love song

Chapter 12

Revisiting the past after many years, using the affair with her boyfriend to challenge her love rival is certainly to relieve anger, but it is also really brain-dead.This matter of love has never been a war between three people. If you have to give a definition, Chen Ye is not afraid to admit that he was out of his mind at that time - what are you doing with Yu Xun'an?

This is a completely unnecessary confrontation, as long as Shen Yuzhou is firm enough, he doesn't need to pay attention to whether Yu Xun'an is round or flat.But Shen Yuzhou was obviously not firm enough, Chen Ye even felt that this person had been putting him and Yu Xun on both sides of the balance, and then kept swaying from side to side to weigh their respective weights.

And they have been foolishly putting weight on themselves, or how could he say that Yu Xun'an is not a sensible person?He was stupid because he was young, after all, he was about twenty years old at that time, and Yu Xun'an, a mature man in his thirties, actually made the same mistake as him.

If this matter is to be put into the present, he will decisively let Shen Yuzhou out. It is good to last forever, but it depends on who he is with.

For those who dared to share the blessings of Qi people on him, Chen Ye just wanted to ask with a smile: Who are you?

All in all, Chen Ye is a person who values ​​himself. Perhaps his self-awareness was lost in the maze named Shen Yuzhou when he was young and frivolous, but it has never disappeared. Nirvana is only after the fire burns and shatters. That is not his. A love, that is a part of his life.

So Chen Ye's overall impression of that year is his own distortions and struggles, and it's quite a forced thing for someone who doesn't have much status to be cheap.

Just like that night, he won a big victory, and not long after he was happy, a wave of self-loathing surged up, almost too strong to dissolve.

Lying on the bed, looking at the handsome face of the man beside him, he suddenly felt that it might be worthwhile for him to do so, after all, Shen Yuzhou was so kind to him before.

Perhaps to prove something, he turned around and plunged himself into the arms of the half-sleeping man, "Senior brother..."

Shen Yuzhou hummed in a daze.

Chen Ye immediately moved her mouth closer.

Then in the hotel room, late at night, they came for the third time of the day.Shen Yuzhou was about to see Duke Zhou, when Chen Ye woke him up and rubbed against his body, he was impatient at first, and then couldn't help laughing.

Pushing him onto the bed, and having a hard fuck, Shen Yuzhou said, "Is it that rough?"

Chen Ye was so pissed that she couldn't even connect, she said pitifully: "...it's probably... spring... ah..."

There was a loud "snap", Shen Yuzhou patted his bare buttocks, and galloped wildly, "Little stray cat..."

The corners of Chen Ye's eyes turned hot, and he turned to beg the man behind him, "...I want to look at you..."

Now, Chen Ye doesn't know how much of Shen Yuzhou's desire to get back together with him is due to bedtime happiness. In short, during the days when he felt Shen Yuzhou's gradual indifference and disgust towards him, hooking Shen Yuzhou to bed became a proof of Shen Yuzhou's love. The only way he was still needed.

Shen Yuzhou said many cruel things to him. It can be said that to Chen Ye at that time, every cold look of Shen Yuzhou was cruel, but only physically, Shen Yuzhou surrendered to him again and again. When she took the initiative to sleep with him, it was still difficult to control herself whenever she was teased by him.

The car was parked outside the community, Chen Ye walked into the yard stepping on the dying light of the street lights, and laughed as he thought about it.

Don't blame him, it's really funny to think about it now, even he felt that at the end of the relationship, Shen Yuzhou would always live in fear of exhaustion as long as he met each other.

Ordinary people say that they quarreled at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed, but their grievances at that time were no longer solved by rolling the sheets, not to mention the head of the bed and the end of the bed, even fucking into the bedside table was useless.

There seems to be a gap between them, and the distance between the two ends of the moat is getting bigger and bigger.After that weekend, Shen Yuzhou would take him to the train station as usual.

Originally, it was just the two of them in the morning. Shen Yuzhou went to the company for a walk, and then came out with Yu Xun'an by his side. The three of them ate lunch together.

As long as Yu Xun'an is around, Chen Ye will automatically become a background as soon as he sits at the dinner table. On the one hand, he doesn't like this person, and on the other hand, he really can't keep up with their topics.

Originally thought that this person would leave automatically after eating, but Yu Xun'an followed them until they went to the car, and asked Shen Yuzhou: "To the North Railway Station? It happens to be the same direction, do you think we are going to stop by?" Building Materials City?"

Shen Yuzhou thought for a while, "Okay, I happen to be fine this afternoon."

And so, the three got into the same car again.

This time Shen Yuzhou only sent Chen Ye outside the station, staring at the backpack on his shoulder, "There are not many things, can I go in by myself?"

Chen Ye nodded, got out of the car, and waved goodbye to Shen Yuzhou.

Through a window, Yu Xun'an smiled meaningfully at him, as if he was confident in winning to the end.

Chen Ye didn't feel that he was careless until now. At that scene, Yu Xun'an's expression told him: You are going to leave after all. Shen Yuzhou's time belongs to me. Shen Yuzhou took a vacation.

He suddenly felt a fire in his heart, but he didn't dare to lose his temper on the spot. He walked towards the train station square, turned around every step, and watched as Yu Xun'an got out of the car and sat in the passenger seat before the car drove away.

But he didn't hold back the fire for long, and Chen Ye negotiated with Shen Yuzhou again that night.

This time he was almost extremely humble, he said to Shen Yuzhou: "I can understand normal business dealings, but at other times, brother, can you stay away from Yu Xun'an."

Shen Yuzhou's voice sank a bit, "It's this again, give me a reason."

Chen Ye almost begged, "You are too close to him, I feel bad...so bad."

Shen Yuzhou seemed to be extremely impatient all of a sudden, "That's your business! Chen Ye, whoever I get close to is my business, and whoever has no part in it, you too. Since I make you feel so uncomfortable, why don't you talk to me?" I break up?"

Thinking of this sentence later, Chen Ye felt that Shen Yuzhou might have wanted to end their relationship a long time ago, because he didn't want to speak up by himself, so he kept resorting to cold violence against him.But he didn't understand at the time, as long as he thought of losing Shen Yuzhou, he couldn't bear even the slightest possibility.

So, even though he was trembling with anger from Shen Yuzhou this day, he still couldn't toughen up his bones to fight for himself, his heart was bleeding, a few days passed, and on the weekend, he still got on the train to C city as if he couldn't control himself.

The spring of that year seemed to be very long. He passed the railway between the two cities many times, and every time he walked on a road with no end in sight.He didn't know where he was going, and he vaguely couldn't go back to the place he wanted to go back to.

Occasionally when he was angry, he also felt that the Shen Yuzhou who fell in love with him was actually gone long ago, but he couldn't face the loss calmly.

The reason for Shen Yuzhou's indifference was attributed to the distance. In August of that year, Chen Ye simply found a small company in C City for an internship. At that time, Shen Lu fell seriously ill, and Ms. Lu went to the north to take care of her youngest son, so Chen Ye simply rented a house.Shen Yuzhou's house is far away, he always works overtime, and doesn't go back very often, but he is close, 5 minutes' walk from Shen Yuzhou's company.

After this month, Chen Ye finally understood that the barrier between them was no longer a matter of distance. In the beginning, Shen Yuzhou also came back to him every day.

In the beginning, he didn't come home late at night, and Chen Ye called to remind him, but he would still reluctantly walk in front of Chen Ye.Chen Ye knew he was busy, but no matter how busy he was, he had to sleep, right?

Sensing that Shen Yuzhou treats her even more coldly, Chen Ye hastened to find evidence that she is still loved, and Shen Yuzhou naturally couldn't hold back.But one night, he tried his best, and after Shen Yuzhou wanted him for 10 minutes, he put his arms around him and said, "Do you know? Whether people get along with each other is not just a matter of bed."

Chen Ye pretended not to understand, he no longer knew what to do to make them look appropriate.

The most intense conflict between him and Shen Yuzhou happened at that time. It was a weekend, and Shen Yuzhou didn't come back in the middle of the night. From the window, he could clearly see that there was no light in his company. Chen Ye called, but Shen Yuzhou didn't answer.

Chen Ye waited stubbornly, not knowing exactly what he was waiting for, and then fell asleep unknowingly, woke up, the sky was bright, he was still alone in the empty room, the air conditioner was humming, and the air was so cold stabbing.

Sitting at the window for a while, I saw that the door of the company opposite seemed to be open, and the cleaning lady was cleaning the hall at the door.For some unknown reason, Chen Ye immediately went downstairs and crossed the street, and rushed in regardless.

It was a summer morning, it was not yet seven o'clock, the sun was shining outside, but there was a deep coolness in the corridor.When she knocked on the door and heard someone answer from inside, although Chen Ye still complained, she felt a little more relaxed.

But it took 2 minutes for the door to open. Yu Xun'an's hair was disheveled. When he saw that it was him, he paused for a moment while pinching his half-buttoned shirt, and then smiled.

A smell of alcohol rushed over, and a lazy voice came from the room, "Who is it?"

Chen Ye pushed Yu Xun'an away and broke into the room. Shen Yuzhou was still lying on the sofa with his front open and a towel blanket over his chest.

The curtains were drawn tightly, and in the dim light, Chen Ye saw a few balls of paper scattered on the floor...

At that time, Chen Ye was speechless by the scene in front of her, her hands and feet were cold in the hot weather, she couldn't tell if she was angry or frightened.Perhaps because he was worried that he would make a fuss on the spot, Shen Yuzhou immediately got up from the sofa, and silently dragged him back to the house across the street.

As soon as he entered the room and closed the door, Chen Ye cried and said, "How do you explain to me?"

In fact, he didn't want to cry, but he really couldn't help it.

However, the person who used to feel distressed when he saw him cry, while tearing off his clothes to take a shower, asked him impatiently: "What did I do that is outrageous, and I need to explain to you?"

Yes, Shen Yuzhou still didn't admit what he had with Yu Xun'an at first, "I drank too much yesterday, brother Yu sent me back, he also drank too much, and just spent the night in the office, it's worth it cry?"

But even if this is true, Chen Ye still can't figure out why Shen Yuzhou is so ignorant of scruples, he doesn't believe that Shen Yuzhou doesn't know Yu Xun'an's thoughts.

He cried harder, almost hysterically, "You know what I mind!"

Shen Yuzhou finally told the truth, "You have too many things on your mind. Then I'll tell you, I really wanted to do something to him last night, but it didn't work out, so what can you do?"

Chen Ye picked up a pile of documents on the table next to him, and threw them at Shen Yuzhou.He really couldn't figure out what he did wrong to be ruined like this by the person he put on top of his heart.

He wanted to die with Shen Yuzhou.

He really made the fuss with the intention of getting it done, and in the end Shen Yuzhou pinned him on the bed and didn't want to give up.

Maybe it was because he felt that he had gone too far when he looked back, so Shen Yuzhou clamped his hands and said something, but he didn't want to hear a single word.

People are really cheap sometimes, after such a commotion, Chen Ye still didn't want to break up with Shen Yuzhou.

From the fall of this year, the frequency of his going to City C has become less frequent, and has become once every half a month.He and Shen Yuzhou will still quarrel, and more and more frequently, unlike before, most of them are on the phone, for various reasons, but they are no longer related to Yu Xun'an, as if they both consciously avoid the existence of this person.

There was no conflict when they met—Chen Ye was no longer so keen on being Shen Yuzhou's little tail everywhere, and mostly stayed at the hotel where he stayed at night, and the two of them still did it desperately.

The only time he couldn't hold back was because of Yu Xun'an.It was also a weekend, and in the morning Shen Yuzhou was going to discuss the project with the project team. After he went out for a while, he called Chen Ye and said that he had left the project in his room.

Chen Ye sent it to him. Out of disgust for that office, Chen Ye put down his things and was about to leave, but Yu Xun'an "coincidentally" came in again to talk to Shen Yuzhou, and he immediately didn't want to leave.

Shen Yuzhou was sitting in front of the desk, with the wall behind him. Seeing Yu Xun'an going out to call someone for a meeting, Chen Ye changed his mind, squatted down, wiped Shen Yuzhou's legs and hid under the desk.

Shen Yuzhou didn't know, so it was inevitable. He lowered his head and asked him, "What are you doing? Come out quickly."

Chen Ye curled up inside, motionless.

Then voices came into the room one after another, Chen Ye knew that Shen Yuzhou would not be embarrassed in front of so many people.Shen Yuzhou really didn't disappoint him. Seeing that everyone was coming, he ignored him and let him hide under the table.

What happened next, Chen Ye didn't know how much shadow area cast on Shen Yuzhou's heart in the end.The people in the office were talking about the plan, and he stretched out his hand to unzip Shen Yuzhou's trouser chain.

He gave Shen Yuzhou oral sex under the table.

At the meeting that day, Shen Yuzhou was taciturn. Chen Ye still remembers it, and he also remembers that the muscles of Shen Yuzhou's legs collapsed as hard as rocks. He knows this man's body too well. The sweet smell still erupted in his mouth.

When the man went out, Shen Yuzhou pulled up his trousers and dragged him out from under the table, looking very angry, "Are you crazy?"

At this moment, the door opened again, "Yu Zhou, are you feeling unwell?" It sounded anxious, it was Yu Xun'an's voice.

Chen Ye turned her head back and smiled at him, licked her lower lip, pushed the contents of her mouth out with her tongue, and swung around slowly.

Yu Xun'an's expression, which was already bad, became even more gloomy.

Thinking about it now, Chen Ye himself felt that what he did was immoral. Later, Yu Xun'an got what he wanted, and he and Shen Yuzhou had to stay together for three months. He didn't know if he did it.After all, it was not a pleasant experience for anyone to meet his sweetheart and ex in bed twice in a row, haha.

Of course, Shen Yuzhou lost his temper with him again, which can be called thunderous anger, probably because he was not easy to explain to the ambiguous object.

But he was numb, and he remained numb like that until winter.

I remember that it was the winter solstice and it was snowing. He usually called Ms. Lu to say hello during the holidays, and this time was no exception.

But to his surprise, Ms. Lu started crying when she received the call, "Chen Ye, something happened to Yu Zhou."

At that time, their relationship was like a loose rubber band, but Chen Ye never thought that Shen Yuzhou would not be around, leaving him alone in this world.

Shen Yuzhou was robbed when it was dark. He robbed and hurt others, and he was unconscious in the hospital.

Chen Ye couldn't remember many details of that day. He was in a trance all night. The train was not in time, so he hurriedly took a taxi to City C. The snow hadn't fallen for long, the highway hadn't been closed, and the car ran away. All the way, he cried all the way.

He had a car accident on the road and hit his forehead. Fortunately, he was fine. After that, he was taken back to City C by a police car.

Shen Yuzhou's injury was far from being life-threatening, he had a broken leg, and he passed out earlier because of his low sympathetic nerve excitation threshold and low pain tolerance, so he passed out from the pain.

When Chen Ye arrived, he received a painkiller injection and fell into a deep sleep.

Sitting next to him, Chen Ye looked at the weak and pale man on the hospital bed, feeling a lot of emotions in his heart.Disappointed and helpless, they haven't been together so peacefully for a long time.He thought he didn't care anymore, but it turned out that he still cared about Shen Yuzhou so much.

After a long dark night, when Shen Yuzhou opened his eyes, he saw his first words, "Why are you here?"

Chen Ye answered irrelevantly, "I came last night."

Shen Yuzhou said, "Don't you have an exam this morning?"

It was only then that Chen Ye remembered that there was such a thing, and was taken aback, not wanting to leave the person in front of him for a moment, "I asked for leave."

Shen Yuzhou's eyes drifted to his forehead, "What's wrong with your head?"

Chen Ye shook his head, "It's okay, there was a small car accident on the highway last night, luckily the car was driving slowly."

Shen Yuzhou closed his eyes, as if he didn't want to see him, for a long time, he suddenly said, "You shouldn't come, it's snowing, the road is dangerous."

The corners of Chen Ye's eyes were slightly hot, "I died on the road yesterday, so it's not necessarily a bad thing."

It was better than facing this knot in front of him, which seemed impossible for him to untangle in his life. They couldn't get out, and they couldn't go back.

And the reason why he shouldn't come seems to be more than this one.

In the morning, Chen Ye went out to call Ms. Lu who was going home to pick up her things. When she returned to the ward, Yu Xun'an was also in the ward, tightly hugging Shen Yuzhou who was sitting on the bed.

Perhaps after going through life-and-death situations, Shen Yuzhou finally knew what he wanted, so Chen Ye stood outside the window, watching helplessly as he became what he shouldn't be.

Chen Ye stepped in, and the sound of footsteps interrupted the two of them.When Yu Xun'an went out, he couldn't hold back his tears, "It's snowing, I took a taxi overnight, Shen Yuzhou, just show me this?"

Shen Yuzhou turned his face out of the window, with an extremely indifferent expression, and said calmly, "No one asked you to come."

Chen Ye was sent onto the train by Ms. Lu herself, and that night, he received a call from Shen Yuzhou.

Shen Yuzhou asked, "Are you in the dormitory?"

Chen Ye said, "Yes."

At that time, their long-distance relationship had been going on for a year and a half, and they couldn't bear the loneliness of going to the empty building alone, so Chen Ye moved back to the dormitory early, and a few people talked, and the characteristic foot odor of the male dormitory was full of popularity. It seemed less unbearable.

Shen Yuzhou said: "Forget that I'm sorry for you, let's break up."

Even though he knew that the blade stuck on the back of his neck would come down sooner or later, it was still painful at this moment, Chen Ye asked, "Is it because of Yu Xun'an?"

There was no answer on the phone, and the silence was suffocating.

Chen Ye didn't want to let him go, "You are together, aren't you?"

Shen Yuzhou said: "Yes, we are together."

Chen Ye tightly covered her mouth, not letting herself make a sound. It turned out that it was futile to keep something that was doomed to break.