I'm not

Chapter 25

Bai Wanshu never thought that her future would be without Yu Su. Even when her parents divorced and she moved away from the small town, she never broke contact with Yu Su. This seems to have become a habit. Naturally, her life The happy and sad trifles, bit by bit, she just showed Yu Su generously without any doubt.

Of course, so is Yu Su.

Although they didn't communicate as frequently in high school when they were in college, they still kept in touch.

She listened to Yu Su talking about the university dormitory to herself, she knew that she had a lively roommate, she knew which class she liked, what drama she liked to watch, she also knew Yu Su's whispers late at night, her entanglement and helplessness, she knew Cheng Xingjian The presence.

She sketched a brand new Yu Su in her mind, a girl who was brand new in college but still had smiling eyes.

The exchanged gifts and letters are all packed in a wooden box. When she was in Beicheng, she often took out that box to have a look, and she would miss Yu Su very much when she looked at it, but the night was already very deep, and it was still tomorrow Call Yu Su again.

Bai Wanshu admitted that during the past few years of working in Beicheng, her heart always seemed empty.She has independent financial ability and lives well alone, but the dissatisfaction in her heart has been clutching her tightly. What does she want?

Until she had that opportunity, Bai Wanshu hesitated - what would Yu Su think of her if she interfered with Yu Su's work like this.

Bai Wanshu didn't want Yu Su to have a bad impression of her.

Although she doesn't know why.

Unexpectedly, Yu Su really left Nancheng and came to Beicheng, and they even lived together, as close as they used to be in high school.

The vacancy in Bai Wanshu's heart seemed to be filled by something, it was warm.Every day when she goes to work, when she drives, she sees the street outside the window bathed in warm golden sunlight, the white clouds are soft, the sky is clear, and everything is as beautiful as a dream.

She wanted to live like this forever.

But God seems to have played a joke on her, and things are getting worse and worse.

That day, when Bai Wanshu came home, Yu Su's eyes were obviously red and swollen. She was smiling and talking to herself, but her eyes were crying. Her sorrow pulled Bai Wanshu into a whirlpool of sadness, and she was in this whirlpool all night. Struggling, Yu Su was crying in the dream, tears turned into a sea, and she suffocated in this sea of ​​tears.

Bai Wanshu didn't know what to do, she was used to getting along with Yu Su as close as family, now she couldn't even breathe when she thought that Yu Su would be with a man in the future.

At night, Bai Wanshu often reads "The Flower of Evil" that Yu Su gave her, and she would think of the birthday surprise that Yu Su prepared for her in high school.At the moment when Yu Su's voice sounded on the radio, she could hear the sound of her heart beating——

She ran to the broadcasting room under the suspicious eyes of others, stood outside, staring at the door of the broadcasting room without blinking, she wanted Yu Su to see her as soon as she came out.

But strangely, she was a little shy again, because she was always the steady one in front of Yu Su, so she tried to calm her breathing and pretended to be calm.

She wants to tell Yu Su that this is the best birthday present she has ever received.

Those countless summers are the time that Bai Wanshu treasures in her heart.Every day in Beicheng, she secretly missed those days, until Yu Su also came, and she gradually deposited these memories in her heart, because Yu Su was creating new memories with her.

You can savor it carefully in the future, and it will be full of warm memories when you talk about it.

Naturally, Bai Wanshu thought that she and Yu Su should always be by each other's side, so that she completely ignored some important things.

Cheng Xingjian said, "Someone sang you a song, and Yu Su saw it and felt very sad, so she went to drink." He said, "It's best to just be friends and not do anything else." He also said——

"you do not know any think."

Bai Wanshu's heart was pounding, she neglected something very important, she made Yu Su very sad.

Sorry, Bai Wanshu soaked the towel and wiped Yu Su's body.I'm sorry, Susu, she thought, I seem to have done something wrong.

What should I know?Susu, you are crying, I am very sad.

Bai Wanshu changed into pajamas for Yu Su, and gently opened half of the window to ventilate the room.She sat by the bed, looking at Yu Su's frown still in her sleep, her heart was full of sourness.

Is it because of Young Master Dong?Bai Wanshu knew that Yu Su didn't like him, but Yu Su never said it. Bai Wanshu regretted it very much. She didn't know why a few days ago, but she was just a little angry. She shouldn't have mentioned Dong Shao on purpose. She made Susu sad, right? ?

She is a little confused now, some things buried deep in the past, accumulated over the years, have grown enough to be ignored - she touched Yu Su's hand lightly, but dodged like an electric shock the moment she touched it .

Bai Wanshu went to the bathroom to wash her face. She looked in the mirror, feeling a little dazed. She remembered that Yu Su had very beautiful eyes.

Although Yu Su always likes to joke, saying that she is the one with bright eyes and good looks, but she feels that Yu Su's eyes are really the same as the stars in the sky.

When Bai Wanshu saw Yu Su for the first time, she was attracted by her eyes.Yu Su was holding the water glass at that time, her eyes were shining with water, as if a piece of sunshine had broken into her eyes and was melted by a spring of water.

She couldn't help but chatted with Yu Su, and they were inseparable every day.

But now Susu's tears flowed from those eyes to Bai Wanshu's heart, her heart was wrinkled and softened.

Bai Wanshu closed the bedroom door and sat on the sofa in the living room. She stared at the coffee table in a daze. On the coffee table were some fruits and a half-peeled apple—she was peeling an apple before picking up Yu Su, and waited for Yu Su to come back. .

She picked up the apple, continued to peel it, cut the pulp into chunks, and placed them on the orange fruit plate she picked with Yu Su, but she didn't want to eat it now.

There was a courier package next to the fruit plate, which she took when she came home today, and she hadn't opened it yet, now Bai Wanshu didn't know what to do, she didn't dare to go to see Yu Su, so she had to do other things, in her mind Slowly manage your own thoughts.

Bai Wanshu saw that the address of the package was their high school. A few days ago, someone seemed to collect information and said that they were going to send something.

Opening it, Bai Wanshu took a closer look and found that it was a collection of essays published by the high school itself, which recorded the excellent essays written by students in high school in recent years - all the selected ones would send a copy.

It must have been sent to Yu Su, because Bai Wanshu knew that Yu Su's composition was quite well written, and the teacher posted the paper on the display board several times.

But I haven't heard Yu Su say before that their school's behavior has always been like this. Maybe she doesn't know that Yu Su is the author after all, and she doesn't even have the right to know.

Bai Wanshu opened this poorly bound anthology, looked for Yu Su's name in the catalog, and found several articles as expected.So Bai Wanshu turned on the light, leaned on the sofa with the book in her arms, and was ready to read it carefully.

Yu Su's words have a power that makes people forget that this is a boring composition in an examination room, and they can feel the true feelings in it naturally, and can't help but say wonderful after reading it.

There are many articles in it, and Bai Wanshu has read them all, because every time Yu Su's composition is posted outside, she will read it carefully and feel a kind of secret pride.

At that time, what she thought was that this was the sharing of weal and woe between them. Who said girls would be jealous of their good friends? She wished that Yu Su would be praised by the whole world and loved by everyone.

She will always stand by Yu Su's side.

Bai Wanshu read it for a long time, and she particularly liked one of them, and she didn't seem to have read this one.So she read it carefully, and then read it again.

It's really nice, Yusu, she's really nice.

Bai Wanshu went to the room to find a bookmark, and was going to clip this page up. She pasted the bookmark on the page. The bookmark covered some words, and Bai Wanshu was just about to close it——

Wait, here... Bai Wanshu saw the part not covered by the bookmark, the first word of the first paragraph was "生", and the first word of the second paragraph was "日".

Bai Wanshu's hands trembled a little. She picked up the book, but the bookmark fell on the ground, and she didn't have the heart to pick it up.

She pointed inch by inch with her right hand, but she couldn't hold the book steadily with her left hand, so she knelt down and put the book on the table. She didn't notice that she was holding her breath, and her whole body was shaking.

There are a total of eight natural paragraphs, "birthday" is followed by "happy", and her tears fell, hitting the last "you".

Black and white writing on paper, the paper still smelled of printing with inferior ink, it was clear and clear, like a contract, it was so clear that it hurt Bai Wanshu's eyes.

Her tears kept falling, and fell on this piece of paper that contained all the secret thoughts of a young girl. There is a story behind this piece of paper, which hides countless dusks, nights and mornings.

"I like you."