That's it

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Immediately after the end of the first love, he remembered his first time.

The first time was with a girl from a neighboring village, and I didn't have much contact with her.The girl likes Xiang Ping very much, she is a little taller than Xiang Ping, and Xiang Ping only pursues her because of her model-like figure.The pursuit process was not difficult at all, gradually Xiangping felt that he was being chased by her.Once a few of them went to the county to play, and after drinking, the two of them threw away the people they were playing with.The two drank some wine alone.At that time, Xiang Ping would not go home without drinking.

Although they were drunk for the first time, they were still very nervous.After the design is completed, enter the hotel one by one.After entering the room, Xiang Ping immediately imitated the plot in the movie, obviously not passionate yet, but acted very intensely.The girl began to resist shyly, and while resisting with her lips, she obediently lifted the forbidden clothes.The more fierce Xiang Ping is, the more he feels that he has no passion and desire. I just remember that most of the movies are like this. It seems that fierceness represents the degree of passion and liking.After they were completely naked on the bed, the girl was not only frightened, her body was completely stiff, twitching and moaning fiercely.This showed that Xiang Ping had never seen or heard of it in the movie, and he began to feel a little scared.When he was dizzy and suddenly saw the girl's lower body, his brain seemed to be shocked by electricity. He wanted to touch it, but he didn't have the nerve.What was even more frightening was that his lower body didn't have an erection, and he was worried that the girl would faint if he didn't get it again.Xiang Ping became more and more nervous, and the more nervous he was, the more useless he became.The girl didn't faint, but calmed down a bit, but Xiang Ping was completely disappointed in himself, and also saw the girl's disappointment.He dressed in a hurry and left the hotel to find his fellow players.The girl cried and refused to let him go, but he still left resolutely without shame.The wine was gone along the way, and my heart was very painful. The sex I had been longing for for a long time turned out to be like this.

"Why are you back?" Feng Kai asked Xiang Ping in surprise.

"Where will I go if I don't come back?" Xiang Ping looked downcast.While lifting up his clothes, he looked at the scratches on his back in the mirror.Of course he knew that his back was painful from being scratched by her, and he hoped that the red marks would be deeper.

"Damn it! It's so intense. It's so exciting! Tell me, tell me." Zheng Xinlai was pleasantly surprised when he saw the red marks, as if he had seen great news.

Xiang Ping looked at the scratches in the mirror and looked at their envious eyes, pretending to be nonchalant and said: "I feel very wicked. She cried when I left, and she cried very sadly."

"Then why are you back? It would be great to cuddle there for the night. I might not be with you for a while!" Feng Kai was so jealous that he didn't smile at all, and he wasn't as interested in his scratches as Zheng Xinlai was. Waiting for his text message.

"Is Akai making an appointment? Are you chatting with the waiter in the karaoke just now?" Zheng Xinlai said with a sly smile.

Xiang Ping was not interested in anything, and the image and voice of her crying when she left were circling in her mind.Hitting headlong on an open space in the big bed, reflecting on his failure.I hate myself for not being able to do it, and I hate myself for hurting the girl even more.

"Fucking money, I want you!" Feng Kai said, touching the phone keypad a few times.Then he threw the phone aside and put it on the pillow and said, "Sleep!"

"You guys!" Zheng Xin looked at both of them without emotion.

Under the influence of their environment, for young people who have just matured, good friends say that their sexual behavior is worth showing off.Facing parents and the outside world, he will be more restrained and conservative.Among the people who lack education, some vulgar people will regard the number of matings and the number of people as a symbol of ability. And proud.Whether those envious eyes behind the scenes are out of jealousy or influenced by tradition, the evaluation is always the opposite of envy.Time often tortures those masters of obscenity, or their families are scattered, or their desires are lost, or their reputations are ruined.Going from desire to victory to indulgence is a supernatural act, and how can it be safe in the end.

Another spring.He and his classmates went to Shenyang to work in sales in a decoration company.During the period, I met a graphic design intern from another decoration company.Su Yuting is 1.7 meters tall, with a slender figure, a handsome appearance, a sweet voice and a lively personality. She has just graduated from university.When Xiang Ping saw her for the first time, his classmates could tell that Xiang Ping liked her.Because he loves his family, Xiang Ping only stayed in Shenyang for more than a month, and he planned to go home immediately after getting his salary.During this period, he never confessed to Su Yuting, mainly because Xiang Ping was introverted and not good at confessing, and on the other hand, Xiang Ping always felt that there was something missing between them.After experiencing a few girlfriends, Xiang Ping has some resistance to the mainstream social phenomenon, which is the outlook on life of ordinary girls. In other words, the phenomenon that men are superior to women is only limited to the environment Xiang Ping has come into contact with.But he longed for sex, and after experiencing that failure, he became more and more inferior, always wanting to prove himself.What's more, Xiang Ping regards his liking for men as a pervert. No matter how hard he tries to get rid of this demon, he can't get rid of it, like a cancer growing in his heart.

After returning home from Shenyang, my heart was frustrated again. Every time I travel, I think of glory and prosperity. Every time I return home, I give myself many reasons to persuade myself to give up. When I get home, I know that those reasons are just testimony to avoid pain.He is used to finding reasons for failure, and when the failure is implemented, the feeling of failure will make him extremely bored.Negativity has become the norm in life, everything you want is not there, and it is too far away.Lock yourself in the room all day, indulge in fantasy and ideal world, reject everything.There are too many ideals, too many to contradict each other.

"Go to bed early tonight. Go plant trees tomorrow." Dad Xiangping informed from the other side of the door.

The computer is the best tool for Xiangping to consume time. Time is the thing he hates the most. I don't know how long it will be.Now there is something more annoying than time, and that is planting trees.He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and knocked hard on the keyboard a few times.The violent knocking sound annoyed Xiang Ping's father.

"Did you hear me!" Xiang Ping's father shouted loudly.

"I heard it!" Xiang Ping was even more fierce.

Two people on both sides of the door demonstrated with sound.

"Damn it! Every day you don't do anything, you only know how to surf the Internet, and the computer is in charge of your food! I will play if I control it. If you don't plant trees now, you will starve to death. Tomorrow, the Internet will be cut off for you."

"If you want to cut off the Internet, I will use the network cable to cut me off too."

"What's the point of you living like this. You fucking! If you want to die, die early."

"I can't ask for it."

Xiangping lay down after one o'clock at night as usual, and suffered from insomnia after lying down.

morning.The family is busy getting ready to go.

"Is Xiang Ping still awake?" Pan Feng asked Xiang Ping's mother.

"It's dead. I'm just saying hello and I won't move you." Xiang Ping's mother said angrily.

"Hehe. If you want me to tell you, I just want you to get used to it. Tomorrow, I have to think of a trick. Look at the big guy who wakes up at noon every day. It's a joke to spread the word, and you can't find a wife?" Pan Feng said maliciously. Stimulating Xiang Ping's mother, longing to see the scene where Xiang Ping was scolded.

"Hurry up and fill up the food!" Xiang Ping's mother said to Pan Feng angrily while cleaning up.

"Look at you, God, you dare not ask him to lose his temper with me. Ask my dad to lay an electric grid under his bed tomorrow, and turn him on if he doesn't get up. You can't get him up. I I don’t believe it anymore. If not, I’ll catch more mice and put them in the house.” Pan Feng said with a malicious smile.

"Don't be so angry with my mother, just stuff your food." Xiang Nan glanced at her husband, and then said angrily, "Oh! You are so annoying, if you don't get up for a while, the old man will get angry again .”

It's the same chatter every morning.Xiang Ping endured the noise of the world in his half sleep.But today is different from usual, I have to get up.He has worked hard for a long time, but his body just cannot be controlled by himself.The sound of the violent slamming on the door was deafening, as if the whole house was shaking, and the noisy people were frightened into silence, waiting for the roar to show Ping's power.The cracks in the door frame were spraying dust, and the lock was soon failing.There was still no sound in the room, and everyone knew that Xiang Ping was not dead.The door lock was snapped, and the door hit the window so hard that the glass almost shattered.Xiang Ping had already put on his clothes and walked out calmly.Dad Xiang Ping's expression looked as if he wanted to smash him to death with his fist, but every time his teeth were about to be gnawed, and finally his fist was still on the door of his heart.Xiang Nan and his wife were frightened by the horrific slamming on the door, and they all looked at Xiang Ping with a bitter face.I don't know whether they hope that he will be beaten or that he will be beaten severely in their eyes, but they all know that this kind of thing is not easy to happen.When Xiang Ping walked past the two of them, Leng Mu's expression stared straight at Pan Feng, as if all the suppressed anger shot out from those dull eyes.Pan Feng tried to appease Xiang Ping with a smirk.

"What are you looking at! It's not my Pan Feng who called you, so I'll dig out your eyes again." Xiang Nan said.

"Okay. You can say a few words less. I'm afraid I'll be killed soon." Pan Feng said to Xiang Nan in a comforting tone.

The Xiangping family quarreled violently and violently, but they healed quickly and the atmosphere was always good. They were the envy of the neighbors.They chatted and laughed along the way, the bumps did not stop Xiang Ping from sleeping, he was lying on Xiang Nan's lap like a corpse, Xiang Nan hugged Xiang Ping tightly, but it was impossible to stop her exaggerated body language when she spoke.Xiang Ping sometimes thinks that Xiang Nan's thigh bone shows a painful expression on his face.

"Hey! Big head, your forest of hope has arrived. Take active action! Hurry up and earn money for your son to marry a wife."

"It's hard to say whether he can marry a wife for his son. If he is so lazy, who would give it to him?" Xiang Ping's mother said.

"That's not necessarily true. Now people are looking for lazy people. Lazy people have lazy blessings. You think it's still like us at that time. The more capable you are, the better. If it weren't for the fact that you were capable and couldn't ask you, I let you do this job. It all depends on how much you suffer. Look at how many of the most capable people are doing well now. Those lazy ones are fucking officials and doing business." Xiang Ping's father said happily.

"You just get used to it." Xiang Ping's mother picked up the shovel and jumped out of the car angrily.

Xiang Ping looked like a half-dead man. He worked slowly for a while, and then squatted on the side and retched. He was obviously tired. He looked like he was only half-dead at most. His family was used to it, and no one felt sorry for him.

"This trash!" Xiang Ping's father said viciously, his restrained movements showed that he wanted to chop Xiang Ping to death with a shovel.

"Dad! Dad! Don't be excited, don't be excited." Xiang Nan looked at Ping's father's actions and hurriedly calmed his anger.

Pan Feng couldn't stop laughing when he saw Xiang Ping retching.The clod flew out of Xiang Nan's hand and landed on Pan Feng's leg. "Laugh at your head, hurry up and work. What's so ridiculous about that shit, Dad and Mom are so angry that you are still laughing there, seeing you smiling like a daddy."

Xiang Ping ignores everything, he just gets bored with this world and hates the life he is living right now.Squatting on the ground, his eyes fell dully on the fish pond in front of him.It reminded him of the appointment with Su Yuting to watch the sea.In a few days, he will secretly leave home to visit Su Yuting in Dalian, and take a look at the sea by the way.