Frozen love for seven years

Chapter 21

There was dead silence in Qiu Yinuo's room, the two of them froze in place and did not speak again, looking at Ni Mo with tears in his eyes and the almost pleading words just now, Qiu Yinuo's angina was severe, he hated himself for being cowardly and faceless For Ni Mo's courage, let alone telling the truth, the only thing he can do is to rush up and hold him tightly in his arms.Ni Mo actually didn't blame Qiu Yinuo, but was just worried that he was sick, or didn't like him, or was bored.But the feeling in his arms was the same as before, the familiar smell and reassuring embrace were even stronger than before.All doubts gradually receded.

"What's the matter these few days. You haven't answered me yet" Ni Mo asked in a low voice with some grievances and anger. Qiu Yinuo didn't rush to reply, but put his lips on Ni Mo's neck, He let out a heavy breath through his nose.

"It's nothing, just, there is something at home, too busy, so."

"Yinuo, what did you promise me?"

"I,,,"

"You said you would never lie to me, and you would never hide anything from me."

As Ni Mo said, he gently pushed Qiu Yinuo away, and the two looked at each other, and Qiu Yinuo unconsciously began to avoid Ni Mo's gaze.Ni Mo saw all this, and the uneasiness that had just dissipated gradually gathered again.

"I, my dad is going to send me abroad to go to school." After Qiu Yinuo finished speaking in a low voice with her head down, she hugged Ni Mo again, but this time she was pushed away heavily.Ni Mo only felt a buzzing in his head, this result was something he had never thought of these days, if Qiu Yinuo was sick, as long as he could stay by the bedside to take care of him, if Qiu Yinuo didn't love himself , he was willing to compromise and correct all the things he didn't like, but the world was far apart, Ni Mo really couldn't think of what he could do, after forcing himself to calm down, he squeezed out a smile and took Qiu Yinuo's hand.

"It would be great to go to a university abroad. You will be a sea turtle in the future. When will you leave and when will you come back..."

"Ni Mo, don't be like this. I know you're feeling uncomfortable. You can scold me. I really see how uncomfortable you are."

"I'm really fine. I'm just happy for you. Let me ask you. If the time is short, I will show mercy and wait for you. If it is too long, then I will find someone else."

"Don't talk nonsense, I,,, I will leave in these two days. I have to study there for preparatory studies. I will not be able to come back until I graduate from university at the earliest. But my mother, who has been abroad for many years, hopes that after I graduate able to stay and work abroad.”

"It turns out that everything has been arranged at home, and I'm leaving so soon, then, don't tell me, cough~~~~ I hope everything goes well for you." Ni Mo remained indifferent from the beginning to the end, But even Qiu Yinuo can understand what it feels like in his heart, but he can't bear to tell the truth, and he doesn't have the courage to look at Ni Mo pretending to be strong, as if someone is pricking his own with a needle. heart.

"Ni Mo, if you blame me, if you want to cry, you can do it. I'm sorry for you. I feel sad to see you like this." Hearing Qiu Yinuo's words, Ni Mo couldn't hold back her tears anymore, and roared hysterically.

"Sad? How sad can it be? Now you are leaving, it is you, you don't want me anymore, and you don't even tell me to leave. What are you going to do? Just disappear and let me wait endlessly??? I should be the one who is sad, right? You Qiu Yinuo, why should you be sad, I am just a poor boy who is tired of playing with you. "

"Ni Mo, what are you talking about?"

"What did I say? Lost my temper? I got it right. I'm really tired of being played by you. I keep saying that I like me, how is it now? I want to go abroad without saying a word? Do you think I really like you?" ? Every time you lie on top of me, it makes me feel sick. I don't like men at all. If it weren't for the fact that your family has a lot of money, do you think I would really like to sleep with you? Wake up!" Ni Mo still used He patted Qiu Yinuo's face lightly a few times, and walked out of Qiu Yinuo's room without looking back, until he walked out of the gate of Qiu's house, and no one chased after him.When I learned that I was going abroad, I couldn't tell Ni Mo, and I felt that I couldn't face him, afraid that the other party would be sad, and that tears would come out before I spoke. I hated my cowardice, and even told him everything. I didn't even have the courage, so I chose to avoid it.Qiu Yinuo in the room slumped on the bed with dull eyes, recalling what Ni Mo said just now in disbelief, unable to recover from it for a long time.After hearing Ni Mo's heavy closing sound, tears burst out of the bank. He rubbed his hair in despair and yelled loudly, venting the depression in his heart. It was not Ni Mo's words that made him suffer, because he firmly believed in Ni Mo's words. Mo is not such a person, it's not that he doesn't love himself, but that he loves too deeply. While Ni Mo said those words against his will, seeing the tears streaming out of his eyes, he still said those hurtful words, presumably Ni Mo I don't know how many times more uncomfortable than myself.For the first time, I felt that I was not good enough for Ni Mo, and I even thought that I shouldn't have approached him from the beginning. If it wasn't for me, Ni Mo would be happier than he is now.The heart that originally wanted to stay, was severely suppressed by myself.Based on such immature thoughts, two people who love each other think that the starting point is to consider each other, but they do things that hurt each other.

After Ni Mo walked out of Qiu's house, he wiped away his tears and held back no matter how much he wanted to cry. He was afraid that Qiu Yinuo would chase him out, and that if it was just a promise to keep him, all his previous efforts would be wasted.In the end, he slowed down unconsciously, still hoping for a miracle in his heart, telling himself that he decided not to leave and would stay with him forever.But all the vague fantasies completely returned to reality after I took the bus home.After arriving home, Ni Mo's emotions were written all over his face. Father Ni asked a few questions but didn't answer.

"Dad, please take a leave of absence for me, I want to rest for two days, I'm really a little bit,,"

"Okay, listen to you. Dad will call your head teacher in a while. If you have anything on your mind, tell Dad. Don't hold it in your heart alone."

"Dad, I'm really fine. I've been too tired recently, and my mind is in a mess. Just rest for two days. I won't miss my studies. I just don't want to go to school."

"Okay, you are a sensible child, Dad doesn't worry about your studies,"

Ni Mo went to bed early after dinner, and after calming down, he began to regret, thinking that he shouldn't be like this, even if Qiu Yinuo really didn't come back, at least he would see each other again when he was alive, and he denied himself in a flash, thinking that it was right to do so. Everyone is good. From the very beginning, he was not from the same world. The other party was born with a golden spoon in his mouth and lived in a villa. How about yourself?Born in a dilapidated dormitory building that may be demolished at any time, the family's source of income is the breakfast stall.Perhaps it is these gaps in reality that make the two people's life trajectories slowly separate. Even if Qiu Yinuo does not go abroad, there are various other problems, not to mention the social disapproval of this kind of relationship, as well as marriage and marriage. Family stress.If he could survive until then and watch Qiu Yinuo marry a woman, the damage would be hundreds or even thousands of times greater than it is now, so let's put an end here by myself.Randomly thinking about something and nothing, smelling the smell of Qiu Yinuo on the pillow from the past few days, Ni Mo fell asleep crying, and woke up crying again.It wasn't until noon the next day that I woke up to Father Ni's hasty knock on the door.I just felt a splitting headache and my eyes were swollen and dry.Ni Mo opened the door in a daze, and heard Father Ni bring a message that instantly woke him up.

"Xiaoqiu called just now, saying that he will be on a plane soon and wants you to go to school and live a good life. What's going on?"

"What else did he say?"

"No, I just said this, and the phone hung up, and the phone was turned off after I called."

"Bastard," Ni Mo scolded and hurried out. Father Ni yelled a few times behind him, but he didn't agree, and ran downstairs without looking back.Although he knew in his heart that the chance of seeing each other again was very slim, Ni Mo got on the bus to the airport without hesitation. Seeing the time passing by, his heart became more and more tormented. Even if it's just a back view from a distance, it's good to let myself see him.The car drove for nearly an hour before arriving at the airport. The moment the door opened, Ni Mo got out and ran into the terminal building. It is a huge place with all kinds of passengers. Where to find it? How to find it?I don't even know which flight he took, and I can't even be sure if he left or not.Just like that, he ran around like a headless chicken, stood outside the security checkpoint and looked in, but he still couldn't find that familiar figure.Ni Mo's gaze finally fell on the main service desk, and he ran over without thinking much.I simply explained my purpose of coming and hoped to find someone through the radio, but the staff said that according to relevant regulations and to protect the privacy of passengers, only the other party’s flight number and ID number can help if it is not an emergency. No matter how much Ni Mo begged, the service staff only said sorry.Desperate Ni Mo sat paralyzed on the ground, leaning against the service desk and staring at the ground with blank eyes, tears fell one by one, regretting what he said, regretting not being able to spend the last day with him, and spending the most precious time All used to torture each other.Ni Mo OS: "Yinuo, I miss you so much, it's because I'm too ignorant and extreme, I just hope that you can go without any worries and enjoy the life you should have, even if you don't have me in your future, I still hope you If I can be happy, I will wait for you, even if there is a one in ten thousand possibility, I will wait for you to come back." At the same time, a tall boy stood at the security checkpoint, with his arms open, he was undergoing the security check, turning his head from time to time Looking at the people coming and going in the terminal, I hope to see the person I want to see the most but dare not face at the last moment.After searching for nothing, after saying goodbye to his family, he walked slowly towards the boarding gate with guilt and reluctance, his mind was full of little things with Ni Mo.Qiu Yinuo OS: "Ni Mo, I know you are doing it for my own good. I am too cowardly. I can't give you a specific deadline. I'm afraid you will waste your life for me. I will guard you no matter where I am. As long as I can know that everything is fine with you, it is enough, if I can come back, I hope that at that moment, you still have me in your heart."

The end of a love will make us grow a lot overnight, and we will understand that those street corners we meet by chance are not because of a coincidence, but because we can't help ourselves to get close to you.He happened to appear at the moment when you needed help the most, not because of fate, but because of his long-term attention and companionship.When you are desperate for someone, and suddenly realize that someone else has done so for you, you can feel the difficulty, and you are really mature.

The person who truly loves you cannot say goodbye to you.Even though the body can no longer get closer, the heart has never left. Although the excuse for parting is so simple and hurtful, this unbeautified reality also proves from the side that this relationship is true, and there is no hurtful lie .For Ni Mo, Qiu Yinuo's departure was undoubtedly a disaster, but many years later, he was glad to have encountered this change, because Nirvana was coming, and a stronger self was about to be born. , a better relationship is waiting for me.

☆、Chapter 22