twin stars

Chapter 55 Contradictions

Lei Yi

Before filming "Five Tigers", I performed in the modern drama "Good Friends" starring Ah Sheng.The film tells the inspirational story of the rich young man played by A Sheng who has no joy in life, and who accidentally becomes friends with the down-and-out painter played by me and a group of brothers to achieve their life goals together.Asheng won the "Most Potential Newcomer Award" at the Asian Film Festival for his outstanding performance in this film.We are all happy for him, and he has also begun to be reused by Zhang Dao and has become a member of Zhang Dao's staff.

After the filming of "Five Tigers", Director Zhang brought me, Ajie and Asheng to work on the island.Artest and Ahxiu were left in Hangcheng.They were very anxious, because all the previous work, including negotiating salary with the company and selecting scripts, were all handled by Zhang Dehui for us.People who practice martial arts have a strong concept of "respecting teachers and respecting Tao". Although we signed a contract with the company, it was basically discovered and popularized by Zhang Dao, so everyone psychologically relies on Zhang Dao and regards him as "Master " and "Leader".Now that the chicks have left the nest, without the protection of their elders, they panicked for a while.But the company still needs actors. It is impossible for Director Zhang to bring all the members of the "Zhang Family Class" to the island. He can only promise to get a firm foothold in the future and bring them here.

The script I wrote was rejected, and Zhang Dao re-provided several scripts for me to choose from.Based on my own experience, I adapted one of the scripts and named it "Sucking/Drugs".The new script tells the story of a drug dealer who sees his friend also becomes a drug addict, discovers his conscience, helps his friend to quit drug, and the friend assists the drug dealer to break away from the drug dealer organization.A few years ago, Ajie and I first met and helped my wandering companion Guan Qun to detox/drug.Ah Qun has now become the director of a certain car repair shop, living a stable and worry-free life, and calls us from time to time to express his gratitude.

The night when I sat with Ajie on the shore outside the old house seemed like yesterday and a lifetime ago.I really want to go back to that coast to see if it is still the same.

Ajie, I don’t talk nonsense anymore, I don’t make nonsense anymore, can you treat me like before?Can we go back to the past?If you want to avoid suspicion, I will also cooperate with you, as long as you don't really alienate me...

Only when I became a director myself did I know how difficult it is to be a director. Lighting, photography, costumes, props, soundtrack, editing...all need to be under the control of the director, just like a chef in charge of a variety of ingredients and seasonings, need to choose carefully , collocation, but also the choice of cooking method, control of knife skills, heat, time... If there is a slight difference, the taste of the finished product will be "lost by thousands of miles".The pressure on Ajie and I suddenly increased. Not only did we work hard on the set, walking on eggshells, but we often worked overtime day and night when we returned to our accommodation.I shot two films he directed at the same time.Although the schedule is tight, the two of them discuss shooting techniques, revise the script, and find ways to solve problems together, just like having an extra brain and adding a right hand.Although some opinions may conflict, they all obey the arrangements of their respective directors in the end. It's really like returning to the days when we first filmed together as partners!

When she was overwhelmed with work, Yushan suddenly flew to Dai Island by plane.I promised her that I would call her every morning and evening to "report" the day's schedule and work content.But because she was too busy, she forgot about it in the past few days. Unexpectedly, she couldn't hold back and came to wait for the island in person.

Ajie and I rent an apartment near the company, and the apartment rooms are adjacent to each other.We used to visit each other every day to discuss filming. After Yushan came, Ajie stopped coming to my apartment.

"You should stay with your girlfriend! Don't talk about work after work."

During the lunch break that day, a reporter who often interviewed me and Ajie came to visit the class for interviews.Finding Yushan by my side, he tentatively asked, "I brought my girlfriend with me when I was filming! The relationship between the two is so good, is it possible that marriage is coming soon?"

"No," I firmly denied, "I have no plan!"

The reporter hit a wall and was a little embarrassed.At this time, Ajie, who was wearing a white T-shirt, smiled and asked him:

"Guess who will get married first, Lei Yi or I?"

"Can't guess."

"Of course he is first! He has already brought his girlfriend to meet his parents. As for me, I have to wait."

"Wait again? How long?"

Ajie smiled without saying a word, as if he had a plan in mind.What does it mean?He would plan and arrange everything in advance. Could it be that he has already prepared for the marriage?

After lunch, Yushan and I heard two reporters chatting outside the corner of the restaurant.

"Feng Xiangjie is engaged? How did this news come about? Is it reliable?"

"It is said that Feng Xiangjie once sent his girlfriend home, but because it was too late, he stayed at his girlfriend's house."

"Huh? Is the raw rice cooked?"

"No, it's just a guest room. But this shows that the woman's parents have acquiesced to this prospective son-in-law, otherwise it would be impossible for him to stay at home. Therefore, Feng Xiangjie is very likely to be engaged. Lei Yi's scandal is easy to write, and Feng Xiangjie himself is too The rules are too serious, and there is too little information. If this news can be confirmed, our news will not have to worry about running out of topics to write about."

"Yes! This material needs to be dug deeper."

got engaged?marry?

My mind went blank and I don't know how I got back to the apartment.

"Xiaoyi, Xiaoyi! I called you so many times, but you didn't hear me?" Yushan was very annoyed, and she grabbed my arm and didn't let go.

"Leave me alone, I just want to be alone now." I shook off her hand, turned and walked towards the study.

"Since I came here, have you spoken to me more than ten sentences every day? Every day I go out to film, leave early and return late, and come back almost late at night. Is it because you don't have time to talk to me, or do you don't want to talk to me at all?" She stopped in front of me, raised her head and confronted me, with tears of resentment and grievance in her eyes.

"I'm very tired from filming every day, and I don't want to talk!" The dull pain in my heart can't be relieved, and any sound makes me upset.

"I came all the way to find you, and you treat me like this?"

Seeing her questioning expression, I sneered: "I'm not a good person! It's you who misunderstood the man!"

Holding back her tears, she bit her lips and said, "Is it because of him?"

"what?"

"It's because of Feng Xiangjie, right? The way you look at him..."

It was as if a sharp sword had pierced my weakness, and the pain made me almost unable to straighten up.I yelled loudly: "Shut up! Ajie and I are making movies and working hard on our own careers. We are brothers and friends working together! What happened to his eyes? What do you mean?"

"You...are so cruel to me..." Tears finally rolled down, Yushan choked twice, her tone became desolate: "I just want to ask you: me or him, who is more important?"

Who is more important?No one can match Ajie, no one...

I stared blankly at the floor without saying a word.

The two were silent for a long time, and Yushan finally said, "I understand, I understand..."

That afternoon, she packed her luggage and flew back to Hangcheng.

She probably gave up on me completely, right?That's fine, since sooner or later I'm going to let her down, it's better to end it as soon as possible, and I don't want to delay her.Yushan, and Ah Liu, why do you like me?I don't deserve your likes at all!You should stay away from me so you won't get hurt...

Feng Xiangjie

Back at the apartment at night, I saw Xiao Yi sitting at my door.Darkness covered his legs and most of his body, and the faint moonlight outside the corridor window shone on his chest and face, and he could clearly see his sunken eye sockets and pale and decadent face.

"Xiao Yi, what's the matter with you? Why are you sitting here? Where's Lin Yushan?" I squatted in front of him and touched his forehead, worried if he was sick.

"She's gone!" His eyes turned to me, he looked weak and haggard, but the brilliance in his eyes was extremely clear and beautiful, which made my heart tremble endlessly.

"Go, go? Why didn't you go see her off?"

"Probably... we will never see each other again!"

What?This is... a breakup?

I pulled Xiaoyi into my apartment.He curled up on the sofa, his whole body shrunk a lot, like a lonely and helpless stray kitten.When he broke up with Yawen before, he was also very depressed, but this time the blow seems to be even greater, and now he is so fragile that it seems to be broken at the touch of a finger.I am very distressed.I can't see him looking so pitiful.

"I'm cold!" He looked at me longingly.

I quickly brought a blanket to wrap him up, and poured him a cup of hot tea.

"How is it now?" After he drank the tea, I put the teacup on the table, not knowing how to comfort him next.

"Ajie, can you lend me your shoulder?"

"Ah? Hmm!" I nodded.Xiao Yi leaned against my shoulder, like a baby finding a comfortable bed, and quickly closed his eyes unsuspectingly.

I stretched out my hand, I really wanted to hug him in my arms, hold him tightly with my arms, and never let go.But I held back, and after hesitating for a while, I put my arm on his back, put my arms around his shoulders, and softly comforted Xiao Yi who was already asleep:

"Everything will be fine, everything will be fine..."

In this way, he sat on the sofa with Xiao Yi all night.Once in the dormitory, I hugged him and slept against the wall all night.Every time I have him by my side, I feel very at ease and satisfied.

On the second day, Xiao Yi seemed to be rejuvenated, swept away the slump, and devoted himself fully to the shooting.It seems that work can still cheer people up, and I feel much relieved.

The script I wrote is based on my own childhood experiences. It tells the story of Ah Wing and A Lai who are good friends. A Wing works part-time in a grocery store to make ends meet because of his father’s accidental death. He is scolded and bullied by his boss. In order to avenge being bullied, he followed Alai to practice martial arts. After learning something, he was induced by the underworld and went astray. Finally, he turned against the underworld and killed the leader of the underworld.The second half of the script was written and polished by director Li Kuang, so it is somewhat similar to the plot of "Reverse".The difference is that Arong's good friend Alai became a policeman.In the end, Arong was handcuffed by Alai himself and sent to the police station.

I hope Xiaoyi will play me in the past, because he also had a similar experience when he was a teenager: unable to work securely, being made things difficult for and beaten by local hooligans.Alai, who I played, rescued Xiaoyi from a group of gangsters in a critical moment.If I could go back in time, how I wish I could go back to the past and rescue Xiao Yi who was bullied by the bad guys at that time.And saving him also seemed to save me who was once helpless and desperate for help.

I also want to handcuff Xiaoyi so he can't slip away from me.Why do I feel like he is a part of my soul, we are supposed to be one?

In fact, Xiao Yi has already understood my intention, right?A Jiang written in his script, isn't it me?He broke up with Yushan, and now he is working closely with me on filming. Does that mean he is willing to accept me?The thought filled me with ecstasy.Xiao Yi, you also care about me, right?You want to be with me, right?

During the filming process, I wanted to ask him countless times to clarify, but every time I didn't have enough courage.

Air City held a beauty pageant, and Xiao Yi was specially invited to present awards to the guests.He was dressed in a white suit, standing upright under the spotlight, and the eyes of the whole aviation city were focused on him.After Li Zhenjie passed away, he was the most popular martial arts star in Hangcheng, with flowers, applause, fame, status, wealth, and the admiration of countless people... Seeing him standing in the center of the stage exuding dazzling brilliance, I suddenly thought: If you are with me Together, he will lose all of these!

"What kind of wife does Mr. Lei Yi want to marry?" the host interviewed the guests.

Xiao Yi touched his nose, hesitated for a moment and replied: "Mmm...the one with inner beauty!"

"Can you be more specific?"

"Cough cough, lively, smart, general knowledge, good physical fitness, it's best to be able to... know a little bit of kung fu..."

"Oh, isn't that Miss Lin Yushan? She's lively, smart, a Peking Opera Wudan, and can dance." The host smiled and said, "Congratulations, it seems that you have found a suitable partner."

Xiaoyi's ideal wife...is she still like Lin Yushan?

Suddenly, I felt that Xiaoyi was...so far away from me, so far away that I couldn't touch it at all!

He has a bright future and a bright future.If he really accepts me, his identity, status, wealth, resentment from relatives, contempt from friends, spurn from society... What he lost will be beyond my estimation.

And what can I give him, what can I make up for him?I only have one heart to love him, but with this heart, I may not even let him live a prosperous and worry-free life.Now my income is only enough to support my mother and sister.If we are together, we will definitely not be able to gain a foothold in the film and television industry. How can I settle Xiaoyi's life?Can I let him suffer with me for the rest of my life?

On this side of the balance, I am the only one; on the other side, the weight is too heavy, too heavy!

Can anyone tell me what should I do?

The sky was cloudy and the wind was bitterly cold.A man in black stood in front of me, I couldn't see his face clearly.

"Do you want to be with Lei Yi?" He asked in a low voice.

"Yes, I want to!" I replied eagerly.

"Aren't you afraid?"

"As long as I can be with him, I'm not afraid of anything!"

"You are not afraid, but can you protect him?"

After the man in black finished speaking, he stretched out his hand into the distance.Following the direction of his finger, I saw Xiao Yi standing in the center of the stage, and countless people were throwing rotten vegetables and rotten eggs at him, cursing: "Homosexuality! Mental illness! Crazy!" Xiao Yi white His suit was in a mess, his hair was disheveled, and he lowered his head dejectedly, precariously.

Several people wearing white masks and white uniforms brought in an iron long-backed chair, fixed Xiao Yi coldly on the seat, and clasped his hands and feet with iron rings.

"This is the latest form of electroshock therapy, specifically for homosexuals, to bring them back to normal."

As soon as a person in white uniform finished speaking, I saw blue electric current covering the entire seat in an instant. Xiao Yi was hit by the electric current, his whole body convulsed, and he screamed in pain. The veins on his neck seemed to be about to burst. The air smelled of burnt hair and skin.

"Don't! Don't!" I yelled loudly, "Come at me for everything, don't do this to him, don't do this to him, please..."

I rushed to the stage desperately, but the stage was getting farther and farther away from me.

"You can't protect him, you can't protect him..." The voice of the man in black echoed in the sky, depressed and desperate...

The author has something to say:

In 1973, "Friends", "Later" and "Addicts".Writing has been stuck in a bottleneck lately