summer monsoon

Chapter 16 New Year's Eve

Ji Xing hung his finger over the send button, still hesitating.

The feeling of brain congestion only lasted for a second or two, and I was a little scared when I calmed down.Who is Lin Fengliang? He is barely a friend who has been with him for a few days.Although they use the same bag to hang the same key chain and even have the same birthday, these are just coincidences.In the past 23 years of Lin Fengliang's life, he only appeared for half a month.He is not as good as Gu Rourou, who has been a fan for many years, knows him well. She has seen his elation, frustrated and injured, and she can understand the footwork of his ice skates, witnessing his rise from obscurity to the top.Fortunately, there is no impulse.He quickly deleted the question that had no reason and no position.

Lin Fengliang sat on the ground beside the bed holding the tablet computer.He asked Xiao Ci to help him send an electronic invitation letter to Gu Rourou's family. He knew that Gu Rourou and his wife had liked him for many years.It wasn't until I received a call back and learned that they readily agreed to come to the scene that my anxiety stopped.He has no friends, and he can't tell whether the other party's kindness is sincere or just a social trick hidden behind politeness.He is indeed afraid of being rejected, but he is even more afraid that if he continues like this forever, he will be farther and farther away from a normal life.

Ji Xinghui really didn't lie to him.He said patiently: Lin Fengliang, believe me, there are really many people who like you.

Gu Rourou agreed, so what about Ji Xinghui?The man had spoken to him once, wondering how he won.

He wanted to invite him in person, but he didn't know where Ji Xinghui was, when he would be back, whether he wanted to see him, or whether he would accept the invitation.When we parted at the airport that day, he had the courage to ask him if we would meet again. Ji Xinghui didn't say goodbye words like the people in the movie, and he didn't seem to be reluctant. He didn't even look at him, just After all, who knows.

He gave Xiao Ci the ID photo of Ji Xing wearing a white shirt back on the website, and asked him to help him get an extra work team pass, so that he could stand in the infield and watch his games at close range like Xiao Ci .

Xiao Ci found that the person in the photo looked familiar, but he really couldn't remember where he saw him.

"Who is this handsome guy?" He was extremely surprised, this wave of operations was a bit too unscrupulous.

"Gu Rourou's brother. He said he wanted to watch the game." Lin Fengliang found himself feeling a little guilty when he mentioned Ji Xinghui.

Xiao Ci didn't care too much, it's a good thing Lin Fengliang made friends, and Gu Rourou's family are very kind people.

It was already Chinese New Year when I got my infield work permit.There is still one month before the departure for the World Championships, but Lin Fengliang has not found a chance to speak for a long time.

On New Year's Eve, everyone went home.

He received a call from his father during the meal, and the two were talking lightly. He suddenly heard that his father's voice was old and tired that could not be concealed.

Lin Fengliang plucked up his courage and asked, "Dad, how is Mom?"

There was silence on the other side of the phone for a long time, and he waited up and down with his heart hanging in mid-air.

"Son, you haven't asked me that question in years."

When I was young, my father always said, it will be fine, it will be fine, year after year.Gradually, he felt that he would never get better, that no one would get better.Now that the answer is doomed, there is no need to make each other despair again and again.

But for some reason recently, he feels that he and the world have been misunderstanding each other.He wanted to resolve these misunderstandings one by one and end those unnecessary tortures.

"Happy New Year, Dad. I hope our wishes will come true in the coming year."

"Okay. Take care of yourself too."

Lin Fengliang didn't turn on the lights, and looked out from the floor-to-ceiling glass of the high-rise apartment. All kinds of fireworks rose from the streets and alleys from time to time, and they appeared endlessly in a flash.Suddenly he couldn't bear the loneliness, he put on a thick down jacket and rushed downstairs, trying to blend into the prosperous fireworks in the world.The dripping water outside turned to ice, but the cold couldn’t stop people’s joy of saying goodbye to the old and welcoming the new. It was close to zero, and the number of people on the street didn’t decrease at all.

Pressing the New Year's bell, the phone rang.Trembling, Lin Fengliang took it out and took a look, it was Ji Xinghui.

——A lot of care in the new year.I wish you all the best, and all the good things come as promised.

A simple WeChat blessing.

Lin Fengliang felt hot in his heart, thinking maybe this is an opportunity, so he replied immediately

——Happy New Year Brother Xingxing.

Ji Xinghui sat in front of the TV with his father, drinking and chatting, and the TV was connected to the computer to play back his live broadcast. While watching, his father analyzed his camera skills with him.

Pinching zero, he sent a perfunctory New Year's greetings message.It's not that he's not serious. Everyone who celebrates the Chinese New Year has a reunion dinner with their families. Who has time to read your long speeches.When he sent it, the phone vibrated non-stop, all of which were similar messages.Someone even sent it repeatedly, so he turned off the phone temporarily and continued to drink with Ji Zhengfan.

"Xingxing," Ji Zhengfan took out a red envelope from his pocket and put it in front of him.

"Thank you Dad!" Ji Xinghui toasted, "I wish Dad good health in the new year, win a few more awards, and the business of the studio is booming!"

Ji Zhengfan smiled: "You are really not ashamed. Looking at the new year, it will be 28, and you can still get the red envelope with peace of mind."

"Isn't it okay to take it if you're not married? There's nothing to be ashamed of."

"Then you're married, I'll leave my words here, I'll pay double if you get married, and double if you have a baby!" Ji Zhengfan's face turned red as soon as he drank.

"Dad, you don't know me yet." Ji Xinghui was afraid that he would drink too much, so he hurriedly changed him to a cup of tea.

"I'm just talking. Who you like is your freedom, but it doesn't matter if you're a man or a woman, Dad still wants you to find someone to accompany you and live together. Life is so long, can't you meet someone who really makes you fall in love?" the old man Dad waved his hand and said, "No, I can't drink anymore. Put everything here and I'll pack it up tomorrow. You should pack up and go to bed too."

"Good night, dad." Ji Xing watched his dad go back to his room, and cleaned up the dishes by himself.

Life is so long, can't you meet someone who really makes you fall in love?

Yes, but how many people have met and been tempted, but can't be together.

"It's not called 'being with you', it's called being 'together'"

Ji Xing remembered that he had said so.In his heart, that short and beautiful "together" was really not enough, he wanted more, but he knew that Lin Fengliang couldn't give it to him.

They are different people. Lin Fengliang is an active athlete, and he has already received more attention and comments.He couldn't bear to let him abandon his worldly vision and risk his whole body being bruised and bruised to go on this road.That person will have the best future, how can he be hurt by someone as unknown as himself, Ji Xinghui is unworthy and unbearable.

It's past one o'clock when everything is packed.He suddenly remembered that he hadn't called his mother and Rou Rou for New Year's greetings.Since childhood, Rou Rou has always liked the Spring Festival because she can receive red envelopes.Ji Xinghui restarted the machine, first found Gu Rourou and sent a New Year's red envelope, and began to clean up the New Year's greeting messages.

On the top is Qu Jing's, but she didn't say New Year blessings, and went straight to the point:

——Senior, I’m going to Sakurajima next month!The Sports Station broadcasts the Figure Skating World Championships live!

All right, the whole world is going to watch the World Championships.Why didn't he find any sense of existence in this sport before?

He didn't reply to Qu Jing, and then cleaned up the group blessings below.Below is Jin Yue, and below that is Rourou, the cameraman. . .

below. . .Next is Lin Fengliang.Ji Xinghui suddenly remembered that he hadn't screened out the list of group text messages, and he also received his group text messages.That person didn't delete himself, and even replied to him. The time was an hour ago, and he replied in seconds.

Lin Fengliang was alone on the street, and cautiously replied: Brother Xingxing, Happy New Year.

As the night got colder and the wind became colder, he watched couples, family members, and friends who had been unwilling to go home for a long time gathered in the middle of the street, parks, and squares.He didn't want to contact anyone so urgently, he wanted to hear him say Happy New Year to himself.I don't know why, standing alone among the neon-flashing high-rises he hadn't seen for a long time, he felt the melting ice of the warm wind blowing in his heart again.With a feverish brain, he pressed the voice call request. After 20 seconds, if there is no answer, it will hang up automatically.

Maybe the fireworks/fire storm/bamboo was too loud, so he dialed it again.

Still no answer.

Maybe it was busy answering the phone.After all, Ji Xing has a lot of friends.

Lin Fengliang didn't know what he wanted to prove, so he waited for 10 minutes and dialed again.

Sure enough, there was still no answer.

He wandered aimlessly, his whole body froze.

It's great that Ji Xing came back, he missed the way he looked at him, his nice smile and nice voice, and he missed him calling his name.He is too gentle, gentle to everyone.Even if you are bored, you can't bear to hurt.But for an abnormal person like myself, who would want to have a long-term relationship?It's so normal.I actually deluded myself and expected some response.

But why do I care so much about things that I have known for a long time, and I can't let go of them so much.

He randomly walked into a garden in the middle of the street and sat on a bench in front of the fountain pool. The mouth of the fountain was already covered with rust, but he still looked unwilling to admit defeat, and the water flowed out intermittently.

This fountain is ugly, he thought.It's obvious that no one appreciates it, so it's ugly to be so self-indulgent.

Lin Fengliang just sat on the chair alone, looking up at the smoky sky.Fireworks are beautiful, but they are brilliant for a while, and the exhaust gas after burning takes a long time to dissipate.

The phone vibrated suddenly, and he picked it up without even looking at it.This point should be Xiao Ci.

"Good? Are you not at home?" Xiao Ci asked him.

"Well, go downstairs to buy something, go back and get ready to sleep."

"Happy New Year!" Xiao Ci was very noisy, and he followed his parents back to his grandfather's house.

"Ah."

"What, you're in a bad mood? Did you quarrel with your uncle?" Xiao Ci heard Lin Fengliang's muffled, nasal voice.

"No, I'm sleepy and have a headache. The air outside is bad." Lin Fengliang explained.

"Then you go back quickly and go to bed early. I'll go back tomorrow afternoon and bring you a gift." Xiao Ci hastily hung up the phone, probably busy playing mahjong with the elders.

Just as he hung up Xiao Ci's call, the phone vibrated again.He tapped the green answer button mechanically, only to realize that this was not a phone call, but a voice call from WeChat.

He looked at the scarecrow's head and couldn't make a sound at all. He felt that the mental construction he had just done for an hour was in vain. The city walls that had been built were cracked one by one and smashed to pieces in his heart. The irregular heartbeat brought a tearing feeling.He suddenly became short of breath, as if being strangled by the throat, unable to speak a word.

"Hello? Lin Fengliang? Can you hear me?" Ji Xing waited for a long time but still didn't get a reply from there.Only a little shortness of breath was heard, and the environment sounded mixed with the sound of wind and driving cars. "Are you outside? Happy New Year!"

"Why didn't you answer?" Lin Fengliang's voice was a little hoarse, filled with unbearable sadness.

Ji Xing panicked.

"You looking for me? I just turned off my phone. Where are you?"

"do not know."

"Are you alone? Wait for me for a while." Ji Xinghui took the car keys and rushed out the door immediately.

"Don't bother, I can go back by myself. I'm not stupid."

"You wait for me. I'll go find you." Ji Xinghui insisted.

"...Okay..." Lin Fengliang shared the seat.

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