that he was really sad.

From the few words he just said, Jing Ci roughly understood the reason for Tao Mingzhuo's emotional outburst.

Jing Ci was a little puzzled when he heard it. At first he thought that Tao Mingzhuo was angry because he didn't confess to him when he learned about his illness. other reasons.

Jing Ci said softly to him: "It's my fault, the thing about getting sick... I really want to hide it from everyone."

"But getting sick is one thing, liking you is another." Jing Ci raised her hand to help Tao Mingzhuo wipe away the remaining tears from the corners of her eyes, and asked softly, "Did someone tell you anything? Why do you think so?"

Tao Mingzhuo didn't speak.

He finally managed to control his tears for a short while. His nose and eye sockets were red from crying, but after hearing Jing Ci's words, the base of his ears also turned red. There was almost no piece of skin above his neck that was not injured.

After a while, Jing Ci heard him say in a low voice: "At that time, you always took the initiative to find me for dinner, and invited me to eat every day, and you always took the initiative to ask me out after work, and you were so kind to me... ...The kind that is different from others, of course I would have misunderstood..."

Jing Ci was taken aback.

Recalling what Tao Mingzhuo said just now, "If I wasn't the one who ate well in the cafeteria at that time", Jing Ci raised her eyes in surprise: "You think I—"

"Yes." Tao Ming cut him off angrily, he looked into Jing Ci's eyes, and confessed flatly, "I thought you had a crush on me at that time."

As soon as he said this, the emotions he had finally adjusted collapsed again little by little. He lowered his head in a panic, wiped his eyes, and said in a low voice after a moment of choking: "You were so kind to me back then, Anyone else would be so self-indulgent..."

Jing Ci let out a breath.

At that time, Jing Ci wanted to create more opportunities to get along with Tao Mingzhuo, so it could almost be regarded as approaching him by any means.Looking back now, looking at his actions at that time from Tao Mingzhuo's perspective, there will indeed be some subtle misunderstandings.

"I do have an illness, but I don't hide it from you because I don't believe you."

Jing Ci said: "I didn't tell you at first because I felt that you seemed to be under a lot of pressure when we were eating together. If I told you that I was sick, it would be like kidnapping you with my illness forcibly. There will be a burden, and it may not be so comfortable to eat."

"After we were together, I thought about confessing to you." Jing Ci sighed, "But your sister has encountered such a thing again. She is very hard, and you are also very busy. I don't think it is a very important time now. Great timing."

"And I don't think it's a serious illness." He said, "We didn't know each other well at the time, I don't know if you would tell your friends, and I really don't want more people to know about it, This... is that I am more selfish."

"Isn't this considered a serious illness?" Tao Mingzhuo's nose was still red, and he raised his head in disbelief when he heard this, "I can't eat!"

Jing Ci: "..."

Jing Ci shook her head, looked into Tao Mingzhuo's eyes after a while, and said firmly and gently: "But no matter what, I am with you and I like you, and I need to look at you to eat There is no connection in this matter, I can assure you."

Jing Ci explained very clearly, but Tao Mingzhuo did not speak for a long time.

He was silent for a long time, and asked: "So you...you can only eat when you see me eating?"

Jing Ci said, "Yes."

Tao Mingzhuo pursed his lips: "Only by looking at me? Others..."

Jing Ci: "Only you."

Tao Mingzhuo pursed his lips.

For a moment, Jing Ci felt that his mood seemed to be a little better, but soon he returned to a gloomy state.

Tao Mingzhuo asked: "At that time, the reason why you agreed to accompany Yang Keying to the comic exhibition was because you wanted to spend more time with me so that you could have more full meals?"

Jing Ci hesitated for a moment: "Yes."

Tao Mingzhuo sniffed: "Later you fell on your head at the manga show and invited me to live with you at your home, was it also for..."

Jing Ci was stunned for a moment, and said, "That was part of the reason at the time, but in fact I—"

Tao Mingzhuo interrupted him abruptly, he drooped his eyelids and said sadly: "I see."

"Jing Ci, you think you have feelings for me now...just because you can't leave me now." He looked into Jing Ci's eyes and murmured, "But do you really like me? Or are you just in love with me?" While looking for 'food', you want to play with me by the way?"

Jing Ci's breathing was stagnant, he shook his head: "It's not..."

He saw Tao Mingzhuo lowered his head, his Adam's apple moved, and said, "I want to be quiet."

They sleep in separate rooms at night.

Jing Ci knew that Tao Mingzhuo's mind was in a mess right now, no matter how he explained it, he couldn't listen to it. The best way to deal with it was indeed to calm down for a night.

In fact, sometimes it is difficult for Jing Ci to tell when she fell in love with Tao Mingzhuo.

In the beginning, it was indeed for the purpose of eating, but later I found it interesting, and felt that he was warm and special, and he always gave some unexpected reactions.

In fact, at the beginning of this relationship, Jing Ci had been holding a tentative attitude. In a sense, Tao Mingzhuo could be regarded as his first love. Before that, he had never dated such a young and innocent boy. , And I didn't really try to talk about a relationship with my heart.

Tao Mingzhuo is really special, like a big fluffy and hot dog, as long as he sees you from a distance, he will immediately rush over happily to stick with you.

Jing Ci thought that she would not fall, that she could always treat this relationship with a rational and sober attitude as before.But until today, seeing Tao Mingzhuo's tears, Jing Ci realized that his chest was in extreme pain. For the first time, he found that he would feel flustered, become restless, and wanted to explain clearly. He's never felt like this before.

Only then did he realize that Tao Mingzhuo had become the most cherished person in his heart unconsciously.

Looking at the whole matter from Tao Mingzhuo's point of view, Jing Ci felt that his anger and grievance were understandable.

What Jing Ci is worried about now is that Tao Mingzhuo will likely regard all his previous behaviors as the purpose of "wanting to have dinner with me", and he will very likely think that all the little things between the two are The drops are all about exploits, but they aren't.

Jing Ci felt restless and tossed and turned all night, he felt that he should make it clear to Tao Mingzhuo as soon as possible.

In the early morning, he barely fell asleep for a while, but when he woke up and walked out of the bedroom, he found that Tao Mingzhuo's suitcase that was originally placed at the end of the corridor was missing.

Called, but no one answered.

The last time Tao Mingzhuo fled in despair after confessing his love like this, and didn't come back with the painting until late at night.

Jing Ci took a deep breath, forced herself to calm down, picked up the key, and was about to go out to Li Lan's house to ask Tao Xue.

Just as he opened the door, he saw Tao Mingzhuo standing in front of the door with the suitcase beside him.

He was holding a large bag of vegetables in one hand, and he was raising the other hand, ready to press the password of the gate.

Seeing Jing Ci open the door, Tao Mingzhuo froze for a moment, and quickly looked away.

He pursed his lips, brushed past Jing Ci, walked in with the suitcase, and put the bag of vegetables on the kitchen counter.

Tao Mingzhuo remained silent.

Jing Ci saw him walk to the front of the suitcase, squatted down, laid the suitcase flat, and then opened the zipper.

What is contained in the suitcase is not clothes, but a lot of professional kitchen utensils.There are casserole pots, electric egg beaters, various cake and biscuit molds, a toaster, a yogurt maker, and even a mini oven, as well as many thick cookbooks.

Tao Mingzhuo didn't want to look at Jing Ci because his eyes were swollen.

Last night when he went back to the house, the more he thought about it, the more uncomfortable he felt, because he was always worried that Jing Ci might never like him at all, so he secretly started to wipe his tears again.

However, when recalling the little things that happened between the two of them, recalling the pot of sweet potatoes boiled by Jing Ci in the package, I felt that it was impossible, and suddenly I felt confused.

Tao Mingzhuo heard Jing Ci ask, "Where have you been?"

Tao Mingzhuo originally wanted to set up a firm and ruthless character for a whole day, insisting not to talk to Jing Ci.

But he was originally a soft-hearted person, and he felt that Jing Ci looked pitiful standing alone by the side. After holding it in for a while, he couldn't hold it anymore, so he pretended to be very impatient and whispered: "...you here Kitchen utensils are expensive and difficult to use, and the dishes that can be cooked are very limited, so I went to my sister to borrow some."

Seeing that Jing Ci hadn't spoken for a long time, Tao Mingzhuo was stunned for a moment, and seemed to understand what Jing Ci was thinking.

He pursed his lips: "I won't move away."

Jing Ci looked at him, her eyelashes trembling.

Tao Mingzhuo was silent for a while, and said firmly: "I won't move away, because your illness is special, so I will still eat with you, otherwise you will blame your body for any problems in the future. On my head...I can't take the responsibility."

"It doesn't mean that I'm not angry anymore." He lowered his head and added with some anger, "It's just because... because you can't leave me now."

The author says:

Xiaojing: I like you.

Xiaotao (woo hoo): If you don’t listen, you don’t listen, I’m just angry!Just want to engage in awkward forced love!