I'm not

Chapter 16

I came to work the next day, probably because I was thinking about something last night, so I woke up a little late. When I got up in a panic, Wan Shu had already prepared breakfast and brought it to the table.

Seeing me coming out, she smiled and said, "Morning—don't worry, it's still early."

I rushed to the bathroom to wash up, with a toothbrush in my mouth, and said to Wan Shu, "Call me next time!" I was a little anxious, and heard Wan Shu chuckle behind me.

"Seeing that you were too tired yesterday, don't worry next time—you won't be late today." She said, then turned around and took a paper bag from the table to me, and said to me: "You can take it and eat it in the car. "

I was already changing clothes, and I looked up and asked, "Wouldn't it be bringing the smell into the car?"

She tidied up and handed me my bag by the way: "I don't dislike you, let's go."

We walked out the door together.

When I came to the company, I heard Aying from our department talking about the new project. Recently, everyone in the department was devoting themselves to this project. I sat down and directly faced the battlefield.

I have been really busy recently. From morning to night, I was immersed in various materials and documents. After get off work at night, I had a premonition that I would have to work overtime again today. Sure enough, the supervisor sent an overtime notice.

"Ahhhh! I have to work overtime again!" Ah Ying yelled brokenly, and the supervisor saw that all of us were drained of energy, and offered to buy us coffee.

Working overtime is a fact that cannot be changed. We can drink free coffee, which is also a bit of comfort.Ah Ying quietly leaned over and said to me, "Why has he become so generous?"

I sipped my coffee, shook my head, and pondered: "Maybe this project is very important, and the higher ups have given the funds."

Aying nodded seriously, and said: "I heard that Young Master Dong will go to Switzerland in person to discuss cooperation in a few days."

"Really?" I felt a little bit of my lack of news, "Then we have to work for a while."

"Oh, working overtime—" Ah Ying sighed, sipping the coffee in her hand, "I'm going to Switzerland, I really want to go there to play."

"Then you can ask the supervisor if there is any quota for a business trip, but," I paused, "the supervisor must go by himself for such a good thing."

"I know that old fox has no good intentions," Ah Ying resentfully bit the straw as if to vent her anger, suddenly raised her eyebrows, and said, "I don't know if the supervisor will go or not, Director Bai must be going."

"Why?" My heart skipped a beat. "Why do you say that?"

Ah Ying showed a subtle smile: "I'll tell you quietly, don't tell others nonsense."

"Yeah." In order to show my reliability, I nodded vigorously, and showed an expression of seeking knowledge and gossip.

"Before, a friend of mine worked as an assistant to Young Master Dong, and said that Young Master Dong had pursued Director Bai," Aying lowered her voice, "Otherwise, Director Bai is so young and good-looking, and every time Young Master Dong went on a business trip, he would bring Now, I must be tempted - I am Dong Shao, and I am also tempted."

"Then Young Master Dong succeeded in his pursuit?"

"I don't know about this, but I'm still pursuing it." Aying curled her lips, "But I think Director Bai will agree to it sooner or later. Dong Shao is young and promising. Although he inherited the old president's company, he himself He is very capable. He is handsome and unrestrained, and has an extraordinary bearing. He is a domineering president in real life! It is said that the old president has a strict family education, and Mr. Dong is a gentleman to women. He has never heard any gossip. It's every woman's dream to marry him."

"That's right," I said, with an uncontrollable anger in my heart, "Could it be that Director Bai's dream is to marry a good husband?"

"Look at you - well, well, what I said is indeed wrong." Ah Ying seemed to have realized her slip of the tongue, "Director Bai, as a woman in the new era, also needs to pursue her career, and she and Dong Shao are both talented and beautiful, a match made in heaven " After finishing speaking, he looked at me strangely: "Why are you so excited? Do you have any ideas about Young Master Dong?"

I pulled the corners of my mouth and showed a pale and feeble smile. I knew I had made a mistake, but I couldn't think of anything to smooth things over, so I just kept my mouth shut.

Seeing me like this, Ah Ying didn't know what to imagine, and said to me: "You should stop thinking about it, and working hard is the last word."

After finishing speaking, she stopped caring about me and went to work on her own, as if the conversation just now was just to satisfy her gossip.

I look tired, and overtime pay doesn't excite me.I know that Ah Ying's words are not false. Young Master Dong really wants to pursue Wanshu, and he is not dead. He ran to the house last night. This man has the appearance of a gentleman and the ambition of a jackal!

I don't know what kind of person Dong Shao is in Wan Shu's eyes?I understand that Wanshu was not telling the truth last night, but doesn't this reflect from the side that Wanshu and Dong Shao have a good relationship?Wanshu, who is a subordinate, rejected Dong Shao so many times, and they still get along in harmony in the company, and one even made fun of the other.

But now I know that in the eyes of outsiders, Dong Shao and Wanshu are actually a match made in heaven, they are talented and beautiful, and they are a match made in heaven.

I remembered what Wanshu said to me last night, "I don't like him". How true or false is this sentence?In an instant, all the vulgar romantic dramas I had watched appeared in my mind, and the girl with a reddish face was coquettish, complaining about her own thoughts, and what was hidden under those accusations were things that she was ashamed to tell.

What about Wanshu?I don't know if the "dislike" she said is showing her true feelings or playing tricks on me. I only know that when I encounter something related to her, no matter how much I warn myself, I will still be affected by her involuntarily. Mind, I'm not a qualified crush.

I can't keep calm when I think of her with other people, I can't stand beside her quietly, enlighten her about girls' thoughts, I can't bless her marriage with peace of mind, and praise her partner.

Just thinking of the day in the future when my body is thrown to the South Pole, or the North Pole, whichever is the coldest place in the world, frozen in the endless wind.I felt a great, empty loneliness, the sun was fading, and I was alone on the ice field.

A disqualified crush, I became more and more confused about what was on my mind.

When I come to her, I can see her every day, get up and eat with her, I should be very satisfied, what else am I looking forward to?I told myself, but there was a voice in my heart that said over and over again, no, you have become greedy, you are even resentful, you resent Dong Shao, these gossip people, even Wanshu, you hate her Can't see my own mind.

I hate this society, and the people around me who know us, if two men are as close as me and her, everyone will definitely joke if they are a couple, but if they change genders, everyone will praise it as if they were blind Girls' friendship, why?Do boys have a higher right to be gay than girls?

But what I hate the most is myself.I hate myself for being wrapped in cowardice. I am an empty shell, and the people hiding inside never dare to poke my head. I tell my love to an empty shell, stick my ears to the inner wall, and listen to the laughter outside. , pleasure and pain, I am not a brave man.

It would be great if I were Young Master Dong, I could express my love openly, having wealth and status could give Wan Shu a superior life, and if I was lucky enough to be with her, I would even be blessed by everyone.

Unfortunately I am not.

A few days later, one week before Wanshu's birthday, I had already prepared her present.At dinner, I said to her, "Your birthday is coming up, what are you going to do?" I kept smiling, expecting her to say "with you".

"Hmm..." Wanshu frowned, seeming a bit embarrassed, "Susu, I'm going on a business trip to Switzerland next week, and I guess I'm going to celebrate my birthday in another place this year."

"That's it," I said, lowering my head and picking up the rice grains in the bowl with my chopsticks. This incident was beyond my expectation, but it was reasonable. I knew they were going on a business trip, but I didn't expect it to happen. Such a coincidence.

Could it be that Dong Shao also knew about Wanshu's birthday, so he arranged it like this?In a romantic foreign country, anything is possible.

"You may have to go to the company by yourself in those few days," Wanshu said to me. Seeing that I was a little depressed, she added: "Although I can't celebrate your birthday with you, I can ask for a gift in advance. I know you will definitely prepare for it." Yes, give it to me!"

Her voice is light and playful, I can't tell if she is really happy, but I look into her eyes, and feel that she is happy in a trance.

"I can't celebrate my birthday, why are you more sad than me?" She said with a smile, "Let me see what your gift is?"

I lowered my head and took a bite of the rice, and said, "Wait until you come back, it won't be too late to give it to you when you come back." I paused and said, "When you come back, I'll make up a birthday party for you."

"Okay," Wanshu blinked, "someone has arranged for this year, I don't have to live alone, and there are gifts to collect, how can there be such a good thing in the world—"

"Of course, now you have met." I said to her.

Before Wanshu went on a business trip, I helped her pack her luggage, and seeing her empty suitcase, I felt a little dissatisfied: "Why do you have so little luggage?"

But she looked indifferent: "It's a business trip for the company, not a trip. What else should I bring? Besides, it won't be long, so it doesn't matter."

I squatted down and looked through the suitcase, and couldn't help frowning: "Why don't you bring something for self-defense?"

"Self-defense?" She was surprised, "Why did you bring that? The company also hired bodyguards because Young Master Dong is going this time."

"As a girl, you are too careless." I glared at her, "You are such a beautiful beauty, you should be careful of those wretched men, and you should also be careful of your colleagues. ,do you know?"

"I said you were an old mother before, but you really are." She was laughing at me, but when she saw my serious expression, she kept silent, pulled me up from the ground, and showed a cute smile: "Got it, I Put it on in a while, you see, it’s not that I don’t have it, it’s just that I didn’t bring it this time.”

I nodded and said, "Actually, colleagues should be especially careful. Some people look glamorous and look like dogs, but in fact, they don't know how dirty they are inside."

Wanshu pursed her lips and smiled, her eyes became a little narrower: "Why do I feel that you mean something? Oh, I guess you have a problem with someone—"

"I don't." I tidied up the clothes that were messed up just now, straightened my face, and spoke righteously, "People's hearts are sinister, Wanshu, some people treat you, but they are greedy for your sex and plotting against you." Heart."

Meeting you is the best thing in the world, I said in my heart.