That's it

25

Xiangping is the same as usual.After closing the store, I sat in front of the computer, with a lonely lamp on my head, and I was leaning on the computer screen.He was thinking about Zhao Wenyuan's pain, what made him so painful, hesitant, and helpless?When I turn on my computer, I always get used to logging in to QQ as soon as possible.Subconsciously look at Xuanzi's profile picture.They have not been in touch for several days.

"Are you okay?" After typing these words for a long time, the thumb landed on the Enter key in the lower right corner, and the whole body became still.His eyes stared at those words motionlessly, guessing Xuanzi's mood and state at the moment.The face is smiling faintly, laughing in despair, helplessness, and hesitation.

The ringing of the phone interrupted Xiang Ping's reverie.I glanced at the caller, it was my mother.Carefully adjusted his voice, shook his head, and put himself in a state of excitement.

"Is the door closed?" Xiang Ping's mother's voice was very amiable.

Xiang Ping knew what she was going to say from the degree of her warmth.He supported his forehead with his hands in pain, but his voice was very happy.

"Yeah. Just closed. Have you eaten yet?" Xiang Ping was even warmer, so cheaply warm that he had goose bumps all over his body.

"Eat it. Have you eaten?"

"I also ate."

"What are you eating?" Xiang Ping's mother's voice was also much more comfortable than usual.

"Sparse ribs stewed beans. I made it, and my young lady and Jiale scolded me. They said I was too bad. It was so delicious that I couldn't eat it."

"Hurry up and eat the things in the refrigerator. I didn't have any room when I went to see them last time." Xiang Ping's mother smiled very happily.Xiang Ping also got into a good mood because of her smile.

"You take it here lightly, and it will gradually decrease."

"What are you doing?"

"I'm fine."

"Is it boring to be alone?" Xiang Ping's mother gradually cut into the topic.

"Hmph! Then you are wrong. I enjoy it very much, and I can do whatever I want."

"It's ridiculous. What's the point of being alone?"

"Then where do I tell you? There are too many."

Xiang Ping kept his happy voice, unable to sit still, he got up and circled aimlessly on the ground.

"Anyway, who knows who is suffering. I heard from your lady that there is a little girl..."

Xiang Ping immediately interrupted her conversation and said, "Mom. It's been weird recently, and the sales are pretty good. If it keeps going like this, I won't be able to accompany you!"

"Don't get angry all day long, take your time. Money is not earned in a day. Besides, who guarantees that you can make a steady profit in business! Money can be earned slowly, but you are getting older and older, and you can't do it in the future." It's hard to find."

"I didn't get angry. I'm very big-hearted now. Don't worry about me if you have nothing to do. I didn't prostitute, gamble or take drugs. The most important thing is that you feel it too. My mentality is getting better and better now. I really don't know what's going on. Can make me worry."

"I don't get angry. The only thing I don't like is one thing. People..."

Xiang Ping interrupted her with a fierce smile and said, "Since my mentality has improved, everything has gone smoothly. Actually, it's not the two of you who worry about us now, it's time for us to worry about you two. You said you two did it All my life, I still can’t bear to eat and spend, why? You guys compare with others, counting from the east end to the west end, and counting from the first floor to the seventh floor, you are the most worry-free, one is better than the other. You Say you were so scary a few days ago, you fainted and you didn’t go to check, what are you thinking? Do you know how frightened they are? Do you two have no money? Saving land! Who are you saving for? Use your savings! How many times have I told you, don’t worry, I can’t get married and ask you for money. Let me tell you. I will take you to Harbin for inspection in a few days. My dad thinks about it, don't be too selfish, isn't it because I inherit him so much? If he wants to take you out for a walk, you can go out and have a look! If you don't go with him, it's tantamount to killing his favorite life, I... ..."

Xiang Ping's father listened with his ears pricked up. Xiang Ping's fast speech made him upset. He frowned and walked away and said, "Damn it! Like a laser gun, Chu Chu is so fucking annoying."

"Stop! Stop! Stop! I can't even get in the conversation, I'm so aggrieved by the humming. Whatever you want to say, you will be dumbfounded."

Xiang Ping squatted weakly on the ground, propping up the ground with one hand to avoid falling down, lowered his head and closed his eyes, talking and laughing in pain.

"What are you talking about? Can I not know what you want to say?"

"I know you still pretend to me. Mom tells you, don't think too much, it's not a problem for mom to give you a daughter-in-law now. Why don't you worry? Mom is going to be worried. Son .Don’t be too picky, it’s best to find someone who is down-to-earth and stable, and you should also think about your mother.”

"Mom... I'm physically sick, not hard." Xiang Ping's tone suddenly became low, and his attitude was extremely serious.After speaking, I couldn't help but kneeled on the ground and snickered.

"Huh? It's... really!" Xiang Ping's mother froze immediately.

"Well. Really." Xiang Ping still spoke in a low voice.

"Then why didn't you say it earlier? See a doctor if you are sick! Can you do it without seeing a doctor?"

Xiang Ping laughed and exposed everything.

"Damn it! You kid, you can also tell this joke."

"Look! Let me take care of it for you! I'm sick and you don't want to get married. You just want to cure the disease. If I'm a fool or have a terminal illness, do you still need me to get married? At that time What I want is that I can take care of myself and live. I am very normal, even a little good. I am very satisfied with myself. After I got out of depression, I feel that my life is very good. Well, it does not depend on whether I am married or not. I am an optimistic person I will be happy no matter what. I know how to be happy. I tell you very clearly that I am really happy now, and I know exactly what I want, which is very important. I know how I want to live, I know what I really want What I need. It cannot be satisfied by marriage. Of course I know that you are good to me, but you impose the happiness you think on me, which may not be what I want. My happiness is not what you think. A person who is not satisfied with life He will keep wanting someone. For example, when I get married, you will urge me to have a child according to your plan. When my marriage is not happy, you will worry again. You want to do it for me too much, in fact I'm like you, and I want to be very good for myself. But I know what I need, and you don't."

"Fuck him! Don't listen to him." Xiang Ping's father pointed at Xiang Ping's mother angrily on the sofa and said through gritted teeth.

"Go to the other side!" Xiang Ping's mother listened carefully to Xiang Ping's words and said to Xiang Ping's father.Then he turned to the phone and asked in a discussing tone: "Then Mom asked you, what do you want?"

"My dad is disgusting again?"

Xiang Ping was already weakly sitting on the ground with one leg, his hands unconsciously picking at the cracks in the floor.trembling.He tried not to let his cheerful voice change.

"Don't talk to him. Say it."

"I'm already fine. I don't want anything. It's fine now. I don't know what will happen in the future. I just know that my life is getting better and better. Compared with those who got married and started within a few days Divorce is better than those who have children and get divorced. I really don’t have much pursuit now, it’s too tiring. The ordinary life is getting better day by day, how wonderful! The question is what do you want?”

"I want grandchildren."

"This...then I'm still sick."

"Go to your motherland!"

"Why can't I tell you clearly? All of your goals are ultimately for my own good. Whether it is to let me get married or have children, I am afraid that I will die alone like my uncle. I will not. Marriage is for me It's a cage that binds everything about me. I don't even have any pursuits in my life. I just want to live in my own way. Besides, I'm ready to live alone. I'm not afraid. I will be afraid of the person I marry. Without her, you will not see me happy. My biggest pursuit now is that you can live happily. Don’t worry about me all the time, your time is running out, and you can’t do many things if you don’t enjoy them. I Please think for yourselves. Your concern for me has burdened me."

"Oh my god! I'm going to be pissed off by you! I'm so busy listening to you. No, I have to hang up. I'll have a heart attack after listening to it for a while. Go to bed early! Don't stay up too late. Play less Computer, do you still need those eyes?"

"Okay. I won't bother you anymore. Go to bed early too! Do less work and go for a walk up the mountain with those old ladies in the morning. You won't be busy with all those messy things in a day."

"Oh! It's all right. How can you say that now? My brain hurts when I hear it."

"Yeah. Good. Don't talk, go to sleep!" Xiang Ping squeezed out the last laugh.

Xiang Ping was completely paralyzed when the phone was hung up, and the phone fell from his hand to the ground.He covered his chest and closed his eyes and took a deep breath.for a long time.He struggled to get up, and the hazy darkness floated.He took out a bottle of liquor from the wine cabinet and returned to the computer desk.

"are you OK?"

The four unspoken words appeared prominently in front of his eyes, making his heart even more depressed.Delete those four words and close the dialog box.Looking at the screensaver while drinking and recalling.

Xuanzi is a newcomer who has been in the group for several months.Xiang Ping is a coquettish and lewd dick in the group. When he sees one and loves the other, some people say: "If Balu doesn't chase anyone, then there is something wrong." Since when did he become afraid and lonely?Loneliness allows him to break through himself and dare to express himself in the group, but the people in the group are as lonely as him, likes and dislikes, and the ultimate purpose of communication is mostly to yearn for love and eliminate loneliness.People keep convincing themselves of their bottom line because they are too reluctant to be alone.The true fit removes the occasional little that remains.Slowly dissipating loneliness in the way of indulgent love, and turned into a viper talking and laughing.There is only one person crying bitterly in the corner with his head down, longing to drift in the torrent, being overturned by the waves and rising again, looking at the invisible hope in the distance.