Schoolboy becomes boyfriend

17 Confession

"What future?"

Jiang Tian pointed upstairs: "He, and yours."

He said earnestly: "Now that you treat him so well, he doesn't know your intentions behind it at all. He just thinks that he has met a living Bodhisattva. But he will have his own world, and what role will you play in that world? Just like now, he will have his own female classmates, his own girlfriend in the future, and even get married and start his own family. What will you do then? You can’t tie him by your side for the rest of your life. Isn’t it? ?”

Jiang Zhixu was silent, he knew what Jiang Tian said was the most realistic question, he could treat him unscrupulously, but he couldn't ask for the same return.

He looked at Jiang Tian with a wry smile and asked, "But what can I do?"

What can he do?Even when he said Song Enyu's girlfriend from Jiang Tian's mouth, he felt a constricting pain in his heart.How can he control his feelings for him.

"Before, I thought it was just admiration and curiosity. He was like a mystery. I couldn't help but want to solve him. But that night, when I went to Ginza and saw him lying motionless on the bed, I realized my My heart doesn't seem to be beating anymore. Jiang Tian, ​​it's really not an exaggeration, it was just that moment. I think I've probably been like this all my life, so I'll just blame him on him."

Jiang Zhixu didn't want to recall that painful night, he said frankly: "As for him, he will always be free."

His love for him is open and aboveboard, but how can there be so much magnanimity in love, it will always be mixed with secretive obscurity, which is hard to extricate yourself from.

After Jiang Tian left, Jiang Zhixu felt more and more heavy when he heard the laughter from the second floor.He was even thinking that Song Enyu had never laughed so happily with himself in such a long time.

It was lunch time again, and although Jiang Zhixu was emotional, he still prepared a meal for the three of them.Unexpectedly, Song Enyu and Weng Yaxin came out, and they planned to eat western food.

Jiang Zhixu said blankly, "Come back early."

After watching them leave, Jiang Zhixu angrily threw the spatula back to the stove, took off his apron and went back to the room alone.

Weng Yaxin and Song Enyu came out and asked cautiously: "Your brother seems a little unhappy."

A girl's mind is always delicate, Song Enyu was puzzled: "Is there? Maybe it's about his business."

He still didn't notice Jiang Zhixu's emotions until he happily accompanied Weng Yaxin after the meal and returned to Tianyi Garden.

Jiang Zhixu was waiting for him at the door of the room where they had just studied.

Song Enyu asked puzzledly, "What's wrong?"

Jiang Zhixu picked up a painting and asked, "Is this the result of your whole morning's study?"

After Song Enyu saw it clearly, he immediately grabbed the painting: "Why are you looking through my things?"

Jiang Zhixu sneered: "Why didn't I know you were going to go to art, Song Daxueba!"

Song Enyu blew the dust on the painting, ignored it, and planned to take the painting back to the house and put it away, but Jiang Zhixu grabbed his wrist and pulled him back: "I'm talking to you."

The two were so close, Song Enyu could feel Jiang Zhixu's anger, but he didn't know the reason at all.

Although he had never seen Jiang Zhixu like this before, he was a little scared, but he still contradicted him: "What's your business? Boss Jiang!"

As soon as these words came out, Song Enyu could clearly see the other party's pupils shrinking, the anger in his eyes gradually dissipated, replaced by inexplicable sadness, and even his exhaled breath was tinged with sadness.

He let go of him, and in Song Enyu's eyes before he could express his apology, he turned and left.

Jiang Zhuan went back to the bedroom and never went out until late at night.

Song Enyu had also been sitting on the sofa, he didn't even have the courage to knock on that door, he was afraid of him in his heart, not just afraid of Jiang Zhixu losing his temper with him, but even more afraid of his unreasonable restrictions on him.

Seeing that Song Enyu didn't go back to the room to sleep, Jiang Zhixu finally opened the door and came out. The little guy sat on the sofa with his knees hugged, and looked back immediately when he heard the door open.

Jiang Zhixu went downstairs and stood in front of him, his tone had regained his composure: "Why don't you go back to the house?"

Song Enyu said honestly: "I'm afraid of you." The slender eyelashes trembled slightly, and he was still glancing at Jiang Zhixu from the corner of his eye.

Seeing his appearance, Jiang Zhixu's anger disappeared.Without saying a word, he bent down to pick him up and walked upstairs.

Feeling suddenly flying into the air, Song Enyu had to put his arms around Jiang Zhixu.

After both of them fell asleep, Jiang Zhixu was still on the edge of the bed with his back to him.

Song Enyu pondered for a long time, took the initiative to rub against Jiang Zhixu, hugged him gently and asked, "Are you still angry?"

Jiang Zhixu still didn't speak.

Song Enyu had no choice but to explain himself: "Yaxin is going to celebrate her birthday, and today she invited me to her birthday party, but I declined. But there is no gift to give, so I proposed to draw a sketch for her, that's all At noon today, she also felt that it was a pity that I didn't go to the birthday party, so she invited me to dinner alone!"

Jiang Zhixu held his hand on his waist, and said softly, "I'm angry with me, it's none of your business, go to sleep!"

Seeing that he finally took care of himself, Song Enyu went further and said, "You didn't even look back at me, and you said you weren't angry with me?"

Jiang Zhixu finally laughed out loud. He lay on his back and hugged the person directly to his body: "Is it okay to see you this way?"

Song Enyu blushed again immediately, and he began to struggle to get down.

Jiang Zhixu didn't intend to let go. He held his hand and kept looking at him. There were countless unspeakable feelings in his deep eyes. He finally made up his mind and said, "Why didn't you ask me?" , why are you so nice to me?"

Song Enyu was puzzled: "What do you mean?"

Jiang Zhixu suppressed the tension in his heart, asked himself and answered: "Because I like you!"

Song Enyu's struggling body was terrified, his breathing stopped for a moment, and the deepest flame in his consciousness was ignited like this, hot and frantic.

Jiang Zhixu put his arms around his waist, and his tone was still calm: "I've thought about it all afternoon and decided to confess to you. Whether you accept it or not is your business, and whether you say it or not is my business."

"You can have any feelings for me, whether it's the family relationship as a brother, or the friendship as a close friend. Of course, if it's love, I think you can wait until one year later, four years later, ten years later In the future, wait until you have seen the world, seen all beings, been arrogant in the secular world, and stumbled in the dark, and then you will make a decision."

Jiang Zhixu touched Song Enyu's side face lightly as usual: "But I can't wait, and I don't want you to pay for my strange emotions, because today I am indeed jealous of that girl who can be of the same age as you , a common topic, a goal to strive for together. And you and I have nothing. But this does not prevent me from liking you, from the first time I saw you."

He felt Song Enyu's heartbeat like this: "Remember what I told you, I'm not a good person. I still am, I said this regardless of your feelings, just because I don't want to be scared every day, afraid of you Falling in love with others. But don’t have fear or panic. In my love, you will always be free. I planned to wait until your college entrance examination is over to say these words, but now it seems that everything is out of control. So, if you think I It's hard for you to accept my liking, you can choose to refuse, but I won't give up."

Song Enyu listened to this confession seriously.Unlike the situation he had fantasized about countless times, he never thought that Jiang Zhixu could be so calm, explaining his interests as if he was discussing business.I didn't expect that I was not as excited and nervous as I imagined.

He knew what it meant to accept his confession, and he also knew what the two of them would face in the future.

Song Enyu didn't answer, but lowered his head and kissed Jiang Zhixu's slightly moving thin lips, trembling like two thin willows swaying.

Jiang Zhixu closed his eyes, and carefully savored the young man's kiss dripping with honey.

He knew his answer, and he was prepared to face all the storms in the future.

Kiss, very lightly.

After Song Enyu finished kissing, he immediately turned over and lay down, fleeing as if he had done something bad.Jiang Zhixu understood his unspeakable shyness, covered him with the quilt, and didn't touch him again, leaving the other party enough space.

He is indeed very bad, even Song Enyu has never seen the world, and "tied" him to his side with unconditional doting and abilities higher than him.

But as he said, what can he do?

That night, Song Enyu was no longer plagued by nightmares. He dreamed that he and Jiang Zhixu went to the amusement park and sat on the merry-go-round. That was the fairy tale in his heart, and Jiang Zhixu was the prince in his fairy tale.

When he woke up again, the sun had already shone on his face, and he rubbed his eyes trying to adapt to the strong light.The door was gently pushed open, and Jiang Zhixu held the breakfast and said with a smile, "I finally woke up."

Song Enyu thought of last night, and suddenly closed his eyes shyly and got back under the quilt.

Jiang Zhixu put the breakfast plate on the bedside table, and unceremoniously fished him out: "I didn't see you so shy when I kissed me last night? You won't see people all your life, right?"

Song Enyu blushed to the neck, and began to resist: "Can you not mention it? We take advantage of each other!"

Jiang Zhixu spread jam all over the bread, smiled and handed it to Song Enyu's mouth, and the other party ate it with big mouthfuls.

"I don't think a kiss represents anything, you don't need to have a psychological burden."

Song Enyu really didn't want to continue this topic, he ate the bread and said vaguely: "You eat too!"

Jiang Zhixu looked at his cute and flustered look, leaned in front of him, opened his mouth and bit the bread in his mouth, the sweet and greasy jam was as ecstatic as the young man in front of him.

Song Enyu didn't dare to move, and he didn't dare to chew any more bread.Jiang Zhixu simply tore it off and finished eating by himself.

Song Enyu was about to get up and get out of bed, but Jiang Zhixu held his chin and licked up the jam left at the corner of his mouth.

Song Enyu was about to drown in such a sultry mood, he quickly pushed Jiang Zhixu away and fled.

After the heart is settled, life does not change except that all intimacy becomes aboveboard.In other words, sentient beings cannot drink enough water.

Both of them are people whose reason is higher than emotion, Song Enyu and Jiang Zhixu confessed their principles: everyone will leave everyone, just don't leave without saying goodbye.

But Jiang Zhixu still followed the style of a businessman. After weighing the pros and cons, he would always support Song Enyu to leave at any time.

Love is just the confidence to share the wind and rain, and should never be a shackle.

Song Enyu started preparing to go back to school after the final re-examination was over and he was confirmed to be recovering well.On the way to send him to school, Jiang Zhixu began to worry about his condition after returning to school.

"Xiao Yu! I don't know what it will look like when domestic middle schools become popular schools like this. But I always feel that you should be more generous. Even if someone points at you on the road, don't bother to pay attention to it, and don't ignore it. Communicating with classmates, even if you talk about what happened that day, it doesn’t matter, that’s not your stain. It’s the stain of those perpetrators, and they are the ones who should be ashamed to speak up.”

Song Enyu nodded: "I know! I'm not afraid of these things. Anyway, if I have been caring about other people's opinions for so many years, I would have been killed by a headshot. How can I survive to this day?"

He was right. Ever since he lost his father, his mother had been scolded "Kefu" by countless people. After his mother left, there were always laughing voices of "no father, no mother" around him and his sister.

He didn't care, or it was his survival instinct that forced him to learn to ignore these bad words.

So he accepted Jiang Zhixu, and he felt that it was nothing. At that moment, his soul and heart were not bound by any constraints, and it was the most free decision.

After sending it to the school gate, Jiang Zhixu instructed: "I'll pick you up at night, remember to call me when get out of class is over."

Song Enyu nodded obediently: "I may still go to the library with Yaxin, the time is not fixed every day."

Hearing this, Jiang Zhixu deliberately changed his expression, pursed his lips and said nothing.Song Enyu smiled and hugged Jiang Zhixu's neck: "You're thinking too much again."

Jiang Zhixu turned his head and kissed him quickly on his lips in this posture: "I'm teasing you, go!"

Song Enyu also politely kissed him on the side of the cheek, and walked into the school again with this beautiful sweetness.

Back to the familiar campus, there is still a green scene and a strong learning atmosphere.For Song Enyu, this is a brand new beginning.There are not many good memories left for him here, but Song Enyu "disregards past suspicions" and has love in his heart, which is his greatest confidence.

Song Enyu got into the mood very quickly, because he had to meet the next monthly exam immediately.He recovered emotionally and could concentrate on listening in class, and Weng Yaxin would also use after class to help him check for omissions and make up for vacancies.

But Song Enyu was too anxious. Even though the class teacher was gone, her words "I want to see the first monthly exam, what score do you get to surprise me" has always been in my heart.

He had to force himself to work hard to prove that students who came out of small towns can also be excellent.

On the first night, Jiang Zhixu didn't receive Song Enyu's text message until eleven o'clock.Seeing the slumped figure walking out of the school gate, Jiang Zhixu suddenly felt that he was worried about being a parent. He always thought that the numbers he was most concerned about would only come from the quotation table and the big screen of the stock exchange. One day, I paid attention to 123 on the test paper and the sequential number on the ranking list.

"What's the matter?" Jiang Zhixu asked with concern looking at the sullen Song Enyu.

"It's nothing, it's just that this month has been noisy, and there are too many homework left behind!" As he said, he leaned on the seat with his schoolbag in his arms to rest.

Jiang Zhixu took off his coat and covered him with it. The two of them didn't talk the whole way, and it was almost midnight when they returned to Tianyi Garden. Jiang Zhixu carried the sleeping man back to the bedroom, but the other party struggled and wanted to go again. Read a book for a while.

Jiang Zhixu said to Song Enyu in a slightly stern tone: "Sleep! I can't escape the book, so I will go to school to read it tomorrow."

Song Enyu tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. From the time he started studying to now, he had never been so empty about knowledge and test points. In less than two weeks, he fell into anxiety.

Jiang Zhixu was lying next to him, and the little guy wouldn't let him touch him, so he could only worry about insomnia with him.

This is probably the feeling of liking someone and worrying about them. In the past 28 years, he has never had such an experience, worrying about what he is anxious about, and hurting what he feels pained.

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