twin stars

Chapter 61

Feng Xiangjie

Director Zhang was going to shoot a big-budget Anti-Japanese War movie "Badaolou", and he called Xiaoyi and I back to Daidao to co-star.

I came to Director Zhang's office alone: ​​"Director Zhang, I'm afraid... I won't be able to cooperate with Xiao Yi in filming anymore. This time... probably will be the last time."

"Ajie, are you really going to make a fuss like this?"

"Since we want to separate, we must separate completely! Don't let it stop, but let it mess you up!" I clenched my fists and said word by word.

Zhang Dao pressed his temples with his thumbs, his brows were furrowed, his temples seemed to have added a lot of gray hair, and his face was much older. "Hey, I don't know if I have helped you or hurt you by turning you into 'twins'!"

I suppressed my tears and said, "This is our business and has nothing to do with you. I am forever grateful to you!"

He closed his eyes and let out a long sigh: "Okay, I'll try to minimize your rivalry. If you really don't want to, I can arrange for you to be on the same stage but on different stages. You and him..." He shook his head in pain and waved his hands Said: "Oh, let's do it for ourselves!"

Lei Yi

"It's no pity to part ways!" He said so lightly, as if I was just an ordinary passerby, passing by him, he patted the dust on his shoulders, and left me behind without turning his head.Is this still the Ajie I know?The Applejack I know would say something like that to me?I was so angry that I couldn't eat for a few days, and I wished I could fight him again.But get angry, he still didn't tell me why he was angry, I still have to ask to understand!

Adong and Asheng have been drinking with Ajie recently. I found them two and wanted to find out Ajie's mind through them.

A Dong, who is usually taciturn, was a little emotional: "Obviously I changed my mind, but I used 'don't understand' to prevaricate, which broke Jie Ge's heart. I really misjudged you!"

"What changed your heart? What broke your heart? What are you talking about?" I was so surprised that I didn't understand his words at all.

"It's up to you, I don't want to say anything!" He gritted his teeth, gave me a gloomy look, and turned to leave.

"A Sheng, what's going on?" I grabbed A Sheng who was following A Dong and asked eagerly, "Tell me!"

He was very reluctant to be grabbed by my arm, pouted, and said indignantly: "What else can I say? You have already made a choice, what else do you want?"

"What choice? What choice to make?" I was even more confused.

Ah Sheng rumpled his hair into a ball irritably: "Ah, brother Xiao Yi, don't ask me, I think everything is terrible!" After speaking, as if to avoid my questioning, he shook off my hand and walked away. escape.

The weird words and deeds of A Dong and A Sheng puzzled me.There seemed to be layers of obscurity around me, thick smoke covering my eyes and clogging my ears.Occasionally, there was a glimmer of clarity in the bottom of my heart, but it was soon covered by thick fog.What is going on?What is going on?

Yushan wanted to buy a necklace to wear for a friend's party, so she took me to a jewelry store to choose.The clerk is eloquent and highly recommends various necklaces to her.I sat on the side boredly, picked up the product brochure in the store and flipped through it.As I turned to the last few pages, a familiar piece of jewelry came into view: a pair of platinum bracelets, the raised parts nestled together to form a smiling face.Isn't this the bracelet that Ajie gave me?I opened my eyes and carefully identified, exactly the same!Didn't Ajie say that the bracelet was bought at a street stall?Why is there also here?

Suppressing the surprise in my heart, I urged Yushan to finish shopping for the necklace and send her to a party with friends, then went home and took out the bracelet from the bookcase, and drove back to the jewelry store.I called the store manager, pointed to the photo in the brochure and asked, "I want to see this bracelet."

"Oh, this is a bracelet specially designed by the designer for the [-]th anniversary of our store's opening. At that time, only one pair was made, but it is out of stock now. If you are interested, sir, you can order it in the store."

"Only one pair? Is this one?" I took out my bracelet.

The store manager nodded after carefully identifying it under the lamp: "Yes, it is this one. The pattern on the bracelet is indeed from the designer of our store. This bracelet is a couple's set, which means 'you are me. smiley face'."

Husband and wife package?Are you my smiling face?

My heart trembled slightly: "Was the person who bought the bracelet at that time surnamed Feng?"

"Uh...sir, I'm sorry, but we keep customer information confidential."

Seeing his distressed face, I was quick to think, and smiled nonchalantly: "Oh, I'm Mr. Feng's friend, he lost this bracelet and entrusted me to make it again, but he didn't say which jewelry store bought it from." , so I want to ask clearly."

"That's right! Wait a moment, I'll check it out for you."

The store manager went to look for the account books in the back room, and I fidgeted in front of the counter.A few minutes later, the store manager came out with the account book and said: "It is indeed a gentleman named Feng who bought it. And I also remembered that he was wearing sunglasses like you at the time, tall and handsome, and seemed to be buying a bracelet For my wife. Do you want to reorder now? It may take time."

The store manager called me "Sir" several times before I came back to my senses and replied: "Oh, I'm not in a hurry to make an order, I'll think about it, think about it!"

I walked out of the jewelry store and looked at the endless stream of people on the street, as if I were a still fish sinking at the bottom of the transparent water.

"This, this is a street stall, not worth much. When I was buying animal pendants, I bought two. I will give you one."

"Hey, the two bracelets can be put together, it's still a smiling face! Ajie, these two bracelets are a pair!"

"Yes, is it a pair? When I bought it, I didn't find it!"

Why didn't I notice that Ajie's expression was unnatural and his speech was hesitant?The bracelet was not bought casually at all, but specially bought for me!

Buy a bracelet for your wife...Couple and couple sets...

Ajie, don't tell me... do you love me, just like I love you?

My brain was dizzy for a while, and I quickly leaned against the wall on the side of the street to prevent myself from falling.

how come?how come?

If you love me, why don't you tell me what's on your mind when I make a girlfriend?Why didn't you stop me when I moved out of the dormitory?Why did I break up with my girlfriend, but you said you were getting married in five years?Why didn't you stop me from getting back together with my girlfriend?Why... you still accompany me to get married?why don't you tell me you love me?

If I knew, if I had known earlier, no matter what happened, I would hold on to you and never let go!

why am i so stupidWhy didn't you dare to ask your mind at the beginning?

I thought you wouldn't accept me; I thought you wouldn't choose to be with me.I am afraid that if I say it, I will lose you, I am too afraid of losing...

It turns out that we were so close to love once, as long as we stretch out our hands, we can grab each other...

Is this a joke God made on us?Is he playing tricks on us?

Why, Applejack, why are we so stupid?Obviously you love me, I love you too...

I bent over and covered my chest, my mind still wandering between reality and illusion.The bracelet reflects a dazzling white light in the sun.The bracelet is real, Ajie, he really loves me!I want to see him, I want to hold him, hold him tight.He belonged to me, but I lost him.I want to get back what belongs to me, I want to find him!

I drove fast to the door of Ajie's villa, got out of the car, and rang the doorbell desperately.But when the servant saw me from the small opening of the iron gate, he closed the small opening with a "slap", no matter how much I knocked on the door, no one paid any attention.

Ajie, open the door, open the door!Why don't you see me?Why won't you see me?You obviously love me!

His hands were red and swollen, but there was still no response.I knelt on the ground, and the words of A Dong and A Sheng echoed in my ears.Change of heart, choice... what change of heart?what choice?I had no idea there was a choice!My heart has never changed!They misunderstood me, but you should be clear, Ajie, I didn't know you loved me, you never told me...why didn't you tell me, why didn't you tell me...

"Director Zhang, can you help me? Ajie won't see me..." I tried my best to hold back my tears, but they still slid down my cheeks.

Director Zhang snuffed out the cigar in his hand, and said frowningly, "Oh, you're all married... He doesn't want to see you, it's for your own good."

"For my own good?"

"You both have your own family and your own fame and status. Maybe it will be better for you to separate for a while and wait for both of you to calm down. After half a month, we will all go back to the island to shoot "Eight Path Building" , when the time comes, if you have anything to say, go and tell him..."

I don't know how I spent these half a month, every day and every night seemed to be burning my heart.In the dream, there is always another "I" scolding loudly: "He loves you, you could have had him! You were the one who moved out of the dormitory first, you were the one who got married and had children first, and you were the one who didn't hold on to him! It's all your fault! Your fault!" I couldn't bear such accusations, and I beat my head desperately.Suddenly I remembered a sentence from Ajie in "Pirates": "He who regrets doing something is not a real man!" But I regretted it, regretted it so much!It doesn't matter if I'm a real man or not, Ajie, I just want to know, is there any chance for me to get back?

Yushan insisted on taking the children with me to the island. I had no reason to refuse, so I had to take their mother and daughter with me.

"Badaolou" is based on real stories and tells the story of seven Chinese soldiers who fought against the Japanese heavy armor in the bunker and died heroically.This time the protagonists are seven people, including Ajie, me, Atai, Asheng, Aqi, and two new actors recruited by Director Zhang in Daidao.It's a group show again, with more people, and there are fewer scenes between me and Ajie.

I finally saw Ajie on the set, but he didn't even look at me, and if his eyes met mine, he immediately avoided it.I chased after him, trying to pull his arm, but his whole body was shaking, and he distanced himself from me like the plague, the hatred and disgust in his expression became more intense.

Ajie, why do you hate me so much?Are you blaming me for leaving you?But I really didn't know your mind at that time.I was afraid that I would be driven mad by jealousy, and I was afraid that I would lose you if I confessed to you. I thought that only by leaving you would I not lose control and be able to keep you.Why the more afraid of losing, the more completely lost in the end?When I got married, you were still by my side, why do you suddenly hate me so much and refuse to even see me?

During filming breaks, Yushan was always visiting the set with her baby in her arms, and I didn't have a chance to go to see Ajie alone.Yushan probably noticed my anomaly and followed me every step of the way.I don't know what result I want, I'm in a mess.

"It's for your own good that he doesn't want to see you!" For my good?So they marry wives and have children, and never communicate with each other again?No, it's not what I want, not what I want!I want to be with Ajie, be with him...

In a few pitiful scenes with rivals, Ajie patted me on the shoulder and showed me a rare smile. I immediately jumped for joy, as if I had regained the old Ajie.But in the next second, I understood that he was just acting, just smiling at the characters in the play, not me.Will he still smile at me, like the one on the bracelet?

Bai Xing, who I played, has always been obsessed with giving a pair of bracelets to his pregnant wife at home.At the end of the film, Bai Xing suffered a leg injury, and the battalion commander played by Ajie was blinded by the enemy's bombing. The two wounded patients sat together and waited for the enemy to break into the bunker.I can finally get close to Ajie.His eyes were bandaged and his face was bloody, but even if he couldn't see me, he tried to avoid me.I gave him the weapon, and he asked another actor who played the orphan to leave the bunker as soon as possible. I also gave the bracelet to the orphan, and entrusted him to pass it on to my wife.

Bracelet... Bracelet... Ajie, what was your mood when you gave me the bracelet?Think of me as a "wife"?Did I find out too late?Your love has always been with me, but are you going to take your love back now?Don't do this to me, please don't do this to me!The bracelet you gave me is still in my hand, you can't take it back, you can't!

Feng Xiangjie

I can't look at Xiao Yi.It hurts my heart to see his eyes.Playing against him used to be joy, but now it is torture.I have to spend [-]% of my energy to restrain my emotions, I am afraid that I will lose control and collapse at any time.Sometimes I wish I was born in the war years, so that I can throw my head and blood for the country wholeheartedly, become a man with the world in mind, and no longer be trapped by love or suffer from love.

In the last scene, I was blindfolded so I could barely play with Xiao Yi.End it quickly, end this torture as soon as possible!

When Xiao Yi asked the actor who played the orphan to give his wife a bracelet, I thought of the bracelet I gave him, the pair of smiley face bracelets, and the pair of bracelets for the couple.If it wasn't for the blindfold, tears would almost gush out.He got married and so did I.He has his wife and I have mine.That pair of bracelets will never fit together again!Let's part, let's part now, maybe meeting you was originally a mistake!

Lei Yi

Until "Ba Dao Lou" was finished, I couldn't have a private conversation with Ajie.He quickly flew back to Hangcheng to take on other directors' scenes, and seemed determined to leave Zhang's class.I stayed on the island and obeyed Zhang Dao's arrangement.But Director Zhang already has a new queen actor, and is working hard to create a new twin, and I have become a redundant chicken rib.There is no movie to make, I want to go back to Hangcheng more and more, and I miss Ajie more and more.

Two months later, in order to promote "Ba Dao Lou", all the actors gathered in a restaurant to be interviewed by reporters.I finally saw Ajie again.He still had his collar open, and a gold chain was added around his neck, adding to his quack air.Su Anran was by his side, appearing well-behaved and sensible.I also have Yushan with me.Zhang Dao still looks like a general, but with a lot of gray hair.Ah Sheng couldn't calm down, and wanted to leave after a few mouthfuls of food, saying that he wanted to accompany his girlfriend.Artai is thoughtful. He has plans to start his own company to make movies recently, but he doesn't want to leave Director Zhang and Zhang's class for a while.I don't want him to leave, Ajie has already left, and Zhang's class has fewer and fewer old friends.One day, will Zhang Jiaban be completely disbanded?

"Ajie used to be more introverted and dull, but now he is more and more mature and sophisticated!" Zhang Dao's wife said.We all regard her as a teacher.

"You're old, you're mature and sophisticated!" A-jie said jokingly, wrapping his fingers around the gold chain on his chest.

"How old are you? You are only 29 years old, and you are still a youthful young man."

"I'm getting old! Haha!" Ajie said, pointing at his chest, both seriously and in jest.

"Actually, Xiao Yi has matured a lot, and he is no longer as foolish as he used to be." The teacher turned the topic to me.

"That's thanks to his wife, who corrected him as a prodigal son. He should be more controlled, hahaha!" Ajie continued to joke.

His tone made me a little uncomfortable, so I picked a topic at random:

"Director Zhang, Artest asked, when can I return to Hangcheng?"

"Weird! Xiao Yi, Artest is sitting next to you, but you speak for him. If he doesn't return to Hangcheng, what does that have to do with you? Or do you want to go back to Hangcheng yourself, but use Artest as a shield? You're so cunning! "Ajie rubbed the wedding ring on his finger and laughed.

This questioning exposed my thoughts and made me very embarrassed: "Going back to Hangcheng...there is still something to do."

The dinner was over, I ignored Yushan's obstruction, and rushed to Ajie to make an appointment with him alone, but Ajie didn't have the ease, laughing and cursing at all during the interview. Squinting, striding away from the restaurant, turning a blind eye to me.He's gone again!I don't even know when we will meet next time...

There was a vast expanse of whiteness all around.Where am I?Suddenly, I saw Ajie standing in front with his back to me.I rushed up and hugged him tightly from behind.

"Ajie, don't go! You obviously love me, why don't you give me a chance? Don't give us a chance?"

He turned around slowly, without a trace of expression on his face: "Opportunity? There is no chance!"

As he spoke, he pushed me away. With a loud bang, a huge black iron cage fell from the sky and covered me.Ajie stood outside the cage, staring at me indifferently, and after a while, he turned and left.

"Ajie, don't go! Don't go!" I shook and hammered the bars of the cage, but I couldn't shake the cage. "Ajie! Ajie!" I yelled loudly, almost hoarse, but Ajie still didn't look back, and walked further and further away.

"Lei Li, wake up, why are you still sleeping! I killed a hare, today we will eat roasted hare!"

Someone is urging and calling in my ear.I opened my eyes, the corners of which were still a little wet.I saw a familiar and kind face. "Feng, Brother Feng?"

"Huh, are you sleepy? It's not me, who else?" The person in front of him had his hair tied up high, his eyes piercing, white and brown, and an orange-yellow jacket. His smile was as warm as the spring breeze in March.It's Brother Feng!

"I, I had a dream, dreaming that you ignored me." I sat up and looked down at my empty right sleeve.

"Fool!" He slapped me on the head and said with a smile, "Why did I ignore you? Don't stay in bed, let's go hunting together today, how about it?"

"No!" I got out of bed and put on my black coat: "I still have to work as a bartender in the wine shop. I'm late, and the shopkeeper will scold me."

"Okay, okay!" Brother Feng supported my shoulder and said, "You will be your little bartender temporarily today. After I go to Huwei Mountain Villa tomorrow and take care of the affairs of the rivers and lakes, we will go to the Taihu Lake. You can farm or Fishing. I can also stir-fry vegetables. My specialty is stir-fried beef with bean sprouts. I’ll cook it for you later. I like swimming, can you? No, I’ll teach you. We can fish in the water together. I heard there are three whites in Taihu Lake : Whitebait, white fish and white shrimp. Let’s catch them all and taste them. We don’t care about fame and fortune in the rivers and lakes. "

I looked up at Brother Feng, and said silently in my heart: I am also very happy to be with you and eat cabbage porridge every day!

Early the next morning, I washed Brother Feng's horse and saw him off.He got on his horse, rode the horse forward a few steps, looked back and said with a smile: "Wait for me!"

I said silently in my heart: Well, I will wait for you to come back!

The scene in front of me suddenly changed, and I saw a one-armed young man in black standing under a tree, looking out of the town with gazing eyes.As the sun set, there were very few pedestrians on the street, only him standing there alone.He suddenly saw me, ran over, grabbed my arm and asked, "I'm waiting for Brother Feng, why hasn't he come back? He said he would be back soon."

Seeing his bewildered and helpless expression, my chest was filled with bitterness: "He...he won't come back..."

"You nonsense! You nonsense! How could he have left me? How could he have left me alone?" The boy in black burst into tears and grabbed my collar angrily: "It's all your fault! It's all your fault My fault! It was you who caused me to lose Brother Feng, you give me back Brother Feng, give him back to me!"

Tears wet the pillow, and this time I really woke up from my dream.Without a good dream, no matter which dream I was in, I lost Ajie.

Suddenly wishing that Lei Li would die when he took revenge, it would be better than living alone.What if I survived?He didn't stop his elder brother Feng from going to Huwei Mountain Villa, and he didn't tell elder brother Feng how to guard against plots in time.Even if he avenges Brother Feng, Lei Li will live in endless regret for the rest of his life, just like me who is in endless regret now...

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In 1975, "Badaolouzi".