forget the river

Chapter 4

Spring is getting warmer, the flowers are in full bloom, and the birds and insects are singing.Inside the red wall, there are figures passing by in a hurry, and the branches are sprouting, all of which are full of vitality.

The spring in the north seems to be favored by the heavens, and it is warm. Even places that have always been solemn and solemn like the imperial palace are warmed by the heat of light and the warmth of wind.In such a beautiful season, only the most remote corner of the palace was left with a deathly silence.

"Piangong" has no name, it is the only unnamed residence in the palace, the gilded plaque is covered with dust, the palace people don't know how to call it, so because of its remoteness and few people walking around, they call it "Piangong".

There are no maids and eunuchs walking around the side palace, no flowers blooming, and even insects and birds don't like to go there.There seems to be an isolated island surrounded by resentment and silence.Never lived.In recent days, only one person lives.He was behind the tightly closed door, and there was almost no light in the room, and the man didn't like to move around. He always liked to look at an empty place in the room quietly, and sat like this for a whole day.

On weekdays, that person didn't seem to be able to move, sitting casually motionless like a puppet.Only occasionally touching the wrist of the left hand makes people feel that it is a living thing.Under the wide sleeve, there is a deep scar on his left wrist, which gradually fades with the passage of time. The scar is hidden in the pale skin, which looks extremely discordant.As soon as he flipped his hands, he hid his wrists in invisible shadows again.

Xiao Lizi is already a grand duke, taking charge of the affairs of the harem for the emperor.He told the little eunuchs in the palace that there is no difference between the people in the palace except the emperor, don't look down on people in the corner of the courtyard.That's why he didn't neglect the man who was partial to the palace. All palace people are provided with three meals a day, one bath, and one consultation every seven days. He has not been left behind in the past three years.

It's just that he only eats this meal when he thinks about it, and sometimes he feels lazy and doesn't want to move, and the food is returned intact.When he returned to the doctor for consultation, he was always in poor health, weak and easily invaded by evils, and was always sick all year round.

He didn't take it seriously and just lived like that.It's just that this person is so clean, and he is the most diligent person who takes a bath every day. A person always keeps himself and the house very clean and tidy.

Today the flowers are blooming outside, I don't know what is going on in the palace, the movement can still be transmitted here.So rare, the man opened the door and leaned against the door frame to look at the scenery outside.

It turns out that the sun is already so bright at this moment.He squinted his eyes, his face, which had not been exposed to the sun for many months, was pale to translucent in the light, without any trace of blood.But the appearance of that face is still as bright and delicate as it was three years ago.It's a pity that the original baby face is thin and out of shape, and the former light can no longer be seen in the beautiful eyes, only endless loneliness.

Little Marquis Mu En has become what he used to be, and now this person is the sinner Mu Yan.

Alone here, so lonely that I almost forget why I live.Even though the light and heat outside are exactly the same as three years ago, things have changed.Life is better than death, but he dare not die, fearing that once he is gone, Kyung Luo, who is easy to soften, will eventually forget to hate himself and regret his whole life.He cherishes his life, but he is not afraid of death.

Mu Yan knew everything in this palace, from the old emperor's abdication, Kyung Lo's accession to the throne, her parents are still alive, Kyungkang went elsewhere, to the new emperor Kyung Lo's accession to the throne for three years without getting married.Knowing all this, Mu Yan has always been guilty of these things until now.

Finally, the emperor bid farewell to the past and accepted the marriage. This man is going to marry his concubine.Kyungro might finally let go of himself, but Mu Yan dared not let him go. He once thought that he would not hide what he had done to Kyunglo. At the end of the day, Mu Yan chose to cover up everything.

It turns out that liking someone can be as humble as mud.

The maids outside laughed and discussed the happy event.It turns out that the new emperor of Xiangyi is handsome and handsome.It turns out that the princess Xiangyi is about to marry is the number one beauty in Fanyu.Mu Yan knew that Jingluo looked like Mrs. Mingluo, with exactly the same face, with a bit of coquettishness, and the once childish appearance should now look like a man.Tiancheng, a married couple, must be talking about this new couple.

Mu Yan hadn't seen Kyung Luo for three years. When he left, Kyung Luo was actually having the third poisoning attack. At that time, Kyung Luo was already unconscious, and he probably didn't know that he had poisoned him three times.The last time they got along was that Mu Yan dragged his last breath alone and left the bloody Kyung Luo in the wilderness waiting for someone to rescue him. He never thought that the parting would last for three years, and he didn't even have time to look at his face when he left.As a result, Mu Yan dreamed back at midnight for a period of time, in which Kylo was looking for him covered in blood, and was so scared that he couldn't sleep well for several nights.After that, I really never saw each other again, even when the pardon was issued, I refused to see each other.

He seemed to be a real dead person, erased from everyone's memory.Or the father and mother also thought they were dead.The current Mu Yan bears the title of a nameless family, just like this nameless "partial palace", like ants hiding in the depths of the palace that people least want to see.Probably I existed, but no one remembered it except Kyung Rak and Eunuch Lee.

Or, Kyungra has already forgotten about him.

That's fine, that's fine, that's... that's fine.

The wind blows his eyes, and his eyes are a little bit astringent, maybe he feels cold, Mu Yan wants to hide in the house.But was stopped.

"Listen to the dumb boy, you don't want to eat anymore?" The dumb boy is a little eunuch who takes care of Mu Yan's daily necessities. He is born dumb, and communicates with people through gestures.

After not talking to strangers for a long time, Mu Yan was a little flustered, holding on to the door frame in a dilemma.Seeing that it was Eunuch Li who had taken care of him a lot, he calmed down a little and smiled slightly, "If Eunuch Li doesn't dislike you, why don't you talk in the room."

Xiao Lizi had heard about Mu Yan, and he hated the fact that he had seduced the prince at that time.If it hadn't been for the emperor's will, there would be a hundred thousand reluctances in my heart to take care of this person.

This time, it was because the inspectors arranged marriage matters that they went to such a remote place. Occasionally, they saw the mute boy bring the dinner plate out of the house, and it was only then that he remembered that there was such an embarrassing person in the harem.Only then did he want to use his quick tongue to embarrass Mu Yan with the matter of the emperor marrying a concubine.

He opened his mouth, but was led by the nose.When he realized it, he had already sat down in the room, and the man looked familiar.It is even more contrived to want to quit now.I had to bite the bullet and stay for a while.

"Have you ever heard that the Holy Majesty is going to marry the Princess of Xiangyi?" Xiao Lizi looked around, although the lights were not lit and the windows were closed, but the light from the door showed that the surroundings were very clean.

Hearing this, Mu Yan trembled the hand that was pouring the tea, and almost spilled it out.A little embarrassed, he smiled at Xiao Lizi, passed the tea with both hands, and poured himself another cup. "I know." Mu Yan smiled lightly, and glanced outside the door, "Those people are discussing, they look happy, that's great."

It's good to look good.Little Lizi thought to himself.I actually hated Mu Yan very much, but seeing his indifferent appearance, looking down at the tea in his hand and smiling slightly, his pretty face made people feel distressed. "With a mistress, it is inconvenient for normal men to stay in this palace." Originally, the harem was not a place for ordinary men to live for a long time, and it might mess things up.Originally, the emperor hadn't accepted his concubine yet, but Mu Yan being confined here can make people turn a blind eye.But now, it is different from the past, once Princess Xiangyi enters the palace, Mu Yan has to leave.

"I know." Mu Yan nodded, seeing that Eunuch Li seemed unable to say anything more, he habitually stroked the scar on his left wrist, and added, "Princess Xiangyi...the Holy Majesty and Princess Xiangyi are getting married tomorrow ?".

Eunuch Li is very good at observing words and expressions, he subconsciously stared at Mu Yan's movements, caught a glimpse of the scar, and suddenly became speechless.It is normal for a person to injure himself in this cold side palace, but this wound... Xiao Lizi saw a scar of almost the same depth on the emperor's right wrist.

Seeing Li Gonggong staring at his wrist carefully, he quickly retracted his hands into his wide sleeves.It was only then that Xiao Lizi felt that he was overstepping the rules, and got up in a panic, "For a while...if I don't look at him for a while, those people will be lazy, and the villain will leave. Please rest well." Eunuch Li almost ran away in a panic.

The tea is still in place, not a sip.

Mu Yan stared at the tea in her hand, picked it up and drank it down.Are you getting married tomorrow?Tomorrow may never come.He smiled, got up and closed the door.

After leaving the side palace, Xiao Lizi walked through several small buildings and courtyards. It was already evening and the sky was dark.Xiao Lizi was restless and even more flustered than the others.Turning back the same way and passing by Mu Yan's residence, he fled without even looking up.When he lowered his head and didn't look at the road, he immediately bumped into someone else.

He fell to the ground in all directions, and when he raised his eyes, the person in front of him was the emperor.He hurriedly turned over and kowtowed in front of Kyung Luo.But his eyes couldn't help following the emperor's movements, looking at the emperor's right wrist.

"What wrong did you do in such a hurry?" The emperor didn't particularly tease himself, maybe he was in a bad mood.It's not too bad, but the tone is a little bland.

Xiao Lizi was shallow-minded and couldn't hide things, so he couldn't help but looked up to the side palace.Kyungra looked around, and probably understood a little bit.But she didn't blame him, she bent her mouth, how much time has passed and helplessness is hidden in her smile. "Get up, go to the dining room if you don't have anything to do, tomorrow... probably I will be busy tomorrow."

Xiao Lizi just knelt on the ground, with the emperor in front of him, without taking anyone with him. "Your Majesty, you..."

The emperor didn't answer, but turned around and walked towards the side palace, and walked slowly, whispering to himself, "It's been three years..." Xiao Lizi just watched the king of a country drift away, and couldn't help but feel The above people are a little lonely.

In the huge imperial palace, for three years, no other woman had arrived at the emperor's side.This place imprisoned a person who once loved deeply.Kyungra thought about giving up, about killing, about letting go.He pardoned the world, but he was forgotten.Although I was imprisoned for three years, I never saw him again.He has not been able to forget Mu Yan from the beginning to the end.

Extreme pain and extreme hatred are the past, what he can't give up is those days when the unforgettable love and long hair were combined.Standing outside the door, pushing the door open, is the end.

Kyungra pushed the door open, and it was pitch black inside.He focused his attention and finally got used to the dim environment inside, only then did he see someone standing by the window, looking lightly from the half-opened small window.The door creaked, making the man turn around belatedly.When the eyes touched each other, Kyung Luo clearly saw the momentary panic and unprepared grief, and he escaped easily before he had time to investigate.

Mu Yan lowered her head, opened her hem and knelt on the ground.Folding his hands together, he crawled on the ground, and raised his wide sleeves with his movement, spreading out a perfect width.Mu Yan made a big gift in front of Kyung Luo, which was unprecedented.

The distance between Emperor Kyungmin, the king of a country, and the treasonous sinner, Mu Yan, cannot go back to the past between the thirteen princes and the young Lord Mu En.When thinking about it like this, I don't know whose heart is bleeding at this time, and it is so painful that it is torn.

No one has calculated how long Mu Yan lay on the ground, but he felt the cold air coming from the ground at night, the whole frame was so cold that it ached, and his teeth creaked.His body started to go numb, and if he hadn't been lifted up, he might have been lying on the ground overnight like a bastard.

The sudden embrace was so warm that it made people dizzy.With such a gentle movement, Mu Yan almost shed tears.If it wasn't for Kyung-ra's gritted teeth in his ear saying "I'm going to make a break with these three years", Mu Yan might be able to lie to himself that this moment is a beautiful dream.

Throwed on the bed viciously, the ugly body was forced to be displayed under the light of the candle, and there was nowhere to hide the slipping teardrops.Wrists were folded and pulled to the top of the head, and the shame and pain of being forced to open the body were cut to pieces on the apex of the heart.

There have been two times between the two.Once it was because of Mu Yan's deceit, this time it was Kyung Luo for revenge.Compared with the previous intense love and affection, this time there is only endless pain.The wound was pierced again and again, and the blood seemed to be unable to stop.

But Mu Yan still wants to hug Kyung Luo, to see what he looks like now, whether he is exactly the same as in his endless fantasy, handsome and unparalleled.He wanted to hug the shoulders of the country that carried the country, and to tell him, "I miss you so much".But his hands were imprisoned, and Mu Yan in front of Kyung Luo only had a submissive posture and an ugly appearance.

Mu Yan couldn't control her tears, and her blurry vision couldn't see his appearance clearly.The body was bumped with the waves, and the pain bound the soul that had almost been pulled away in this body.He couldn't faint, couldn't bear it.He could only groan desperately to relieve the pain, and he could only breathe hard so that he had no room to say he loved him.

Kyungra didn't say goodbye when he left.Mu Yan watched him leave with wide-open eyes, the sockets of his eyes were so dry that they were astringent, he curled up so that he would not feel the pain from the cold wind, and he could feel the wet traces of tears on the pillow with his cheeks tilted.Kyungra did not vent in his body in the end, probably his last tenderness.

Mu Yan chuckled, it's time to end it, why is she still being gentle in an inexplicable place.Kyungra has probably never changed.You are so gentle, why do you say in your own ears, "After today, I will never meet again".

"Idiot..." Mu Yan grabbed the pillowcase and cursed softly.He wanted to curl the corners of his mouth into a smile, but couldn't help crying bitterly.For the first time in three years, she cried aloud, until her heart was torn apart.

The author has something to say: Mu Yan is on the stage...he will be leaving the stage soon [Fu E