i know i'm sick

Chapter 26

Without answering, he pondered carefully in his heart: An Ning is resisting himself even more, and his loathing of himself even exceeds the fear of Shiwan Dashan.Although this conclusion makes people sad, it is not without a good side-maybe his own existence really poses a threat to Aning?That's why An Ning asked to enter the mountain regardless.

Yang Anning couldn't wait for Ling Ran's reply, so he had to repeat it again: "I want to enter the mountain as soon as possible."

Ling Ran came back to his senses and said, "Since you asked so, then I'll make arrangements to go into the mountain tomorrow."

After getting the answer, Yang Anning didn't feel relaxed, instead her heart was lifted high.One hundred thousand mountains, this is a place he never wants to go again.Although he was the one who asked to go into the mountain on his own initiative, but he really went, all the fears hidden in his heart came out.

Yang Anning said, "Okay, then I'll go back and clean up."

Yang Anning's movement of turning around was a bit stiff, he walked back to the bedroom step by step under Ling Ran's gaze, but the back of his shirt was wet little by little with cold sweat.It's one thing to think about going, but it's another thing to actually go. For more than ten years, Yang Anning never thought that he would return to that place.

This night Yang Anning didn't sleep all night, when he closed his eyes, there was darkness, only in the depths of the darkness was a dim yellow light that flickered on and off, faintly visible.

Yang Anning held Aning's hand tightly, trying to find some comfort from him, but Aning's hand was also bitingly cold.

Yang Anning asked: "Ah Ning, are you cold? Why are your hands so cold?"

Aning said: "You are cold, so you think I am cold too. An Ning, are you afraid?"

Yang Anning closed her eyes: "Scared, how scared I am, don't you know best?"

Aning said: "You don't need to be so anxious, you are not ready yet, right?"

Yang Anning said: "I can't wait any longer, Ah Ning, I always feel that if I wait any longer, you will disappear."

Aning smiled softly: "How come, I will be with you."

Yang Anning opened his eyes, stared at the beam of the bed, and said, "A'Ning, don't leave me anymore."

Aning paused and said, "No, whether it's good or bad, I'm here."

55.

The road into the mountain is not the one more than ten years ago, and of course it is not the one that Yang Anning left the mountain.The carriage drove along the not very smooth mountain road, which was the way for Ximiao followers to enter and leave the main altar.

Yang Anning half-lyed in the carriage, only glanced out the window when the carriage entered the mountain, then hid himself in the carriage and never showed his face again.

It turned out that even the way into the mountain was fake.

Yang Anning held Aning's hand tightly, and the veins in his hand were exposed.

The wheels of the carriage drove across the mountain road, making creaking noises. Yang Anning only felt a voice whispering in his mind, as if saying something to him, but he couldn't hear clearly.Suddenly, he heard a familiar voice asking him, "An Ning, are you okay?"

Yang Anning smiled and said, "I'm fine, Aning, don't worry."

As soon as the words fell, he saw Aning's surprised expression - the voice just now came from outside the carriage, it wasn't Aning, it was Ling Ran.

Yang Anning's eyes widened, and she looked at Aning in disbelief, with a huge wave in her heart.How can it be?How could he mistake Ling Ran for Aning?It is impossible for him to make such a mistake, they are obviously two people!

Yang Anning covered his ears, and shook his head vigorously, no, he heard it wrong, it was Aning who was talking just now, he couldn't have misunderstood Aning...

Outside the carriage, Ling Ran naturally heard Yang Anning's mistake clearly. At that moment he was very happy, but the next moment he was full of worry.This is the first time that An Ning has misidentified him and "A Ning", which is a good thing for him, but An Ning will definitely not like such a misidentification.

Ling Ran tapped on the carriage and asked, "Are you really all right?"

Yang Anning's sharp voice came from inside the carriage: "Get out!"

Ling Ran jumped onto the carriage almost immediately, opened the curtain and entered the carriage.

Yang Anning curled up in the corner of the carriage, her face pale.He raised his eyes to look at Ling Ran, but found that Ah Ning, who was by his side, had come to Ling Ran at some point.Both of them were dressed in white, Ling Ran looked at him anxiously, but Aning was expressionless.Yang Anning looked at Aning, then at Ling Ran, his eyes suddenly became blurred, and the faces of Aning and Ling Ran were mixed together, as if they could no longer be distinguished.Yang Anning's eyes darkened, and he realized that he couldn't tell the two of them apart.

Yang Anning stretched out her hand, but she didn't know who to reach out to.Who is his Aning?

Ling Ran held Yang Anning's hand, hugged him tightly, and said, "Anning, don't be afraid."

Yang Anning involuntarily grabbed Ling Ran's skirt, as if trying to grab a life-saving straw, Yang Anning asked, "A-Ning, are you Aning?"

Ling Ran's heart was tangled, but he couldn't find words to comfort Yang Anning. He could only keep saying, "Don't be afraid, An Ning, don't be afraid."

Yang Anning gradually settled down in his arms. This embrace is different from before. Aning's embrace will not be so warm. For many years, Aning's body has always been cold.Yang Anning pushed Ling Ran away forcefully, hid in the other corner of the car, half closed his eyes, and said, "You are not Aning."

Ling Ran felt a chill in his chest, and Yang Anning had already avoided him far away.Ling Ran smiled wryly, and said, "An Ning, I will accompany you."

Yang Anning didn't speak, and only pointed to the door of the carriage, signaling him to go out.

Ling Ran looked at him, but finally went out.

Yang Anning raised his eyes, saw Aning who was still at the door, and said, "You said you would not leave me, and you want to lie to me again?"

Aning said, "I didn't lie to you."

Yang Anning suddenly raised her voice and shouted: "Then why don't you stay by my side? Why are you by his side?"

Aning showed a wry smile: "An Ning, where I am is always what you want."

Yang Anning's lips moved, unable to speak.

Aning moved to his side, knelt down and looked down at him: "An Ning, why don't you believe that I will always be with you? I promised you."

Yang Anning didn't answer, he didn't even want to think about it.Aning is his life and everything to him. Aning accompanied him through the most tragic days, and has been with him for more than ten years. Even Aning has promised many times that he will always be by his side. He, but why did he think that Aning would leave?

No, no, it wouldn't be like this before, it all started with Ling Ran's appearance, and on the way south, this feeling gradually deepened, and it was magnified to the extreme after entering Shiwan Dashan.

Yang Anning regretted it, he shouldn't have promised Ling Ran to return to Shiwan Dashan, and Aning wouldn't leave him if he didn't come back.

Yang Anning staggered to the door of the carriage, opened the curtain and said to Ling Ran: "I want to go back!"

Ling Ran sat on the shaft of the car, lowered his head, and said, "I won't let you go back after entering the mountain."

Yang Anning looked at him coldly, and repeated, "I want to go back."

Ling Ran still said the same thing: "I won't let you go back."

Yang Anning's face turned from pale to bright red with anger, and he said viciously: "Why? Is this your purpose? Trick me into coming here, and then imprison me?"

Ling Ran raised his head and said, "I won't lie to you again. An Ning, you agreed to come back, and you asked to go to the mountain. Why are you backing out now? Because of Aning? You know that I can't see Aning, Can't do anything to him. What are you afraid of?"

Yang Anning didn't reply, he seemed to be stopped by Ling Ran's questions, and after a long time he said: "It has nothing to do with you. I want to go back."

Ling Ran leaned over and sat beside Yang Anning. Yang Anning subconsciously stepped back, but Ling Ran grabbed his arm.Suddenly, Ling Ran showed a sinister expression, and said: "Let me guess An Ning——you just mistook me and Aning, right? You have been very disturbed since you arrived in Jincheng. You can't find Aning, you You quarreled with Aning, and you think that Aning will leave you, just like what I did to you at that time..."

Yang Anning's eyes were red, and he yelled, "Shut up! Ah Ning wouldn't do that! He's not you!"

Ling Ran put away his expression, put on a gentle and affectionate face again, and said, "At the beginning you also thought that I would not treat you that way, but what is the truth? Have you forgotten those days in the dungeon?"

Yang Anning's pupils shrank suddenly, Ling Ran's face looked so much like Aning's, he almost thought it was Aning talking to him.

Ling Ran continued: "An Ning, don't lie to yourself, An Ning is Ling Ran, and Ling Ran is An Ning. Because of this, you will feel that Aning will abandon you, because Aning has a criminal record. An Ning, I say right?"

Yang Anning didn't want to hear it, but Ling Ran's words surrounded him tightly, those words pierced his body like a dagger, making him dripping with blood.Yang Anning wanted to refute Ling Ran, he wanted to say "Ah Ning and you are fundamentally different people", but he couldn't say anything, he didn't even know who the person speaking in front of him was.The sharp pain hit suddenly, Yang Anning put her head in her hands and couldn't help moaning.

Ling Ran hugged him immediately.

Yang Anning struggled in his arms, trying to break free from him, but Ling Ran hugged him tighter and tighter.

Yang Anning muttered to himself, "Ah Ning would not treat me like this, not..."

Ling Ran's expression collapsed, showing bitterness all over his face.He didn't want to persecute An Ning, but there was nothing he could do.

Yang Anning's struggle gradually weakened, maybe it was too much stimulation, maybe the headache was too unbearable, Yang Anning passed out.

Ling Ran carried him into the carriage and settled down, and stayed by his side.Ling Ran gently stroked Yang Anning's face, comforting Yang Anning's frowning frown.Ling Ran asked softly: "An Ning, will you forgive me one day? What should I do? Will you never trust me again?"

no respond.

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