The ivory tower has no autumn

Chapter 16

Waking up in the morning, Lin Zhiyuan found that Ji Huaizhi was not by her side. She walked outside and saw that he was preparing breakfast as usual, and laughed when she saw her.

Just the same as before.

Lin Zhiyuan was a little annoyed, but she didn't show it, and went straight to take a shower.

Ji Huaizhi looked at Lin Zhiyuan until she disappeared behind the door, the corner of her mouth twitched, and then she couldn't pretend anymore and collapsed.

To be honest, she was very sad, because Lin Zhiyuan acted as if nothing had happened, and only she was worrying about it.

During the long night, Lin Zhiyuan didn't know how many resolutions she had made and how many thoughts she overturned. She clearly understood that her body and mind had been completely occupied by Lin Zhiyuan, and all her thoughts and thoughts would be taken over by Lin Zhiyuan. She leads.

Like a donkey forced to pull a mill, she can only circle around it.

She doesn't want to be led away like this, but if her feelings can be controlled, there won't be so many uneasy feelings in the world. She wants a real relationship, but because the other party is Lin Zhiyuan, so she thinks about it. It's clear, it doesn't matter if it's not true.

As long as there is such a peaceful life, it is actually a good choice to live a day to day and enjoy yourself in time.

But she will still feel a little sad, the word "passer-by" slaps her expectations from the palm of her hand to the ground, like dust on the ground, worthless and not worth mentioning.

She habitually put her right hand into the pocket of her coat, but she touched something. She took it out and saw that it was the business card of the strange woman she received at the police station a few days ago.

Getting along with Lin Zhiyuan, she was somewhat infected with "thinking too much".

If Lin Zhiyuan has any concerns about this relationship, it is likely to be related to what the woman said, maybe she understands it, and she can try to solve it.

So she made a phone call and made an appointment at a cheap cafe in the city. Ji Huaizhi didn't like the woman she was about to meet, maybe because she regarded Lin Zhiyuan as crazy, and she also had feelings for her behavior at this moment. disgust.

She felt that she had betrayed Lin Zhiyuan and was trying to dig out a secret she didn't want to reveal.

"Hi!"

A woman named Wei Wei was sitting in the corner waving at her, and the other party recognized her, Ji Huaizhi nodded politely, and took the seat opposite her, the waiter came to order, Ji Huaizhi ordered a cup of hot chocolate.

"You came to me, did you find something wrong with Lin Zhiyuan?" Wei Wei revealed his desire to hear gossip all over his face.

"No, she's normal, but I want to know something about her past, and why you all say she's crazy."

Since you can't get gossip from others, you can tell it yourself.

Wei Wei said that she and Lin Zhiyuan were classmates in high school, and everyone in the school knew what happened at Lin Zhiyuan's family at that time. Lin Zhiyuan returned to class after taking a two-month break from school. She looked the same as before , but a little more indifferent, and some teachers who tried to care about her were also dissuaded by her indifferent attitude.

"In my opinion, the matter is over, and you still need to care and comfort after that, it is undoubtedly to tear open the wound that has scabbed so hard and sprinkle a handful of salt on it."

"Maybe it's true! But she's not quite right after that..."

Lin Zhiyuan became a little strange, so strange that everyone could feel it, as if there were two different people living in her body, she would do things that she didn't usually do, and she also had two personalities, one gentle, The other one was a little irritable. At the most exaggerated moment, she beat up a boy with a particularly cheap mouth in the class, and then walked away as if nothing had happened, ignoring everyone's eyes. The boy was also a little embarrassed after being beaten. Please ask for leave. For a few days, this incident spread among the students, but neither the teacher nor the parents knew about it, so they were not investigated afterwards.

Later, there were many things that everyone knew, such as Lin Zhiyuan scratching himself with a knife in front of the whole class, and afterwards he said that he did not remember doing it.

"Honestly, she doesn't care about getting hurt at all, she even makes herself hurt on purpose." Wei Wei trembled unconsciously, as if what happened more than ten years ago is still very scary when he thinks about it now.

Ji Huaizhi remembered Lin Zhiyuan's action of pinching the cigarette.

"There is still a rumor circulating among the classmates. It is said that on the day Lin Zhiyuan's family had an accident, she and the murderer stayed alone in the house for half an hour."

Whether it is a rumor or not, she will know as soon as she checks it.

Ji Huaizhi sat in front of the desk, facing the police archives page, she typed out the word Lin Shang word by word with her fingertips, and the system retrieved the relevant cases.

The data records the time when the police received the call to the police, the time when they dispatched the police, the time when they arrived at the scene, and the time when they arrested the prisoner. Combined with Lin Shang’s confession and the testimony of the only survivor, Lin Zhiyuan, it is easy to find that in Lin Shang’s After Shang committed the crime, Lin Zhiyuan returned home and the police arrived at the scene, there was indeed a time difference of nearly half an hour.

The colleague who handled the case for half an hour asked specifically, but Lin Zhiyuan only said: "He asked me to call the police."

In the long half hour, only this sentence was said.

When Ji Huaizhi returned home, she found that Lin Zhiyuan was not there. She thought it was just right, so she walked into Lin Zhiyuan's study room. There was still the familiar ivory tower model in the corner. Looking at the neat study room, she just glanced at the whole thing in a hurry. This time, she sat in Lin Zhiyuan's usual seat and opened the desk drawer manually.

There are books, sundries, snacks, cigarette cases, lighters... nothing else.

For some reason, she was in a complicated mood. She closed the drawer forcefully, and left the study angrily.

When Lin Zhiyuan arrived home, he saw Ji Huaizhi sitting alone in the living room without turning on the light, just sitting in the dark like this, she put down the things in her hands, sat beside her, and put her arms gently around hers. shoulder.

"what happened?"

"It's nothing..." Ji Huaizhi hugged the small pillow and turned his body to the other side so as not to look at Lin Zhiyuan.

Lin Zhiyuan paused, he was absolutely unhappy.

"Then what do you want me to do?" Anything she could do, she was willing to do.

Ji Huaizhi never thought that Lin Zhiyuan would ask her that. She seemed to think that she was angry because of her, but only she knew that she was angry with herself.

She was angry with herself for inquiring about Lin Zhiyuan's past, and also angry with herself for doubting Lin Zhiyuan because of other people's words.

But she turned her body shamefully and said, "Kiss me."

Lin Zhiyuan leaned over and gave a shallow kiss, then kissed again, and said, "Double, are you feeling better now?"

Ji Huaizhi nodded in shame with a blushing face, and then buried her face in the pillow.

"Do you know that you are really not suitable to be a policeman?" Lin Zhiyuan collapsed on the sofa, staring at the lines on the ceiling, "You will write everything in your heart on your face, and you will not even lie , How do you deal with the prisoner like this?."

"I don't want to be a policeman either." When it comes to work, Ji Huaizhi can always think of the face of his father yelling at her for meritorious service.

"Then what do you want to be?"

"I do not know."

Ji Huaizhi knew from a young age that she was a follower of the crowd. She was neither outstanding nor outstanding in the crowd. She would only be hidden in the vast crowd. She had no dreams. She said that she wanted to be a doctor, lawyer, or teacher because of some TV series she had watched, but she was the only one in the class who kept her mouth shut.

Because she was destined to be a policeman, her father told her this since she was a child: "You will be a policeman in the future. The policeman is the honor of our family, and you must pass it on."

"It's okay if you don't know. You can think about it slowly. When you think it through, you must quit your job as a police officer." Lin Zhiyuan stroked Ji Huaizhi's hair with his fingertips, as if he was helping her comb it, or as if he was doing it. Playing, "You only live once, you have to live for yourself, police honor is what your dad wants, not you."

"Then how do you know what you want?" Ji Huaizhi leaned his head on the sofa, looking at the pair of light brown eyes that were unusually bright in the darkness.

"You may need to experience something, and then you will know what you want. For example, when I was very young, I knew that I wanted to be a writer, I wanted to make a lot of money, and I wanted to get another group of people who are also human beings. people's admiration and love." Lin Zhiyuan made no secret that she is such a person, and she also succeeded.

But she hoped that the experience that might change Ji Huaizhi came later.

"Zhiyuan, that's not how your previous name was written." The lively Zhi looks even better.

Without asking how she knew, Lin Zhiyuan still caressed her hair and explained: "Zhi is Zhiruo, my mother said that this world is a huge abyss, and she hoped that I would not fall into it no matter what I encountered. , but to be a flower blooming on the edge of the abyss."

Once upon a time, her mother was also a flower that bloomed on the edge of the cliff, but it was picked off by someone and thrown into the abyss.

Later, she pulled out the only grass in the name that represented vitality. She thought, this is the only thing she can leave to her mother, an unchanging and complete self.

From then on, she stopped at the edge of the abyss and stayed with the abyss all her life.

"Very interesting name." Before this, Ji Huaizhi always felt that Lin Zhiyuan's name was strange, but from now on, she will no longer think so.

"Well, they are all very interesting names." Lin Zhiyuan closed her eyes, as if she was muttering, she heard the sudden howling wind outside, and asked, "Where's your name?"

It looks like it will rain heavily tonight.

"My name has no meaning. My mother said that I hope I can find the meaning of the name."

It's a pity that I haven't found it yet, and she forgot to look for it.

The two fell silent in a tacit understanding, each staring at somewhere in the darkness in a daze.

Autumn makes people sentimental, and the same goes for night. Many things that you don’t think about during the day will come out tacitly at night to make troubles, disturbing people’s moods, thoughts, and dreams.

"Actually, I haven't thought about it."

Ji Huaizhi murmured out of the blue, she was thinking in her heart that she had actually imagined the future.

When I was very young, when I saw the clouds in the sky one day, in just a second, I had that fleeting thought.

An idea that was later folded by reality and hidden in a drawer.

"Ok?"

Lin Zhiyuan's voice is very nice, especially when she utters certain words, such as when she says "yes", "um", "ah", "ok", that is her voice that is the most relaxed and close to others when.

Seeing that his doubts were not answered, Lin Zhiyuan turned his head to look at her profile, his eyelashes fluttering like a fan.

When she looks at herself with these eyes, it will make her want to sink down, and when she doesn't look at her with these eyes, it will make her think of chasing her, just want to keep chasing her like this, and then let herself appear In her eyes, let yourself fill the whole world in her eyes.

She asked again more clearly: "What are you thinking?"

"Once upon a time, I thought, maybe I can be a traveler, travel around the world, see the customs, mountains, rivers and seas, take the whole world into my eyes, record it, and share it." Ji Huaizhi said He laughed as he spoke.

Not because this dream is too beautiful, but because it is the dream of almost everyone in the world.

Everyone wants to do this, but there are very few people who can complete this world tour. Most people are still busy living the most ordinary days every day, receiving the lowest salary, and then looking up at a certain place. God, in a moment of daze, this never-realized dream was completed in my mind.

"Then go! See the world, take the world into your eyes, and take the world for yourself."

Lin Zhiyuan never felt that this was an unattainable dream, on the contrary, they created this world, and the world belonged to them.

Human beings build the whole world with the ordinary and extraordinary, joyful and sad emotions, and beautiful and cruel life.

It is so beautiful and brilliant that people yearn for it, but it is also cruel and dark that people escape.

"Theworldismyoyster." Lin Zhiyuan lit a cigarette, the charming smell made the whole space unreal, and her voice also became unreal, "This is Shakespeare's famous quote, the world is my oyster, as long as I Think, and I can pry it open with a knife."

"It's easy to say." Ji Huaizhi smiled, "This world is a golden oyster, unless I have a knife made of pure gold, I will never be able to open it for the rest of my life."

"Then what if you have it?" Lin Zhiyuan's eyes became more obscure in the smoke.

"If I had it, I'd open it and give you half."