I'm not

Chapter 6

I looked at Cheng Xingjian, and he looked at me with raised eyebrows. I was at a loss for words and couldn't say anything.Ayu kept poking me beside me.I made up my mind and said: "I have loved you for a long time."

"How long?" What's the matter with this man, he asked rhetorically.

"It's been a long time, since... since we met." I racked my brains, "You look very good-looking, um... I remember that you played basketball very well in junior high school, very good."

"Why do you like me?"

"You...have been with me for a long time, remember what I like," I said, although I looked at him, but tried to keep my eyes out of focus, "You also helped me buy medicine."

"anything else?"

"I still remember you coming to my house to play when you were young, because you didn't speak, my mother thought you were a girl and praised you for being beautiful." Cheng Xingjian's face was a little dark, but I was secretly relieved, "Actually, I also think you are beautiful, It's just that I'm embarrassed to say, especially when you have long hair, you look very good-looking, that's why I like you."

Cheng Xingjian's face was completely dark, but before the time came, he actually asked again: "Then you never contacted me in high school, and you said you liked me, which is a lie."

"That's because... because... I have moved on." I started to speak nonsense.

"with who?"

"And... the person on the phone just now, we have children." I couldn't help laughing.

When the time is up, Ayu cuts off the time, very satisfied - she got the shocking news, it turns out that the handsome student Cheng Xingjian actually had long hair when he was a child!The boys also looked at Cheng Xingjian in shock, and an older brother patted his shoulder with one hand, with an expression of "brother, you don't even tell me you have such a history".

After playing around for a while, we were about to go back, and Ayu even exchanged WeChat with the old man.On the way back, Ayu said to me: "My doubts were correct before, there really is something wrong between you and handsome Cheng——"

"Something?" I asked back.

"It's hard to say, judging from the current situation - either he has a crush on you, or he is a scumbag, pretending to have a crush on you, but actually has no good intentions." A Yu analyzed carefully, and I had no choice.

"Actually, there is another possibility." The upper bunk joined the discussion, "Susu knows his intentions, but pretends not to know, so that he can't get what he wants. She is really a scumbag, and she is a high-ranking scumbag among the scumbags."

"Well... I seem to be very bad when I say it this way, but... I have known him for so long, and I don't feel any sparks. He already likes to tease people, and he started to tease people everywhere in junior high school."

"That is the peerless battle between a scumbag man and a scumbag girl, my God! Exciting!" A Yu put his hands on my shoulders, "Susu, you must win, this is not a battle for you alone - this is for The lifelong happiness of our female compatriots! One less scumbag will benefit the whole society!"

I smiled bitterly speechlessly, in fact I was a little flustered, I never felt any difference from Cheng Xingjian to me before, but today I seem to have a vague feeling - Cheng Xingjian seems to like me.

And it's a love I can't respond to.

In the boys dormitory.

"I said why did you invite us to eat hot pot today—it turns out that you are courting the girl." The third child punched Cheng Xingjian, "Next time there is such a good thing, remember to call me."

"Are you going to be someone's light bulb?" The fourth child was already lying on the bed, "Our dormitory finally has a single person."

"Don't talk nonsense." Cheng Xingjian said, his face flushed a little, "She doesn't know."

"Brother, you can't hit the straight ball well!" The boss curled his lips, looked at Cheng Xingjian who had been giggling from time to time since he came back, and couldn't help rolling his eyes, "I feel like the girl didn't see it."

Cheng Xingjian choked and fell silent.

"But don't be discouraged. I think the girl still has a good impression of you, and she even praised you for being handsome. Besides, you have known each other since childhood, and now you are classmates in college. Moreover, you are both single, with the right time, place and people. I think There is hope for you to get out of the order." The boss made a serious analysis.

"However... how should I put it, I always have a subtle feeling." The youngest said nonchalantly, "You two haven't been in touch for three years in high school, and as a result, you pursued him as soon as you entered college, giving people a feeling that you are very casual. .”

"Third brother, you are so thoughtful hahaha..." The fourth child laughed at the third child, "But then again, do you really like that girl?"

Cheng Xingjian's face was still very red, he stopped talking, and said: "Actually, I... have feelings for her since junior high school, but I never said it, and then I couldn't get in touch with her... I had a girlfriend in high school, but I felt that That's not fair to others, so let's divide up."

"I didn't realize that you are still a lover - you can go after it boldly, and remember to treat you to dinner when you are off the list!"

Cheng Xingjian looked at Yu Su who was secretly photographed today. On the screen of the phone, Yu Su was so hot that she was drinking water from a cup, her face was flushed red from the heat, and she was extremely cute.Then I thought of the only photo of Yu Su on my mobile phone when I was in junior high school. She was sleeping on the table with her back protruding slightly, and her black hair was a little messy.At that time, Cheng Xingjian only felt an inexplicable movement in his heart, so he took that photo. Unexpectedly, it became the only photo besides the graduation photo.So when Cheng Xingjian met Yu Su feeding the cat that day, his first reaction was to take a photo.

But Yu Su seems to have a crush now...do she still have a chance?Cheng Xingjian also understood a little bit of secret love, the difference is that it took him many years to realize the secret love in his heart.

The night outside was very dark, and Cheng Xingjian's heart was sour and swollen, with a little sweetness—it turns out that some things have taken root and sprouted long ago.

Ever since I finished eating hot pot, I have been wanting to find a chance to talk to Cheng Xingjian.I was uneasy, worried that I would make a mistake, and I was afraid that procrastination would hurt him, although it sounded a little arrogant.

I wanted to call him several times, but I was about to press the dial button but I still didn't complete my mission.I know our relationship will always be different after we open up, and honestly, I'm terrified of losing this friend.

In fact, I didn't have many good friends. When I was a child, I was not as comfortable as possible to communicate with people as I am now, and I can even say that I was withdrawn.Even when I grow up, I am not the kind of person who is good at dancing and making friends. It is enough to have a small circle of my own.

Speaking of which, the reason why I can become more cheerful than before is also due to her.She was always my front desk in high school, she was the friend who opened up first, she accompanied me, and even encouraged me to talk to others and express myself to others intentionally or unintentionally.

She is like water with a little white sugar added, you don’t even feel it at first, but quietly, the moist things sneak into your life and melt into your breath, and then you drink plain water, it’s too much The drink is too sweet and greasy, which is unacceptable.

So, you can't meet too amazing people when you are young.

Originally, I was determined to find Cheng Xingjian, but the sudden group task left me no time to think about it, so I just took this opportunity to escape, so it might be a while.

But obviously God can't understand my behavior like this.

There are several open-air tables and chairs in front of the dessert shop in the school. Our group made an appointment to meet there. As soon as I arrived, I saw Cheng Xingjian holding a notebook and wearing a camel-colored windbreaker, sitting on a rattan chair with a calm expression on his face. Headphones hanging.

When I saw him again, he was no longer as calm as last time, it could be said that he was in a state of confusion.

Cheng Xingjian saw me and greeted me with a smile: "What a coincidence!"

My heart broke, I better cut the mess with a sharp knife, walked quickly to his side, and said to him: "Are you okay for a while?"

"It's okay, what's the matter?" He took off the earphones and looked at me intently.

"Just wait for me, it will be over soon." After I finished speaking, I walked over to the side where our team members were, thinking that I must speak clearly.

This time we just sort out the information collected by everyone, and then assign the next task, which will be completed soon.I secretly comforted myself, maybe I was thinking too much.

Cheng Xingjian saw that I was done, so he also packed up his things and walked towards me.He was dressed up to the lining, he was tall and handsome, and he was a little different from usual.

"Let's go?" Cheng Xingjian stood beside me and asked, very naturally.

I wanted to find a quieter place, so I suggested going to the lake in the school.

"Okay, let's go." Cheng Xingjian said, "Why are you so secretive today?"

Have it?I don't feel it myself.We chatted along the way, and my nervous mood relaxed a lot.

Isn't it just asking a good friend if he has feelings for him? It's not a big deal.I guess Cheng Xingjian will laugh at me first, and then say that I am self-indulgent, and I will fight back that he is not single, so we are still good friends.

I can't help but think, what if I tell her?If I speak out what I have been hiding on my mind, what if she answers me in the same way?

There will never be such a day, because I will never say.