Sang Tu Doomsday

Chapter 11

There is nothing here, except me, but I don't know if I really exist...

It's been a long, long time...

So long that I have forgotten who I am, what I am here for, where do I belong?

I saw the light -- I saw the light I hadn't seen in a long time.

Bright and dazzling, with infinite hope, I think I yearn for the light...

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The outside world is big and there are many people, but I am not.I don't know what I am, I only know that when I want to go back, I can't find the way back, and I can't go back. . .

I met a person, and the moment I saw him, my heart beat so fast. People often say that when you like someone, your heart beats very fast.

I like him very much, but he ignored me, and I followed him all the time. He finally told me that he would not like me. He could pretend to be all people in the world, but he couldn't pretend to be me. . .

I went back with him, even though he didn't like me.But I'm not afraid, it's enough for me to like him, I really like him very much......

But when the monk came to take me in, he just sat on a high seat that I would never reach and looked at me silently.

My heart seemed to be bleeding. I have never felt such pain. I looked at him and wanted to tell him——I am in so much pain...so painful...

But he ignored me, why did he ignore me? ──I like him so much, even though liking him hurts, but I still like him...

The monk just looked at me and shook his head, talking to me. "There is no limit to the sea of ​​bitterness, and the end is the shore. Shemale should not fall in love." I don't understand, I like him, I like him very much, it's because he doesn't like me, so why can't I?

When the monk destroyed my body, he looked at me with heavy eyes, and I didn't know what it was... At that time, I thought in my heart, if only he liked me a little bit, just a little bit. . .

When the monk sealed me, I seemed to see deep sorrow in his eyes.I want to kiss his eyes like before, but I can't, I can only look at him, keep looking at him...

I thought I would never have a chance to see him again, and I couldn't bear him.But when I woke up for the first time, I was lying in his arms.He looked at me like, like I like to look at him.I was so happy, I kissed his eyes, I thought I would never get another chance.

………………… But he quickly lost weight, he became very old, but I was still young.

───He was dying, I suddenly realized, but I couldn’t bear it, I couldn’t bear him to feed me, I couldn’t bear him to tie my hair, and I couldn’t bear the way he always held me on his lap and read a book quietly… …

I can't bear to part with everything about him, but he is dying.People say that after death, a person will become a soul and will be reincarnated again. I can't bear him. What if he no longer recognizes me after reincarnation?

I'm afraid that I won't find him, but I'm also afraid that if I find him, he won't like me because I'm a monster.

─────Buddha said that looking back [-] times in the previous life is only in exchange for passing by in this life.

I will fuse half of my soul with him, so that no matter where he is, I can find him, and I will enter reincarnation with him, and after he reincarnates, I will find him again. .In a daze, I seemed to hear him sigh very lightly, "Fool..."

I really want to tell him that I am not stupid.I also want to tell him that I like him so much, really really like him...

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When I woke up again, I only felt that my face was wet, as if I had cried a lot.

I hugged him tightly and murmured softly, "Fool...why do you still follow me? Didn't I suffer enough in my previous life?"

"Brother..." He didn't know when he woke up, looking straight at me, as if he wanted to look into the depths of his soul.

"Brother, don't want me..." I patted him on the back, "No, why don't you... want... always want..."

─────I held him in my arms, let him sit on my lap, and slowly taught him how to read.

Things that seemed familiar before turned out to be experiences in a lifetime.

"Fool...why do you still follow?"

"Because I like my brother...I really like it, I like it..."

"...um." I hugged him tightly.

"...Brother..." Suddenly he whispered softly in my ear, and then rubbed against my neck, "When will brother eat me?" His voice was muffled.I was quite helpless, "Why do you keep thinking about this in your head?"

He didn't return, he just stuck out his tongue and licked my lips earnestly.I was a little amused, "Wait until you grow up... haven't I already said that?" He bit my lip dissatisfied. "Hiss..." Waiting to hear my voice, he stuck his tongue in and moved wildly.

I smiled lowly, pressed the back of his head and kissed him deeply.Seeing him out of breath but still refusing to push me away warms my heart.

"Okay, go take a shower." I patted him and pulled him away.He didn't struggle, and let me pull him away, but there was a bright light in his eyes.

Thinking about it, but when it was time to take off his clothes, he dawdled again, "Didn't you want to eat it for me just now?" After hearing this, his face became even redder, "Brother...brother, do you want to eat? "

I kissed his eyes, with a smile, "...to eat." After hearing what I said, his eyes brightened, "...Okay...Okay..." He just didn't dare to look at me.

He moved his hands and feet and stripped himself naked.Then... Seeing that I still look like a "clothed animal", she quickly helped me take off my clothes.Then the red alder fruit stood in front of me with her body still.

I just looked at him, watched him see that I hadn't moved for a long time, slowly hugged me, and rubbed against me with his body.

Slowly move your fingers to the back, but you can't get it right.He was a little anxious, for fear that I would change my mind.I sighed, and slowly leaned behind him………………………………………………………………………………………… …………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… River crab………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… ……………………………………………………

Finally, I hugged him who was already tired and was about to fall asleep and cleaned him carefully.He just looked at me with a blushing face, bit his head bit by bit, opened his mouth to swallow what he wanted to say, and finally looked at me aggrieved.

I looked at him like this, and I rubbed his head.

"What's wrong? It hurts?"

He shook his head, "Brother, won't you continue?" After speaking, he looked at me resentfully.

I wanted to laugh, "Aren't you tired?"

"Not tired! Brother, do you still want to?"

After finishing speaking, I touched my lower body with my hand, and I grabbed his hand and whispered hoarsely to his ear, "You provoked the fire, you are responsible for putting it out..."

He was a little scared, but he still wrapped his arms around my neck and closed his eyes tightly, "Brother, come!" I smiled, really.He was obviously scared, but he still delivered it to my mouth, how could he not be painful...

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