love song

Chapter 18

That is, after that birthday, Yu Xun'an went to Beijing, Shen Yuzhou didn't keep him, they shouldn't have started in the first place.

Shen Yuzhou didn't say these last things, but Chen Ye could roughly guess that they separated in less than four months, probably related to the unforgettable birthday in Yu Xun'an's words. Shen Yuzhou gave up on him to pursue the other part. Unexpectedly pale, Chen Ye couldn't say it wasn't unexpected, he always thought that Shen Yuzhou had feelings for Yu Xun'an, and he still has feelings for Yu Xun'an, so he repeated what he said just now, "You're lying."

Then he laid out the basis for his judgment, "At the beginning, every time I showed affection to you in front of Yu Xun'an, you would be upset."

Shen Yuzhou froze for a moment, he hadn't expected it at all, this was the reason why Chen Ye always believed that he had something for Yu Xun'an.

Of course, in the many things he did at that time, he never took care of Chen Ye's feelings. In the final analysis, he was not strong enough, and he was indeed an asshole.But at least now, Shen Yuzhou finally dared to confess himself.

I was young and inexperienced at the time, but now I just joke about it, "I was nothing at the time, and I thought that a man who achieved nothing would indulge in love with his children and be worthless."

And the other people don't know it, they only think that he and Chen Ye are good friends and brothers, but Yu Xun'an is an insider about their relationship. They describe a little intimacy, and this insider can see: Shen Yuzhou is a man who didn't do anything serious At the slightest bit, I only know how to make friends with my little lover.

After all, he is still weak, and he is extremely sensitive to all the details that remind him of himself and the weak.

After Chen Ye heard it, he couldn't help but laugh. He never thought to understand why Shen Yuzhou despised him so much in front of others at that time. This was the reason.At that time, Shen Yuzhou made him feel that his existence was superfluous, but now that he thinks about it, it might really be superfluous. The Shen Yuzhou who accomplished nothing didn't need Chen Ye, but he didn't need love at all.

The harvest of this evening is that he finally confirmed that the entanglement and the shattering after the entanglement were the two of them's business. Not to mention Yu Xun'an's exit just now, he hadn't even entered the game.

Chen Ye's mood suddenly brightened, "Although it's not all my fault, I'm also at fault."

He made a mistake of being overly sensitive at an inappropriate time, grabbing and chattering about Yu Xun'an for a year and a half in a row, and he really had little understanding for Shen Yuzhou at that time.

But this can't deny Shen Yuzhou's mistake, it's still the same sentence, as long as Shen Yuzhou gives him more confidence, he won't be so distorted.

It's ridiculous to say it now, he was still a child at the time, and Shen Yuzhou was five years older than him, but he was still a child after all.

Chen Ye did indeed smile, and Shen Yuzhou turned his head to look into his eyes, "You still care about it now."

What do you care about?Chen Ye only asked him one thing just now, about Yu Xun'an.

Still caring about this person shows that Chen Ye still has feelings for Shen Yuzhou.

Chen Ye immediately shook her head, "No."

Shen Yuzhou's eyes were darker and brighter, "You care."

Chen Ye said, "No."

Shen Yuzhou smiled suddenly, his eyes were full of doting, "Well, that's not."

Unexpectedly, he turned the corner so quickly, Chen Ye was stunned for a moment before speaking, "...that's right."

The two looked at each other, and Chen Ye saw his own shadow in Shen Yuzhou's eyes. For a moment, the shadow became bigger and bigger, and Shen Yuzhou's handsome face was also gradually enlarged in front of his eyes. Two soft lips sealed his lips, and Shen Yuzhou kissed him.

It was mild at first, but it soon became hot. Shen Yuzhou stuck his tongue into his mouth and stirred, clamped his wrists and pressed him to the floor.

Shen Yuzhou kissed very passionately, eyes closed tightly, eyelashes trembling slightly, and the breath became more and more intense, and not long after, his hand reached in from the hem of his sweater, and kept rubbing upwards.

Chen Ye's mouth was sealed, his eyes widened and he struggled a few times, but in the end he was carried to bed.

He was still struggling, Shen Yuzhou pressed both of his wrists to the top of his head, and the hard thing under his head pressed against his thighs, and kept kissing his eyelids and cheeks, "Chen Ye, let's do it again, shall we?"

Shen Yuzhou's voice was quite hoarse, "One more time, let me take care of you, okay?"

Chen Ye's body was also hot, but his mind was extremely clear, so he wanted the man on him to wake up too.

He panted heavily, "It won't be the same again."

Shen Yuzhou immediately retorted: "We are all different now."

Chen Ye is really not hypocritical, looking at the ceiling, "I don't want to look back."

Shen Yuzhou stands at the end of the year, and he is almost thirty years younger. The personality of a person at this age can't change at will.He is a love brain. Shen Yuzhou has always been an extremely realistic man, and it may not end well if he does it again. He believes that Shen Yuzhou is serious now, but at the beginning many years ago, Shen Yuzhou was serious about him. What is the final result? Sample?

Furthermore, if it was said that he was desperate because of love in the past, now he is doing the same thing to Shen Yuzhou, what is he trying to do?

He was extremely firm, and Shen Yuzhou's blazing lust just now seemed to have cooled most of it, with his head buried on the side of his neck, Shen Yuzhou's voice sounded a bit annoyed, "What should I do, so that you can forgive me."

Chen Ye felt that Shen Yuzhou still didn't understand what he meant: "I've already forgiven you, I said it a month ago."

Forgive me, but that's all. Shen Yuzhou was the first man he fell in love with, and also his first man. From now on, he will be different from each other. To Chen Ye, Shen Yuzhou is still a very special person.

That night, they didn't do anything in the end, and Shen Yuzhou slept with Chen Ye in his arms.Shen Yuzhou didn't fall asleep until midnight, and he didn't wake up early the next day. When he woke up, he was the only one in the room. Chen Ye left without Stanley.

Shen Yuzhou was afraid that he would leave again, and he would be caught off guard again. Therefore, when he returned to City C after the Spring Festival and saw Chen Ye again, he didn't dare to mention reunion.The first time we met after returning home was at Shen Yuzhou's company. The final review of the CI plan, Chen Ye also had a business-like attitude, open and generous, not cramped or awkward, just like what happened the night before the holiday in Switzerland, it didn't happen at all .

So Shen Yuzhou could only pretend that nothing happened, everything about that year had been spread out, Chen Ye still firmly refused to give him a chance, if he pursued him relentlessly and complained from his heart, that would be persecution, Shen Yuzhou's only way He really pretended to be an old friend. He admitted that he hadn't given up yet, but pretended to have given up.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with this, at least after they often "encounter", they can still have a meal together.Chen Ye didn't have to avoid him like a scourge.

Therefore, this "encounter" is about once a week.

In mid-February, Chen Ye went back to Shanghai and didn't see him that week. On Sunday, Shen Yuzhou packed his clothes and went to the tennis court to "loosen his muscles and bones".

Sure enough, Chen Ye was there, the two played two rounds, sat down to chat, and when it came to Chen Ye's return home, Shen Yuzhou thoughtfully asked, "How is the family?"

Chen Ye explained the reason why he came home, "My mother is fine, but... she gave birth to a son again, so it turned out that she went abroad to travel and get married not long ago."

Shen Yuzhou knew something about Chen Ye's family. From the mouth of one of his old classmates, that old classmate was naturally from the same town as Chen Ye, and the two families happened to know each other.An old classmate said that Chen Ye's father had a good family background, but his mother was the typical type who climbed the ladder and married a man to change the whole family's life.Then Gao Zhi climbed up, and her originally impoverished mother's family became prosperous because of her marriage to Chen Ye's father, and the woman's heart became alive.

Almost everyone who knew Chen Ye's family knew that Chen Ye's mother, Hong Xing, had cheated on her when Chen Ye was still young.Chen Ye's father is a good man. After the incident broke out, he chose not to divorce for the sake of his children, but he was not so used to his wife financially.Later, some accidents happened. When Chen Ye was in elementary school, his father had an accident, which injured his spine and made him paralyzed.Since then, Chen Ye's mother has taken over his family's business.

It is not difficult to start a business, there are all contacts, Chen Ye's father's family is a big family, brothers and sisters are officials, and businessmen are businessmen, the kind that hugs and squeezes upwards.But she grasped the real thing in her hand, and after making a mistake, the woman who had been a small fudao for several years completely changed her face, raised her eyebrows, and started flirting outside again.When it was the worst, it was said that she hung out with others, left the child and her paralyzed husband at home and ignored it for half a month, and things broke out. It wasn't until Chen Ye's uncle and aunt intervened that she became more honest.

With such a mother, Shen Yuzhou actually quite understands why Chen Ye's father put Chen Ye's inheritance aside before his death, and also understands why Chen Ye has always had a bad relationship with his mother.

Shen Yuzhou didn't speak for a long time, as if he could see what he was thinking, Chen Ye laughed, "I'm just such a mother, she can be considered a very advanced mother now, it's very dangerous, really." She didn't expect anything at home either. , others also know.

Shen Yuzhou looked at him for a long while, then thought of another thing, "I heard that you were going to get married before, why didn't you get married later?"

Chen Ye was startled: "Who did you hear that from?"

Of course it was still the same old classmate, Shen Yuzhou said: "It's just 2012, the end of the year."

Having said that, Chen Ye remembered that when his mother found out about his sexual orientation, she had to find a girl to bring him back. She really used all kinds of means to sell the weak, and he was only at that age. I didn't have any at 25, and I was annoyed by the troubles, but I really had a "girlfriend".Of course, that girl also knew that he was GAY, and the family was eager to let her marry in the same family because she had a true love who was not in the right family.

The two of them's strategy was to pretend that they were going to get married, and when the wedding was about to happen, they suddenly fell out. The adults in the family personally facilitated the matter and ended up like this, and they could be quiet for at least two years.

Chen Ye can hardly remember this matter until now, and explained everything to Shen Yuzhou, and mentioned Shen Yuzhou's old classmate, "He told you, right?"

Shen Yuzhou narrowed his eyes and looked at the cramped corner of the wall: "I asked him, and he just said a few words."

But that's not all, it was the third year after they broke up, when Shen Yuzhou was talking to that old classmate, when he mentioned the name Chen Ye again, he felt a little dazed.These two words are really like an old wound, he thought it had been healed, but only then did he realize that touching it would still make his heart twitch.

For some unknown reason, he went to Shanghai in December of that year.His car was parked in front of Chenye Company, and he kept watching people come out.Seeing him getting into the car arm in arm with a beautiful girl, Shen Yuzhou followed him all the way, and saw him get off the car and walk into a bridal dress shop with the girl affectionately.

Only then did Shen Yuzhou understand that Chen Ye's page was really about to be turned. In the gay circle, choosing to marry a woman is a taboo that cannot be touched, and that is the mainstream.

Therefore, Shen Yuzhou was surprised and happy to see Chen Ye again in City C. Even though Chen Ye was not with him, there was still a kind of joy of regaining what was lost.

He remained silent for a long time, Chen Ye smiled, "Just believe what he says, didn't he tell you how my marriage fell through later?"

Shen Yuzhou said, "He went abroad at the end of that year."

But Chen Ye's words are indeed correct, do you believe what people say?Even if he had already seen Chen Ye, he got out of the car and asked what's the matter, but he didn't at that time, in the end he couldn't face Chen Ye himself at that time.

It is also ironic that Chen Ye followed Zhuo Xu to City C in the spring of the following year.

In the blink of an eye in March, they met again at noon on the first Friday of March. Shen Yuzhou went to "do business" in the building where Chenye Company was located. They met at the elevator entrance. Two or 10 minutes later, the two sat together on the podium cafeteria.

Chen Ye should also be aware of it, and asked Shen Yuzhou while waiting for the dishes: "Did I mean to block your love? I mean, when I came out of the bathroom just now, I saw the person in the striped suit at the next table looking at you. Sit down, and people won't look here any more."

Chen Ye had a lot of leeway in his speech, but the extended meaning: Shen Yuzhou should find someone if he should, the boss is not young, don't waste time on him anymore.

In view of his previous record of trying to make Zhuo Xu give up on being with Stanley, Shen Yuzhou said, "I don't want to look for it right now."

Chen Ye just laughed.

Shen Yuzhou couldn't admit that he didn't want to find something to do with the person opposite, so he could only bite the bullet and say, "You also know my temperament, it's hard to care about other people's feelings, and if you don't adjust yourself and just find someone, isn't that another tragedy? "

Chen Ye immediately relieved: "Hey? You shouldn't say that about yourself." But thinking in her heart, these words really make sense.

It wasn't that he was malicious, he couldn't think of what kind of person could live comfortably with Shen Yuzhou.

In fact, when Chen Ye occasionally got dizzy, he also thought that if nothing happened to Zhuo Xu's family, they would definitely be together, and that would be his happiest life.Even if it is Stanley, if there is a fantasy plot, in the past, he let go of the horse, and Stanley's prodigal son turns around and keeps the stallion habit, and they can get together.

But only Shen Yuzhou, Chen Ye felt that according to the personalities of the two of them, any method, no matter how twisted the plot is, as long as the logic is normal, it seems that they can't go to perfection. This is simply an unsolvable problem.Even if the two of them are together and the days go by, if something happens to him, he doesn't believe that Shen Yuzhou can grow better than before.

Chen Ye made insinuations that day, and Shen Yuzhou hurriedly gave an answer, and then "encountered" later, Chen Ye really didn't mention it again, and the time went down, and then met a few times, Chen Ye didn't even say it was a coincidence , as if there was no doubt at all, and it meant to allow Shen Yuzhou to approach.

Of course Shen Yuzhou was happy in his heart, but besides being happy, he also had a faint feeling that Chen Ye's acquiescence was very abnormal, as if he was holding his breath and waiting for something.

On the last Sunday in March, Shen Yuzhou still went to the badminton hall to touch him.

This day is March 26, and one day later it will be Chen Ye's birthday, Shen Yuzhou casually mentioned, "How will you spend the day after tomorrow?"

Chen Ye seemed indifferent, "Let's talk about the day after tomorrow."

Shen Yuzhou said: "It's about to be three years ago. Let me tell you that the birthday mood will be different after three years. You should cherish it. Otherwise, call some friends and let's find a place to be lively?"

Chen Ye smiled and said, "Let's talk about it the day after tomorrow."

It was still ten o'clock in the morning, Chen Ye played a few balls and looked at his watch, looking a little restless.

Shen Yuzhou asked, "Is there something wrong?"

Chen Ye shook her head, "It's nothing."

Then, I didn't look at my watch again.

But after two rounds of ball games, Chen Ye didn't take a break. After wiping off his sweat, he put on his jacket and stuffed the towel into his bag, "I'm leaving first, how many more games do you want to find a partner?"

Shen Yuzhou said, "Okay."

But when Chen Ye left, Shen Yuzhou saw that his cell phone was still on the bench next to him, and muttered in his heart how absent-minded he was, and then, grabbing the phone, he chased Chen Ye outside.

He chased all the way to the door, and Chen Ye had already reached the side of the road, and he watched as Chen Ye reached out to stop a taxi.But Chen Ye came here by car, Shen Yuzhou always felt that something was wrong, got into the car immediately, and drove in the direction of the car in front.

At the red light intersection, he finally saw the car, biting his tail like this, Shen Yuzhou followed all the time.

The taxi stopped on a small road with residential buildings on both sides, but Chen Ye never got out of the car. Shen Yuzhou was able to confirm that he followed the wrong way, but the car didn't even lower the windows, and the windows were covered with sunscreen and were black. Jet black.

Shen Yuzhou slammed the car door and strode towards the car, but before taking a few steps, there was a noise coming from the alley next to him, and there was a "bang", colorful strips popped out of the fireworks tube, colorful and colorful At the entrance of the alley.Then some people filed out laughing and making noise.

During this burst of excitement, it was obviously a wedding reception, something flickered in Shen Yuzhou's mind, but he couldn't catch it for a while.

But he didn't need to think about it. Amidst the noise, the groom and the bride in white gauze were surrounded by the crowd and squeezed out from the alley.

Shen Yuzhou was stunned when he saw Qinglang's face flushed with joy.

He knew why Chen Ye took a taxi here, and he also knew what Chen Ye came to see.

Waiting for the group of people to walk out of the street, Shen Yuzhou took a few steps to the car that was still parked there, quietly like a dead animal, opened the door, grabbed Chen Ye's arm and dragged them out, "Follow me Walk."

Chen Ye got out of the car and staggered before standing still. Except for his pale face, there seemed to be nothing wrong.

Chen Ye also asked him in surprise: "Why are you here? Wait a minute, I didn't pay for the car."

Shen Yuzhou didn't speak, took out his wallet, pulled out a whole bill and stuffed it into the car window, dragging Chen Ye into his car all the time.

If he had known earlier, he wouldn't have let others come. He didn't know that Chen Ye was here to see Zhuo Xu's wedding.