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Chapter 44 Afterword

At first, I wanted to write a story about a humble young man who thought he could not love, but it was actually sweet. (You read that right.)

The strong attack and the weak accept my love, Xiaoyue's dare not surpass, Xiaoyue's humbleness, and Xiaoyue's uneasiness correspond to Qi Peisheng's aloofness, his power and status, and Mary Su's Su Shuang.

In Xiaoyue's world, Qi Peisheng is not only the one who saves him, but also the one who pushes him into the abyss. There is a kind of dramatic romance.

Let me first explain the relationship between the two of them.

I don’t know if you have noticed that their expressions and attitudes towards love are completely different.Even at the end of the article, they did not reach an agreement. It is more about tolerance and complementary needs, which is the realistic romance deliberately preserved by the article.

During the update, some readers asked me intermittently, does Qi Peisheng love Xiaoyue?

I said that this is not the love that Xiaoyue wants, but I think this is indeed the love that Qi Peisheng can give.

Differences in age and identity and background make them different. I have seriously thought about what a 40-year-old man with hundreds of billions of assets would look like. The answer is Mr. Qi in the article.Facing such a Qi Peisheng, it is almost impossible for Ji Yue to pursue this possibility bravely.The sense of proportion of the characters is like the four words in the title, turning off the fire at the moment of danger is the real effect I pursue.

Mr. Qi will not pursue his love like Xiao Yue, even I think, cruelly speaking, Xiao Yue is special, Qi Peisheng is willing to make exceptions for him again and again, but to Qi Peisheng, Ji Yue is not that this life is not yours Not an option.

After all, if you talk about whether you like it or not with an old man who has millions of dollars in one minute, he has no time.Ever since he owned such a large company as Guangsheng, love cannot be the focus of his life.

For Mr. Qi, the responsibility is greater than the desire. He treats Xiaoyue with tolerance and love like a senior. He regards Xiaoyue as his little friend and calls himself the head of the family. The giving of this sense of responsibility is the only precious thing. Xiao Yue has been missing.He didn't worry about other lovers so much.

Of course, Mr. Qi is not a good person in the standard sense. He is not professional, he does what he wants, and his dictatorship is scumbag on a certain level. It is a redefining behavior of a person who is above the usual rules , The privilege of right and wrong.In a sense, his position and his character made it a natural and reasonable thing for him to do these things.He was a scumbag without hiding it, and the scumbag Xiaoyue was clear and willing.

But I think it is precisely because such a person can easily own everything, control everything, and abandon everything, so his feelings for Xiaoyue don't bother to adulterate, let alone lie, he can't say sweet words of love, and can flatter others. A happy but empty promise, as long as he said it, he was actually responsible and responsible.For a person like him who can hold everything in his hands, the freedom he is willing to give Xiaoyue promises is true love.

Xiaoyue pursues the name of love, but ignores the fact that many things are in his palm early in the morning, that is the essence of the love between them led by Qi Peisheng, and there is no need to use another sentence of "I love you" to justify the name.

About Xiao Yue's depression.

From the very beginning, I didn't want to write a story about lighting up Qi Peisheng's world and dispelling the haze because he also loves him. I don't think it's realistic.The cruel point of this story is that even if you push me into the abyss, you are still my light.

I want to be as close to the cruelty of real life as possible, and then write romantic love stories, only such stories can move me.

In my understanding, depressed people can be alleviated through external help, but in the end they can only rely on themselves to get out.According to science, Xiaoyue's depression is largely due to family misfortune. His mother's anger and father's incompetence are magnified and reflected on his self, followed by his unrequited love for Qi Pei when he grew up.Qi Peisheng can give him a sense of security, but it can never replace the lack of his parents. This is the fundamental reason why he has always had low self-esteem and worries about gains and losses.

Although in this story, it is because of the love for Mr. Qi that Xiaoyue took the first step of healing, but love can give Xiaoyue warmth and let him have nostalgia for the world, but the final recovery is by no means making him cling Live for another person.

Not so dreamy and romantic, but this is a little experience I got from my personal reality.

Mr. Qi can lead him forward, but life is a long road, and some roads can only be walked by Xiaoyue himself.

Some of Mr. Qi’s words and methods may seem cold, but they are actually responsible and reliable for a long time, which can make Ji Yue truly accept his own approach. I think this is also in line with Qi Peisheng’s personality.

In essence, I myself don’t really believe in true love that is like-minded and evenly matched from the beginning to the end. I write this kind of story in the selfish hope that both I and the readers can get comfort from the contradictions, struggles and stumbles of Xiaoyue on the road of love. It is true that someone loves easily Easy, but there are also people like Xiao Yue who are difficult and humble from the very beginning, unattainable.

In my opinion, it is braver and more admirable to know that the tragic ending of the process is embarrassing but to move forward than to be reckless without knowing anything.

At the same time, I also hope that Xiao Yue can get a little warmth and courage during the treatment process. It is not easy to get rid of the disease and recover. Love is very important, not only loving others, but also loving yourself, which is the same for everyone.

Although it is less sweet, I hope everyone can get the same warmth from this article.Although a bit sad, it should not be a sad story to read.