who gave me a song

Chapter 11 Chapter 4

He walked between the heaven and the earth, never aged or died, always maintained the appearance of her when she died, paying homage to his deceased.

Therefore, his name is Qingming.The name was taken from the festival dedicated to the dead, and also, the day of her death.

It's a pity that even if Qingming changed to such a name, he would still never see the dead soul he wanted to see again.

After all, she is Mo who has no soul at all...

Qingming once tried to go with her, but unfortunately, he failed, no matter how he tried to die, whether he jumped into the water and drowned, or cut off his own head, or jumped into the lava without leaving even ashes.

Qingming will still not die, and will wake up the next day with no injuries.

Qingming used to think that death was a very simple matter. After all, for ordinary people, excessive blood loss and severe injuries may lead to death.

Unfortunately, Qingming is no longer an ordinary human being, but a half-mo whose life is shared by Mo.

Unlike Momo, Qingming can feel pain, and also experience the feeling of dying.Therefore, Qingming is even more painful.

Qingming used to think that being alive was a very happy thing, and she also longed to be with her for a long time. Even if it was like before, it was fine to see her chattering non-stop while still a tit.

Qingming did have this opportunity, but he failed to grasp it, just because of his ridiculous kindness and human nature.

That's right, he's not a human anymore, so naturally he doesn't have any humanity.

Qingming was just regretting that the only person who could kill him had already been killed by himself.

When Qingming knew all this, she was already dead.

Qingming even learned that when he killed her, she had just shared her life with him, and she would share her long life as a stranger with him.It was precisely because of this that Qingming was able to kill the person he loved and loved her.

Because Mo is not without feelings, ever since Qingming fully merged and awakened the life and power that Tingyu shared with him, he learned about it from it——

Although Mo is ruthless, they can also love others, but their love will only be given to one person. Once they fall in love, it may be forever.

They will only have one lover in their life, and only this lover can kill them easily.

After all, from the moment they fall in love, it means that they have given their lives to that person.

It's a pity that I didn't know it before Qingming.

So Qingming thought, since she can't stop her, it's better to let him end everything.Isn't death a good choice?

After he kills her, he will immediately go with her.

What a happy result?

No?

Then, the reality gave Qingming a big slap, making him understand that everything was just his imagination.

Oh, how ridiculous, isn't it?

After the death of her lover, Qingming discovered that she is immortal, and any damage will be restored the next day.

Qingming used to be a good person, so when she learned that her lover Tingyu would eat humans, she chose to persuade her.

Ting Yu was puzzled, and said that human beings are the best kind of food for her, why can't she eat them.

Qingming said, however, human beings do not eat their own kind, and I am also a human being, so I don’t want my lover to—

In the end, he still didn't say anything, because it was too selfish after all.

If you think about it in another place, Qingming doesn't feel that his so-called persuasion makes any sense at all.Humans can eat everything except themselves, and Ting Yu is not a human being. From her point of view, she probably sees no difference between humans and other animals. How can Qingming ask Ting Yu to give up this kind of food with confidence?

However, even if Qingming didn't say it, Ting Yu understood what the other party wanted to say.

So after listening to Yu, she no longer regards humans as food, although in her cognition, the identity of humans as food has never changed.Even, the person she likes is human.

But this is not the same, because when she shares her strength and life with Qingming, the other party also exists like her.

However, when Ting Yu implemented it, she found that if she did not have the food of humans, would she become weak due to hunger?Unable to convert Qingming into Mo.

So in the process of sharing her life, because she didn't have enough food to replenish her energy, she became weaker and weaker, and she could no longer share her own.

She didn't understand why at least for many years when humans didn't exist, she could easily get full from other foods, but now she couldn't because she was growing up, and what she could eat was spiritual substances, and now Spiritual matter mostly exists in the human body.

Ting Yu only knew that if she didn't eat human beings, she would not be able to completely transform Qingming, even if she turned him into Banmo.

But Qingming didn't want her to do this, so she could only catch food secretly, without letting Qingming find out.

But Qingming still found out.

He was not only worried about Ting Yu's getting weaker, but also shocked to find that only when Ting Yu secretly obtained this kind of food, human beings, could she be more energetic.

That being the case, Qingming thought, I can't stop Ting Yu, and I can't bear to see her so weak, so let me end it all.

Qingming personally killed Ting Yu who smiled and said that he wanted to tell him good news, but he couldn't kill himself anyway.

Until later, Qingming probably guessed that Ting Yu might want to tell him that he could finally be with her forever, right?

Because on that day, he had already turned into Banmo.

So he wasn't a nice guy anymore.

How ironic.

Qingming once chose to let his lover die for this reason, but now, because of the fact that he personally killed his lover for these people, he wished to destroy them with his own hands.

But in the end he still didn't do it.

Although she is no longer there, he still wants to maintain the appearance she likes the most, even if it is impossible.

Therefore, Qingming, who can't really keep the original, can only choose to pretend.

Everyone who met him said he was a gentle man.

gentle?What is tenderness?

Qingming no longer understands.

But he was very happy about this evaluation. After all, she likes his gentleness the most, doesn't she?

Then, he met a little child, a little gloomy, a little silent girl.

The reason why Qingming is willing to take her is not because of other things, but because she is similar to her to some extent.

Qingming didn't regard this little doll as her substitute, he knew it wasn't her, and he didn't feel pity for it.

Qingming just harbored malice and wanted to see how far this girl could go.

Is it a one-step destruction, or break free from yourself and walk out of a new future.

He just watched with cold eyes, pretending to be gentle, letting her feel the warmth of the world, and then pushed her back into the ice cave with one hand.

When the time comes, will she still be able to crawl out?

But later, he still gave up, not out of kindness, but he thought, would Ting Yu want him to become what he is today?

I'm afraid not.

So, after listening to Xing's heart and planning to push her to the edge of the abyss, Qingming gave up.

Not only did she give up, Qingming also told her that it was not her fault, even though she was full of sins, she still had the right to live well.

Rather than saying that this is a comfort to Xing, it is better to say that he is tearing open his heart full of scars, and then sprinkle a handful of salt on it.

After hearing what he said, Xing once asked, "Is that so?"

Qingming said: "Yes. After all, we are born with sins, not human faults."

To be born with a sin is a destiny, not a fault of man.

This is what a wise man Qingming met once said, that person probably really has the ability to reach heaven and earth, and he can easily see his disguise.

At first, the wise man only gave him a deep look.

With just one glance, Qingming knew that the other party had seen through the indifference and heartlessness in his heart.

Then, the other party said such a seemingly irrelevant sentence.

It was so good that he almost believed it.

However, he is full of sins that cannot be washed away, so how can he have the right to live well?He should be tortured and live in the shadow of killing her with his own hands forever!

So, how can he deserve to live well?

It's not like Xing, after all, her so-called crime doesn't exist at all.

That's not the same at all...

He scorned his hypocrisy fiercely, but Xing almost worshiped him as a god.

How ridiculous?

If she knew what she wanted to do, would she still think so?

I'm afraid not.

After all, neither would he.

So Qingming came up with another idea, forget it, since he can, let's take care of him as a small pet.

After all, for his long life, the lifespan of Xing, the moonlight, is only the time for him to sleep.

It can be regarded as raising a pet to relieve boredom.

Later, he saw another human being who was as special as her, Chasing Ri.

When Qingming was very young, he had also heard of the existence of these two kinds of human beings, but he had never seen them once.

Then Ting Yu told him that if he met, she would take him to see her.Although she also forgot where the other party lived, if she looked for it with her heart, she could still find it.

But he was rejected by Qingming, because Ting Yu is a road idiot, even if he knew she was not an ordinary person, he also knew that this matter might not be so easy.

It was just a special kind of human being, and he didn't want to see it.If there is fate, they will meet sooner or later, and then they can watch together.Anyway, they are impossible to separate.

This is what Qingming told Ting Yu.

Ting Yu always believed in him, so he nodded and didn't mention it again.

Now, he has the opportunity to meet these two kinds of people, but unfortunately, he is not with him.

It was a child the size of a star, Qingming could tell at a glance.

The arrival of this child undoubtedly brought them a lot of vitality, and even Xing, who had always been silent, couldn't help but become more lively.

Although, this liveliness is angry, as well as, punching people.

Qingming couldn't help but think, in fact, it's good to be lively.

Qingming thinks that this child probably has some eye problems, just like Xing, he actually thinks he is a good person.And unlike the introverted star, he will declare his love, telling him almost every day, Qingming, I like you, can you be with me?

Qingming just looked at him, and he was scared.

But he will say one more sentence: Qingming, don't worry, I will not give up!

What a child, Qingming thought.

Unfortunately, he no longer has the power to love.

No, he still loves her deeply, but unfortunately, that person no longer exists.

But so what?

It's not that he brought it on himself.

He's a sinner, and he's spending his life paying it off.

Because he will never die, his sins can never be repaid.

Even so, he was willing.

The author has something to say:

Today is Oni-chan's birthday,

She said: It would be even better if I could receive blessings tomorrow! ! !

I said: Oh, indifferent face.

She: [continues to dream] [addicted to dreaming and unwilling to wake up]

Me: Then wait.

Well, she probably thought what I said made her wait to dream [whispering]

So, of course I really mean to let her wait to dream——

No wonder!

So it's...

Happy birthday Ouni-chan~

Oh...

surprise?Oni sauce.