childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

Chapter 13

For the rest of the journey, both of them remained relatively silent.Su Ran was because of Ji Jingyan's calm and indifferent attitude just now, while Ji Jingyan was because of the unwillingness that shouldn't have arisen in his heart just now.

He shouldn't intervene in Su Ran's love life, and he has no right to intervene.

He is just Su Ran's good brother, and he can only be a good brother.

The silence continued all the way to the door of the two of them. In the end, Su Ran didn't hold her breath, and said in a hoarse voice: "I'm going home first, you have a good rest."

The setting sun passed through the old windows, passed through the dark corridors, and enveloped the two of them warmly, with a little lingering tiredness.Su Ran looked at the warm young man standing in front of him, how much he wanted to embrace him, kiss his lips, and slowly tell him the emotion that he had hidden in the deepest part of his heart for 12 years, that dirty but beautiful Love.

Su Ran gradually clenched her fists, almost as if fleeing, unlocked the lock neatly, and leaned behind the door.It wasn't until I heard the sound of the door closing next door that my beating heart gradually calmed down.

In Su Ran's heart, Ji Jingyan is like a Pandora's box, every move, word and deed has a fatal attraction to him.Knowing that opening this magic box will hurt all the people who love him deeply, yet he can't help but look forward to the moment when he opens the magic box.

Every day he fantasizes about new hopes, but the reality mercilessly gives him despair again and again. This Pandora's box makes him hopeless and hopeless.

Gu Anyuan was sitting at the dining table, facing Deng Meijun with a loving face, she didn't care about Gu Anyuan's black face, she still asked with a smile: "Is this child your new friend? How is he? Give it a try some time!"

Gu Anyuan raised his eyes and said with a smile: "Why should I date him? I brought him home just to disgust you. I know you hate homosexuality, so there is no need for you to show such kindness." The appearance of people is really unappetizing."

Deng Meijun's face was embarrassed for a moment, and a stern look flashed in her eyes, but it was quickly replaced by guilt: "A Yuan, what happened to Mu Yan is all about my mother, I'm sorry for you, can you..."

With a "snap", Gu Anyuan slammed his chopsticks on the table, his usual calm voice was full of resentment: "Don't mention his name in front of me, it will only make me sick of you more!"

"Ayuan..."

Deng Meijun opened her mouth to say something, but Gu Anyuan didn't give her this chance at all: "You don't have to act in front of me anymore, no one knows what kind of person you are like me..."

After speaking, he stood up, took a deep look at her and turned to leave.

Deng Meijun's expression didn't change much, only the gradually clenched fists on her side revealed her inner unwillingness.

There are neatly arranged exercise books on the table, and there are blank physics exercises spread out in front of him. Ji Jingyan has been sitting in front of this desk in a daze for half an hour. His restless heart.

Since coming back from school, Ji Jingyan's head is full of Su Ran's eyes in the corridor, this is the first time he has not concealed the nostalgia in his eyes, nor concealed all his inner thoughts.

He and Su Ran are obviously only separated by a layer of window paper that is close to his eyes. As long as he breaks through and explains everything clearly, neither he nor Su Ran will feel so uncomfortable.But why, it is obviously a layer of window paper so thin that it is almost transparent, why is he reluctant to break it, and even chooses to escape?

He didn't want to see Su Ran's disappointed expression, nor did he want to see Su Ran flirting with other boys, or even start to escape his heart for him.It wasn't like this before, when did it start...

When Ji Jingyan kept looking for the root cause in his memory, Ji's mother's voice interrupted his train of thought: "Ji Jingyan, come out for dinner!"

Ji Jingyan responded, and had no choice but to let go of all worries in his heart and walk out of the room.

"A business trip to City A?" Ji's mother put down the bowl, looked up at Ji's father, with strong dissatisfaction in her tone, "Why are you going on a business trip again? You have only been back for a few days?"

Ji's father smiled, and kept comforting Ji's mother: "It was originally Su Ran's father's job, but you also know that his old lady is not in good health, and she is busy taking care of his old lady these days. Just help him temporarily." Then he turned his head to look at Ji Jingyan, his eyes were full of love: "I will retire in a few years, and Ji Jingyan will also go to college, so I will stay with you every day at home, you Just don't think I'm annoying."

Mother Ji snorted coldly, her tone was full of disdain, but her eyes were already full of sweetness: "I don't want you to accompany me every day, it's so annoying!"

Ji Jingyan looked at the parents who were chatting, although they were trivial things in daily life, but after the two of them said it, there was a sweet taste.

Perhaps, this kind of ordinary and warm life is the real happiness...

When Su Ran returned home, she simply explained to her parents where she was yesterday, and of course she would inevitably scold her.Su Ran's left ear goes in and the right ear goes out, but if she doesn't take it to heart, her head is full of scenes of running away in the corridor.

He really couldn't control his feelings. It didn't matter if he was called useless or useless, but he really couldn't control his heart.

Sometimes, falling in love with someone is just a momentary heartbeat, but falling in love with someone is a persistent obsession for more than ten years.

Su Ran knew very well in his heart that his love for Ji Jingyan was no longer an ordinary liking, but a painstaking love.

Not long after Ji Jingyan returned to the room after dinner, he received a call from Shen Tang.Shen Tang talked a lot with him, about the three years he and Su Ran had known each other, and about the good times the three of them had spent together.Ji Jingyan didn't speak during this period, but what couldn't get out of his mind was the 12 years he spent with Su Ran.

"Ji Jingyan, I know it's selfish to say this, but I still want to ask you, can the three of us go back to the past?" Shen Tang's voice was already a little crying, "I don't want to do this, I don't want the three of us to meet Farther……"

Ji Jingyan didn't say anything, he knew better than anyone else that once some things happened, no matter how they tried to restore them, it would be useless.

Just like the summer after the high school entrance examination, if he had been able to push Su Ran away instead of just immersing himself in his tenderness, then none of this would have happened.He is still the original Ji Jingyan, and Su Ran is still the original heartless Su Ran. It will not be like now, where everyone has a broken heart.

It took a long time for Ji Jingyan to regain his voice: "Shen Tang, no one wants the three of us to be together forever more than me. But you have to understand in your heart that once there is a feeling similar to love in a friendship, then this friendship will be destroyed. No longer pure, impure friendship will not last forever. Do you understand when I say this, Shen Tang?"

Shen Tang didn't speak, but the choked sound was clearly transmitted to Ji Jingyan's ears through the radio waves, he took a deep breath, and then said: "Shen Tang, you can ask your heart, you are really willing to be Su Ran's Friends? Can you really watch Su Ran marry and have children with other girls without changing your face, and can you bless their marriage with all your heart? "

"Su Ran won't get married and have children!" Shen Tang suddenly shouted, "He won't, he won't do this..."

Ji Jingyan was about to speak, but Shen Tang over there hung up the phone.

Ji Jingyan looked at his phone, but he still didn't call back.

Let each other calm down, maybe this is the only thing they can do now.

Su Ran lay on the bed, looking at the dark ceiling above his head, after tossing about for a whole day, now he can completely calm down and think about Ji Jingyan and Shen Tang.

It was through him that Ji Jingyan met Shen Tang. The two had known each other for less than two years, and Ji Jingyan's attitude towards Shen Tang was no different from that of ordinary friends. As for liking...no one knows liking someone better than him What kind of mood would it be? Even if you are a friend, but you see the person you like dangling in front of your eyes every day, you won't pretend to be nothing.

Thinking about it carefully, for such a long time, Ji Jingyan really only did what a friend should do, and he really didn't surpass Shen Tang.Thinking about it this way, either Ji Jingyan's feelings for Shen Tang are not as inextricable as he is for him, or Ji Jingyan is lying...

If it is the second situation, why would Ji Jingyan lie?

Early the next morning, when Su Ran was still struggling with the problem he was thinking about last night, the doorbell rang suddenly.Open the door, and there is Ji's father standing outside the door with a smile on his face: "Su Ran is awake? It just so happens that Uncle is going on a business trip today, and he will drive by your school, and I will see you off for a while. Ji Jingyan and I are waiting for you in the parking lot. You clean up." Come and find us!"

Papa Ji's assist was caught off guard, and Papa Ji disappeared at the door before Su Ran had the time to agree.

When Su Ran appeared in the underground parking lot, Ji Jingyan had already finished his breakfast in the car. Not surprisingly, after the two greeted each other, the car fell into a strange silence.

Father Ji seemed to have noticed the abnormality between the two of them. He turned the steering wheel and joked, "What's the matter? You two are at odds again?" After speaking, he chuckled lightly: "Two big men, why are you like a little girl?"

Ji Jingyan turned his head and glanced at Ji's father. Just as he was about to speak, Su Ran picked him up. His tone was the same as usual: "Uncle, don't worry, I have a very good relationship with Ji Jingyan, so there is no conflict! It's just me The two have just woken up and haven't woken up yet, so they don't want to talk."

"That's good," Ji's father said while driving: "When you two live to my age, you will understand that the most precious thing in a person's life is a good brother who can take care of his heart. I watched them grow up together. Although Su Ran called me uncle, I raised him as half my son. I know his character better than anyone else. Although his lips are a little slippery, he is absolutely reliable. Ji Jingyan Well, you look sensible, but you are still a child in your heart, I can rest assured that you two support each other together..."

Ji Jingyan didn't look back, but he could feel that Su Ran's gaze was always on him and never left.

Supporting each other doesn't mean we can really be together, Ji Jingyan knows this better than anyone else.

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