Embrace each other

Chapter 17 A Wedding Gift For You

After saying goodbye to them, although I repeatedly emphasized that it was urgent to make appointments with clients at two o'clock in the afternoon, Qin Hai still insisted on taking me to a high-end western restaurant.When ordering food, looking at the delicacies on the menu, I couldn't arouse my appetite, so I could only flip through the menu.Maybe I hesitated for too long, Qin Hai said to the waiter while I was flipping through the menu: Bring her a sirloin steak with pasta.Although I didn't have an appetite, I thought it was my treat after all, so I had to bite the bullet and agree.

After the waiter left, I said, "Student, I'm really short on time. I'm afraid your steak hasn't arrived yet, so I have to leave first."

Qin Hai smiled disapprovingly, picked up the glass, poured water and handed it to me.

"I also made up my mind to ask you out. I don't want to have a good meal. I'm so sorry for the brain cells I wasted."

"It's strange to say, do you think that when you grow up, a man's face is more important. When I ask you out, my mind will always show the way you raised your head and said no to me when you were young. At that time, you always felt Your willful and stubborn look is simply too cute, but now I feel scared."

What Qin Hai said was the same, when he was with him before, he was very arrogant, but he didn't deserve to be beaten.It seems that all the self-willedness I have towards Brother Cheng Hai has been transferred to him.When I think about it, I still find it incredible. How could I have decided that he would tolerate me instead of hating me like Bai Yu.

"I used to be young and ignorant, plus I was spoiled by my brother, so I was a little ignorant. It's just because of you, don't quarrel with me, let me mess around, otherwise I would have been seen by others People love, flowers bloom when they see flowers. It’s still reduced to the point of blind date” I joked

Qin Hai suddenly fell silent, looking at me thoughtfully with his eyes.

"what's wrong"

"What I just said is serious, do you want to think about it?"

"I'm serious too, don't be kidding"

"Xiaoduo, actually, I know you like Bai Yu"

I couldn't help but pause with the hand holding the cup, and then pretended to be nonchalant and said

"Is it so obvious, I thought I hid it deep enough"

"Xiaoduo, the reason why I can't hide liking someone is because even the eyes will betray you when the love is deep. I didn't keep you when we broke up, not because you weren't worth it, but because your eyes made me understand that I never could Any turmoil in your heart. It calms me down and makes me feel helpless. I thought you would be together for so many years, but it wasn't until I came back that I realized that not only were you not together, but you seemed to be farther apart."

In this situation, no matter how I look at it, I should hold a cigarette in my hand, and then smoke with a seemingly infinitely sad expression, and tell him about my secret love history full of infinite sadness.It's just that when you get used to feeling sad about the same thing all the time, this bit of sadness in your heart will become insignificant after a long time, and even if you say it, you will feel hypocritical.I looked at Qin Hai, thought about it seriously, and then said lightly:

"You are wrong. I liked him since junior high school, but he didn't like me when we were very young. We seem to be very close, but there is always a distance of heart."

Qin Hai looked at me quietly, the water in the glass was shaking with his hands rubbing back and forth, I smiled lightly, with some helplessness, and the calmness I was used to.

"But despite this, I still can't convince myself to fall in love with anyone other than him. So, Qin Hai, I can't make the same mistake twice. If the first time is unintentional, then the second time will be intentional. Then I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life.”

"What if I say I don't mind?" Qin Hai suddenly looked at me firmly.

"But I don't mind"

Time froze in an instant, and for a few seconds we were relatively silent, he was silent, I chuckled lightly, but there was irresistible determination in each other's eyes.

After a long time, I looked down at the time and smiled apologetically at Qin Hai.

"Look, they say they can't wait for the meal."

Under Qin Hai's silent gaze, I picked up my bag and got up to leave.

"Xiaoduo, actually"

I stopped and looked back at him, Qin Hai hesitated to speak, he didn't say anything until I left, he just smiled helplessly at me.

Is it true that everyone is the same as me, always acting extremely calm and straightforward in front of people who don’t love, but indecisive when facing people who love, holding on to that little thing so small and insignificant in the eyes of outsiders, But it will become hope in my heart, even if it is as thin as a cicada's wing, it is enough to support me for a long time.

It was evening to bid farewell to customers, I opened the car door and leaned on the seat tiredly, this day was really tiring.I closed my eyes and originally wanted to relax, but at this moment, what Bai Yu said in the morning was like a recorded CD, playing it back in my mind over and over again, really not giving me a moment of peace.

I started the car and closed all the windows, hoping the wind outside would calm me down.But as long as I think of seeing that bastard Bai Yu when I go home, I can't help but get angry.

If it wasn't because I like you, do you think you could easily break my heart?After all, this is not the right I gave you, but you use these rights to do things that hurt me.

I went back and forth on the road, and I didn't go home until it was completely dark.

"Did you eat?" My mother asked as soon as I entered the door

"ate"

"The two children eat out without saying a word, I have done so much"

I unconsciously glanced at Bai Yu's closed bedrooms. Needless to say, Bai Yu also came back after eating outside.

When I got up the next day, Bai Yu had already left.I called Brother Cheng Wei and told him that he was not here to pick me up and that I had already gone to the hospital.Brother Cheng Wei seemed to be very busy, he responded softly while giving instructions to others.After hanging up his phone, I couldn't help but think, I've been devoting myself to work so early, it seems that I'm the most idle person on the whole street.

As soon as I entered the hospital, I saw yesterday's little nurse busy in the infusion room. She waved to me and motioned me to wait for her in yesterday's ward.

After a while, she came in pushing bottles and jars.

"My boyfriend didn't follow me today"

I looked at her calmly, she was concentrating on dispensing the medicine.

"You want to see my boyfriend, so you choose to give me an infusion."

"You, what are you talking about, I'm just asking"

The little nurse's face flushed instantly, and she was so nervous that she could speak incoherently.

"Just kidding, he's not my boyfriend, he's my brother. You can like him, really"

The little nurse looked at me in surprise, and then a blush appeared on her face.Looking at her appearance, I suddenly thought, if I had been more reserved and reserved like her back then, wouldn't I have been flying with Bai Yu long ago.

I didn't fall asleep during the infusion, and I stared at the liquid slowly dripping from the infusion tube throughout the whole process.During the period, the little nurse came in twice, and she said that you don't have to stare at it like this, you won't be able to lose for a while, and you can take a break.

"Counting them is a break for me" I said, because then I didn't have time to wonder what Bai Yu was doing.

When the liquid dripped to an unknown number of thousands, the little nurse came and asked if the count was clear.I said no.

The little nurse smiled and said, it's okay, Doctor Bai asked me to tell you that there is still a chance tomorrow anyway.

"Bai Yu is here?" I asked

"Oh, there was an emergency patient who needed a consultation just now, Doctor Bai came here."

The little nurse pulled out the needle in my hand as she spoke, and I frowned in pain, thinking, it was because of the consultation.

Saying goodbye to the little nurse, I walked outside. When I passed the hospital lobby, I saw Man Yue running upstairs excitedly with a lunch box in her hand. The color of the lunch box was the same as before, dazzling pink.I think the real reason I don't like pink is because it radiates happiness all over me, and this happiness has nothing to do with me.

Fortunately, tomorrow is the last day. If this goes on like this for a long time, I might suffer some kind of internal injury.

On the third day, I came to the hospital as usual. As soon as I entered the door, the little nurse glanced behind me, and then smiled at me as if nothing had happened. I think she should be looking for Brother Cheng Wei.After the infusion, I said to her, in order to thank you for taking care of me these three days, I want to tell you a secret.The little nurse looked at me curiously, and I said, my brother will come in a while, if you have anything to say, you can go to the lobby to find him.

The little nurse blushed instantly, and before going out, I reminded her that there is no such shop after passing this village.

It’s not that I’m messing around, I just think it’s time for Brother Cheng Wei to fall in love. Several times I heard my mother say in their chats that Brother Cheng Wei is so focused on work that he often stays up late and can’t even take care of food when he’s busy. eat.I think, if he can fall in love, at least he can relieve the pressure at work. Isn't it said that having love is the best way to relieve stress.

I remembered that in the phone call just now, brother Cheng Wei insisted that I ask Bai Yu to have dinner together.I protested, but to no avail.The main reason is that I don't want to tell Cheng Weige the reason for our quarrel, and I don't want to repeat to Cheng Weige the words that are enough to make me sad for a while, so I can only walk upstairs step by step with heavy steps.

As soon as I arrived at the Cardiology Department, I heard a conversation from the nurse's desk:

"Doctor Bai's girlfriend is here again?"

"Yeah, it's really considerate to deliver meals every day these days."

"What kindness, if you want me to tell you, I just don't worry about it. There are people thinking about such a handsome guy everywhere"

It sounds like the full moon is also there, just right, I don't have to call, just tell Brother Cheng Wei that he has already eaten.I was just about to turn around and go back, but there was a voice in my heart, screaming stubbornly.

"Wei Xiaoduo, you are really cowardly, go up and see what's wrong."

"Don't go, maybe it's hot right now"

"So what, it's broad daylight, we're not peeping."

. . . . . .

Reason was defeated as expected, I quickly came to the door of Bai Yu's office, just holding the doorknob with my hand, I thought it would be impolite to do so.Although I didn't have good intentions, but I didn't come to catch the rape, so I withdrew my hand and knocked on the door anyway.

"please come in"

After Bai Yu's familiar voice came from inside, I opened the door and went in.

When I entered, Bai Yu was looking down at the medical records. There was indeed a lunch box on the table. After a long time, Bai Yu looked up at me.

"How did you come"

I was also wondering why I came in, but it shouldn't be so obvious.The last time I came here, I was asked to sit down and talk, but this time the tone was not tight, and she didn't even mean to ask me to sit down.

"Brother Cheng Wei said that he just happened to come over for something. He wanted to have dinner together at noon."

"I'm on duty at noon, I don't have time"

The rejection was straightforward and neat, like returning to my childhood, always being so unkind to me.

"He said it was near" the hospital

Before she could say the following words, she saw Man Yue coming out of the lounge next to her shaking her wet hands.on duty?The reason was quite high-sounding. Looking at Bai Yu who was being slapped in the face, I pouted and couldn't help but chuckle.I don't understand, I have plenty of time after get off work, but I have to pretend to be a gentleman, commute to get off work on time every day, and I don't know who to show it to.

"Xiaoduo, what are you doing standing at the door? Come in, just in time to have dinner with us." Man Yue grabbed the chair next to her and greeted me warmly, as if she had arrived at their home.

"She has arrangements, don't worry about her." Bai Yu flipped through the case without raising his eyelids.

"That's right, don't be polite to me, besides, I can't eat too greasy food recently, and I can't even look at it, I feel like vomiting"

Looking at Bai Yu's calm expression, I couldn't help but emphasize my tone.I thought to myself, I don't have the time to watch you get bored here.

Full Moon looked at Bai Yu in embarrassment, and burst out laughing. Then Bai Yu looked up at me, his eyes full of irrationality.

I rolled my eyes at him and turned around to go out. I'm not a child anymore. If I behave well, I can give a piece of candy.No matter how well I behave now and how pitifully I pretend, you won't change your opinion of me, let alone promise you with your body.

When I went down, Brother Cheng Wei was already waiting in the hall, I ran to him and took his arm and walked out.

"Where's Bai Yu?" Cheng Weige looked behind me and asked

"He's busy with a date, how can he have time to have dinner with us?"

"Did you two quarrel?" Brother Cheng Wei stopped and looked at me carefully.

"Isn't it normal to quarrel? It would be strange not to quarrel." I looked at him as if nothing had happened, blinking a pair of innocent eyes that were not too big.

"No, you should still be your own three-year-old children. Besides, don't always be unreasonable. Xiaoyu has such a temper. It's not like you don't know it."

"Brother, are you still eating?"

"Okay, let's go to eat, don't mention it, it's okay."

My pouted mouth immediately floated into a smile, and I took his arm again and walked out.From the corner of the eye before going out, I saw the little nurse secretly looking at us at the corner of the corridor. The disappointment on her face was obvious. It seemed that Brother Cheng Wei did not have her kind intentions.

During the meal, I couldn't help asking him: Don't you like that little nurse?Brother Cheng Wei took a sip of water from his glass, and said helplessly: I knew it was you, and I didn't forget to take care of my life-long affairs after entering the hospital. It's really difficult for you.

Seeing him like this, I knew the girl was out of action.

Hey, there is no reason in this world. Such a handsome, wealthy and gentle man has no girls around him, while there is a long queue behind the other one who is the complete opposite.I really don't know if people's eyes have changed, or there is something really wrong with my character, I've fallen to liking demons, and God has arranged so many people to line up to fight against me.

It's strange to say that since I stopped going to the hospital for infusions, Bai Yu has completely disappeared from my sight. I heard him go out before I got up in the morning, and we came back later than the other at night. He came back so early one day, and was just busy in his room, as if deliberately avoiding me.To be honest, if it weren't for the men's skin care products on the sink and the clothes to dry in the yard, I really thought this was just a dream I had for a long time.Under the same roof, the most familiar stranger, old-fashioned but tragic enough.

However, the person who should be angry is obviously me, isn't it?

After we had a cold war for a week, one day when I came home as usual, my mother pulled me aside as soon as I entered the door.

"Did you quarrel with Xiaoyu?"

"No"

"Then why do I feel weird? Look, he leaves early and returns late, and the night shift is getting longer and longer. And you don't go home for dinner anymore."

"You think too much. As for me, I'm too busy recently. As for him, who knows?"

"It's hard for Xiaoyu to fall in love?"

I suddenly remembered the scene when I went to the hospital for an infusion two days ago, and Man Yue ran upstairs with a lunch box.It's just a coincidence that I meet her every time I go out after the infusion, as if I had agreed, and I nod to my mother thinking of her overflowing happiness.

"It should be, his ex-girlfriend always ran to our hospital"

"Xiaoyu really has a partner. No wonder the child is in a hurry to renovate the house as soon as he comes back. It seems that a good thing is coming. But, it's a pity."

"pity?"

I looked at my mother for no reason, and wanted to ask her where this pity came from.My mother looked around, she looked like a thief.

"Mom is sorry for you, such a good person is just like this..."

"Mom, I thank you. You are in a hurry to have a grandson. I just want to get married as soon as possible. That's the only one. You mentioned that Aunt Wang's child last time. Please call back quickly. I am willing to see you. Maybe next month." You can prepare for the marriage, and next year you will be able to have a grandson as you wish."

I don't know where the unknown fire came from. Before my mother finished speaking, I yelled loudly.My dad came over and looked at my mom reproachfully.

"What's the matter with you, don't keep worrying about the child when he grows up"

"I didn't say anything." My mother didn't expect me to lose my temper so much. Seeing her anxiously explaining to my father, I realized that I really made a big deal out of a molehill just now.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I've been too busy recently."

"However, what I said is serious. I am willing to meet. Maybe I will meet the right one and get married. Please make an appointment for me."

My parents looked at me silently, then nodded seriously.

After so many years, I think I am also tired. There are some things that cannot be obtained by persistence, such as love.

What's more, my love is more afraid of losing than getting it.

Maybe I got a little angry after eating and drinking outside these few days, and my throat is so dry that I can get angry in the middle of the night.I rubbed my messy hair, came to the living room with sleepy eyes, picked up the cold white kettle on the coffee table, and drank it all in one go.I belched contentedly, turned around and walked back unsteadily.Just halfway through, it touched a strong chest.I opened my eyes in pain, and it turned out to be Bai Yu.Seeing him holding a cup in one hand, he should also come out to drink water.

This was the first time he appeared in front of me after he disappeared for a week, and I was in a daze, like a dream.Bai Yu stood still, looking at me silently.

The surroundings were quiet only the sound of our breathing, I subconsciously took a step back, and looked at him anxiously.

"sorry"

Once some things become a habit, no matter what the situation is, no matter how many years have passed, it will go to your brain first.It's like forgetting that we had quarreled now, and forgetting how bad he said to me not long ago. I used to apologize before I thought about it.In fact, I can completely ignore him and walk past him arrogantly, ignoring his existence.

"How is the design draft done?"

The night made his voice sound all the more seductive, and I was fascinated by it.It wasn't until he coughed twice that he brought me back to reality.

"Oh, no, it hasn't been modified. However, I can also introduce you to another designer in our unit. The style is completely different from mine. After all, it is not easy to modify the house once it is installed."

I said this because since he expressed his dislike for me openly that day, I think he asked me to design the house before, maybe he just said it casually, and I didn't expect that I could readily agree.And the most important thing is that I don't want to use the house I've worked so hard to design as his and Full Moon's wedding room.

After a long time, Bai Yu said slowly

"How much"

"He should give a friendly price."

"I mean how much is your money?"

Before I could speak, Bai Yu turned around and went back to the room, and walked over with his mobile phone after a while.

"Is 5000 enough?"

Bai Yu flipped through his phone, then held it up to my eyes.

The bright light of the screen is especially dazzling in the middle of the night. I looked at the 5000 yuan he transferred to me on the WeChat page, and my heart was indescribably sad.

He and I have become estranged to such an extent that what I have been afraid of all these years, what I love to the bottom of my heart but insisted on not talking about it, has no meaning at this moment.

If I tell him now that the person he hated and avoided since he was a child has been deeply in love with him, will he be able to stay away from me, and Tianya will be a passerby from now on.

I opened my mouth and finally only said one sentence

"Thank you"

Bai Yu snorted coldly and moved the phone away

"Wei Xiaoduo, it's better to be consistent in life and work."

I've been doing the same thing from beginning to end, but you don't know it.

After returning to the room, I no longer had the mood to sleep. I looked at the payment reminder on my mobile phone and smiled silently.It's like saying to me when I was a child: Let go, and I will buy you crispy noodles for a week.

It turns out that for so many years, you always think that I am stubborn and stubborn because of these small advantages, but you can't see the helplessness when I let go.

I didn't click to collect money, and with the light of the screen, I tapped the keyboard seriously,

"Forget about the money, just treat it as a wedding gift for you."

I took out the design draft that had been revised countless times in the drawer, and drew it again.It probably won't be long before it will come in handy. Regardless of whether Bai Yu will adopt it in the end, that's his business. Although our relationship can't be said to start well and end well, it is still worthy of the little affection between us. Then There is nothing wrong with Bai Yu, but it is more important than anything else to me.

The next day, I wrapped up the manuscript that I had rushed out overnight and put it at the door of Bai Yu's bedroom.This is the last thing I can do for him. It is ridiculous to say that not only can I not love him, but in the end I have to personally design a wedding room for him and others.

I, Wei Xiaoduo, must have been condemned by God in this life in my previous life.