Actors

Chapter 16

Speaking of breaking up, Feng was actually not angry, as if he was used to seeing all this, he smiled lightly.

At that time, he was sitting on the bed in the hotel room. William had just had a good time with him, then got up and put on his clothes, and calmly said to him: "I'm getting married, and I won't see you again."

Feng sat in the shadow, with a vague expression, looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar man, he was not very angry, and there was a bit of bitterness and helplessness in his smile. William was not the first person to do this. It may not be the last one, but Feng can't help but believe in illusory love.

He always lives presumptuously, but he has inferiority complex deep down. He feels that he is dirty, lowly, and maybe not worthy of real happiness.But he still wanted to struggle, praying for someone to save him in the dark.

He occasionally sings at the bar with a hoarse voice. He is not a professional singer, but he sings to the heart of every lonely traveler.

He was wearing delicate makeup, bright clothes, and lowered his eyes, but the focus of his eyes was lost in the feasting and feasting late at night.

Later, William tried to get back together with Feng, but Feng still chose to believe him, because he loved him too deeply, and then accidentally heard the man say that he was just taking him for entertainment.

"Such a dirty little thing" - that's how he described Feng.

Being repeatedly betrayed by his lover made Feng feel really unbearable, but the last straw that bent him was his younger brother Alan.He loved Alan, and used all his hard-earned money to support him in school, and Alan, who was raised in a greenhouse and cultivated to be as delicate as a rose, after accidentally learning about his brother's job, because he didn't want to be with him. I can't lift my head in front of my classmates, and call him "dirty and filthy", and I want to sever ties with him.

After the collapse of faith one after another, no matter how strong people are, they will not be able to bear it. Coupled with the diagnosis list of cancer diagnosis, everything will be worse.

After that, Yuuri's scenes didn't have a lot of lines, so he needed to use subtle expressions and movements to express complex psychological struggles.

At the end of the story, Alan took the initiative to look for Feng after all. He was still young, and gradually realized that he was the one who was least qualified to condemn Feng, only to find that the person was already terribly ill.

He couldn't imagine how Feng was sick and persevered until now.

Feng was unable to dance a few days ago. The owner of the bar read acquaintance and gave him a large salary. He lived alone in a narrow and dark rental house, and the drugs used to anesthetize him were scattered all over the floor. .

Feng still insists on some habits that he would stick to before, such as makeup, such as writing a diary, even though he doesn't know many words, he always feels that if he doesn't do this, he will forget who he is.He doesn't want to face anyone with an ugly face, he is indeed dirty, but he also wants to try to be a swan in the garbage, not a maggot.

When William finally found him, Feng no longer had the strength to put on the once charming eyeliner on himself, and he showed the most plain face. If he hadn't become sallow and emaciated due to illness, William found that Feng was no different from an ordinary college student.

Sadness and regret came like a flood, and William knelt down on the other side's hospital bed. He knew that he was about to lose him, and he also knew that the person he loved the most was him.

Feng, who was drowsy, recognized William. In fact, he didn't want the other party to know that he loved beauty and was proud, and he didn't want the other party to see him like this.

He said that it is good to die of illness like this, he does not have to die of old age, he does not have to accept the fact that he has become ugly when he gets old, and he does not have to wear away his edges and corners in the long years, watching his once smart eyes gradually become dull .

William said, what do you say, I will save you, no matter how much it costs.

Feng looked at him and said, "Do you love me?"

"I love you." He said, paused, and asked with a choked voice: "Feng, do you... still love me?"

"You know, I love you..." He smiled, and his body seemed to be lightened, almost floating into the sky, "But now, I don't want you anymore."

After saying this, Feng closed his eyes, and lowered his bony and withered hands weakly.

He was finally freed from the boundless pain, whether it was in his life, in his loved ones, or in his body in pain, all the pain he experienced disappeared with the moment his heart stopped beating .

After being treated tenderly, the gentle man finally turned the harshest words into a dagger, stabbing William's heart forever.

He did it, at the last moment, a beautiful, noble and proud elf who walked in the night.

At the end of the film, Yuri sang a lyrical song. He seldom sang slow songs, and most of the time he sang rock and fast-paced songs. However, his voice was clear and transparent, and he sang slow songs a little casually. , with melancholy and sorrow unknown to others.

The audience didn't move in time, and after the theater lights were turned on again, Yuuri could vaguely hear the sobs of female audience members, but his heart didn't fluctuate, because many scenes were not so beautiful as they looked.

For example, he and Otabek had a hidden bed scene. At that time, both of them were naked, but there was a group of dark people watching outside the bed, and Sarah, who played the heroine, was still laughing in the dark, and she didn't feel passionate no matter how she thought about it.However, Otabek is very dedicated and doesn't show any embarrassment. Yuuri was a little uncomfortable at the beginning, but he didn't care so much after he got into the role.

But he took Otabek for Victor.

Victor next to him has been sitting still, Yuuri turned his head and said, "Victor?"

Victor looked at him, blinked lightly, and suddenly big teardrops rolled down his face, Yuuri had never seen Victor cry before, he panicked for a moment, and didn't know what to do good.

But he still couldn't help thinking wildly: Victor really deserves to be a great beauty, even the crying appearance is extremely beautiful.

Yuuri was in a hurry to find a tissue, but Victor held his wrist, "Yuuri, will you not want me?"

"Huh?" Yuuri was stunned for a moment, then guessed that the other party might have confused the characters in the movie with himself, so he smiled and said with certainty, "No."

Victor lowered his head like a child who has done something wrong, "If I do something wrong one day, will you forgive me?"

"It depends on what you did wrong." Yuuri deliberately showed a serious expression, "If you lie to me, then I will be very angry, and once angry, I may not necessarily forgive you."

Victor's heart skipped a beat, "Well, if it wasn't intentional, it's just... some small things..."

"It depends on what it is." Yuuri said, "I just hope that if one day you don't like me, please tell me frankly."

"Actually, I won't be angry at anything Victor does to me." He held Victor's hand, "But the only thing about loving me is that I hope Victor will not hold back."

Yuuri's tone was very flat, because he was wearing a mask, only a pair of eyes were exposed, but there was incomparable sincerity and firmness in those eyes, "If you are really, really tired, don't force yourself, and don't Lie to me, you confess to me, and I will quit..."

Victor couldn't help interrupting him softly: "And then?"

"Then?" Yuuri's eyes curved, and Viktor could feel him smiling, "Then I'll find a place where you can't see and miss you secretly, and like you until I don't like you anymore."

"Yuuri is so stupid." Victor rushed over and hugged him, "I don't want to let go, I want to be with Yuuri forever."

"Yuuri is mine!" Viktor said angrily, his voice still nasal.

Yuuri suddenly felt that Victor, who had a mature and elegant appearance, but looked like a child in front of him, was very cute, so he quickly hugged him back and said, "Well, I'm yours!"

"...Victor, mine too."

When they came out of the theater, the two began to discuss the movie they just watched. Yuuri asked Victor what he thought, and Victor said, "I've never seen Yuuri like this before. It's very fresh and attractive, and I'm impressed. I believe other viewers would feel the same way.”

"Why do you say this so much like a friend of mine?"

"Ok?"

"Oh, nothing, just a poet Amanda introduced me to."

Yuuri gave two movie tickets to Yuriko and his wife before, and he himself didn't take time to watch a movie with Victor until today because of his busy schedule.Later, Yuriko thanked him for the movie ticket, and briefly chatted with him, saying that she liked the movie very much.

Yuuri asked, "Does your wife like it?"

"Sorry, my wife is not free recently, so I had to watch it alone, and I plan to watch it with her again in the future." Yuriko said, "A good movie is worth watching more times."

Yuuri smiled, "Then thank you for your contribution to the box office."

Victor didn't ask Yuuri's friend in detail, but said: "That must be because everyone agrees, it proves that I am not the only one who thinks so."

"But I'm still jealous of that guy named Otabek." Victor pouted, "He can touch you."

"Isn't it a matter of course." Yuuri couldn't laugh or cry, "It's just a normal job, I've also filmed other kissing scenes before."

"It's different," Victor said anxiously, "The way you look at him is like falling in love, I...I'm super jealous."

Hear that Yuuri