Strategies for Dormmates Falling Down

Chapter 35

It's hard to say goodbye when we meet, the spring breeze is weak and the flowers are gone.The winter vacation came as scheduled, and Su Xian returned home, bid farewell to school, teachers, classmates, and Cheng Fan for the time being.A costume drama is broadcast on the TV station, three episodes a day.The hero in the play looks a lot like Cheng Fan, and I don't know if it's Su Xian's illusion or it really is.This seems to be the reason why Su Xian has to watch this drama every day. Watching the male protagonist in the drama a few more times seems to relieve the pain of missing Cheng Fan.However, in less than ten days, the drama ended very quickly, as if the pain of parting was surging again.

Su Xian decided not to watch TV dramas anymore, but to read more books, or simply sleep.So, during those ten days or so, he always walked into the bedroom early and lay down on the bed.Turning on the bedside lamp, Su Xian took out a stack of books from his school bag, including Chinese, English, Chemistry, and Politics. He read one after another for a while, then simply turned off the bedside lamp, and then closed it. Eyelids.He imagined that he was actually on Cheng Fan's bed, and Cheng Fan was lying beside him, and he could even feel that Cheng Fan's hand was stroking his body.Soon, he fell asleep.In the dream, Cheng Fan really existed. Su Xian couldn't wait to rush to Cheng Fan, but Cheng Fan threw him on the bed when he didn't want to. Everything happened so naturally, but soon, Su Xian felt It was as if something was moving under my body.Impossible, why so fast, Su Xian realized something unusual, because under normal circumstances, Cheng Fan should be released first, and he should be released immediately after.Finally he couldn't hold back anymore, he woke up from the dream, and the urge to urinate came in a hurry.

I looked at the time, but it was only half an hour, and the flow of time in the dream was indeed different from reality.It's time to go to bed at this time, but Su Xian is more awake at this moment.He had no choice but to pick up one of the few books beside the bed again, squeezed his hands in his hands and read it for a while, but he felt drowsy, so he decisively turned off the light and prepared to sleep.When he was about to fall asleep, the dream just now appeared in his mind again, but the picture that appeared in his mind at this time seemed to be richer than before.Su Xian presumptuously added more exciting plots to the dream just now.Dreams come from thinking, and he has only one purpose in doing this, which is to hope that in this long night, there will be an uninterrupted good dream.But things often don't go as expected, and the more you want it to happen, it just hides far away.That night, except for a thrilling exam, Su Xian didn't dream of anyone.

In the examination room, there were still 5 minutes to hand in the paper, but at this moment, he was shocked to find that there was an entire side of the test paper empty for questions.There is no reason, it is impossible to miss a whole side of the topic and not do it!Su Xian was flustered, feeling like the sky was about to fall.After trying to calm himself down, Su Xian began to concentrate on the questions, but of course it was too late, the bell for handing in the papers rang, and the teacher began to collect the papers one by one.Su Xian seemed to feel that the devil was approaching him step by step.Finally, the devil's hand stretched out in front of him, and resolutely took away his examination paper.Su Xian glanced at the devil in despair, only to see the devil shook his head at him, and finally showed a slight smile, an evil smile.Su Xian rushed out of the examination room, looking hysterically for Cheng Fan, but Cheng Fan was nowhere to be seen, his world was gloomy, and tears welled up in his eyes.It was the tears that woke him up, and he opened his wet eyes, thankful that it was just a dream, and at the same time hating himself, why did he have such a dream to torture himself.The terrible dream, the desperate him, the feeling of going deep into it seemed to continue until he woke up.

Later, Su Xian clearly knew that it was just a dream, but he felt its reality more and more, as if this thing would happen sooner or later, maybe in the future of his life, or in the future. Happened in the previous life or the next life.Wiping away the tears from the corners of his eyes, Su Xian opened his eyes wide, trying to let his eyesight see through the darkness in front of him to find the light. Unfortunately, there was not even a gleam of light in the sky, but the night was fine, which made him believe that the dream just now Nothing really happens.Su Xian regained peace and solidity in his heart, he should go to sleep until dawn, but he no longer feels sleepy.He couldn't figure it out, why do people sleep?Why do you want to dream again when you are sleeping?Dreams are simply unreasonable and inexplicable. Sometimes they are real, and sometimes they are illusory, which is really confusing.

What time is it now? Su Xian wanted to check the time, but in a blink of an eye, he felt that it was not important.He was wondering what Cheng Fan would be doing at this time, but he didn't need to think about it to know what else he could be doing at this time besides sleeping.But Su Xian missed Cheng Fan at this time, knowing that that person was not thinking of him, but he still thought about that person unilaterally, Su Xian suddenly felt that he had suffered a big loss, so he tried to stop thinking about Cheng Fan .His thinking is extremely naive, as if if he thinks about Cheng Fan during the day, then Cheng Fan must also miss him.But there must be something to do, Su Xian decisively turned on the bedside lamp, and picked up those books again.Turning over the language books, he seemed to hear the poets of the Tang Dynasty chanting his longing for his friends in his hometown under the moonlight, and then he heard the poets of the Song Dynasty chanting the lonely life of falling flowers and withering.Opening the English book, he seemed to be in the cold night when the Titanic sank. Jack fell into the bottom of the sea and disappeared into the blurred vision of tears. Then Harry Potter waved his magic wand, and a dazzling light streaked across the quiet night sky.However, the final picture is always inseparable from that person. These poets and poets, as well as Jack and Harry Potter, all look like Cheng Fan.Su Xian closed his textbook, looked out the window, and saw the first light of dawn, which made his heart flutter.

Su Xian's hands seemed to suddenly lose control, and they swayed affectionately all over Su Xian's body.oh!Everything is so natural and appropriate.Su Xian seemed to have entered another world.Cheng Fan broke in, approached his bed, and lay down beside him.Oh, that's right, those were Cheng Fan's hands, and Su Xian could feel Cheng Fan's body temperature radiating to his surroundings.Those hands were not satisfied with separating fibers and cotton wadding, they unbuttoned Su Xian's chest one by one, they took off Su Xian's pajamas, took off Su Xian's pajama pants, and they swayed Su Xian contentedly The skin is smooth, tender and elastic.In this dreamlike world, Su Xian clearly felt that Cheng Fan was always there, and those hands were the best proof.Now, he was calmly in front of Cheng Fan, amidst the rapid breathing and trembling legs, Su Xian released the pleasure that Cheng Fan brought to him.The thrill of rushing away lasted for a few seconds, and this illusory world disappeared in a flash. Along with this world, Cheng Fan and his energetic spirit disappeared.Finally, with the hollowed out tired body and the enriched core of contentment, Su Xian suddenly felt drowsy.

The state at this time is just between half asleep and half awake, just like the entangled state in quantum mechanics, or the chaotic state in Newtonian mechanics.Sometimes, Su Xian would feel very remorseful, as if he had just done a nasty thing that emptied his conscience.He originally thought that this would eliminate his miss of Cheng Fan, but in fact it didn't work.Su Xian should have been very aware of this, because he knew that this longing was not loneliness but love.In this way, he regretted it even more. Even if this nasty thing could not be said to be completely free from conscience, it at least drove him from the age of human civilization to the age of primitive beasts living in caves.It didn't mean that animal nature is bad, Su Xian was just regretting that he shouldn't waste it alone, he hoped to share such animal time with Cheng Fan.

Thinking wildly like this, Su Xian seemed to feel the existence of time gossamer. He was no longer sure where he was, whether he was lying on a bed in a civilized society, or lying in a cave in a primitive society.Or, he seems to control the passage of time, the sun, the moon and the stars, every year.Then go back, go back to the moment when you first met Cheng Fan, or go back to the moment when you and Cheng Fan will never be separated. If there is such a time point in the future, Su Xian is willing Let the time before that whizz by.

However, when Su Xian regained consciousness again, he suddenly realized that the time had just flown overnight, and the thoughts that had been working desperately just now were futile against the passage of time, and there was still half a month before school started before we could see him again. To Cheng Fan.Thinking of this, his body was suddenly numb and unable to move, but his hands and feet were clearly there.He looked at the room he was in again, and was sure he was still at home. Although it was rare to go home once, this was the room where he slept and grew up after all. The desk, wardrobe, and stickers on the wall were full of blurred memories.But in the picture in my mind, the temporarily rented room where I slept with Cheng Fan was even clearer.Su Xian thought of this winter, in that room, when he was sleeping, he curled up into a ball, buried his head in Cheng Fan's chest, Cheng Fan's unique smell lingered around, he wanted to be one with Cheng Fan forever, inseparable .

Of course, Su was already very sober now, he turned over and prepared to get up, and then survive another damn day, a day without Cheng Fan.He spends most of his time getting out of this room, a room without Cheng Fan, until half a month later, he walks into another room, a room with Cheng Fan.Su Xian even believed that in the new semester, they could return to that two-person world again.However, he never expected that what was waiting for him was a new school regulation repeating the same old tune. All boarding students are not allowed to rent houses outside the school, and the school dormitories have been fully renovated.Waiting for him will be a small dormitory for 16 people. Although Cheng Fan is still there, there are [-] other light bulbs at the same time.

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